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—嗯，我過得超～好
「我沒事。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLs0AYCKJGN
「⋯⋯我超好的。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFZvJbbVfQ
約莫三坪的黑暗中，兩根細長的手指伴隨一段低沉而無力的女聲，在僅有的光源上緩慢移動著。
—說出來你可能不信
幾筆墨黑躍然而出。
—我最近做什麼都超順的欸！46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtVqOaWNed
—每天起床都很莫名很有精神46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyn6FxFeVN
—買東西都剛好會遇到不太需要排隊的時段46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWFuB2fbXM
—喔對也不會有沒貨的問題
咑咑咑
—所以不要跟我說什麼是因為賣完了才沒人46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWv2fnGL0T1
—還有很多46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTQEiVN1XL
—像是要趕時間的時候大部分不會遇到紅燈46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSUcI0ggbi
—通勤的時候不太塞車46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgWOr5V0hh
—打字的時候不太需要選字審字46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJtffkRY64
—還有很多其他46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9xNlGHKj6
—反正就是
咑咑咑
—不只事情都確實按著計畫走46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvhfQQKYZZ
—還有很多意外的小確幸46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIfdNtEYng
—房東太太也很好相處46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKG6SVX09J
—你知道46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qXhFtijP6
—這種便利的小幸運真的是46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTxso2GRNW
—可遇不可求46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgCl7A5vJH
—所以我最近心情真的46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqdVH9QiD5
—超好！
咑
「哈哈⋯噗哈哈哈哈⋯⋯⋯咳咳咳⋯」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadXomfpuFi
幾滴嫣紅的狂笑自嘴角流出，敲擊聲再次響起。
咑咑咑
—然後公司裡啊46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYlZPDpk7n
—大家人都46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ovm6YJ2cH
—該怎麼說46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZZ8MY2ML0
—看起來有點難親近的同事實際上是那種外冷內熱的類型46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsJfbSOWNb
—開始變熟了之後46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMltMr1xvP0
—發現不只很好說話
咑咑咑
—樂於助人46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCoBPLDAzr
—對大家都很貼心
「⋯很貼心，熱心助人⋯⋯」一坨沾染著幾許赭紅的衛生紙被丟出床外。
—而且主管人也很好46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0buAKPI90s
—架子不高，很有責任感46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5p8BPYX6hP
—不會一直讓人覺得很壓迫46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3n4AUddqE
—也不會亂塞一堆無理的工作然後當甩手掌櫃46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYuyidgSkd
—而且⋯⋯
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⋯⋯陸陸續續又打了兩分鐘後，敲擊聲再次唐突地停了下來。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Yl3CtC3qo
她看著螢幕，陷入沉默。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmctI2uGD6
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「⋯⋯」
褪下包裹著的厚重棉被，揮開旁邊成堆的衛生紙，她托起身子，走近梳妝台。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGctiTgLiy
稍顯陳舊的白花藤椅在她的拉扯下發出一聲尖銳叫喊，但她不予理會，徑直坐下。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SC8Cgks7V
「哼哼哼～」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaw2wZuGMOL
一段不知名的旋律輕巧地推開發紫的薄唇，墜落在無光的空虛之中。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7M015teo8
她拍上化妝水，開始上妝。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQj0pdupiGL
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「哼哼哼～咳咳⋯⋯」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfDC7AfNOc
一邊扯開喉嚨，盡可能模仿著她那淒美的樂聲，我看著她一步一步完成商業用妝容，開始梳理自己深褐色的長髮。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9JZdBrC1o
琥珀色的扁梳不發一語，輕柔而無聲地帶走了一絲又一絲，渲上幾點鏽斑的棕髮。剩餘的髮絲被撥到右肩上，襯出頸部那圈靛色的瘀青。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1sFsYFDnz
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這不是我第一次看她上妝了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeljkubTwC
但不管幾次，總覺得有哪裡不太滿意。
是配色不太好嗎？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjaxxQHfBt
眼影太深了嗎？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPywzudwcq
唇色太濃了嗎？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXv0hd7twtZ
底妝太飽和了嗎？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3czYO8iUDC
還是真的只是感覺問題？不過我們最近都還是跟以前一樣心情都不錯欸？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnLJifRVDH
⋯⋯總之，我不太清楚。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUz9R2b1WK
或者說，我一直都沒搞清楚。
我們對視了許久，她看起來似乎也覺得哪裡不太滿意。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAgWzvCWTk
⋯⋯看來是「我們」都沒搞清楚。
「咳咳⋯換身衣服好了⋯⋯」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirwE55rmiQ
幾聲嘶啞傳出，她轉過身去，扶著略微搖晃的白花藤椅，撐起身子緩步邁進。賣力地推開沿途的障礙物，小心避開路上的垃圾、藥丸、藥片，玻璃，塑膠碎片⋯⋯然後抵達衣櫃前，再使勁拉開櫃門。
咚46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1alD2KMB4
砰46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yhiPj4vVK
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⋯⋯吱咿——
仔細淘選出幾件發皺的連身裙裝，她轉回來，比對著問我。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiZ3CupmZu
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「這件怎麼樣？」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2w6XslC3Z4
我搖搖頭。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnx6ZZa5MxY
那是她前幾年穿去聯誼的藍白相間的高腰洋裝，現在已經不適合她了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvt3RMHAtY1
我看見她也搖了搖頭，轉過去提起另一件。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHDFXEabXt
「咳咳⋯這件⋯咳⋯呢？」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdn2YQa400
我搖搖頭。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pcccbX7yN
拜託，現在是夏天欸，沒什麼特殊需求的話穿著深色長裙難免不妥吧？妳不熱，我光看著也很熱。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHRb9gFyri
嘛，不過我們不怎麼出門就是了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMRYlrBXL0
她似乎愣了一下，但隨即也搖了搖頭，又轉過去提起另一件來。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbEX4wsaAp
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就這樣一來一往，我們最終相中了一件白底黑點，V領的綁帶洋裝。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuxVXm09MK
雖說依舊是有點差強人意，但能從那堆東西裡翻出這麼一件來已經是不可多求的奇蹟了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5ocknBycT
正所謂「可遇不可求」嘛。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nZ3Ahjpxe
「噗呵⋯」我們相視而笑。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbezkm67yHD
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換完衣服，她再次拉開藤椅，坐了下來，邊整理梳妝台，邊哼起那段不知名的旋律。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaSgb1kl6S
我也有樣學樣，幫著整理那些瓶瓶罐罐，同時慢慢唱了起來。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bimE6C2T6
經過剛剛的琢磨，這次已經沒那麼痛了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBS8dn649Wz
雖然偶爾還是會咳個幾下，但沒差，擦擦就好。
「哼哼哼～」
Alprazolam、Estazolam、Triazolam、Chlordiazepoxide、Lorazepam⋯⋯46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86wmP76M3x
在無數不認識的單字中，我看見她特別挑了幾瓶出來，打開後如品茶般輕嗅了幾下，又蓋了回去。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzAtiJDiMq
也不知道是為什麼，她從去年開始⋯也許是前年？便開始四處購買這樣的藥品。
我知道那些是什麼，而她也知道。
⋯⋯看著她一罐接著一罐，讓蓋回去的藥瓶自然落下。我突然一股怒氣湧上，憤然將梳妝台上所有瓶瓶罐罐一把推開，瞬息之間，整個空間迴響起清澈的共鳴。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fG6oQwTzc
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喔對，這是我近幾年聽過最悅耳的聲音。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46HfsDgorZ
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哐啷！46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv43iZAO67D
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我在鐵紅色的梳妝台上揀選著，46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4C4iC39tQ
不，不是你。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUX488SNkqu
不是你⋯46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡao5AnVb4S7
不是你⋯⋯46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FPGci6uU4
我說了不是你！！！！！！！！！！！46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnNETo53Tl
⋯⋯
砰！！！
我奮力將藤椅往窗邊一甩。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpswDSAwo8
可惜不知是手勁太小還是方向不對，它只是撞上了衣櫃，落在垃圾堆間。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn875bHhS13
我回過頭。
喔⋯對⋯⋯46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjJm77UVnC
你很不錯。
拿起地上的一把美工刀，我輕輕推出刀片，架在她的腕部。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FKAGNMVpU
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呼吸46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBicqneGCV
越來越急促46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0jiDyp5xL
就是46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzyph7wIyc
現在！46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7e5GfUPMzy
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⋯⋯46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMD4I0Nudyu
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「叮鈴—叮鈴—叮鈴—」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndULBiewIJ
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⋯鬧鐘響了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLxOZpptDG
她走向床頭，按下了鬧鐘。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGknx55aU5
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我們四目相交。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdj65QP0PJ
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「該吃藥了。」我說。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEpt9dnt49
「該吃藥了。」她回答道。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmva71D3oS
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我撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一顆橢圓的藥丸。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xv0AcG0Fu
她撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一片雪白的藥片。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIs33aqYJU
我們交互著彼此的工作，服下藥物。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumK4RdupK1
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按時用藥是很重要的，我想。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCnPwsrkaq
她應該也這麼覺得。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpMXM4fSAm
⋯⋯不，她必須這麼覺得。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TGVFYtg7b
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我走到窗邊搬回藤椅，在梳妝台前輕輕放下，坐在那裡，輕哼著不知名的旋律。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoVAwwLOmb
她兩手提起嘴角，看向我。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqH3i7X8Jl
再次，我們對視，然後輕笑了一聲。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrv9oilFnRx
「不用難過。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVXdVXNvzt
不用生氣。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2wd2sTGw8
不用委屈。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oBDoaJCNv
不用憤慨。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZcOnTcfcQ
今天又是美好的一天。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV117xsb7fd
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⋯⋯對吧？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprwxf3LgCX
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