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「我為什麼在這裡?」多次向自己提出疑問149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENJJNJZjKn
在旁人看來大概只是些中二病的幻想149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5vGMIFPzu
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與自己原本的理想完全相反，簡直像是第二個地獄一般149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnR8s7voi0
「阿......完了...」內心深處響起了這麼一句話149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFqMzSzYTK
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2月29日，今天也是特別的日子呢，不是對我而是對世界來說149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyaqDm8Cwnx
學校-人間煉獄，為了朝向理想的我穿著制服，坐在角落的我因為陰沉的個性與他人毫無交流149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVihuGBXf0
與那些在上下課期間都活躍的人們活在不同世界的我暗自嘆息149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMFEcbLjAs
「跟理想完全不同呢。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDl42Cz7gd
今天我因為有想看的書而來到圖書館149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYCkEmuyzC
我喜歡圖書館149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaik15q3fIB
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(阿，這麼說來是從那時候開始的阿149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgixRG4jGA
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將書拿出後突然無法好好站穩149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXtEsVrXFR
眼前一黑149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2XO893CHY
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這圖書館哪會有什麼強光?難道是在醫院?不對，我還站著。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCJpYkbk0B
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笑?149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrEEkShaEh
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止不住的瘋狂，對生命的褻瀆149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTkAO2hk6b
「阿哈哈...阿哈哈哈哈哈----------」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklFxsQwVMq
「同學，在圖書館請保持安靜」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrmhBgkkwd
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我本來就是為了借書而來149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsSBiPxPDd
剛才看見的一切讓我再一次認為自己已然不正常
看到眼前被一分為二的生物149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHWeGqXn33
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看見了149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrlLqSCy9A
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太陽又一次升起，宛如詛咒一般149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8onrOXnuH
奇怪的夢境149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSEOgHQKHX
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雖說我曾想過自殺，但一次對他人下手的想法也沒有149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45BcDSd3cD
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抱持著疑問又過了重複的一天?
早晨的新聞上寫著149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xYlm9Fwwm
「2月2日」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1ZPhrD6oN
