警告：以下內容涉及敏感議題及部分特殊場面，若感不適，請立即關閉本文。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1KIXn2kHd
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—嗯，我過得超～好
「我沒事。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9dzXDzXbs
「⋯⋯我超好的。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfL0GFZ5bSW
約莫三坪的黑暗中，兩根細長的手指伴隨一段低沉而無力的女聲，在僅有的光源上緩慢移動著。
—說出來你可能不信
幾筆墨黑躍然而出。
—我最近做什麼都超順的欸！92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMue3LmRp5
—每天起床都很莫名很有精神92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRttTDKrGri
—買東西都剛好會遇到不太需要排隊的時段92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjz6YSOjaD
—喔對也不會有沒貨的問題
咑咑咑
—所以不要跟我說什麼是因為賣完了才沒人92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJeKgEXoxA
—還有很多92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtvMiIv5Hs
—像是要趕時間的時候大部分不會遇到紅燈92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWz8Ye8rAGZ
—通勤的時候不太塞車92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0F1uhh48Au
—打字的時候不太需要選字審字92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRu9X1oaH2j
—還有很多其他92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7D0pPadTb2
—反正就是
咑咑咑
—不只事情都確實按著計畫走92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4gPd7uMRP
—還有很多意外的小確幸92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZuSl0BJJa
—房東太太也很好相處92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwPQy45dxD
—你知道92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUNMHPOzQI
—這種便利的小幸運真的是92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBFh1i6gAp
—可遇不可求92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmmIeDzb7H
—所以我最近心情真的92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnu5knmRKRJ
—超好！
咑
「哈哈⋯噗哈哈哈哈⋯⋯⋯咳咳咳⋯」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKERuFhl9SU
幾滴嫣紅的狂笑自嘴角流出，敲擊聲再次響起。
咑咑咑
—然後公司裡啊92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYWHBsjQbV
—大家人都92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeY5bMRH6t
—該怎麼說92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyItfeZ8XBp
—看起來有點難親近的同事實際上是那種外冷內熱的類型92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jSS5ZIFMl
—開始變熟了之後92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRIzcyI8NZ
—發現不只很好說話
咑咑咑
—樂於助人92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKVfyeoAYl
—對大家都很貼心
「⋯很貼心，熱心助人⋯⋯」一坨沾染著幾許赭紅的衛生紙被丟出床外。
—而且主管人也很好92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnskGcrWLx
—架子不高，很有責任感92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoRtqPdpp3
—不會一直讓人覺得很壓迫92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOOEfdltLi
—也不會亂塞一堆無理的工作然後當甩手掌櫃92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUjc243aUf
—而且⋯⋯
⋯⋯
⋯⋯陸陸續續又打了兩分鐘後，敲擊聲再次唐突地停了下來。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡveOLfbxRlH
她看著螢幕，陷入沉默。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdQJ86bywf
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「⋯⋯」
褪下包裹著的厚重棉被，揮開旁邊成堆的衛生紙，她托起身子，走近梳妝台。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4sgPnwzmh
稍顯陳舊的白花藤椅在她的拉扯下發出一聲尖銳叫喊，但她不予理會，徑直坐下。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhNoUXRSVY
「哼哼哼～」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5Hgqj3dyC
一段不知名的旋律輕巧地推開發紫的薄唇，墜落在無光的空虛之中。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbHE1V5rUZ
她拍上化妝水，開始上妝。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLGslHa18D
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「哼哼哼～咳咳⋯⋯」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHblk3iOhzn
一邊扯開喉嚨，盡可能模仿著她那淒美的樂聲，我看著她一步一步完成商業用妝容，開始梳理自己深褐色的長髮。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw13CvKJFEN
琥珀色的扁梳不發一語，輕柔而無聲地帶走了一絲又一絲，渲上幾點鏽斑的棕髮。剩餘的髮絲被撥到右肩上，襯出頸部那圈靛色的瘀青。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKSjmk14bf
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這不是我第一次看她上妝了。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZE1GW545bG
但不管幾次，總覺得有哪裡不太滿意。
是配色不太好嗎？92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxX89uaDps2
眼影太深了嗎？92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCg3kLYe4l
唇色太濃了嗎？92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pjM1964FX
底妝太飽和了嗎？92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHWxGRU3H6
還是真的只是感覺問題？不過我們最近都還是跟以前一樣心情都不錯欸？92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7SjcA83vl
⋯⋯總之，我不太清楚。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFjdvqwF3G
或者說，我一直都沒搞清楚。
我們對視了許久，她看起來似乎也覺得哪裡不太滿意。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSBHUMWyqx
⋯⋯看來是「我們」都沒搞清楚。
「咳咳⋯換身衣服好了⋯⋯」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkrvsOlRG7
幾聲嘶啞傳出，她轉過身去，扶著略微搖晃的白花藤椅，撐起身子緩步邁進。賣力地推開沿途的障礙物，小心避開路上的垃圾、藥丸、藥片，玻璃，塑膠碎片⋯⋯然後抵達衣櫃前，再使勁拉開櫃門。
咚92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMqy7OPS69
砰92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDK5IWh78r
哐92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RcMMSMhjE
⋯⋯吱咿——
仔細淘選出幾件發皺的連身裙裝，她轉回來，比對著問我。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5ylYMswtq
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「這件怎麼樣？」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BRyFalPfA
我搖搖頭。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZpszTHfw3
那是她前幾年穿去聯誼的藍白相間的高腰洋裝，現在已經不適合她了。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTi1lLhuLht
我看見她也搖了搖頭，轉過去提起另一件。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CrGlG0yUf
「咳咳⋯這件⋯咳⋯呢？」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvnpfZprXZ
我搖搖頭。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPN0UMrwiZj
拜託，現在是夏天欸，沒什麼特殊需求的話穿著深色長裙難免不妥吧？妳不熱，我光看著也很熱。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqf46XoIWYx
嘛，不過我們不怎麼出門就是了。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQdbgt3PYo
她似乎愣了一下，但隨即也搖了搖頭，又轉過去提起另一件來。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6LLfUttyz
⋯⋯92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmR0LquOFI8
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就這樣一來一往，我們最終相中了一件白底黑點，V領的綁帶洋裝。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2ob62cvDn
雖說依舊是有點差強人意，但能從那堆東西裡翻出這麼一件來已經是不可多求的奇蹟了。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoggrjQ4DHP
正所謂「可遇不可求」嘛。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeqMO9N2Db
「噗呵⋯」我們相視而笑。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoma4jjRlo3
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換完衣服，她再次拉開藤椅，坐了下來，邊整理梳妝台，邊哼起那段不知名的旋律。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBQl5n7i7U
我也有樣學樣，幫著整理那些瓶瓶罐罐，同時慢慢唱了起來。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSsa2oquUG
經過剛剛的琢磨，這次已經沒那麼痛了。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxiUxJNDgt
雖然偶爾還是會咳個幾下，但沒差，擦擦就好。
「哼哼哼～」
Alprazolam、Estazolam、Triazolam、Chlordiazepoxide、Lorazepam⋯⋯92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rrNf6uVG4
在無數不認識的單字中，我看見她特別挑了幾瓶出來，打開後如品茶般輕嗅了幾下，又蓋了回去。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXY4h5kdPw
也不知道是為什麼，她從去年開始⋯也許是前年？便開始四處購買這樣的藥品。
我知道那些是什麼，而她也知道。
⋯⋯看著她一罐接著一罐，讓蓋回去的藥瓶自然落下。我突然一股怒氣湧上，憤然將梳妝台上所有瓶瓶罐罐一把推開，瞬息之間，整個空間迴響起清澈的共鳴。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzqRddp8nR
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喔對，這是我近幾年聽過最悅耳的聲音。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerofCFr7aT
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哐啷！92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHM52wse0rx
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我在鐵紅色的梳妝台上揀選著，92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMy5VuygTSd
不，不是你。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TlboNfjmc
不是你⋯92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVaTtn5AeP
不是你⋯⋯92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHOgwSZCny
我說了不是你！！！！！！！！！！！92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyerStCswPQ
⋯⋯
砰！！！
我奮力將藤椅往窗邊一甩。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7ja4OLL6d
可惜不知是手勁太小還是方向不對，它只是撞上了衣櫃，落在垃圾堆間。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMU7Cztay2f
我回過頭。
喔⋯對⋯⋯92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGedn8RSHw
你很不錯。
拿起地上的一把美工刀，我輕輕推出刀片，架在她的腕部。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0mskyknPQ
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呼吸92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVx1PsewwTj
越來越急促92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbdLzXYwoB
就是92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2k8Z0N2oZm
現在！92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnApdciBQx
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⋯⋯92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEqJTDcDMW
⋯⋯⋯92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXLdn86OrZ
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「叮鈴—叮鈴—叮鈴—」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqxPUHoDOK
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⋯鬧鐘響了。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXRkvixnkQ
她走向床頭，按下了鬧鐘。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRgRgyTUOM
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我們四目相交。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnsJWbfj5n
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「該吃藥了。」我說。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUZk5kdHfp
「該吃藥了。」她回答道。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlTSzIeo3m
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我撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一顆橢圓的藥丸。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3Zype2L8t
她撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一片雪白的藥片。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFcoV1Bs0G
我們交互著彼此的工作，服下藥物。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlU3fEsg0kz
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按時用藥是很重要的，我想。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFwF0kcuEB
她應該也這麼覺得。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdIoMzjHth
⋯⋯不，她必須這麼覺得。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOStPtSjtZ
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我走到窗邊搬回藤椅，在梳妝台前輕輕放下，坐在那裡，輕哼著不知名的旋律。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pLg7buTKi
她兩手提起嘴角，看向我。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDX8w5QWCAO
再次，我們對視，然後輕笑了一聲。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9VsfKl7Hc
「不用難過。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGcXSyQoOy
不用生氣。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3DqS94IOi
不用委屈。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiy0qp0G8x
不用憤慨。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfV3eyPu7r
今天又是美好的一天。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2dZQNsXhg
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⋯⋯對吧？92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDD5Qvxbku
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