Art. Crayons, pencils...colors. I been drawing my whole life. From scribbles and Barbie coloring books to the re-drawings of characters without tracing, and more recently, portraits of real people.679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iYPM6o3nw
I'm obsessed with art, the ability to create art, the way it feels to know you can create such beauty on nothing more than notebook paper, and the way it feels when other people look at the art you made, their shocked expressions, the praise...I crave these things. 679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBn4W077b5
I wish to be able to draw anything I want. I wish I were more creative. But mostly? I wish I could paint. Nobody seems to care if you can draw. Mostly I see people talking about paint. People love color, and I'm just now getting better with colors pencils, but what do they really like? Paint. Even when I think of art, I think paint. The splash, the stroke...nobody seems to think of pencils like that.679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCZvQJQVVW
It's not just that. I don't care too much about what other people do. That's never been me. No, more importantly, I love paint. I want to be able to paint, because I truly think it's much more amazing than graphite (no offense, my dearest No. 2 pencils).679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPt4IKwbyLj
Even when I was younger, I wanted to paint. My parents bought me some supplies, and I created what I would describe now as some rather awful works, but at the time, it was magic. Sitting in my own world, feeling like an artist, and occasionally glancing over at the TV to watch some movie I'd played. 679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9RamitAir
Over the years they got me better supplies, and I still have them (and newer ones), but for a long time I fell out of it, painting only every now and then. The last time I painted was probably about four months ago. I'm improving, no doubt, but it's not...not what I want. It's still stupid looking, and it never turns out right. It's not just the paper I'm using, or the paint, it's me.679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlHOBU6Q6L
Maybe it's just that I need more practice, maybe it's because I'm not creative enough, or maybe it's because I don't have a reason to paint.679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqBRAM5cWj
But I'm not done. I'll pick up the brush again, and again I'll dream of violet skies, star lit nights, and fireflies.679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zXIu2N99o
