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(本來是想要等學長篇完再寫,可是不知道要等到哪時……)9Please respect copyright.PENANAmtBaBtCltX
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總之我想寫這篇想很久了了了!(被巴掉9Please respect copyright.PENANAGi2RIjdNzy
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好吧,一樣閱讀前提醒,我不知道後記這種東西大家有沒有興趣看,反正這會是寫到我的思想、一些關於寫這篇文的來龍去脈、過程……等,至於有沒有料可看,蠻正經(?)的沒有搞笑……看人囉?9Please respect copyright.PENANAMTHI88Cyt0
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想興趣的就往下拉吧~會很長XDDD9Please respect copyright.PENANAHiJ7gjjqYK
然後多少會提到我在學長篇裡想寫的東西(學長的想法)。9Please respect copyright.PENANAnTj4x4jblN
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很早之前就想寫這種文了,關於學長與漾漾生命差距的、關於我希望他們一直都在一起直到最後。9Please respect copyright.PENANAMDQzCS6qFU
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相信看特傳的人都知道樣漾與學長因為種族不同的關係,生命常度差距非常的大,漾漾最多不過百年,而學長……是幾千萬年──要說一下的是這點不是我掰的,這在護玄大的帝王蟹本裡面有提到XD他說,精靈會活上上千萬年,我是不知道獸王族可以活多久,不過即使是零,幾千萬年除以二也還是幾千萬年啊!9Please respect copyright.PENANAXaVoAqi2wS
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而我一直都很喜歡他們,甚至半認真的說冰漾是我的信仰XD而在我的理想世界裡,一份愛情也是能夠一生一世只愛一個人直到永遠,甚至是來世都會再次相遇、相戀。9Please respect copyright.PENANAgsBuv8QbFu
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也許聽起來太浪漫了,不過即使是微乎極微,但只要有這機率,我相信學長和漾漾會的!就說冰漾是我的信仰了XDDDD9Please respect copyright.PENANAjkPghraY4m
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所以那麼,學長不就很……可憐?9Please respect copyright.PENANAlbWZsndXUa
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如果愛一個人,我想即使多活幾千萬年,早已不在身邊的那人還是會留在心底,時時牽掛、時時想起、時時……9Please respect copyright.PENANAgikb1kaKH6
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也許那個曾經笑臉已經模糊,可是心裡面那種悸動的感覺、曾經鮮明的一切都會繼續轉化成一種淡淡痛楚,不可磨滅。9Please respect copyright.PENANATFBujlOK5e
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還是可以活著,也許剛失去的那一段時間會痛苦的想要死掉,但是一樣可以活著,然後心就此缺了一角,就像是隨的那人的死亡一起死去。9Please respect copyright.PENANA6TTOHzjuKv
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說起來,很多冰漾派的作家也碰了這一塊,他們都去描述了這件事,不管是如原文中設定應該是最後漾漾還是活了大約一百歲就離開,還是找了什麼方法讓他一直活下去、也有轉世還是沒下文純討論、約定的。9Please respect copyright.PENANAPNUcsefDlY
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因為沒時間、胃口也不好伺候的關係其實我不常看同人文,可是,我還是看見了好幾篇,又比如在我動工這一篇之前,千二大大寫了四十之後,也是類似的的題材,不過在結局上,我做了不同的選擇。9Please respect copyright.PENANAp2bRMdlpnv
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我想讓漾漾活下去,即使現實面不合理。9Please respect copyright.PENANASWCESLS90o
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反正我自己寫,我可以很任性得做出選擇。9Please respect copyright.PENANABCvo7PuQEC
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在很早之前,我就有想要寫這樣一篇了!不過或許是歷練沒有到、感覺還沒有所以我一直寫不出來,模模糊糊只希望漾漾跟學長走完全程,可是沒有方法與其他的。9Please respect copyright.PENANAoh414nIcaC
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一直到終於要動工時,有一點點微弱的感覺在腦海中醞釀,就開始寫了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAZygeVtzokC
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剛開始寫我還是什麼都不知道,其實到今天為止我對於生死什麼的還是沒有很完全的掌握,所以要詮釋……也不是完美,至今我仍覺得這篇文有所缺陷,可是已經盡我全力。9Please respect copyright.PENANAzhrDk2s7mS
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最一開始這篇文的架構也很簡單,那時候我想只要一萬多字就可以完結,上跟下吧。9Please respect copyright.PENANAJWuPGxUovl
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序是漾漾偶然想起了生命長度 → 二十年過後被問到說是不是沒有變,然後夢裡記起了那個約定,去到「一個地方(我還沒有確定是要找黑山君)」→抉擇,回來→發現學長知道了,然後交代後續……END。9Please respect copyright.PENANA5O2yj3luOs
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結果等我寫之後,越來越多的想法開始出現,我開始想啊……樣漾他真的會怎麼想呢?還有學長,如果漾漾會想到他怎麼可能不會,可是為什麼最後是漾漾率先踏出第一步,他卻什麼動作都沒有?9Please respect copyright.PENANAAAV4WmO3lF
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如果漾漾都有辦法了,比漾漾還要熟悉這世界、知識更豐富的學長怎麼可能會不知道呢?他一定也想要留住喜歡的人吧?沒有人會想要放手吧?9Please respect copyright.PENANAfQ5wEdZG0B
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我先想起了漾漾的想法。9Please respect copyright.PENANAusJ8zAnr4K
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會想要活很久,一定是有什麼掛念的東西才會想要活很久。9Please respect copyright.PENANA6DjVAjJ24Z
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可能很多人都會想要活很久,不過其實想一想,大概也是長一點就好,把能做的事做完就好。9Please respect copyright.PENANAJoWCWwMaz0
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我在寫第三篇時很認真在思考這問題,如果是我……我想要活久一點嗎?9Please respect copyright.PENANAFNH1BgfE7t
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一開始的答案似乎是肯定的,因為怎樣好像都是賺到嘛~可是……真的嗎?9Please respect copyright.PENANAWz6ZI3gkq7
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活得很久很久意義何在?我發現……其實我沒有什麼事情需要我活好久好久才去完成,會這樣想,似乎是從小的一些教育觀念,大家好像都覺得活很久很好,還有年輕,後者不可否認,但前者呢?想要活多久?活到什麼時候?9Please respect copyright.PENANAIJmqAsQLgn
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我覺得,真的一百年就夠了,雖然不一定能達成,可是一百年,已經可以把想做的事做完,而且……曾經陪著的人已經離開,自己也差不多了吧?最主要是若只有我自己能活很久,那種孤獨……我還不如早一點離去呢!9Please respect copyright.PENANAZM7X9l0bfk
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像是一個循環,也許按下消除鍵又是新的開始。9Please respect copyright.PENANArAI9WyBFlh
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所以我又想,那漾漾呢?9Please respect copyright.PENANAOJSxBp8LqS
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我覺得他也不會想要活很久,他是一個沒什麼執念的人,在乎的就只是「人」親人、朋友……等,我指的人是只有跟他有互動的同伴等等,當然非人類也是在我現在指的人裡面。9Please respect copyright.PENANANbbFotk6l0
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他在乎他的父母、姊姊、然他們,還有千冬歲、喵喵這些朋友,或許再往外擴散一點,哪些令他印象深刻的人。9Please respect copyright.PENANA1Vigs3Wp8n
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所以他會跟這些人活著,有哭有笑的一輩子然後一起慢慢離開,雖然進到守世界之後,一些人的生命長度好長,他可能會有點不適應,可是那是很正常的事,所以他也不會因此想活久一點,反正不就這樣囉,而且他最重視的應該是父母那邊了,只要原本的生命長度就已經足夠。9Please respect copyright.PENANAPOBPJMrImT
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總而言之,他不需要活久,他陪著的、或陪他的人也不需改變什麼,他只需要遵照常理活者然後結束就好,至於喵喵這些生命較長的朋友,他沒有非放不下不可的想法。9Please respect copyright.PENANAMJ0MSijaAL
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但是有例外,學長。9Please respect copyright.PENANA7RC0gjkIyi
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他會記起來,在他離開之後,有一個在乎他卻還得走完好長一段時間的人。(PS.到這裡時漾漾不知道學長能活多久,連我也不知道,那時候覺得幾千年就好長好長了)9Please respect copyright.PENANA2dbh6KX7jx
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然後他會覺得心痛,因為他也在乎學長,曾經他可以接受家人一定比他早離開是因為他生命也是同樣短暫,如果要永恆追憶,沒有人能想像那種痛苦。9Please respect copyright.PENANAqld4yAN1j7
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所以被找上,有人告訴他當考慮清楚後,再去找他有機會能和學長活得一樣久。9Please respect copyright.PENANAJWlCpkZCTx
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多給的時間則是想提醒,除了現在在意的學長之外,還有身邊的人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAKvRqV8JZD4
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然後漾漾忘了那個夢境,又生活了好一段時間,可是自己的時間已經停止了,就像是試用期(?)一樣,有一天會發現身邊的人都在變就自己沒變,接著就想起了那個夢境,他會開始思考。9Please respect copyright.PENANA0rD4KkcZ1K
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最後的結論當然還是會選擇和學長一起,其實我覺得那時候漾漾還不會很完整的知道這代表什麼意思,他知道會失去親人以及其他朋友,他將和學長一樣不斷想起、忘記死去的人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAdYaXAaYCMJ
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可是他還沒真正經歷過便開始做抉擇,知道自己會難過但是不知道有多難過,而且他覺得,代價這種東西,只要付得起就無所謂了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAeQI8v07nky
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但其實不是這樣的,只要是真正在乎得人離開,當你發現你要走很長很長的路時,有一天會感覺得到已經模糊的臉孔,卻在心底刻畫下那麼深的痕跡。9Please respect copyright.PENANAlsqjVwp6Fb
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──心居然還是會疼痛啊……9Please respect copyright.PENANAqIiS2WdxCW
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而且當時他甚至更在意,不知道他做了這選擇之後,會不會有一天學長不再愛他,然後一切好像就沒意義了,不過轉念一想,又覺得學長都為他付出這麼多,即使後來不被需要,只要能夠避免那個學長孤獨的未來就好。9Please respect copyright.PENANALRlO5DyrdN
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他想他會難過,不過總能夠接受,代價也只要付得起就好……而且更在意這樣做有沒有意義。9Please respect copyright.PENANA9cPrG8bzfG
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所以黑山君說他想簡單了(不過這倒也不是很好想像)。9Please respect copyright.PENANA1jKynZZ1Vb
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但最後沒有因此真得阻擋則是他其實有看見漾漾的決心,相信遇到困境時也能夠真得接受。9Please respect copyright.PENANASB2aDISOF7
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然後見到了無名青年,無名青年所給他的孤獨感覺讓他有更深的體認,有所查覺自己選擇的將來,也更決定了不要留下學長一人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAIYvJrp55vr
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然後在代價上卻遇到了難題。9Please respect copyright.PENANAnMtLscs48o
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其實說實在的我覺得漾漾不可能得到那麼長的生命,那根本就是違反時間定律,真要講他根本付不起代價,而且黑山君提的條件肯定也不足,事實上那無名王者肯定還附出了什麼幫助漾漾,或許只是剛好看見了,不希望有下一個他,尤其他也看見了漾漾的決心。9Please respect copyright.PENANANxX9a6tc16
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可是即使如此代價還是很大,然後終於學長出現了,帶著盒精前來。9Please respect copyright.PENANAwRMwIuDPlb
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我認為漾漾可能不是那麼的意外學長會出現,學長真的是厲害的很恐怖啊……然後他掙扎好久的代價被學長一下子解決(雖然學長花很多時間)。9Please respect copyright.PENANACIibyMaaLO
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這時其實漾漾心裡面很痛苦,其實他有點覺得自己好像什麼事都做不好,連本來是自己要來陪學長,卻最後還是學長把什麼事都做好了,還很害怕學長是不是付出什麼代價。9Please respect copyright.PENANA6Pb61dpRyW
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但是偏偏自己又沒有拒絕幫助的權力,因為他真得做不到,以一瞬間他還真想選擇由自己做,但是要繞上好一大圈的代價償還方式。9Please respect copyright.PENANAu4GJZ6MsSR
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可是其實他多想了。9Please respect copyright.PENANANTfxb8EKIi
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因為學長只需要他的那一份心意,有些事,真得是有人做得到有人做不到,但並不因此代表漾漾一無是處。9Please respect copyright.PENANAhQzoMBkeQ9
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學長需要他這就夠了,所以才會出現,在更早之前就已經準備好了盒精,想好了道路。9Please respect copyright.PENANA1EA8BVT7oc
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對他來說,這些事是他能夠做到的,漾漾如果做不到就由他來做。9Please respect copyright.PENANA9OS40WyXJZ
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換個立場好了,如果有一天有能力的是漾漾,漾漾也會主動幫助學長,因為都互相愛著,所以誰做得比較多比較少根本沒什麼分別。9Please respect copyright.PENANAtbSH15TYbh
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總之就是──9Please respect copyright.PENANA4mNqF9FPCQ
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如果漾漾是學長,而學長是漾漾,這結局也不會變……因為在乎彼此,所以他們都會做一樣的選擇。9Please respect copyright.PENANArZSWoAFBpl
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至於後果就兩人一起承擔吧。9Please respect copyright.PENANAuIaC5korOe
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而到這裡時還有人問我,為什麼學長要這樣為漾漾附出?難道這就是傳說中的愛?9Please respect copyright.PENANA5m6jCUYMlC
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怎說呢……這問題大概很多人在看到原作第十七集時就有相同疑問了,那時候不是很多人說「要人家相信他們只是學長學弟關係誰信啊!」之類的嗎?再看看第二部,不管如何,學長都要出來保護漾漾這點,大家看得再清楚不過了……所以我相信,如果真得在一起,那些延長壽命什麼的,你相信學長……不會去找嗎?9Please respect copyright.PENANAf5xUtQc1Tn
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不過在我的文裡,他雖然知道卻始終沒去做的理由,又是擔心漾漾了,那到底為什麼……學長為這樣為漾漾付出?9Please respect copyright.PENANAja9WhLS36D
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這答案,很模糊……如果你要說愛,大概也是唯一能解釋的吧?(笑)9Please respect copyright.PENANAa2Rje5NXDh
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不過理由或許就這麼簡單~9Please respect copyright.PENANAR3SqWC5dMq
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問你喔……如果你愛一個人?你希望和他長相守候嗎?9Please respect copyright.PENANAhD4thwDkK4
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如果你愛一個人,你希不希望他活著?(廢話不然要奸屍……扯到哪!?)9Please respect copyright.PENANAe21m6bKPsv
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如果你愛一個人,也許不是奮不顧身,但在你看見他危險時,你會再去考慮些什麼救他之後的後果嗎?9Please respect copyright.PENANAQxXxbbJFAn
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一定是想都沒想吧!9Please respect copyright.PENANAh60EMYNzQ4
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喜歡一個人,愛一個人,甚至是深深切切需要這個人,你會希望他好,希望他活得好好的,希望他永遠在身邊,或者是說……有一天要抉擇,你不會希望自己留在「沒有他的世界」。9Please respect copyright.PENANAjvTrVtks2T
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真要問學長,他可能也答不出來為什麼,但仔細想想……答案就是這樣吧?9Please respect copyright.PENANA1ZglkztRVV
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愛一個人,就希望他好。9Please respect copyright.PENANAsqDnjAAwIV
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所以學長會去找到能讓漾漾留下來的方法大概就是這樣,他不想活在沒有褚的世界,因為是愛他;可是就因為愛他……所以希望他好,希望他不要難過,所以在知道褚如果能活的和他一樣久,相對就會失去其他什麼會因此感到痛苦……所以他又猶豫了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAftxoElDO73
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握著那把「鑰匙」他始終沒有動作。9Please respect copyright.PENANAh1ObSClOwg
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而且他知道如果提出這要求來,漾漾一定會毫不猶豫的選擇和他在一起,所以他更是沉默。9Please respect copyright.PENANAc40RdoU6bm
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一直到他發現漾漾做什麼事之後他才追了上去,像是補償一樣,想用對褚而言最小的代價留下這個人。9Please respect copyright.PENANABHSoH6TMIy
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而這次他沒有阻止,則是因為──私心。9Please respect copyright.PENANA80q4UfgAMC
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對,就是私心,跟賽塔一樣,在漾漾要去幫助安因時沒有阻止(不小心冒CP了)。9Please respect copyright.PENANA9D5puzE6dT
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這樣……能聽懂我的意思嘛?9Please respect copyright.PENANAUyClCJC4dN
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而這個私心,其實源自於愛情……他愛他,想要留下他,雖然覺得這樣不好,可是機會在眼前時,那種誘惑只能逼著他用鑰匙打開那扇禁忌的門。9Please respect copyright.PENANAh7SdvCV19w
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他或許能讓褚打消這念頭可是他會想……其實褚也……希望這麼做。9Please respect copyright.PENANA10mlW9Ifkq
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可是最後他會有一點罪惡感,因為其實他可以阻止的……9Please respect copyright.PENANAYK4Xdof7iG
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不過這也是一樣和漾漾陷入思考死胡同,當兩個人彼此相愛,都想為彼此付出時……應該就這麼坦然接受吧!9Please respect copyright.PENANAYB5Qs3YzaL
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真得再說一次──換一個角度,如果漾漾是學長,而學長是漾漾,你想這結局會變嗎?因為在乎彼此,所以他們都會做一樣的選擇。9Please respect copyright.PENANA4SeqVyaudJ
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至於後果….就是兩人一起承擔吧。9Please respect copyright.PENANAq51dyPm5P9
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在我想法裡,大概就是這樣。9Please respect copyright.PENANAlg601rq1K9
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(一直情啊愛得好肉麻也好繞口令XD)9Please respect copyright.PENANAIcVnFDNEcI
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而且真要說,漾漾真沒做什麼嗎?他的決心,他來到這裡準備要付的代價……還有如果他沒有這樣想──學長大概就打算,放手了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAt5jczghq0D
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何況之後的生命,他需要自己慢慢得到,他必須安撫盒精內的亡魂,去體驗那種悲傷與遺憾然後了結一切,他必須再世界各處旅行。9Please respect copyright.PENANAjXnb6oSSiB
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當然,如果學長在他身邊,這似乎不會那麼辛苦、哪麼痛苦。9Please respect copyright.PENANAaeydZYRlUf
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他已經做到了他能夠做的事了~9Please respect copyright.PENANA8GxMoREbWX
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另外還有人說學長即使幫漾漾,卻也還是好暴力啊~9Please respect copyright.PENANA7a192XDgxM
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那我是想──不暴力就不是學長了XD連對漾漾的關愛都還是很兇悍!9Please respect copyright.PENANAHj9HgzF4Fz
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但其實仔細體會就可以找到他的真心,學長的愛情在我看來是很隱晦可是也很寫實的,他做什麼都不會多說,在沒有人注意的時候,就已經把路都給鋪好了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAXlrjKXH5ni
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真得我覺得漾漾會因此感到有點痛苦,他擔心自己沒有那個資格讓學長這樣付出,可是自己也知道學長這麼做的理由,於是會希望能更努力一點,如果可以,讓他為學長做些什麼只有他能做到的事。9Please respect copyright.PENANAvh1sP22aqP
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這也算是漫漫時流裡面隱含的一部分感情。9Please respect copyright.PENANAMZfSurSk7m
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然後就是學長的愧疚和漾漾的遲疑在床上(呃……)被消掉了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAj9YDJE4UQU
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學長沒有給承諾,可是漾漾已經感覺到了未來他們就是能夠在一起,而學長那根本不需要愧疚的愧疚(沒有阻止漾漾真的要活很久)也被漾漾一句話給帶過了。9Please respect copyright.PENANA3o3jelGhFW
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這就算脫離思考死胡同,當兩個人彼此相愛,都想為彼此付出時……應該就這麼坦然接受吧!9Please respect copyright.PENANAKZJxfifmwa
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所以等雨過天晴後我就不小心讓他們滾床單了(掩面)死了我好多腦細胞,我總覺得我H文越寫越詳細了QAQ9Please respect copyright.PENANAV98zxtaj74
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那本來就是打算這邊完就可以了,結果不知不覺又往褚爸褚媽那邊去交代,還有漾漾姊XD9Please respect copyright.PENANADmjipm9tZY
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回原世界的時候肯定是比在守世界裡更能感覺到物是人非吧?我有一點覺得漾漾不想回來,因為害怕看見。9Please respect copyright.PENANAEToKNR4sI2
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而且他還沒向父母提過他和學長在一起的事實,而且很多關於上了高中之後的是都沒說,他也不知道要怎麼解釋,不過他倒是沒想過人家其實什麼都知道了,雖然不完全清楚,但光是他不變的外表,有時候和學長一起回來那些相處的樣子(何況誰會沒事一直帶只是一個學長的人回家啊)很多很多……9Please respect copyright.PENANAoyLinJ79mC
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深愛孩子的父母,除非不想面對這些不然不可能沒發現。9Please respect copyright.PENANAUbEDdvIpRZ
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而且冥玥一定也有暗示明示,想辦法讓他們慢慢察覺慢慢接受,也在有需要時出手幫忙,真要講,她肯定還比漾漾甚至是學長早知道他們會在一起,有這樣的結果。9Please respect copyright.PENANAO9EhHVia6w
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她也很疼漾漾,我覺得漾漾有很棒的家人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAOas6Vm2ICO
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另外就是冥玥即使不幫忙,一我看漾漾父母也還是會接受學長,因為他們很愛漾漾,看在眼裡知道自從遇見學長後,漾漾過得很好。9Please respect copyright.PENANAISbQAEahdG
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雖然一開始可能難以接受,可是有一天,人生歷練多了、對於一些舊有關念、什麼傳宗接代還是男女什麼的看的淡了,希望孩子們會好的他們、從小擔心漾漾的他們覺得──9Please respect copyright.PENANAa30293oD2E
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只要漾漾過得好,就好了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAR8RiewEqW6
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最後只是希望漾漾可以多回來,雖然看見他們年華老去油盡燈枯會讓漾漾悲傷,可是請在最後的時間裡留下更多回憶吧。9Please respect copyright.PENANACz6Ebw1IVI
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很放心漾漾身邊有這樣一個人陪伴,還是掛念,可是已經可以放手了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAqfn1fJRV6U
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我覺得漾漾真的身邊很多愛他的人,他很幸福。9Please respect copyright.PENANAlaHRapOKc3
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然後就是開始交代了後續,我把他寫到了學長成年脫離無殿保護。9Please respect copyright.PENANAXh3nOaGaJD
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這段時間漾漾看見更多人事物、經歷了親人與好友的離去,內心失落徬徨則被時間療癒,雖然沒有辦法完全撫平傷痕,可是至少一直有學長在,慢慢的也能釋然。9Please respect copyright.PENANAOUKb7yqpPc
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後來用石碑做了個小墓碑,裡面收藏了回憶的物品,也許在什麼時候可以到這裡看看天空、發發呆,回憶過去。9Please respect copyright.PENANAyf54L96mRL
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綻放的花則代表了心歷練成長後的結晶。9Please respect copyright.PENANAdAqkBbvLvS
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然後……就真的結束了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAHNnjJkLk30
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漫漫時流的尾聲則另外開啟了新旅途WWW9Please respect copyright.PENANAVAberh0py1
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我想也許哪天我會來寫他們旅行到冰牙的這一段XD不過關於這邊資料太少,寫起來可能頗難……有人想看嗎?9Please respect copyright.PENANAnHvigUrwmE
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或許還延伸到焰之谷呢XDDDDDD9Please respect copyright.PENANA6OdRx8nYCh
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不過其實我最主要是要說,這篇漫漫一開始就與確定好有衍生「超級大長篇」──《命旅》。9Please respect copyright.PENANAx6A7CRxCtp
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《命旅》是指以生命為中心的旅途……大概就是之後發生的事,以每個盒精亡魂引發得事件為一個故事串連起來的,不會有結局(只要繼續發生故事,就會繼續有故事,等於一個怨靈(?)一個故事這樣(吐魂)不過暫時不打算要寫,等我其他坑先填完再說……(這種話你說好多次了)9Please respect copyright.PENANAkGzhboTvXw
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然後其他還沒寫完的預定番外則是有交代其他人對於這件事看法的部分,生命長短相處意義什麼的,會有很多配對出來,那賽安是有獨立一篇比較主要的,因為他們是「活很久組」欸,還有白黑會也一段交代漾漾他們離開冥府與時間之流交際處的一段,然後學長篇(遠目)這邊會詳細交代學長的想法與做法……好長好長……和一些奇怪衍生、極短篇,跟有趣的問答我會整理出來……9Please respect copyright.PENANA47Hg4ykCUl
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我以為暑假我可以把祭典和導盲犬寫完,我現在開始懷疑我漫漫時流能不能寫完也是問題了(不過如果有要出本,我為以要出本那篇先寫完)9Please respect copyright.PENANAUFWcDrvykw
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嗚嗚嗚我好久沒有純粹寫短篇了(哭哭9Please respect copyright.PENANA78KUn521QX
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不過大家如果有想看的衍生還可以跟我說,我機會我會寫^ ^9Please respect copyright.PENANA6kKMR7dxzb
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那……這篇後記還是先到這裡好了,我覺得在寫下去我可能要分上下了(有沒有這麼悲慘?)本來要玩一下問答,不過還是用別篇寫好了哈哈~9Please respect copyright.PENANAqNJixoY5sY
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總之後面寫得是我對這邊文寫作的心路歷程,不過很多要講的都沒講到呵呵(你到底有多少話要講!)這篇後記寫得好認真,感覺真不像我平時碎碎念得亂七八糟,希望有讓大家懂一點我在漫漫裡想表達的一部份。9Please respect copyright.PENANAzuJ4teRZHL
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那麼,謝謝大家的支持~還看我的廢話到這裡~總覺得寫完文一段時間才來寫東西少好多啊~(記得很多好笑的東西要分享的耶~9Please respect copyright.PENANAajPPIEMrcs
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(本來是想要等學長篇完再寫,可是不知道要等到哪時……)9Please respect copyright.PENANAmtBaBtCltX
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總之我想寫這篇想很久了了了!(被巴掉9Please respect copyright.PENANAGi2RIjdNzy
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好吧,一樣閱讀前提醒,我不知道後記這種東西大家有沒有興趣看,反正這會是寫到我的思想、一些關於寫這篇文的來龍去脈、過程……等,至於有沒有料可看,蠻正經(?)的沒有搞笑……看人囉?9Please respect copyright.PENANAMTHI88Cyt0
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想興趣的就往下拉吧~會很長XDDD9Please respect copyright.PENANAHiJ7gjjqYK
然後多少會提到我在學長篇裡想寫的東西(學長的想法)。9Please respect copyright.PENANAnTj4x4jblN
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很早之前就想寫這種文了,關於學長與漾漾生命差距的、關於我希望他們一直都在一起直到最後。9Please respect copyright.PENANAMDQzCS6qFU
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相信看特傳的人都知道樣漾與學長因為種族不同的關係,生命常度差距非常的大,漾漾最多不過百年,而學長……是幾千萬年──要說一下的是這點不是我掰的,這在護玄大的帝王蟹本裡面有提到XD他說,精靈會活上上千萬年,我是不知道獸王族可以活多久,不過即使是零,幾千萬年除以二也還是幾千萬年啊!9Please respect copyright.PENANAXaVoAqi2wS
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而我一直都很喜歡他們,甚至半認真的說冰漾是我的信仰XD而在我的理想世界裡,一份愛情也是能夠一生一世只愛一個人直到永遠,甚至是來世都會再次相遇、相戀。9Please respect copyright.PENANAgsBuv8QbFu
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也許聽起來太浪漫了,不過即使是微乎極微,但只要有這機率,我相信學長和漾漾會的!就說冰漾是我的信仰了XDDDD9Please respect copyright.PENANAjkPghraY4m
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所以那麼,學長不就很……可憐?9Please respect copyright.PENANAlbWZsndXUa
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如果愛一個人,我想即使多活幾千萬年,早已不在身邊的那人還是會留在心底,時時牽掛、時時想起、時時……9Please respect copyright.PENANAgikb1kaKH6
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也許那個曾經笑臉已經模糊,可是心裡面那種悸動的感覺、曾經鮮明的一切都會繼續轉化成一種淡淡痛楚,不可磨滅。9Please respect copyright.PENANATFBujlOK5e
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還是可以活著,也許剛失去的那一段時間會痛苦的想要死掉,但是一樣可以活著,然後心就此缺了一角,就像是隨的那人的死亡一起死去。9Please respect copyright.PENANA6TTOHzjuKv
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說起來,很多冰漾派的作家也碰了這一塊,他們都去描述了這件事,不管是如原文中設定應該是最後漾漾還是活了大約一百歲就離開,還是找了什麼方法讓他一直活下去、也有轉世還是沒下文純討論、約定的。9Please respect copyright.PENANAPNUcsefDlY
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因為沒時間、胃口也不好伺候的關係其實我不常看同人文,可是,我還是看見了好幾篇,又比如在我動工這一篇之前,千二大大寫了四十之後,也是類似的的題材,不過在結局上,我做了不同的選擇。9Please respect copyright.PENANAp2bRMdlpnv
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我想讓漾漾活下去,即使現實面不合理。9Please respect copyright.PENANASWCESLS90o
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反正我自己寫,我可以很任性得做出選擇。9Please respect copyright.PENANABCvo7PuQEC
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在很早之前,我就有想要寫這樣一篇了!不過或許是歷練沒有到、感覺還沒有所以我一直寫不出來,模模糊糊只希望漾漾跟學長走完全程,可是沒有方法與其他的。9Please respect copyright.PENANAoh414nIcaC
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一直到終於要動工時,有一點點微弱的感覺在腦海中醞釀,就開始寫了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAZygeVtzokC
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剛開始寫我還是什麼都不知道,其實到今天為止我對於生死什麼的還是沒有很完全的掌握,所以要詮釋……也不是完美,至今我仍覺得這篇文有所缺陷,可是已經盡我全力。9Please respect copyright.PENANAzhrDk2s7mS
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最一開始這篇文的架構也很簡單,那時候我想只要一萬多字就可以完結,上跟下吧。9Please respect copyright.PENANAJWuPGxUovl
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序是漾漾偶然想起了生命長度 → 二十年過後被問到說是不是沒有變,然後夢裡記起了那個約定,去到「一個地方(我還沒有確定是要找黑山君)」→抉擇,回來→發現學長知道了,然後交代後續……END。9Please respect copyright.PENANA5O2yj3luOs
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結果等我寫之後,越來越多的想法開始出現,我開始想啊……樣漾他真的會怎麼想呢?還有學長,如果漾漾會想到他怎麼可能不會,可是為什麼最後是漾漾率先踏出第一步,他卻什麼動作都沒有?9Please respect copyright.PENANAAAV4WmO3lF
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如果漾漾都有辦法了,比漾漾還要熟悉這世界、知識更豐富的學長怎麼可能會不知道呢?他一定也想要留住喜歡的人吧?沒有人會想要放手吧?9Please respect copyright.PENANAfQ5wEdZG0B
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我先想起了漾漾的想法。9Please respect copyright.PENANAusJ8zAnr4K
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會想要活很久,一定是有什麼掛念的東西才會想要活很久。9Please respect copyright.PENANA6DjVAjJ24Z
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可能很多人都會想要活很久,不過其實想一想,大概也是長一點就好,把能做的事做完就好。9Please respect copyright.PENANAJoWCWwMaz0
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我在寫第三篇時很認真在思考這問題,如果是我……我想要活久一點嗎?9Please respect copyright.PENANAFNH1BgfE7t
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一開始的答案似乎是肯定的,因為怎樣好像都是賺到嘛~可是……真的嗎?9Please respect copyright.PENANAWz6ZI3gkq7
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活得很久很久意義何在?我發現……其實我沒有什麼事情需要我活好久好久才去完成,會這樣想,似乎是從小的一些教育觀念,大家好像都覺得活很久很好,還有年輕,後者不可否認,但前者呢?想要活多久?活到什麼時候?9Please respect copyright.PENANAIJmqAsQLgn
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我覺得,真的一百年就夠了,雖然不一定能達成,可是一百年,已經可以把想做的事做完,而且……曾經陪著的人已經離開,自己也差不多了吧?最主要是若只有我自己能活很久,那種孤獨……我還不如早一點離去呢!9Please respect copyright.PENANAZM7X9l0bfk
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像是一個循環,也許按下消除鍵又是新的開始。9Please respect copyright.PENANArAI9WyBFlh
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所以我又想,那漾漾呢?9Please respect copyright.PENANAOJSxBp8LqS
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我覺得他也不會想要活很久,他是一個沒什麼執念的人,在乎的就只是「人」親人、朋友……等,我指的人是只有跟他有互動的同伴等等,當然非人類也是在我現在指的人裡面。9Please respect copyright.PENANANbbFotk6l0
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他在乎他的父母、姊姊、然他們,還有千冬歲、喵喵這些朋友,或許再往外擴散一點,哪些令他印象深刻的人。9Please respect copyright.PENANA1Vigs3Wp8n
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所以他會跟這些人活著,有哭有笑的一輩子然後一起慢慢離開,雖然進到守世界之後,一些人的生命長度好長,他可能會有點不適應,可是那是很正常的事,所以他也不會因此想活久一點,反正不就這樣囉,而且他最重視的應該是父母那邊了,只要原本的生命長度就已經足夠。9Please respect copyright.PENANAPOBPJMrImT
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總而言之,他不需要活久,他陪著的、或陪他的人也不需改變什麼,他只需要遵照常理活者然後結束就好,至於喵喵這些生命較長的朋友,他沒有非放不下不可的想法。9Please respect copyright.PENANAMJ0MSijaAL
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但是有例外,學長。9Please respect copyright.PENANA7RC0gjkIyi
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他會記起來,在他離開之後,有一個在乎他卻還得走完好長一段時間的人。(PS.到這裡時漾漾不知道學長能活多久,連我也不知道,那時候覺得幾千年就好長好長了)9Please respect copyright.PENANA2dbh6KX7jx
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然後他會覺得心痛,因為他也在乎學長,曾經他可以接受家人一定比他早離開是因為他生命也是同樣短暫,如果要永恆追憶,沒有人能想像那種痛苦。9Please respect copyright.PENANAqld4yAN1j7
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所以被找上,有人告訴他當考慮清楚後,再去找他有機會能和學長活得一樣久。9Please respect copyright.PENANAJWlCpkZCTx
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多給的時間則是想提醒,除了現在在意的學長之外,還有身邊的人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAKvRqV8JZD4
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然後漾漾忘了那個夢境,又生活了好一段時間,可是自己的時間已經停止了,就像是試用期(?)一樣,有一天會發現身邊的人都在變就自己沒變,接著就想起了那個夢境,他會開始思考。9Please respect copyright.PENANA0rD4KkcZ1K
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最後的結論當然還是會選擇和學長一起,其實我覺得那時候漾漾還不會很完整的知道這代表什麼意思,他知道會失去親人以及其他朋友,他將和學長一樣不斷想起、忘記死去的人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAdYaXAaYCMJ
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可是他還沒真正經歷過便開始做抉擇,知道自己會難過但是不知道有多難過,而且他覺得,代價這種東西,只要付得起就無所謂了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAeQI8v07nky
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但其實不是這樣的,只要是真正在乎得人離開,當你發現你要走很長很長的路時,有一天會感覺得到已經模糊的臉孔,卻在心底刻畫下那麼深的痕跡。9Please respect copyright.PENANAlsqjVwp6Fb
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──心居然還是會疼痛啊……9Please respect copyright.PENANAqIiS2WdxCW
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而且當時他甚至更在意,不知道他做了這選擇之後,會不會有一天學長不再愛他,然後一切好像就沒意義了,不過轉念一想,又覺得學長都為他付出這麼多,即使後來不被需要,只要能夠避免那個學長孤獨的未來就好。9Please respect copyright.PENANALRlO5DyrdN
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他想他會難過,不過總能夠接受,代價也只要付得起就好……而且更在意這樣做有沒有意義。9Please respect copyright.PENANA9cPrG8bzfG
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所以黑山君說他想簡單了(不過這倒也不是很好想像)。9Please respect copyright.PENANA1jKynZZ1Vb
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但最後沒有因此真得阻擋則是他其實有看見漾漾的決心,相信遇到困境時也能夠真得接受。9Please respect copyright.PENANASB2aDISOF7
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然後見到了無名青年,無名青年所給他的孤獨感覺讓他有更深的體認,有所查覺自己選擇的將來,也更決定了不要留下學長一人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAIYvJrp55vr
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然後在代價上卻遇到了難題。9Please respect copyright.PENANAnMtLscs48o
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其實說實在的我覺得漾漾不可能得到那麼長的生命,那根本就是違反時間定律,真要講他根本付不起代價,而且黑山君提的條件肯定也不足,事實上那無名王者肯定還附出了什麼幫助漾漾,或許只是剛好看見了,不希望有下一個他,尤其他也看見了漾漾的決心。9Please respect copyright.PENANANxX9a6tc16
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可是即使如此代價還是很大,然後終於學長出現了,帶著盒精前來。9Please respect copyright.PENANAwRMwIuDPlb
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我認為漾漾可能不是那麼的意外學長會出現,學長真的是厲害的很恐怖啊……然後他掙扎好久的代價被學長一下子解決(雖然學長花很多時間)。9Please respect copyright.PENANACIibyMaaLO
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這時其實漾漾心裡面很痛苦,其實他有點覺得自己好像什麼事都做不好,連本來是自己要來陪學長,卻最後還是學長把什麼事都做好了,還很害怕學長是不是付出什麼代價。9Please respect copyright.PENANA6Pb61dpRyW
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但是偏偏自己又沒有拒絕幫助的權力,因為他真得做不到,以一瞬間他還真想選擇由自己做,但是要繞上好一大圈的代價償還方式。9Please respect copyright.PENANAu4GJZ6MsSR
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可是其實他多想了。9Please respect copyright.PENANANTfxb8EKIi
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因為學長只需要他的那一份心意,有些事,真得是有人做得到有人做不到,但並不因此代表漾漾一無是處。9Please respect copyright.PENANAhQzoMBkeQ9
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學長需要他這就夠了,所以才會出現,在更早之前就已經準備好了盒精,想好了道路。9Please respect copyright.PENANA1EA8BVT7oc
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對他來說,這些事是他能夠做到的,漾漾如果做不到就由他來做。9Please respect copyright.PENANA9OS40WyXJZ
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換個立場好了,如果有一天有能力的是漾漾,漾漾也會主動幫助學長,因為都互相愛著,所以誰做得比較多比較少根本沒什麼分別。9Please respect copyright.PENANAtbSH15TYbh
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總之就是──9Please respect copyright.PENANA4mNqF9FPCQ
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如果漾漾是學長,而學長是漾漾,這結局也不會變……因為在乎彼此,所以他們都會做一樣的選擇。9Please respect copyright.PENANArZSWoAFBpl
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至於後果就兩人一起承擔吧。9Please respect copyright.PENANAuIaC5korOe
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而到這裡時還有人問我,為什麼學長要這樣為漾漾附出?難道這就是傳說中的愛?9Please respect copyright.PENANA5m6jCUYMlC
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怎說呢……這問題大概很多人在看到原作第十七集時就有相同疑問了,那時候不是很多人說「要人家相信他們只是學長學弟關係誰信啊!」之類的嗎?再看看第二部,不管如何,學長都要出來保護漾漾這點,大家看得再清楚不過了……所以我相信,如果真得在一起,那些延長壽命什麼的,你相信學長……不會去找嗎?9Please respect copyright.PENANAf5xUtQc1Tn
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不過在我的文裡,他雖然知道卻始終沒去做的理由,又是擔心漾漾了,那到底為什麼……學長為這樣為漾漾付出?9Please respect copyright.PENANAja9WhLS36D
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這答案,很模糊……如果你要說愛,大概也是唯一能解釋的吧?(笑)9Please respect copyright.PENANAa2Rje5NXDh
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不過理由或許就這麼簡單~9Please respect copyright.PENANAR3SqWC5dMq
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問你喔……如果你愛一個人?你希望和他長相守候嗎?9Please respect copyright.PENANAhD4thwDkK4
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如果你愛一個人,你希不希望他活著?(廢話不然要奸屍……扯到哪!?)9Please respect copyright.PENANAe21m6bKPsv
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如果你愛一個人,也許不是奮不顧身,但在你看見他危險時,你會再去考慮些什麼救他之後的後果嗎?9Please respect copyright.PENANAQxXxbbJFAn
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一定是想都沒想吧!9Please respect copyright.PENANAh60EMYNzQ4
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喜歡一個人,愛一個人,甚至是深深切切需要這個人,你會希望他好,希望他活得好好的,希望他永遠在身邊,或者是說……有一天要抉擇,你不會希望自己留在「沒有他的世界」。9Please respect copyright.PENANAjvTrVtks2T
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真要問學長,他可能也答不出來為什麼,但仔細想想……答案就是這樣吧?9Please respect copyright.PENANA1ZglkztRVV
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愛一個人,就希望他好。9Please respect copyright.PENANAsqDnjAAwIV
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所以學長會去找到能讓漾漾留下來的方法大概就是這樣,他不想活在沒有褚的世界,因為是愛他;可是就因為愛他……所以希望他好,希望他不要難過,所以在知道褚如果能活的和他一樣久,相對就會失去其他什麼會因此感到痛苦……所以他又猶豫了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAftxoElDO73
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握著那把「鑰匙」他始終沒有動作。9Please respect copyright.PENANAh1ObSClOwg
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而且他知道如果提出這要求來,漾漾一定會毫不猶豫的選擇和他在一起,所以他更是沉默。9Please respect copyright.PENANAc40RdoU6bm
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一直到他發現漾漾做什麼事之後他才追了上去,像是補償一樣,想用對褚而言最小的代價留下這個人。9Please respect copyright.PENANABHSoH6TMIy
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而這次他沒有阻止,則是因為──私心。9Please respect copyright.PENANA80q4UfgAMC
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對,就是私心,跟賽塔一樣,在漾漾要去幫助安因時沒有阻止(不小心冒CP了)。9Please respect copyright.PENANA9D5puzE6dT
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這樣……能聽懂我的意思嘛?9Please respect copyright.PENANAUyClCJC4dN
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而這個私心,其實源自於愛情……他愛他,想要留下他,雖然覺得這樣不好,可是機會在眼前時,那種誘惑只能逼著他用鑰匙打開那扇禁忌的門。9Please respect copyright.PENANAh7SdvCV19w
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他或許能讓褚打消這念頭可是他會想……其實褚也……希望這麼做。9Please respect copyright.PENANA10mlW9Ifkq
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可是最後他會有一點罪惡感,因為其實他可以阻止的……9Please respect copyright.PENANAYK4Xdof7iG
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不過這也是一樣和漾漾陷入思考死胡同,當兩個人彼此相愛,都想為彼此付出時……應該就這麼坦然接受吧!9Please respect copyright.PENANAYB5Qs3YzaL
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真得再說一次──換一個角度,如果漾漾是學長,而學長是漾漾,你想這結局會變嗎?因為在乎彼此,所以他們都會做一樣的選擇。9Please respect copyright.PENANA4SeqVyaudJ
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至於後果….就是兩人一起承擔吧。9Please respect copyright.PENANAq51dyPm5P9
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在我想法裡,大概就是這樣。9Please respect copyright.PENANAlg601rq1K9
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(一直情啊愛得好肉麻也好繞口令XD)9Please respect copyright.PENANAIcVnFDNEcI
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而且真要說,漾漾真沒做什麼嗎?他的決心,他來到這裡準備要付的代價……還有如果他沒有這樣想──學長大概就打算,放手了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAt5jczghq0D
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何況之後的生命,他需要自己慢慢得到,他必須安撫盒精內的亡魂,去體驗那種悲傷與遺憾然後了結一切,他必須再世界各處旅行。9Please respect copyright.PENANAjXnb6oSSiB
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當然,如果學長在他身邊,這似乎不會那麼辛苦、哪麼痛苦。9Please respect copyright.PENANAaeydZYRlUf
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他已經做到了他能夠做的事了~9Please respect copyright.PENANA8GxMoREbWX
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另外還有人說學長即使幫漾漾,卻也還是好暴力啊~9Please respect copyright.PENANA7a192XDgxM
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那我是想──不暴力就不是學長了XD連對漾漾的關愛都還是很兇悍!9Please respect copyright.PENANAHj9HgzF4Fz
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但其實仔細體會就可以找到他的真心,學長的愛情在我看來是很隱晦可是也很寫實的,他做什麼都不會多說,在沒有人注意的時候,就已經把路都給鋪好了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAXlrjKXH5ni
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真得我覺得漾漾會因此感到有點痛苦,他擔心自己沒有那個資格讓學長這樣付出,可是自己也知道學長這麼做的理由,於是會希望能更努力一點,如果可以,讓他為學長做些什麼只有他能做到的事。9Please respect copyright.PENANAvh1sP22aqP
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這也算是漫漫時流裡面隱含的一部分感情。9Please respect copyright.PENANAMZfSurSk7m
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然後就是學長的愧疚和漾漾的遲疑在床上(呃……)被消掉了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAj9YDJE4UQU
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學長沒有給承諾,可是漾漾已經感覺到了未來他們就是能夠在一起,而學長那根本不需要愧疚的愧疚(沒有阻止漾漾真的要活很久)也被漾漾一句話給帶過了。9Please respect copyright.PENANA3o3jelGhFW
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這就算脫離思考死胡同,當兩個人彼此相愛,都想為彼此付出時……應該就這麼坦然接受吧!9Please respect copyright.PENANAKZJxfifmwa
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所以等雨過天晴後我就不小心讓他們滾床單了(掩面)死了我好多腦細胞,我總覺得我H文越寫越詳細了QAQ9Please respect copyright.PENANAV98zxtaj74
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那本來就是打算這邊完就可以了,結果不知不覺又往褚爸褚媽那邊去交代,還有漾漾姊XD9Please respect copyright.PENANADmjipm9tZY
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回原世界的時候肯定是比在守世界裡更能感覺到物是人非吧?我有一點覺得漾漾不想回來,因為害怕看見。9Please respect copyright.PENANAEToKNR4sI2
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而且他還沒向父母提過他和學長在一起的事實,而且很多關於上了高中之後的是都沒說,他也不知道要怎麼解釋,不過他倒是沒想過人家其實什麼都知道了,雖然不完全清楚,但光是他不變的外表,有時候和學長一起回來那些相處的樣子(何況誰會沒事一直帶只是一個學長的人回家啊)很多很多……9Please respect copyright.PENANAoyLinJ79mC
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深愛孩子的父母,除非不想面對這些不然不可能沒發現。9Please respect copyright.PENANAUbEDdvIpRZ
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而且冥玥一定也有暗示明示,想辦法讓他們慢慢察覺慢慢接受,也在有需要時出手幫忙,真要講,她肯定還比漾漾甚至是學長早知道他們會在一起,有這樣的結果。9Please respect copyright.PENANAO9EhHVia6w
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她也很疼漾漾,我覺得漾漾有很棒的家人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAOas6Vm2ICO
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另外就是冥玥即使不幫忙,一我看漾漾父母也還是會接受學長,因為他們很愛漾漾,看在眼裡知道自從遇見學長後,漾漾過得很好。9Please respect copyright.PENANAISbQAEahdG
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雖然一開始可能難以接受,可是有一天,人生歷練多了、對於一些舊有關念、什麼傳宗接代還是男女什麼的看的淡了,希望孩子們會好的他們、從小擔心漾漾的他們覺得──9Please respect copyright.PENANAa30293oD2E
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只要漾漾過得好,就好了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAR8RiewEqW6
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最後只是希望漾漾可以多回來,雖然看見他們年華老去油盡燈枯會讓漾漾悲傷,可是請在最後的時間裡留下更多回憶吧。9Please respect copyright.PENANACz6Ebw1IVI
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很放心漾漾身邊有這樣一個人陪伴,還是掛念,可是已經可以放手了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAqfn1fJRV6U
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我覺得漾漾真的身邊很多愛他的人,他很幸福。9Please respect copyright.PENANAlaHRapOKc3
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然後就是開始交代了後續,我把他寫到了學長成年脫離無殿保護。9Please respect copyright.PENANAXh3nOaGaJD
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這段時間漾漾看見更多人事物、經歷了親人與好友的離去,內心失落徬徨則被時間療癒,雖然沒有辦法完全撫平傷痕,可是至少一直有學長在,慢慢的也能釋然。9Please respect copyright.PENANAOUKb7yqpPc
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後來用石碑做了個小墓碑,裡面收藏了回憶的物品,也許在什麼時候可以到這裡看看天空、發發呆,回憶過去。9Please respect copyright.PENANAyf54L96mRL
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綻放的花則代表了心歷練成長後的結晶。9Please respect copyright.PENANAdAqkBbvLvS
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然後……就真的結束了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAHNnjJkLk30
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漫漫時流的尾聲則另外開啟了新旅途WWW9Please respect copyright.PENANAVAberh0py1
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我想也許哪天我會來寫他們旅行到冰牙的這一段XD不過關於這邊資料太少,寫起來可能頗難……有人想看嗎?9Please respect copyright.PENANAnHvigUrwmE
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或許還延伸到焰之谷呢XDDDDDD9Please respect copyright.PENANA6OdRx8nYCh
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不過其實我最主要是要說,這篇漫漫一開始就與確定好有衍生「超級大長篇」──《命旅》。9Please respect copyright.PENANAx6A7CRxCtp
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《命旅》是指以生命為中心的旅途……大概就是之後發生的事,以每個盒精亡魂引發得事件為一個故事串連起來的,不會有結局(只要繼續發生故事,就會繼續有故事,等於一個怨靈(?)一個故事這樣(吐魂)不過暫時不打算要寫,等我其他坑先填完再說……(這種話你說好多次了)9Please respect copyright.PENANAkGzhboTvXw
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然後其他還沒寫完的預定番外則是有交代其他人對於這件事看法的部分,生命長短相處意義什麼的,會有很多配對出來,那賽安是有獨立一篇比較主要的,因為他們是「活很久組」欸,還有白黑會也一段交代漾漾他們離開冥府與時間之流交際處的一段,然後學長篇(遠目)這邊會詳細交代學長的想法與做法……好長好長……和一些奇怪衍生、極短篇,跟有趣的問答我會整理出來……9Please respect copyright.PENANA47Hg4ykCUl
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我以為暑假我可以把祭典和導盲犬寫完,我現在開始懷疑我漫漫時流能不能寫完也是問題了(不過如果有要出本,我為以要出本那篇先寫完)9Please respect copyright.PENANAUFWcDrvykw
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嗚嗚嗚我好久沒有純粹寫短篇了(哭哭9Please respect copyright.PENANA78KUn521QX
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不過大家如果有想看的衍生還可以跟我說,我機會我會寫^ ^9Please respect copyright.PENANA6kKMR7dxzb
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那……這篇後記還是先到這裡好了,我覺得在寫下去我可能要分上下了(有沒有這麼悲慘?)本來要玩一下問答,不過還是用別篇寫好了哈哈~9Please respect copyright.PENANAqNJixoY5sY
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總之後面寫得是我對這邊文寫作的心路歷程,不過很多要講的都沒講到呵呵(你到底有多少話要講!)這篇後記寫得好認真,感覺真不像我平時碎碎念得亂七八糟,希望有讓大家懂一點我在漫漫裡想表達的一部份。9Please respect copyright.PENANAzuJ4teRZHL
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那麼,謝謝大家的支持~還看我的廢話到這裡~總覺得寫完文一段時間才來寫東西少好多啊~(記得很多好笑的東西要分享的耶~9Please respect copyright.PENANAajPPIEMrcs
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最後,就希望大家可以跟我說說對這篇文的想法^^(雖然好像不太會有人理...)還有喜歡這篇文與其他篇文囉~
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