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張起靈把浸染了冬日寒氣的毛衣往上拉，毛茸茸的衣料擦過髮絲發出細微的電流聲，他從過長的衣袖中伸出手攏了攏散亂的頭髮，手機在這一刻響了起來。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhJLh0yKd3
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他赤著腳踏出寢室，白色磁磚地冷得刺骨，像踩著一片荒蕪的冰原，那種觸感從四肢百骸襲捲而來，無法抵禦的漆黑與絕望蔓延于心。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsPaLpz5HR
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吳邪抱著一個紙箱，天空下著小雨，他騰不出手來撐傘。路上行人來去匆匆，雨點希哩嘩啦打在臉上。他快步走過狼藉的大街小巷，小心摸索著上了狹窄的階梯，靠著牆空出一隻手在衣兜裡掏了掏，終於摸出一串鑰匙。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3MYjTBfh4
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房裡隱隱約約只看得出傢俱的輪廓，他按了牆上的開關，暗黃色的小燈照亮客廳一角。吳邪打開箱子拿出一個魚缸放到五斗櫃上，木製的櫃子有深深淺淺的刻痕，燈孔裡的光像蜜一樣流洩而下，照著玻璃透出金燦燦的顏色。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBrdMXeYUs
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吳邪脫了外衣，在浴室鏡子裡看到自己蒼白的臉，他拿了毛巾擦乾臉上的水珠，沖了把水再擦一次，冰冷的觸感讓皮膚刺痛得都要裂開了。他從身旁的小圓窗往外看，被雨幕籠罩的世界是無邊無際的黑。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiLgPmU3Mp
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睡衣起了小毛球，貼在身上的感覺依舊溫暖舒適。吳邪繞過床緣躺到空著的另一側，張起靈曲著身子動也不動，大概睡得很沉了。吳邪拉過被單把自己整個人裹住，仰躺了一會兒又往一旁靠了靠，最後整個人側著貼到張起靈背上。手臂勾著腰，他的眼睛明亮而濕潤，呼出的氣都打在張起靈身上。身前的人轉過來摟住他，熟悉的氣息和抵在臉上的溫熱的觸感。吳邪閉上眼睛，眼前卻一再出現同一個人的臉。他恍惚覺得又回到他們剛在一起的時光，好像永遠都不會分離。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6tBowXNju
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後來張起靈把吳邪帶回來的東西放在窗台上，冬日微弱的晨光從窗簾透出來，映著在水面積聚的泡泡油亮亮一層。魚缸底下一層白砂，沉著幾個貝殼和玩具小屋，裡頭種植的水草像幽靈一樣隨著水流漂來漂去，長著亮紅鱗片的小東西拖著散開的尾鰭在水中浮浮沉沉。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBhiW3wWOm
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吳邪病得厲害的時候咳得撕心裂肺，張起靈在他拆藥片時遞給他一只杯子，氤氳的熱氣盤旋而上。吳邪鼓動嗓子將色彩繽紛的藥丸吞下肚，一陣一陣的熱流直往胃裡沖，他放下杯子，喉嚨卻還是乾得厲害，他咂咂嘴，拉開抽屜取出一個罐子，掏了把巧克力米往嘴裡丟。張起靈同他一起靠在牆邊，伸出手揉了揉他毛亂的頭髮。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4d041JhNo
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有時他們擠在廚房裡搗弄一條魚或是一鍋湯，有時一起去外頭吃飯，有時到胖子家和其他人聚聚。吳邪圍著圍巾拎著兩袋東西從超商走出來，張起靈的車就停在對街，他穿過斑馬線走過來很自然的接過其中一袋。張起靈穿著深灰色的毛呢大衣，整個人融在冬末呼呼作響的風裡。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39YwG4n8qJ
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開門的人是解雨臣，還有黑眼鏡也在，胖子和潘子一如既往的吵了起來。房裡開了空調，暖和得讓人起了層薄汗。吳邪脫了身上一堆掛件只穿著圓領衫在屋裡走來走去。他們一群人開了酒，吃食擺了滿滿一桌，解子揚也來了，擠到胖子邊上一個小到不能再小的位置上。張起靈坐在另一頭拿著叉子看吳邪傾過身去和他的發小說話，人聲太吵雜了，他聽不見他們究竟說了些什麼。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEKlNGybTp
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朦朧的影像就定隔在清晰的記憶中。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVL1hv9YfH
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吳邪一手撐著窗台的邊緣，一手拿著飼料罐輕輕晃動，不斷落下的小屑片掉到水面，魚群在底下一點一點的啄食，有些泡軟的飼料沉到水底。吳邪蹲下身，歪過頭看橘黃色的吉米蝦走來撿食。他目光渙散的盯了好一會兒，漸漸聚焦到魚缸另一側，自己手背上那些被水折射放大的、點滴遺留下的針孔。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsF7L8r4tL
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張起靈推搡著吳邪將他壓在衣櫃門上親吻，濕潤的嘴唇糾纏在一塊兒，他伸手摟住吳邪，感覺到對方也開始掐他的腰。張起靈伸出舌頭在他的口腔裡舔過一圈，右手已經從衣服下擺竄了進去，從腰腹一路摸索，很輕很慢的逐漸往上，在乳頭周圍搔癢般用指腹劃著圓，嘴唇馬上被咬了一下。吳邪挺了挺胸靠上去，撐開手掌直接貼到張起靈跨下，鼓鼓脹脹的一包。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjwxeFgj9I
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粗糙的觸感擦過乳頭時吳邪忍不住哼了聲，張起靈抵著那個凸起的小圓柱上上下下的撥弄，舌頭還不斷舔著他的臉，他感到內褲被從裡面頂了起來，緊繃得難受。張起靈把手從衣服裡抽出來，脫了自己的衣服再去脫吳邪的。很快兩人都脫得只剩條內褲，沒開暖氣的房裡冷得讓人顫抖，張起靈拉著吳邪坐到床邊，兩人摟在一起又親了一會兒。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbfDUyxLPH
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吳邪岔開雙腿坐著，雙手撐在床上，喘氣一般的呻吟從喉嚨裡溢出了出來。張起靈握著他脹熱的陰莖幫他口交，沿著莖身舔到滲著液體的頂端，唅著頭部吸允時還用手擼動露在外頭的地方。吳邪爽得大腿內側都繃了起來，他伸手按住張起靈的頭頂，腰忍不住動了動。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRqswMKzyp
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擴張的過程緩慢卻急躁，吳邪弓著身子跪在床上，感覺兩隻塗了潤滑劑的手指在裡頭搔弄。張起靈彎了一下指節，他忍不住叫出聲，內壁緊縮起來，兩條腿合起來又鬆開。吳邪頭抵著手臂，低下頭看張起靈撤出手握著自己的陰莖靠了上來，濕潤的頂端在洞口滑動幾下，就著潤滑劑很順利的頂了進去。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk90QZ11wUg
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充實、鼓脹、混雜著快感和疼痛一瞬間湧了上來，吳邪雙手抓著床單，臉埋在枕頭裡，張起靈慢慢的頂到最裡面，他都可以感受到那種被撐開的難以言喻的感覺。張起靈完全進去後後停了停，臉靠在吳邪背上摩娑，隨後很輕的吻了下，雙手把著他的腰開始動了起來。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5A6fODJn0
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他一動吳邪就壓抑不住，張口喊了出來，指在小腹上的陰莖又熱又漲。張起靈一手摸到他臀上揉捏他，又快速動了幾下，擦著前列腺一次又一次往裡面頂。吳邪忍不住伸手擼了擼自己滲著液體的陰莖，張起靈又靠了上來，貼在他身上幫他一起手淫。他的手覆在他的手背上，溫溫熱熱的觸感還有細密的汗珠，吳邪呻吟著射了出來。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkzYX3BCH0
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他射完就沒力氣了，任憑張起靈一手精液都抹在自己背上。肚子裡一陣翻湧的鼓脹感，他知道他是射在裡面。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDf6oSGTq3G
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張起靈退了出去，踩著拖鞋到浴室。吳邪趴在床上，被單毛茸茸的觸感搔著他的鼻尖，他無法抑制的咳了幾聲，越咳越激烈，整個人都蜷曲了起來。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTeE2WOog5
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張起靈在洗手台前擰毛巾，溫熱的水從指間裡不斷流去，他把濡濕的布料在水龍頭底下反覆搓了幾次，旋轉擰乾放到一旁，潮濕的雙手隨意在褲子上蹭了蹭。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINsiX1ibFM
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他抬頭看了看鏡中自己微紅的眼睛，伸手拿起一根掉落在下眼瞼上的睫毛又揉了揉雙眼，手掌溫熱的感覺印在臉上，他停了停，雙手依舊蓋著眼簾，眼前卻清晰浮現吳邪骨節分明的背脊還有凸出胸膛的肋骨。冰冷的眼淚沿著掌紋流了下來。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2MPinZc6M
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張起靈在貨架上挑東西，一個一個拿下來仔細端詳又小心翼翼的放回去。白熾燈從天花板上打下來，走道裡瀰漫著一股潮濕的氣味，一格一格的展示櫃裡飄浮著不同種類的魚，沒有眼瞼的雙眼透過玻璃看著水箱外歪斜扭曲的他。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWit2byq4R0
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街道樹光禿禿的，抬頭就可以以看到被枝椏切成一塊一塊的天空，張起靈拎著一個巨大的袋子，裡頭裝著紙箱。他不知不覺走向他和吳邪常去的那家餐館，下午時分沒什麼用餐的人，櫃台飄著濃醇的咖啡味，張起靈點了兩杯曼特寧，想了想又把其中一杯改成熱可可。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPW2MiPvhr
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張起靈曾在國外待過，在那些雪能堆積到人們腳踝高度的地方，他們用德語交談，喝紅葡萄酒，餐桌上永遠有黑橄欖和炸魚條，偶爾有烤成金黃色的馬鈴薯和塗了奶油的玉米。小鎮的北方有被雪覆蓋的森林，能看到毛蓬鬆成一團的狐狸或是結伴的狼。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQ45fEUNme
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德國的小鎮裡有條河，從橋上往下看的時候，結冰的河水光滑的像面鏡子，有時有孩子或是青少年對著河丟石頭，破開的冰面像蜘蛛網，一片一片碎裂開來。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8g1R47UbUl
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而現在他和吳邪住的小鎮上也有一條河，冬季的河面不像以往那麼高，細細的水流過凸出河床的石頭。他們搬來這個鎮上後從沒見它乾枯過。不論時間季節，蜿蜒的河水周而復始，好像會就這麼地老天荒。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4kuHdqY5U
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張起靈站在門前掏鑰匙，一手捧著兩杯熱飲的動作有些笨拙，他開了門，拿起放在地上的袋子側著身擠進門縫裡。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqgE7F4kQd
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客廳的沙發上攤著一條毛毯，軟軟的半垂到地上。張起靈把咖啡和熱可可放到桌上，從紙袋裡拿出紙箱，拆封，小心翼翼捧出新的魚缸，圓形圓底、波浪狀的開口上了一層淡藍色。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhZKOKF3Tm
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他走往屋內，卻在窗台前看到碎了一地的玻璃，細細的白沙灑了出來，水草軟軟的貼著，水流了半個地板，金魚橫屍在各個角落，整個世界開滿一片鮮紅的花。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmOLaubAJ3
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張起靈把浸染了冬日寒氣的毛衣往上拉，毛茸茸的衣料擦過髮絲發出細細的電流聲，他從過長的衣袖中伸出手攏了攏散亂的頭髮，手機在這一刻響了起來。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaq5JinAlZr
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他赤著腳踏出寢室，白色的磁磚地冷得刺骨，像踩著一片荒蕪的冰原。他拿起在桌上不斷震動的手機放到耳邊，聽著裡頭的人喂了幾句，他不作聲，電話也就斷了。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UT1sV2rwG
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他把手機反面朝下放回桌上，桌布裡他和吳邪的臉逐漸黯淡下去。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfhht7G5kc
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有些晚上張起靈獨自坐在床上，沒有光源的房裡黑暗無邊無際，無法抵禦的寒涼與絕望蔓延于心，他的孤獨不安焦慮厭倦慢慢化成疲憊。在夢裡他和吳邪一起待在大學的寢室裡，高度正對路燈，夜晚不拉上窗簾柔和的燈光便流淌整個寢室。吳邪躺在外邊，隨著他翻身的動作臉上明明滅滅，一塊一塊的昏黃。張起靈聽著他叨叨絮絮講著些碎言碎語，他們肩併肩靠著，兩人的髮絲糾纏在一起，好像永遠都不會分離。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡod7ouA0Rza
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張起靈把浸染了冬日寒氣的毛衣往上拉，毛茸茸的衣料擦過髮絲發出細微的電流聲，他從過長的衣袖中伸出手攏了攏散亂的頭髮，手機在這一刻響了起來。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhJLh0yKd3
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他赤著腳踏出寢室，白色磁磚地冷得刺骨，像踩著一片荒蕪的冰原，那種觸感從四肢百骸襲捲而來，無法抵禦的漆黑與絕望蔓延于心。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsPaLpz5HR
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吳邪抱著一個紙箱，天空下著小雨，他騰不出手來撐傘。路上行人來去匆匆，雨點希哩嘩啦打在臉上。他快步走過狼藉的大街小巷，小心摸索著上了狹窄的階梯，靠著牆空出一隻手在衣兜裡掏了掏，終於摸出一串鑰匙。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3MYjTBfh4
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房裡隱隱約約只看得出傢俱的輪廓，他按了牆上的開關，暗黃色的小燈照亮客廳一角。吳邪打開箱子拿出一個魚缸放到五斗櫃上，木製的櫃子有深深淺淺的刻痕，燈孔裡的光像蜜一樣流洩而下，照著玻璃透出金燦燦的顏色。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBrdMXeYUs
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吳邪脫了外衣，在浴室鏡子裡看到自己蒼白的臉，他拿了毛巾擦乾臉上的水珠，沖了把水再擦一次，冰冷的觸感讓皮膚刺痛得都要裂開了。他從身旁的小圓窗往外看，被雨幕籠罩的世界是無邊無際的黑。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiLgPmU3Mp
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睡衣起了小毛球，貼在身上的感覺依舊溫暖舒適。吳邪繞過床緣躺到空著的另一側，張起靈曲著身子動也不動，大概睡得很沉了。吳邪拉過被單把自己整個人裹住，仰躺了一會兒又往一旁靠了靠，最後整個人側著貼到張起靈背上。手臂勾著腰，他的眼睛明亮而濕潤，呼出的氣都打在張起靈身上。身前的人轉過來摟住他，熟悉的氣息和抵在臉上的溫熱的觸感。吳邪閉上眼睛，眼前卻一再出現同一個人的臉。他恍惚覺得又回到他們剛在一起的時光，好像永遠都不會分離。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6tBowXNju
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後來張起靈把吳邪帶回來的東西放在窗台上，冬日微弱的晨光從窗簾透出來，映著在水面積聚的泡泡油亮亮一層。魚缸底下一層白砂，沉著幾個貝殼和玩具小屋，裡頭種植的水草像幽靈一樣隨著水流漂來漂去，長著亮紅鱗片的小東西拖著散開的尾鰭在水中浮浮沉沉。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBhiW3wWOm
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吳邪病得厲害的時候咳得撕心裂肺，張起靈在他拆藥片時遞給他一只杯子，氤氳的熱氣盤旋而上。吳邪鼓動嗓子將色彩繽紛的藥丸吞下肚，一陣一陣的熱流直往胃裡沖，他放下杯子，喉嚨卻還是乾得厲害，他咂咂嘴，拉開抽屜取出一個罐子，掏了把巧克力米往嘴裡丟。張起靈同他一起靠在牆邊，伸出手揉了揉他毛亂的頭髮。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4d041JhNo
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有時他們擠在廚房裡搗弄一條魚或是一鍋湯，有時一起去外頭吃飯，有時到胖子家和其他人聚聚。吳邪圍著圍巾拎著兩袋東西從超商走出來，張起靈的車就停在對街，他穿過斑馬線走過來很自然的接過其中一袋。張起靈穿著深灰色的毛呢大衣，整個人融在冬末呼呼作響的風裡。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39YwG4n8qJ
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開門的人是解雨臣，還有黑眼鏡也在，胖子和潘子一如既往的吵了起來。房裡開了空調，暖和得讓人起了層薄汗。吳邪脫了身上一堆掛件只穿著圓領衫在屋裡走來走去。他們一群人開了酒，吃食擺了滿滿一桌，解子揚也來了，擠到胖子邊上一個小到不能再小的位置上。張起靈坐在另一頭拿著叉子看吳邪傾過身去和他的發小說話，人聲太吵雜了，他聽不見他們究竟說了些什麼。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEKlNGybTp
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朦朧的影像就定隔在清晰的記憶中。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVL1hv9YfH
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吳邪一手撐著窗台的邊緣，一手拿著飼料罐輕輕晃動，不斷落下的小屑片掉到水面，魚群在底下一點一點的啄食，有些泡軟的飼料沉到水底。吳邪蹲下身，歪過頭看橘黃色的吉米蝦走來撿食。他目光渙散的盯了好一會兒，漸漸聚焦到魚缸另一側，自己手背上那些被水折射放大的、點滴遺留下的針孔。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsF7L8r4tL
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張起靈推搡著吳邪將他壓在衣櫃門上親吻，濕潤的嘴唇糾纏在一塊兒，他伸手摟住吳邪，感覺到對方也開始掐他的腰。張起靈伸出舌頭在他的口腔裡舔過一圈，右手已經從衣服下擺竄了進去，從腰腹一路摸索，很輕很慢的逐漸往上，在乳頭周圍搔癢般用指腹劃著圓，嘴唇馬上被咬了一下。吳邪挺了挺胸靠上去，撐開手掌直接貼到張起靈跨下，鼓鼓脹脹的一包。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjwxeFgj9I
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粗糙的觸感擦過乳頭時吳邪忍不住哼了聲，張起靈抵著那個凸起的小圓柱上上下下的撥弄，舌頭還不斷舔著他的臉，他感到內褲被從裡面頂了起來，緊繃得難受。張起靈把手從衣服裡抽出來，脫了自己的衣服再去脫吳邪的。很快兩人都脫得只剩條內褲，沒開暖氣的房裡冷得讓人顫抖，張起靈拉著吳邪坐到床邊，兩人摟在一起又親了一會兒。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbfDUyxLPH
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吳邪岔開雙腿坐著，雙手撐在床上，喘氣一般的呻吟從喉嚨裡溢出了出來。張起靈握著他脹熱的陰莖幫他口交，沿著莖身舔到滲著液體的頂端，唅著頭部吸允時還用手擼動露在外頭的地方。吳邪爽得大腿內側都繃了起來，他伸手按住張起靈的頭頂，腰忍不住動了動。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRqswMKzyp
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擴張的過程緩慢卻急躁，吳邪弓著身子跪在床上，感覺兩隻塗了潤滑劑的手指在裡頭搔弄。張起靈彎了一下指節，他忍不住叫出聲，內壁緊縮起來，兩條腿合起來又鬆開。吳邪頭抵著手臂，低下頭看張起靈撤出手握著自己的陰莖靠了上來，濕潤的頂端在洞口滑動幾下，就著潤滑劑很順利的頂了進去。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk90QZ11wUg
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充實、鼓脹、混雜著快感和疼痛一瞬間湧了上來，吳邪雙手抓著床單，臉埋在枕頭裡，張起靈慢慢的頂到最裡面，他都可以感受到那種被撐開的難以言喻的感覺。張起靈完全進去後後停了停，臉靠在吳邪背上摩娑，隨後很輕的吻了下，雙手把著他的腰開始動了起來。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5A6fODJn0
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他一動吳邪就壓抑不住，張口喊了出來，指在小腹上的陰莖又熱又漲。張起靈一手摸到他臀上揉捏他，又快速動了幾下，擦著前列腺一次又一次往裡面頂。吳邪忍不住伸手擼了擼自己滲著液體的陰莖，張起靈又靠了上來，貼在他身上幫他一起手淫。他的手覆在他的手背上，溫溫熱熱的觸感還有細密的汗珠，吳邪呻吟著射了出來。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkzYX3BCH0
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他射完就沒力氣了，任憑張起靈一手精液都抹在自己背上。肚子裡一陣翻湧的鼓脹感，他知道他是射在裡面。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDf6oSGTq3G
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張起靈退了出去，踩著拖鞋到浴室。吳邪趴在床上，被單毛茸茸的觸感搔著他的鼻尖，他無法抑制的咳了幾聲，越咳越激烈，整個人都蜷曲了起來。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTeE2WOog5
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張起靈在洗手台前擰毛巾，溫熱的水從指間裡不斷流去，他把濡濕的布料在水龍頭底下反覆搓了幾次，旋轉擰乾放到一旁，潮濕的雙手隨意在褲子上蹭了蹭。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINsiX1ibFM
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他抬頭看了看鏡中自己微紅的眼睛，伸手拿起一根掉落在下眼瞼上的睫毛又揉了揉雙眼，手掌溫熱的感覺印在臉上，他停了停，雙手依舊蓋著眼簾，眼前卻清晰浮現吳邪骨節分明的背脊還有凸出胸膛的肋骨。冰冷的眼淚沿著掌紋流了下來。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2MPinZc6M
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張起靈在貨架上挑東西，一個一個拿下來仔細端詳又小心翼翼的放回去。白熾燈從天花板上打下來，走道裡瀰漫著一股潮濕的氣味，一格一格的展示櫃裡飄浮著不同種類的魚，沒有眼瞼的雙眼透過玻璃看著水箱外歪斜扭曲的他。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWit2byq4R0
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街道樹光禿禿的，抬頭就可以以看到被枝椏切成一塊一塊的天空，張起靈拎著一個巨大的袋子，裡頭裝著紙箱。他不知不覺走向他和吳邪常去的那家餐館，下午時分沒什麼用餐的人，櫃台飄著濃醇的咖啡味，張起靈點了兩杯曼特寧，想了想又把其中一杯改成熱可可。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPW2MiPvhr
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張起靈曾在國外待過，在那些雪能堆積到人們腳踝高度的地方，他們用德語交談，喝紅葡萄酒，餐桌上永遠有黑橄欖和炸魚條，偶爾有烤成金黃色的馬鈴薯和塗了奶油的玉米。小鎮的北方有被雪覆蓋的森林，能看到毛蓬鬆成一團的狐狸或是結伴的狼。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQ45fEUNme
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德國的小鎮裡有條河，從橋上往下看的時候，結冰的河水光滑的像面鏡子，有時有孩子或是青少年對著河丟石頭，破開的冰面像蜘蛛網，一片一片碎裂開來。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8g1R47UbUl
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而現在他和吳邪住的小鎮上也有一條河，冬季的河面不像以往那麼高，細細的水流過凸出河床的石頭。他們搬來這個鎮上後從沒見它乾枯過。不論時間季節，蜿蜒的河水周而復始，好像會就這麼地老天荒。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4kuHdqY5U
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張起靈站在門前掏鑰匙，一手捧著兩杯熱飲的動作有些笨拙，他開了門，拿起放在地上的袋子側著身擠進門縫裡。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqgE7F4kQd
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客廳的沙發上攤著一條毛毯，軟軟的半垂到地上。張起靈把咖啡和熱可可放到桌上，從紙袋裡拿出紙箱，拆封，小心翼翼捧出新的魚缸，圓形圓底、波浪狀的開口上了一層淡藍色。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhZKOKF3Tm
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他走往屋內，卻在窗台前看到碎了一地的玻璃，細細的白沙灑了出來，水草軟軟的貼著，水流了半個地板，金魚橫屍在各個角落，整個世界開滿一片鮮紅的花。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmOLaubAJ3
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張起靈把浸染了冬日寒氣的毛衣往上拉，毛茸茸的衣料擦過髮絲發出細細的電流聲，他從過長的衣袖中伸出手攏了攏散亂的頭髮，手機在這一刻響了起來。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaq5JinAlZr
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他赤著腳踏出寢室，白色的磁磚地冷得刺骨，像踩著一片荒蕪的冰原。他拿起在桌上不斷震動的手機放到耳邊，聽著裡頭的人喂了幾句，他不作聲，電話也就斷了。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UT1sV2rwG
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他把手機反面朝下放回桌上，桌布裡他和吳邪的臉逐漸黯淡下去。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfhht7G5kc
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有些晚上張起靈獨自坐在床上，沒有光源的房裡黑暗無邊無際，無法抵禦的寒涼與絕望蔓延于心，他的孤獨不安焦慮厭倦慢慢化成疲憊。在夢裡他和吳邪一起待在大學的寢室裡，高度正對路燈，夜晚不拉上窗簾柔和的燈光便流淌整個寢室。吳邪躺在外邊，隨著他翻身的動作臉上明明滅滅，一塊一塊的昏黃。張起靈聽著他叨叨絮絮講著些碎言碎語，他們肩併肩靠著，兩人的髮絲糾纏在一起，好像永遠都不會分離。5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡod7ouA0Rza
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