也許是因為太專注於此,他沒有注意到門外有人悄悄靠近,然後就站在門前駐足了一陣子才輕巧離去。45Please respect copyright.PENANAFqFd1pGXaG
45Please respect copyright.PENANAJagw0bXtU3
細小的光粒子從門縫中溜入,在不被發現的情況下貼服神田的墨黑衣擺、亞連攤在枕上的潔白髮梢,光澤暗去。45Please respect copyright.PENANA5G1WrclqXm
45Please respect copyright.PENANALSjkaPdoLD
……45Please respect copyright.PENANA1l3ycE7qvG
45Please respect copyright.PENANAwbbRCeHF2S
45Please respect copyright.PENANA9x2MxbclOL
45Please respect copyright.PENANAsmlDY2tT1w
從來沒有看過如此乾淨的色彩和清澈的眸子──45Please respect copyright.PENANAEBAR8L235p
45Please respect copyright.PENANAK4pYwrMx0P
他記起第一次見到白髮少年的那一刻,先是為他純白的髮色驚疑然後是驚艷,接著誤以為是惡魔打了一場,才被趕來的少女阻止。45Please respect copyright.PENANAYEDps6NTm3
45Please respect copyright.PENANAxFVw9wzMI0
這似乎註定了,之後他們將吵吵鬧鬧的度過每次見面、相處。45Please respect copyright.PENANAUIoIunMVC7
45Please respect copyright.PENANAzrH9czXApL
尤其每次刻意惹惱白髮少年,明知道自己的個性被人所詬病反而變本加厲,幾次對著槓接著還為他取了一個綽號──「豆芽菜」。45Please respect copyright.PENANA8h3jMONyNb
45Please respect copyright.PENANAzltI2RmJk1
很久很久他都是這麼叫著,除了在前方加上一些有的沒的沒營養形容詞,例如白癡、笨蛋……諸如此類。45Please respect copyright.PENANAhEdQMloWqW
45Please respect copyright.PENANAxU1OF7f5Tp
……現在回想起來突然覺得自己很幼稚、很愚蠢。45Please respect copyright.PENANAXIDd2lJy8Q
45Please respect copyright.PENANALcwaZ4IOoZ
──不過這不是重點,擺一邊先略過、略過。45Please respect copyright.PENANAYGJnnLvYvU
45Please respect copyright.PENANAduLNB2a1gQ
然後一起出了幾次任務。45Please respect copyright.PENANA58LvpWwPvA
45Please respect copyright.PENANAHAuHaNdHFG
第一次一起回收聖潔又因為理念不同暴發衝突,他承認自己個性極差可以見人就吵,但……從沒有哪個人能一再引起他情緒波動,更沒想到少年的眼淚會讓他心悸,雖然當時只是微微睜大雙眼,可是無法忽視心裡的一陣騷動。45Please respect copyright.PENANAKO52SX0rWX
45Please respect copyright.PENANAvpeZJ5ohxw
雖然很快又因為惡魔復起大戰一場,將事情給忽略過去。45Please respect copyright.PENANAO2haZFHcII
45Please respect copyright.PENANAutCgOrqLOj
可是……45Please respect copyright.PENANA3zGJaB0KVe
45Please respect copyright.PENANA6WnJPONWE1
「神田,如果可以,我還是想當一個可以救人的破壞者。」45Please respect copyright.PENANAmSrAuMJyb9
45Please respect copyright.PENANA1yDWXWgVpf
一句話,不知為何如此動人、聽著心都痛了,不得不刻進腦海最深處。45Please respect copyright.PENANAR2ftVI6u4r
45Please respect copyright.PENANAeIt8murg77
那時的他也許發現了什麼,但只是沉默看著當作什麼也不曉得。45Please respect copyright.PENANADLXfr7tQNk
45Please respect copyright.PENANAtglFSUaKhC
一別之後再見面是很久之後,他這才知道白髮少年「幾乎死過一回」,那時因為忙於和惡魔群對戰,且隨後被捲入亂七八糟的方舟「闖關」旅程,連自己也差點掛上一輪,何況據說曾經掛點的傢伙不時活蹦亂跳的指責他不是。45Please respect copyright.PENANAq8MyNk3PVp
45Please respect copyright.PENANAfQ5KrX7o8V
假裝遺忘了,每一次聽到對方消息的刺痛感受。45Please respect copyright.PENANAgSoIzDxXrU
45Please respect copyright.PENANAxPkoaqXUmR
一回又一回,他忽略或當作看到自己的心。45Please respect copyright.PENANA7zegGL2TsJ
45Please respect copyright.PENANAUrRTbyo8nC
那樣的記憶後來回想起來會有心被撕裂的感受,一個差點成真的消息就能使他如此在乎,如果這是真的呢?他……不敢去想。45Please respect copyright.PENANAxxxkNns1F8
45Please respect copyright.PENANAvicCtcI0C1
原來自己也會逃避。45Please respect copyright.PENANAYDJaTB8pm7
45Please respect copyright.PENANAbYW5ZE3qen
後來、又是後來……他更認識「亞連」這個人,原來也有不輸給自己悲傷過往,他們都不能弄清楚自己到底是誰、到底該定位成怎樣的一個存在?45Please respect copyright.PENANA4lqgTErhtB
45Please respect copyright.PENANAtLGwvAiv0q
一起走過更多時光、一起經歷更多事件,雖然仍然吵吵鬧鬧,但如果有人問他是否討厭那名白髮少年……45Please respect copyright.PENANAbPe5iJ946y
45Please respect copyright.PENANA97s065Ev6P
如果回答了打從心底厭惡,他無法不心虛。45Please respect copyright.PENANAt9vCuOdXRo
45Please respect copyright.PENANA2YaR4vSi5l
……45Please respect copyright.PENANATzkhVvgs0j
45Please respect copyright.PENANAVWmySugVux
這是為什麼?明明那人的個性就是他最厭煩的那種,容易心軟、容易同情,對所有人寬容只對自己殘酷,身上還有惡魔的痕跡……45Please respect copyright.PENANAGx4bGNKfzM
45Please respect copyright.PENANA3aYAz7CvvW
心底根本一點也不快樂,為什麼要笑?45Please respect copyright.PENANA6creDxeeRI
45Please respect copyright.PENANABk0TTIktDD
既然懂得哭泣,為什麼淚水都是為他人而流?45Please respect copyright.PENANAKEFp72fkMR
45Please respect copyright.PENANA5pR08IGnA2
就算是敵人,只要有任何理由他就要為對方傷心,為什麼?45Please respect copyright.PENANAuUAUc0UO1N
45Please respect copyright.PENANA3WysnMs5y5
反而在自己悲痛欲絕時留不下一滴淚水……總是對所有人微笑。45Please respect copyright.PENANAyQuuSujG6d
45Please respect copyright.PENANAsGNak9lue4
這到底是為什麼?45Please respect copyright.PENANApwV9FWzvgM
45Please respect copyright.PENANAs7aJPkA8HM
這樣看不清自己的人他最輕蔑了不是嗎?45Please respect copyright.PENANAfLpDModwc1
45Please respect copyright.PENANAww69z8LSth
可是……是不是自己也同樣看不清自己?45Please respect copyright.PENANA3hwFVOfkAv
45Please respect copyright.PENANANKifSsTdyy
過去的傷痛把黑色的瞳孔蒙上一層紗幕,尋尋覓覓他發誓在沒找到「那人」之前決不能死……這樣的自己到底又活得像什麼了?45Please respect copyright.PENANASARpWJvw0Y
45Please respect copyright.PENANAa4IVF9O18C
並不完全是那記憶的主人,只能說是那記憶的主人促成他的存在,其實他應該是個完整的個體,卻被午夜夢迴驚醒,背負著不是自己所有的記憶活著,在每人面前建築不需要的牆。45Please respect copyright.PENANA9WlRnj2bcX
45Please respect copyright.PENANALYm9at8NGo
個性可能真的很冷漠很孤僻,但他做的事卻沒能用這些理由解釋。45Please respect copyright.PENANAb5FeOJRdKc
45Please respect copyright.PENANAasKm6zRgRX
……也該問問自己為什麼了。45Please respect copyright.PENANAezhIx4Y5xW
45Please respect copyright.PENANAOg1BIj1cLw
可不是?45Please respect copyright.PENANAiQRznH4Xye
45Please respect copyright.PENANArVmJIqAR25
終於知道自己為什麼討厭他卻說不出隻字片語。45Please respect copyright.PENANAEokyJQ1DKk
45Please respect copyright.PENANACw8S3gcoKZ
原來他討厭別人跟他一樣傻,他們這兩人……真是蠢斃了!45Please respect copyright.PENANA5SNVADHoPd
45Please respect copyright.PENANAqcM7bQhetb
蠢得讓人不敢相信,而自己莫名在此刻認清。45Please respect copyright.PENANA56cS1xtF2V
45Please respect copyright.PENANAl6eg6RK7Im
過往的畫面一次一次浮現腦海,閉起眼睛不用費力也能看得更清楚,有些刻意忽視的如今想起來清楚的像什麼一樣,雖然不懂……可是心頭幾番掙扎後決定靜下心去體會。45Please respect copyright.PENANA4fvMoYUlAy
45Please respect copyright.PENANA6wA13ApUtO
到底剛剛始終無法靜下心是為了什麼?45Please respect copyright.PENANATyeCDL42FZ
45Please respect copyright.PENANAB5Q7lsxeGO
畫面轉向下一幕,亞連開心的笑容……45Please respect copyright.PENANAWUf0ypzcrS
45Please respect copyright.PENANA8UDLU7PvNx
他喜歡、很喜歡那乾淨清澈、如果可以再更少去一點隱隱不安會更好的……笑容。45Please respect copyright.PENANAVUChEEiPYq
45Please respect copyright.PENANAr8Kq0gCSfK
這就是答案。45Please respect copyright.PENANAir74LOIy1b
45Please respect copyright.PENANAkRDqHuJ17s
「……」墨黑的眼在此時睜開,此刻起帶上了過去沒有的神采。45Please respect copyright.PENANAqPrSLqSL8a
45Please respect copyright.PENANAcl06IN9ubD
…………45Please respect copyright.PENANAgKTTaH49N1
45Please respect copyright.PENANAf55kk9RajF
……45Please respect copyright.PENANAN4VGSJh3qs
45Please respect copyright.PENANARjUj1xAaQI
45Please respect copyright.PENANAtSYdOv0pC5
45Please respect copyright.PENANAJFbxWT4jGu
ns216.73.216.10da2 45Please respect copyright.PENANAJagw0bXtU3
細小的光粒子從門縫中溜入,在不被發現的情況下貼服神田的墨黑衣擺、亞連攤在枕上的潔白髮梢,光澤暗去。45Please respect copyright.PENANA5G1WrclqXm
45Please respect copyright.PENANALSjkaPdoLD
……45Please respect copyright.PENANA1l3ycE7qvG
45Please respect copyright.PENANAwbbRCeHF2S
45Please respect copyright.PENANA9x2MxbclOL
45Please respect copyright.PENANAsmlDY2tT1w
從來沒有看過如此乾淨的色彩和清澈的眸子──45Please respect copyright.PENANAEBAR8L235p
45Please respect copyright.PENANAK4pYwrMx0P
他記起第一次見到白髮少年的那一刻,先是為他純白的髮色驚疑然後是驚艷,接著誤以為是惡魔打了一場,才被趕來的少女阻止。45Please respect copyright.PENANAYEDps6NTm3
45Please respect copyright.PENANAxFVw9wzMI0
這似乎註定了,之後他們將吵吵鬧鬧的度過每次見面、相處。45Please respect copyright.PENANAUIoIunMVC7
45Please respect copyright.PENANAzrH9czXApL
尤其每次刻意惹惱白髮少年,明知道自己的個性被人所詬病反而變本加厲,幾次對著槓接著還為他取了一個綽號──「豆芽菜」。45Please respect copyright.PENANA8h3jMONyNb
45Please respect copyright.PENANAzltI2RmJk1
很久很久他都是這麼叫著,除了在前方加上一些有的沒的沒營養形容詞,例如白癡、笨蛋……諸如此類。45Please respect copyright.PENANAhEdQMloWqW
45Please respect copyright.PENANAxU1OF7f5Tp
……現在回想起來突然覺得自己很幼稚、很愚蠢。45Please respect copyright.PENANAXIDd2lJy8Q
45Please respect copyright.PENANALcwaZ4IOoZ
──不過這不是重點,擺一邊先略過、略過。45Please respect copyright.PENANAYGJnnLvYvU
45Please respect copyright.PENANAduLNB2a1gQ
然後一起出了幾次任務。45Please respect copyright.PENANA58LvpWwPvA
45Please respect copyright.PENANAHAuHaNdHFG
第一次一起回收聖潔又因為理念不同暴發衝突,他承認自己個性極差可以見人就吵,但……從沒有哪個人能一再引起他情緒波動,更沒想到少年的眼淚會讓他心悸,雖然當時只是微微睜大雙眼,可是無法忽視心裡的一陣騷動。45Please respect copyright.PENANAKO52SX0rWX
45Please respect copyright.PENANAvpeZJ5ohxw
雖然很快又因為惡魔復起大戰一場,將事情給忽略過去。45Please respect copyright.PENANAO2haZFHcII
45Please respect copyright.PENANAutCgOrqLOj
可是……45Please respect copyright.PENANA3zGJaB0KVe
45Please respect copyright.PENANA6WnJPONWE1
「神田,如果可以,我還是想當一個可以救人的破壞者。」45Please respect copyright.PENANAmSrAuMJyb9
45Please respect copyright.PENANA1yDWXWgVpf
一句話,不知為何如此動人、聽著心都痛了,不得不刻進腦海最深處。45Please respect copyright.PENANAR2ftVI6u4r
45Please respect copyright.PENANAeIt8murg77
那時的他也許發現了什麼,但只是沉默看著當作什麼也不曉得。45Please respect copyright.PENANADLXfr7tQNk
45Please respect copyright.PENANAtglFSUaKhC
一別之後再見面是很久之後,他這才知道白髮少年「幾乎死過一回」,那時因為忙於和惡魔群對戰,且隨後被捲入亂七八糟的方舟「闖關」旅程,連自己也差點掛上一輪,何況據說曾經掛點的傢伙不時活蹦亂跳的指責他不是。45Please respect copyright.PENANAq8MyNk3PVp
45Please respect copyright.PENANAfQ5KrX7o8V
假裝遺忘了,每一次聽到對方消息的刺痛感受。45Please respect copyright.PENANAgSoIzDxXrU
45Please respect copyright.PENANAxPkoaqXUmR
一回又一回,他忽略或當作看到自己的心。45Please respect copyright.PENANA7zegGL2TsJ
45Please respect copyright.PENANAUrRTbyo8nC
那樣的記憶後來回想起來會有心被撕裂的感受,一個差點成真的消息就能使他如此在乎,如果這是真的呢?他……不敢去想。45Please respect copyright.PENANAxxxkNns1F8
45Please respect copyright.PENANAvicCtcI0C1
原來自己也會逃避。45Please respect copyright.PENANAYDJaTB8pm7
45Please respect copyright.PENANAbYW5ZE3qen
後來、又是後來……他更認識「亞連」這個人,原來也有不輸給自己悲傷過往,他們都不能弄清楚自己到底是誰、到底該定位成怎樣的一個存在?45Please respect copyright.PENANA4lqgTErhtB
45Please respect copyright.PENANAtLGwvAiv0q
一起走過更多時光、一起經歷更多事件,雖然仍然吵吵鬧鬧,但如果有人問他是否討厭那名白髮少年……45Please respect copyright.PENANAbPe5iJ946y
45Please respect copyright.PENANA97s065Ev6P
如果回答了打從心底厭惡,他無法不心虛。45Please respect copyright.PENANAt9vCuOdXRo
45Please respect copyright.PENANA2YaR4vSi5l
……45Please respect copyright.PENANATzkhVvgs0j
45Please respect copyright.PENANAVWmySugVux
這是為什麼?明明那人的個性就是他最厭煩的那種,容易心軟、容易同情,對所有人寬容只對自己殘酷,身上還有惡魔的痕跡……45Please respect copyright.PENANAGx4bGNKfzM
45Please respect copyright.PENANA3aYAz7CvvW
心底根本一點也不快樂,為什麼要笑?45Please respect copyright.PENANA6creDxeeRI
45Please respect copyright.PENANABk0TTIktDD
既然懂得哭泣,為什麼淚水都是為他人而流?45Please respect copyright.PENANAKEFp72fkMR
45Please respect copyright.PENANA5pR08IGnA2
就算是敵人,只要有任何理由他就要為對方傷心,為什麼?45Please respect copyright.PENANAuUAUc0UO1N
45Please respect copyright.PENANA3WysnMs5y5
反而在自己悲痛欲絕時留不下一滴淚水……總是對所有人微笑。45Please respect copyright.PENANAyQuuSujG6d
45Please respect copyright.PENANAsGNak9lue4
這到底是為什麼?45Please respect copyright.PENANApwV9FWzvgM
45Please respect copyright.PENANAs7aJPkA8HM
這樣看不清自己的人他最輕蔑了不是嗎?45Please respect copyright.PENANAfLpDModwc1
45Please respect copyright.PENANAww69z8LSth
可是……是不是自己也同樣看不清自己?45Please respect copyright.PENANA3hwFVOfkAv
45Please respect copyright.PENANANKifSsTdyy
過去的傷痛把黑色的瞳孔蒙上一層紗幕,尋尋覓覓他發誓在沒找到「那人」之前決不能死……這樣的自己到底又活得像什麼了?45Please respect copyright.PENANASARpWJvw0Y
45Please respect copyright.PENANAa4IVF9O18C
並不完全是那記憶的主人,只能說是那記憶的主人促成他的存在,其實他應該是個完整的個體,卻被午夜夢迴驚醒,背負著不是自己所有的記憶活著,在每人面前建築不需要的牆。45Please respect copyright.PENANA9WlRnj2bcX
45Please respect copyright.PENANALYm9at8NGo
個性可能真的很冷漠很孤僻,但他做的事卻沒能用這些理由解釋。45Please respect copyright.PENANAb5FeOJRdKc
45Please respect copyright.PENANAasKm6zRgRX
……也該問問自己為什麼了。45Please respect copyright.PENANAezhIx4Y5xW
45Please respect copyright.PENANAOg1BIj1cLw
可不是?45Please respect copyright.PENANAiQRznH4Xye
45Please respect copyright.PENANArVmJIqAR25
終於知道自己為什麼討厭他卻說不出隻字片語。45Please respect copyright.PENANAEokyJQ1DKk
45Please respect copyright.PENANACw8S3gcoKZ
原來他討厭別人跟他一樣傻,他們這兩人……真是蠢斃了!45Please respect copyright.PENANA5SNVADHoPd
45Please respect copyright.PENANAqcM7bQhetb
蠢得讓人不敢相信,而自己莫名在此刻認清。45Please respect copyright.PENANA56cS1xtF2V
45Please respect copyright.PENANAl6eg6RK7Im
過往的畫面一次一次浮現腦海,閉起眼睛不用費力也能看得更清楚,有些刻意忽視的如今想起來清楚的像什麼一樣,雖然不懂……可是心頭幾番掙扎後決定靜下心去體會。45Please respect copyright.PENANA4fvMoYUlAy
45Please respect copyright.PENANA6wA13ApUtO
到底剛剛始終無法靜下心是為了什麼?45Please respect copyright.PENANATyeCDL42FZ
45Please respect copyright.PENANAB5Q7lsxeGO
畫面轉向下一幕,亞連開心的笑容……45Please respect copyright.PENANAWUf0ypzcrS
45Please respect copyright.PENANA8UDLU7PvNx
他喜歡、很喜歡那乾淨清澈、如果可以再更少去一點隱隱不安會更好的……笑容。45Please respect copyright.PENANAVUChEEiPYq
45Please respect copyright.PENANAr8Kq0gCSfK
這就是答案。45Please respect copyright.PENANAir74LOIy1b
45Please respect copyright.PENANAkRDqHuJ17s
「……」墨黑的眼在此時睜開,此刻起帶上了過去沒有的神采。45Please respect copyright.PENANAqPrSLqSL8a
45Please respect copyright.PENANAcl06IN9ubD
…………45Please respect copyright.PENANAgKTTaH49N1
45Please respect copyright.PENANAf55kk9RajF
……45Please respect copyright.PENANAN4VGSJh3qs
45Please respect copyright.PENANARjUj1xAaQI
45Please respect copyright.PENANAtSYdOv0pC5
45Please respect copyright.PENANAJFbxWT4jGu