they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,311Please respect copyright.PENANAJCpU3F5QbC
all in the same breath with no hesitation.311Please respect copyright.PENANABZ7cMjIwj2
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later311Please respect copyright.PENANAnbp9vLt9Nn
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.311Please respect copyright.PENANA7aQmaa1gRH
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,311Please respect copyright.PENANAZWK0ymJCIK
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s311Please respect copyright.PENANArsUdiopvHG
but in the end they still withhold dinner,311Please respect copyright.PENANAyGc9Yk4PKb
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.311Please respect copyright.PENANADW1nPJKWa9
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals311Please respect copyright.PENANAJJHnRhmeuR
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.311Please respect copyright.PENANAn9yUNMjBm5
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch311Please respect copyright.PENANAMUL6fafXRm
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.311Please respect copyright.PENANAimxFFR8h3N
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,311Please respect copyright.PENANAvutAXPOneb
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.311Please respect copyright.PENANAybjL8g2nTS
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief311Please respect copyright.PENANA3MdR73JWvz
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.311Please respect copyright.PENANAbFWXDJXaB3
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",311Please respect copyright.PENANAUFn7eVqCVb
said it was all mental and to just stop311Please respect copyright.PENANAZXfs62mzeF
but it was habits formed out of pent up311Please respect copyright.PENANATwQUX1XJDh
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.311Please respect copyright.PENANA5KM6mW30Kc
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they said it was all in my mind,311Please respect copyright.PENANAC1UtnwlX08
the anxiety, the stress.311Please respect copyright.PENANA2yeu167JvU
that i had a happy, loving family311Please respect copyright.PENANAkQmelv3Eq9
and i was perfectly fine.311Please respect copyright.PENANA237grkwlX9
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i'm not.311Please respect copyright.PENANAg71IzODIo9
i'm drowning in my own blood311Please respect copyright.PENANA9S9jGZlfij
and choking on my tongue311Please respect copyright.PENANAMFnUA2cfeC
when i try to say so.311Please respect copyright.PENANASo1A0qZ8Tr
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...311Please respect copyright.PENANASjkT9rc6NR
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(it's all in my mind.311Please respect copyright.PENANAkdzZZ0xUCW
every last drop of anxiety,311Please respect copyright.PENANA4k5w3gvjUg
i have a happy, loving family.311Please respect copyright.PENANAt0uh9BHw66
i'm perfectly fine.)311Please respect copyright.PENANAAkfrpvUcRj