「我該做的是什麼呢?為了甚麼活著呢?」133Please respect copyright.PENANAN2fbd55XB9
指引前路的月光,被雲霧所壟罩133Please respect copyright.PENANAMNpIaUcOWu
看不清自己的內心,看不清自己的前路133Please respect copyright.PENANAbyngo7hdxj
「阿...要是自己不存在就好了。」133Please respect copyright.PENANAwmXoGRaY6c
經過短暫的話語,夜晚恢復寂靜。133Please respect copyright.PENANAUJe4okaZ4C
太陽又一次升起,將我喚醒的不是清澈的鳥叫聲更不是夏禪的鳴叫133Please respect copyright.PENANAZz0FWEIfAm
這不僅是因為現在根本不是夏天,更是因為我所在的地區已不在適合那些大自然生存了133Please respect copyright.PENANAHpLLugPB6i
喚醒我的僅僅是母親的呼叫133Please respect copyright.PENANA0G9WEoLqzf
命令一般的叫我下樓去吃早飯133Please respect copyright.PENANA6MSXskblTx
拿起手機看了看日期133Please respect copyright.PENANAzYeCtIJ8LH
今天是2月28日133Please respect copyright.PENANAoUnbgN4F30
於是我換上了運動服133Please respect copyright.PENANA693cIQDXWk
僅有在有體育課的日子我才會穿上運動服133Please respect copyright.PENANAUzxDHlJg8c
對平常都穿著制服的我來說今天是特別的日子133Please respect copyright.PENANAndQzOM5H2u
我喜歡穿制服,僅僅是因為那樣更加貼近我的理想。133Please respect copyright.PENANAYuuNTYqhZW
完食後我便朝著離家僅有百米遠的學校前進133Please respect copyright.PENANAcQHckIsABi
每次在路上我都感到強烈的不適應133Please respect copyright.PENANAU5jeAFJMWc
那是一種讓我認為到自己不應該在這世上、不應該與大家過著同樣生活的感受133Please respect copyright.PENANAvIc3Jj5Yfi
「我為什麼在這裡?」多次向自己提出疑問133Please respect copyright.PENANAYclXvJ23eG
在旁人看來大概只是些中二病的幻想133Please respect copyright.PENANA2ay0E9trxR
但對我來說卻是切切實實的真實,但現實也是種幻想133Please respect copyright.PENANAoDBmnHV3WA
那麼 那種感覺究竟是什麼?我不知道133Please respect copyright.PENANAAqPAZSpmbY
就這樣抱著疑問又過了重複的一天133Please respect copyright.PENANAIQwjL9Uxba
回到房間便一如往常地開始了線上遊戲133Please respect copyright.PENANA1rPjeSMh1j
那長52公分寬33公分的方框不單是螢幕也是通往異世界、理想世界的大門133Please respect copyright.PENANA28ZUglaf6m
在那裏我扮演著自己的理想的133Please respect copyright.PENANAV8JziXhz4d
不僅受人喜愛又健談扮演著吉祥物般的角色133Please respect copyright.PENANAELcd14mQSS
對我來說那便是理想133Please respect copyright.PENANAXDfhZOM4cf
一個受到所有人的青睞又不招人忌妒的角色133Please respect copyright.PENANAOERxsZddhG
但那卻難以維持,自己對周遭越來越恐懼133Please respect copyright.PENANA7EEHxAlon2
對每個人都開始了嫉妒與猜疑,害怕著自己那面具被扯下,醜陋的臉龐被看見133Please respect copyright.PENANAguKhZaXInp
理想如同刀子一般刺進我心133Please respect copyright.PENANAJ2e5FTMluS
恐懼、開心、懷疑、痛苦等等情緒開始充斥於我自身133Please respect copyright.PENANAPPfasfWWlP
與自己原本的理想完全相反,簡直像是第二個地獄一般133Please respect copyright.PENANADVKrYAamA4
「阿......完了...」內心深處響起了這麼一句話133Please respect copyright.PENANARb5uNVs1A2
太陽再次升起,沒錯祂又升起了,像是在嘲笑我一般。133Please respect copyright.PENANAmK74wnxkBd
2月29日,今天也是特別的日子呢,不是對我而是對世界來說133Please respect copyright.PENANAR14DcyPkHT
學校-人間煉獄,為了朝向理想的我穿著制服,坐在角落的我因為陰沉的個性與他人毫無交流133Please respect copyright.PENANASWyOTIyea0
與那些在上下課期間都活躍的人們活在不同世界的我暗自嘆息133Please respect copyright.PENANARgSMrH2pJO
「跟理想完全不同呢。」133Please respect copyright.PENANAMqTabgIAan
今天我因為有想看的書而來到圖書館133Please respect copyright.PENANAXiLeqomXvR
我喜歡圖書館133Please respect copyright.PENANAoQjffIOXU3
因為這裡的安靜讓我就像融入環境般133Please respect copyright.PENANAOjG7SV6CEj
異物感減少了、減少了、減少了?133Please respect copyright.PENANA4QPu39aM8f
難道我這種人也能有這樣的歸屬嗎?133Please respect copyright.PENANA8MB00jBylD
找到了、找到了、找到了?133Please respect copyright.PENANAzMMrnD5q3H
找到我想看的書了,將它從書櫃中抽出133Please respect copyright.PENANA1KhGb6ggiZ
像是將它從它的歸屬中抽離一般133Please respect copyright.PENANAKFYTRQMcR3
這種行為讓我露出了笑容133Please respect copyright.PENANAZqeLUoKyQP
不自覺的毫不刻意的自然的笑容133Please respect copyright.PENANAQhNQ0cQVzy
當下的我完全沒有發現自己的表情不同以往的扭曲起來133Please respect copyright.PENANAHTukHRWFAe
(阿,這麼說來是從那時候開始的阿133Please respect copyright.PENANAUtDwtQQJsX
小時候看見野獸獵食的樣子那血肉模糊的樣子133Please respect copyright.PENANAvgQR0Repvw
我似乎迷上了那種血腥133Please respect copyright.PENANAai43AOtQUQ
那種單方面的暴虐之類的)133Please respect copyright.PENANAqCWARjkS23
將書拿出後突然無法好好站穩133Please respect copyright.PENANA4Tu3u49297
眼前一黑133Please respect copyright.PENANA3B9BhQc7Ym
要是就這麼倒下我便會打破這寧靜吧133Please respect copyright.PENANADPc6LGstGH
好不容易站穩後卻因強光無法睜開眼133Please respect copyright.PENANAusBIuPbwoY
強光...?133Please respect copyright.PENANAn6Ue8jjc9r
這圖書館哪會有什麼強光?難道是在醫院?不對,我還站著。133Please respect copyright.PENANAGU1vwq6wzV
眼睛終於稍微適應了亮光133Please respect copyright.PENANAg8RuXABUvn
睜開眼看見開闊的草原133Please respect copyright.PENANAzgG7Eg5Y6f
草原?133Please respect copyright.PENANAKIA0n0L90n
我的腦袋開始思考著無數可能133Please respect copyright.PENANAG7St6jbZlB
幻覺...?難道我終於瘋了嗎?還是說...異世界...?那個我曾多次幻想的事發生了嗎?133Please respect copyright.PENANAa55p4ThnUH
回過神來我發現自己正在笑著133Please respect copyright.PENANA7AIpEHN9Oe
笑?133Please respect copyright.PENANAX1bqEOZfkO
是因為困惑?無法理解?發狂?欣喜?133Please respect copyright.PENANAYngRcsi8MI
狂笑著133Please respect copyright.PENANAbPbLOW1daa
打從生下來第一次的133Please respect copyright.PENANAPP8U4pkNXt
扭曲的狂笑133Please respect copyright.PENANApoke4Wi5no
醜陋的狂笑133Please respect copyright.PENANAbGaVRJgCB4
像個小丑一般舞蹈著133Please respect copyright.PENANACMTpwXHxEz
純白的毛球向我撲來133Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0YfBeuGeb
聽見了空氣被切割的聲音133Please respect copyright.PENANAHmUoH9cGPY
純白的毛球消失了,低下頭朝草地看去133Please respect copyright.PENANAcU03dPkhJM
那潔白的身軀已經染上鮮豔的紅色133Please respect copyright.PENANATlXNxkLBan
右手感到重量,看向自己的手133Please respect copyright.PENANAxKqkpTVkrW
手裡握著的是染上日落般鮮紅的太刀133Please respect copyright.PENANA8F0Ha5xl2q
又來了,又笑了133Please respect copyright.PENANAiaEtEk4t3q
笑了、笑了、笑了?133Please respect copyright.PENANAgnCIUS9XMe
止不住的瘋狂,對生命的褻瀆133Please respect copyright.PENANALhFrqteHx2
「阿哈哈...阿哈哈哈哈哈----------」133Please respect copyright.PENANAVvWdaQyKve
「同學,在圖書館請保持安靜」133Please respect copyright.PENANAnMRPmB3xTs
剛才的狂氣已蕩然無存133Please respect copyright.PENANAnyNKEQ0FVp
「對...對不起」我向他低頭道歉後便安靜地朝櫃台走去133Please respect copyright.PENANAyBpodAJuay
我本來就是為了借書而來133Please respect copyright.PENANAKO7n95KTaf
剛才看見的一切讓我再一次認為自己已然不正常
看到眼前被一分為二的生物133Please respect copyright.PENANAZjJWb7YROn
血液四散、內臟也散落一地133Please respect copyright.PENANAWAnyPRm7em
為甚麼我的心情這麼的愉悅?我不知道133Please respect copyright.PENANA7KVaWPR9wW
看著手中的太刀感到非常熟悉133Please respect copyright.PENANA1pV3tivLps
與我在遊戲中所使用的武器一模一樣133Please respect copyright.PENANAmZtJ8hct46
我仍穿著高中制服133Please respect copyright.PENANA5eAKnvucC1
但步伐變得輕盈133Please respect copyright.PENANAdBxSsmRaUW
先前揮出的一刀也如反射動作一般
我仍身處於那幻覺世界133Please respect copyright.PENANAqslAqILEFm
走在草原上與一群人相遇133Please respect copyright.PENANASKXLQiJxJF
他們似乎是打算在此紮營的旅行商人133Please respect copyright.PENANAfOW0vXjIcP
他們對於我的打扮毫不意外133Please respect copyright.PENANAeyBn14dbuw
說是最近很流行這種穿搭
四周充斥著慘叫133Please respect copyright.PENANARJr5zXFhjX
嘈雜。133Please respect copyright.PENANAu2ruxr0YE5
好討厭阿,好吵阿133Please respect copyright.PENANAdVXX3yf2Kz
「妳...妳到底是甚麼人!為甚麼要做這種事!」133Please respect copyright.PENANAch5PXGgzhy
這是在向我提問嗎?我不知道133Please respect copyright.PENANA84M8x52QVY
微弱的月光透過帳篷的縫隙133Please respect copyright.PENANAj9e2TVcciK
一名少女獨自站著?133Please respect copyright.PENANAQZYXM30Z0m
靜謐。133Please respect copyright.PENANAVumnELMVui
不再有人發問133Please respect copyright.PENANAXqfjGuq0iH
看見再一次被染上鮮血的刀133Please respect copyright.PENANAQx6UvbGeMG
看見自己的笑容133Please respect copyright.PENANAEaoA7Ezuhb
看見了人類的頭顱133Please respect copyright.PENANAhE2K9sgvml
看見了133Please respect copyright.PENANAcHmXXPKwXQ
自己的內心...?
太陽又一次升起,宛如詛咒一般133Please respect copyright.PENANAclg0X6deqj
奇怪的夢境133Please respect copyright.PENANAQQAn6eegu7
我果然是瘋了吧133Please respect copyright.PENANAV38wuIbiDP
但我再怎麼瘋狂133Please respect copyright.PENANAh6eMLrHjr3
應該也不會去殺人133Please respect copyright.PENANA7iIJ85ZEZU
雖說我曾想過自殺,但一次對他人下手的想法也沒有133Please respect copyright.PENANAyQpvRUxlW9
夢中的我在笑133Please respect copyright.PENANAEyhHR3oTVi
難道我的未來是那種樣子的嗎?我不知道133Please respect copyright.PENANAfH6irbXleD
抱持著疑問又過了重複的一天?
早晨的新聞上寫著133Please respect copyright.PENANAzg6DeJn66g
「2月2日」133Please respect copyright.PENANAaoX6mC8TKi