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突然這樣問好像有點唐突，但是我就只問一句：接下來，我還可以去哪兒？872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WsmuzEGWI
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「嗡隆……」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcFzdorLX1
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp098K1ArNY
月台的列車早已經消失在路軌的盡頭，那只是風聲在軌道間捲起的悲鳴，如哭泣，如哀號。白晝時是夢想王國入口的迪士尼站變得冷清，只剩下漸漸遠去的列車泛起的勁風餘浪清散在晚風間。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6RFd7pOWu
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqAQfbycGJ
錯過尾班車了…呢。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJaoe3dfVB
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmL9jLAAVJX
左顧右盼，空蕩蕩的月台就只有我一人。樂園早已關門，這只因樂園而存在的車站馬上變成了前不著村，後不著店的孤島。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bNTNG2Dv9
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG75DsFgrme
接下來，我還可以去哪兒？872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxC0ao2yi5U
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAiW2zSMJ3
真是的，解僱信有必要在下班後才給我們嗎？賠一個月代通知金就能為所欲為嗎？要我們即時收拾東西也不考慮一下迪士尼線的尾班車時間嗎？872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUow8wqlAt
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡne8hWkCbPU
心情壞透了。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJR02WxPtl
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEZeYqbhqG
無可奈何地坐到月台上的長椅後，我看著路軌另一側的廣告燈箱發著呆。我沒有思索回家的辦法，這樣坐著也沒甚麼意思，我對那些減肥藥完全沒興趣，只是……872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJlJOhWVoD
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZS9jr6utii
……抱歉，我也不知道。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIS2cRGgi6
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOxHTckuXg
開甚麼玩笑了，城堡要維修至少兩三年，所以接下來也沒煙火表演，於是把整隊煙火工程團隊解雇掉？外判職員就這樣可有可無嗎？還有為甚麼有人能留任到最後一次煙火後調去其他項目，我就能滾蛋？872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolz8xhzTtO
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZloMNBbBXB
「唉。」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjur5brPr3
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQj9vaEItFn
抬頭看著月台的玻璃幕門，倒影中的我也看回來。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBvQ9qwwS3
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxKLAdoX0G
溫年柏，廿四歲，失業，失戀，失敗。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKe3ibLYEgQ
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbqtuQfn7q
倒影中不堪入目的我實在有夠礙眼，所以我下意識地閉上雙目迴避，腦海中浮現的卻是一幀又一幀的回憶。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUjCLagPtd
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3Vh6vupq7
「十優狀元確診胃癌 仍然不放棄醫生夢」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvcuOvwMkA
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEj9DhEJ22o
「跳級畢業 狀元完夢 抗癌之路不忘救人初心」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7q5TNlSPM0
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiyehs1Jur
「狀元醫生遺愛人間 心臟贈少年」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Af9Q8rB8s
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksNCIWrDZQ
來，猜猜看那顆心臟被捐到誰身上？872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWKWTgTHBO
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLldqtdePE
我指尖滑過自己胸膛，即使隔著衣服也能感覺到那道又大又醜的疤痕在，如在悼念著那個從未見過面的救命恩人。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUK8sMMtwX
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHCAZKgM73
先不說現在尾班車已經開走，我跳下去也不會有列車撞過來。這條命是借來的，我沒有糟蹋的權利。如果不是，我早就……872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOBQ0BY22H
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tnGbDKUMb
活成這個樣子，真抱歉。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MDJJVjbJq
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4GjHsynmB
本來不應該是這樣子的，真抱歉。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmsjhDTd2X
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOZq92YO1A
「先生。」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbOtOXuqzq
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDCLVvvALl
一個地鐵職員出現在我旁邊，打斷了我的茫然。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAzZh19MtX
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4R51Ov19UC
「唔好意思，我地夠鐘閂站。」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SjypWKYe1
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOGHsXxpoJ
「閂…站？」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmAb1bhCqk
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6wIx2ibCt
「嗯，閂站。」職員的眼神相當堅決，完全是在趕我離開。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuhfXMKQXvx
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ll8EgCg10
要不是這條命是借來的話……872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDUCgt5Fnc
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZhVmn63sC
「你知唔知仲有乜車呢個時間出市區？」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEf1wImh9gm
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcALqLwbj2D
「呢個鐘數……你試吓叫的士或者Uber？」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtwRI5VbDj
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9UXxjQIQ1
他其實很有禮貌，還硬生生擠出一個笑容。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqHTU26M1y
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mvl8wZWiU
「咁……啊。」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRfgvGk8cw
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhn1D5x4vPv
「再唔係你可以去迪士尼酒店瞓一晚，我哋聽朝頭班車係朝早六點二十分……」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaQOAzG94q
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzRcxo3b0N
「唔使，我喺邊度出返去？」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGUuIaRJx9
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KKCdYmCk9
「我帶你行。」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRQhLPY7Ai
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtoG4tNLRy
領著我的職員步伐有點急促，當然是因為我礙著他下班。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtK5rKdajzw
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDezSeB4jF
「係迪士尼返工啊？咁夜仲喺度嘅？」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKx32NAup0H
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sonvvFCpN
「呃……算係。」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLzP5FaNup
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpFGvTeZ3L
不再是了。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZM1sV3oLL0
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsloFF3Biwt
意識到我沒興趣聊天的他也沒趣地閉上嘴，領著我穿過職員通道後我們來到了迪士尼站的外頭。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkM5KVPayN
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwk4d8WyTLH
「好聲行啦，拜拜！」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SpSqBF9ex
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsPhLaZ1Or
夜裡的森林被風吹動如在搖晃，樹濤聲如在咆哮，昏暗的燈光瞬間就被夜幕一口吞下，環顧附近就只有我孤身一人站在彎彎曲曲的磚路中央。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3z2IgG620s
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zM7nZqW5a
抱歉，能載我出市區嗎？我始終沒有如此向那職員請求，即使我知道這時間在這兒下班的他一定有駕車。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32DLAzTxrU
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGzcWTzc9P
接下來，我還可以去哪兒？872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ri8ttsiOm
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSg1iHMbbg
我不坐的士或Uber的原因不複雜，這樣夜深人靜根本沒有車能攔，再者現在我已失業，能省就省。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoll16013Tw
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhlVZ6njKJ
按常理說，其他人在情況下早就叫自己的朋友或家人來接自己，但是我不能。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlv1UbDoTv
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnz3eXyCLg4
因為我沒有。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFjY4BJX9m
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1kDAHRiMf
我的心臟毛病遺傳自雙親，為了照顧換心手術後的我二人都積勞成疾而離世，只有一個姐姐與我相依為命。至於朋友……自從與她分手後我才發現不知不覺間我已是孤身一人。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaygpR8iOL
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCUdaSa3Wh
活該。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7t1sVmIjd
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJiOEAYGRl
我活該。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdCwQBAxlU
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tULtuTFFV
正當我打算輸入「姐你能不能來接我時」，我在屏幕上幾毫米的指頭卻停了下來。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwcdTi4n89
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ75ADKFmAv
不想。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwku1MHQKd
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3Ax1tNx7t
我……我不想找她。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkctHoaFo2t
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YHst6BXof
不想告訴她我被解僱，不想告訴她我錯過了尾班車，不想告訴她我這弟弟如此窩囊。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8xMqQF56h
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DbPGg0B5X
即使她會開著那台帥氣的車來接我，即使我知道她會告訴我沒事，即使她會帶我去吃宵夜安慰。她對我越是呵護，我卻越不想站在如此優秀的她面前。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZzHFyhiws
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs20Cgh5Fbs
我不想。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlSvMSCMgL
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJVRe8Yhi4
回過神來的時侯我已經走到空空如也的交通交匯處，沒有巴士，沒有的士，只有飛蟲圍著天花的螢光燈在飛舞。證實的確沒有交通工具離開的我終於把目光，投向了馬路——旁的行人道。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBiS1KOnJR
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUxBLOTbGj
不就有了嗎？872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFn2Y5PvKBw
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BqWd3x5M6
掏出手機確認過，從迪士尼步行至東涌港鐵站需時大約四小時，絕非沒法步行的距離和時間。而且……872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LShXBo9JF
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgtOMLtlFG
既然明天開始我就是失業大軍一員，那麼我也不用急著回家對吧。先不說實在沒有面目回去對著父母的靈位和姐姐，我其實大可以步行出去。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCml8vh7bon
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6LyfXvMqc
而且，我連地圖都不用。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9TSbdtqno
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkQZbZZpVU
容我自誇，我溫年柏唯一擅長的就是「方向感」，只要我看過一次的地圖就能瞬間記住，身處當中範圍時更能套用到真實世界之中。就算沒有地圖，我也能一邊走一邊記下空間方向，自己從哪個方向而來，正在往甚麼方向前進。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BYaDNlkcm
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RGVLBl2ZD
光是現在閉上眼，我已經知道如何走到市區了，因為我腦中浮現的地圖清晰無比。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDdyO2nhKr
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hF3IOgAt0
出發吧。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4Kt1C3OTZ
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ah5YYBukz
下定了決心後，四周的晚風也變得舒暢了些許，我拐過角落走到公路旁的行人路，默默地向著遠方雲層下的燈火走去。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23pPa9qjCQ
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5tyIKO0fa
漆黑的深夜，漆黑的密林，燈火通明的公路如某頭巨獸體內的血管般默默地湧動著。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLu4EtqtXg
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDHPrE0A3B
從這兒向山下挑望，萬家燈火把雲頂映亮，光污染這時候在我眼中如把天空染上色彩的極光，萬賴具寂的天地之間如同只剩我一人。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiXEsysENk
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GXQibLtDb
步復步，步復步，前進速度緩慢得可笑，但我卻毫不在意。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZQut9Z1f0
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFQGGiXNO2
「溫年柏。」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNH2keQfSBb
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLxi5TjQbK
拐過路牌的瞬間，我突然聽到背後有人叫自己的名字。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jWP6hdQXx
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIuJLKvNJa
俗語有云：天黑莫回頭，這種時間怎麼會有人在背後叫我的名字？當我意識到這點時，我早已經反射動作地回首。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPItkZbpYhR
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWI5nCYOZBL
沒有人。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkO6PTFSzjz
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Gwz0ZhqKM
空空如也的馬路，行人道，街燈，樹影，完全沒看到任何能叫我名字的存在。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4q2cLgZF1C
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwxO4YLFzf
是幻聽嗎？我搔搔有點長的髮尾，壓下不安的心情，然後繼續往前走去。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhPgEx84zz
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJnWWJZ1Cz
方向是對的，路是對的，但是我卻馬上注意到一點：山下的燈，熄滅了。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDuUPc6VTN
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPEQyBPRG2
要知道山下的燈是東涌市區的燈火，瞬間消失的可能並非沒有，但除非整個東涌停電，或整個東涌消失，不然從這高度這方向，我是不可能看不見東涌市中心的燈光。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RSXJmP1ec
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPDb8TTMyS
這到底是……872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyG3VPlsGF
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83GmjSXxqq
我連忙抬頭看看馬路的路牌，卻沒有絲毫異樣，耳邊寂靜得有點耳鳴，但我還走在正確的路上，朝向正確的方向。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicsv9HHOAV
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1hdGXrgUh
是…霧之類嗎……？872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtI5gxGEinz
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBW4bYqNjzN
強行說服自己後，我繼續信步向前走去。分辨方向其實沒有想像中複雜，路是兩點一線的構造，只要走在正確的路上，面朝正確的方向，便總能確定自己沒有走錯。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVrrFpk5X1
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nWRqQO67t
但以防萬一，我還是掏出了手機查看地圖。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOk5SIQzc5
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWyDMMMt9s
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872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNV7WaDUXM
很好，GPS顯示方向與座標都正確，如我所料大約再走一小時左右我便會到達欣澳，沿著海邊再走三小時就會到達東涌，剛好坐第一班車回家。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIS1NHLYgA
872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9gzhkl2xS
「……」872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOpEpgFWkp
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但望向遠方漆黑的夜，理應存在於那兒看東涌卻是消失得無影無蹤，實在使我心中感到不安。但我深知只要走到欣澳，就是沿著海邊的大直路了。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KGYUlvWuj
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繼續走著走著，我發現事情不對勁。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VW9C4LCzu
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首先，我身旁的道路從不知甚麼時候開始，一架車都沒有駛過，即使是深夜，也絕不應該過了這樣久還是完全沒車子出現。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMojCQL4ve
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而且，欣澳亦消失了。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HKtZKfInn
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道路還在，路牌還在，但是山下理應存在於那兒的欣澳站現在只是漆黑一片。雖然我知道已經過了尾班車，港鐵站就會關站直到頭班車開車前的時間，但是……但是總不可能這樣一遍漆黑吧！那兒現在就只有一片密林，根本沒任何建築物存在！872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡck8WCb4jKG
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意識到不對勁的我掏出手機打算查看地圖，下一幕震撼了我的腦袋。872Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCvgprcGeR
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