they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,309Please respect copyright.PENANA8u2ozSpORo
all in the same breath with no hesitation.309Please respect copyright.PENANAcHmZ7DO0EL
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later309Please respect copyright.PENANAIGuO6NtKvq
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.309Please respect copyright.PENANAMCtxGP4XPr
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,309Please respect copyright.PENANAzx1n0LMRjf
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s309Please respect copyright.PENANARpIXT0ygNH
but in the end they still withhold dinner,309Please respect copyright.PENANAkWXcsZ1z0Q
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.309Please respect copyright.PENANAMKU7zDTxJ1
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals309Please respect copyright.PENANAq3RYNzRtA9
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.309Please respect copyright.PENANAIhKqNuRGBa
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch309Please respect copyright.PENANAFfm6p0TcuC
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.309Please respect copyright.PENANAziCwHWSGk5
309Please respect copyright.PENANA0eQmvKPpmy
bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,309Please respect copyright.PENANARVicfJZM4a
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.309Please respect copyright.PENANAeGVIXYzxMP
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief309Please respect copyright.PENANAoirEE1DYP3
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.309Please respect copyright.PENANAE9qs6CeXYS
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",309Please respect copyright.PENANAS1bnO5HNOg
said it was all mental and to just stop309Please respect copyright.PENANAUfsKB7H5Ka
but it was habits formed out of pent up309Please respect copyright.PENANAIx2JqjkEm3
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.309Please respect copyright.PENANA0D0dDGqB9X
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they said it was all in my mind,309Please respect copyright.PENANAnsTqDs6E15
the anxiety, the stress.309Please respect copyright.PENANAKsaceEa4cs
that i had a happy, loving family309Please respect copyright.PENANALCpbACJvac
and i was perfectly fine.309Please respect copyright.PENANAkDbQ4yCoi5
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i'm not.309Please respect copyright.PENANAVTlqdEXOYk
i'm drowning in my own blood309Please respect copyright.PENANAU5W2alSoX5
and choking on my tongue309Please respect copyright.PENANATtayJAVrky
when i try to say so.309Please respect copyright.PENANAJppoddOoaf
309Please respect copyright.PENANAxNvOUVbYEo
...309Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4goDO8IHv
309Please respect copyright.PENANAhtY5q1BRzy
(it's all in my mind.309Please respect copyright.PENANA6t5yqFxE7q
every last drop of anxiety,309Please respect copyright.PENANAQXJgkaFGtl
i have a happy, loving family.309Please respect copyright.PENANAaxp3MQwFj0
i'm perfectly fine.)309Please respect copyright.PENANAlL5FSESoKJ