Art. Crayons, pencils...colors. I been drawing my whole life. From scribbles and Barbie coloring books to the re-drawings of characters without tracing, and more recently, portraits of real people.565Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFawVgF36q
I'm obsessed with art, the ability to create art, the way it feels to know you can create such beauty on nothing more than notebook paper, and the way it feels when other people look at the art you made, their shocked expressions, the praise...I crave these things. 565Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9MGMr2mMB
I wish to be able to draw anything I want. I wish I were more creative. But mostly? I wish I could paint. Nobody seems to care if you can draw. Mostly I see people talking about paint. People love color, and I'm just now getting better with colors pencils, but what do they really like? Paint. Even when I think of art, I think paint. The splash, the stroke...nobody seems to think of pencils like that.565Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXR8G6af6Eq
It's not just that. I don't care too much about what other people do. That's never been me. No, more importantly, I love paint. I want to be able to paint, because I truly think it's much more amazing than graphite (no offense, my dearest No. 2 pencils).565Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4oZ1i3BqU
Even when I was younger, I wanted to paint. My parents bought me some supplies, and I created what I would describe now as some rather awful works, but at the time, it was magic. Sitting in my own world, feeling like an artist, and occasionally glancing over at the TV to watch some movie I'd played. 565Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWJN0ZM6zY
Over the years they got me better supplies, and I still have them (and newer ones), but for a long time I fell out of it, painting only every now and then. The last time I painted was probably about four months ago. I'm improving, no doubt, but it's not...not what I want. It's still stupid looking, and it never turns out right. It's not just the paper I'm using, or the paint, it's me.565Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNdP7SdzK2
Maybe it's just that I need more practice, maybe it's because I'm not creative enough, or maybe it's because I don't have a reason to paint.565Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFe9C8PHjn
But I'm not done. I'll pick up the brush again, and again I'll dream of violet skies, star lit nights, and fireflies.565Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbH0LNriRor
