從小我就知道,『愛』是可以被馴服的關係,同時也是可以自由操控的關係。即使被接受的那一方傷痕累累,失去自我,我也覺得那樣很浪漫,很符合我心中『愛』的樣子。28Please respect copyright.PENANAd2sWmNK5wD
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無法背叛、無法逃離、無法拒絕。28Please respect copyright.PENANAzB0G2wjDoW
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以愛之名,打造無法被破壞的絕對牢籠,這讓我感到前所未有的滿足。28Please respect copyright.PENANAWRcvdzLusm
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那麼,我是從什麼時候開始這麼想的呢?28Please respect copyright.PENANAkOW8GcVpae
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大概是從進入山莊的那天起吧。28Please respect copyright.PENANA8r000UvIcY
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媽媽對我和妹妹說,爸爸把我們丟在山莊裡,是愛我們的表現,只要我們好好活著,總有一天我們會被爸爸接回去,就能得到更多的幸福,現在我們所經歷的,不過是一場爸爸給的試煉而已。28Please respect copyright.PENANAk3f58tRYBk
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媽媽說的話我信了,所以每當遭受痛苦的折磨時,這個信念是我支撐下來的唯一動力。28Please respect copyright.PENANA6j0GNQDScF
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爸爸是為我們好,所以才留下我們。28Please respect copyright.PENANASLlnei8n16
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我並不怪他,我也覺得這樣很好。28Please respect copyright.PENANAzXHAj3Sw0o
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這個信念一直到我初次參與復活日那天,才有了天翻地覆的轉變。28Please respect copyright.PENANAqwqOtc5pvM
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我在那裡,見到了一名氣質非凡、如天神般降臨的俊美少年。28Please respect copyright.PENANAIH4Wmaqg4F
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信徒們都稱他為法利大人,是雙生樹所寵愛的神子。28Please respect copyright.PENANAGPCvYPTOIz
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我從來沒有見過這麼美麗的事物,以至於我見到他的第一秒就徹底淪陷,心臟不受控制的狂跳。28Please respect copyright.PENANAlS98O6Az6g
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我在想,我那時可能就已經愛上他了,以至於後來法利向我和妹妹提出待在他身邊的要求時,我幾乎沒有猶豫的答應了。28Please respect copyright.PENANAWGtOAV6Emf
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妹妹私下不安的告訴我,會不會這樣就再也見不到媽媽了,說著說著,她竟然哭了起來。28Please respect copyright.PENANAYtXOFQDWV7
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我不動聲色的安慰著妹妹,一想到可能見不到媽媽,心裡卻異常的平靜,反而湧起一股隱秘的喜悅。28Please respect copyright.PENANAOW8OfNc5TN
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因為我要追逐的光,再也不是爸爸了。28Please respect copyright.PENANAhUv0JMCbrJ
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我很感謝媽媽,要不是她的折磨,那麼我就不會被法利給看見,更別提待在他身邊的這種妄想了。28Please respect copyright.PENANAZnm3Rn5pRr
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後來,我跟妹妹成為了法利的左右手,也開始讀懂了一些人情世故。例如,像我這樣扭曲的心態在旁人看來,是不討喜的,甚至令人厭惡的。28Please respect copyright.PENANANwxVGOQk4a
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我不想讓法利討厭我。28Please respect copyright.PENANAVaPUUy5Mf0
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於是我極力隱藏著自己的本性,給自己戴上溫柔知禮的面具,努力的讓法利對我心生好感。28Please respect copyright.PENANA1Sc4pltM8v
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但他從來沒有對我展現出特別的一面,仍然把我當作孩子一樣照顧。隨著時間的流逝,我越來越焦躁,不知從什麼時候起,我開始變得善妒、心態更加陰暗扭曲。28Please respect copyright.PENANAAKRBu31DFy
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我忌妒那個能站在法利身旁的歐瀾。28Please respect copyright.PENANA8XLXKJgikv
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我忌妒她會誕下法利的孩子。28Please respect copyright.PENANAgcI6kq6K90
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我忌妒她能比一般人更能夠輕易進入法利的內心。28Please respect copyright.PENANAxmLvfdlB0s
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我真的,好忌妒啊。28Please respect copyright.PENANAd3H3tM9pjY
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在那場大火中,我知道法利根本不可能跟我們走,但我還是違背了他的命令。我知道這是件異想天開的事,但只要一想到法利一個人在這承受非人的痛苦,而歐瀾一無所知的在外界活著,我就忍不住感到憤怒。28Please respect copyright.PENANAX1NPTJT0vD
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——憑什麼,只有歐瀾能夠撇下一切,得到幸福?28Please respect copyright.PENANAVbqJD7bwGY
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如果法利的痛苦無法結束,歐瀾又憑什麼能夠避免?28Please respect copyright.PENANAJhbnCy72E1
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那場大火之後,我的腦海裡多出了一道我未曾聽見過的聲音。28Please respect copyright.PENANAAm9kKSt6hI
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它說它叫卡利亞斯,是與雙生樹同等的存在,神所創造之物。它感知到了我的慾望,所以降臨於此。28Please respect copyright.PENANA6FgMmzJNiK
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我迫不及待和它締結契約,許下我的願望。而我極力壓抑的扭曲,也隨著卡利亞斯的融合,再也隱藏不住。28Please respect copyright.PENANA6brrb8Pa5O
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沒了枷鎖,我的行事作風、想法有了明顯的改變。28Please respect copyright.PENANAlcEYVDUqEB
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明明一開始我不希望法利承受肉體被撕扯、啃食的痛苦,然而我卻在重蹈覆轍先族長的路,把法利推上了一個又一個絕望的死亡之旅。28Please respect copyright.PENANAlnHu9Aeu2T
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這時我察覺到了怪異,焦急的質問腦海裡的那道聲音,然而聲音卻告訴我,如果要實現願望,必須這麼做。28Please respect copyright.PENANARsi5jtx8df
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那道聲音像是蠱惑人心的蛇,不停地為我編織美夢,還告訴我這樣是一種『愛』的表現,讓我想想爸爸當時的舉動,是不是也是因為愛,才會把我們留在山莊。28Please respect copyright.PENANA2jKyUQ9ylU
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小時候根深蒂固的觀念在這個時候被提起,讓我不自覺地被聲音說服,漸漸的,我接受了一個與過去完全截然不同的我。28Please respect copyright.PENANAcSotJkCGPv
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這次,我沒有排斥這種改變。28Please respect copyright.PENANAGEzxtGXCYq