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—嗯，我過得超～好
「我沒事。」59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdw8roKG5yH
「⋯⋯我超好的。」59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTBR0V5GOs
約莫三坪的黑暗中，兩根細長的手指伴隨一段低沉而無力的女聲，在僅有的光源上緩慢移動著。
—說出來你可能不信
幾筆墨黑躍然而出。
—我最近做什麼都超順的欸！59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5TH0zdCvK
—每天起床都很莫名很有精神59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV73A41IIfP
—買東西都剛好會遇到不太需要排隊的時段59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQzo9b4B5t
—喔對也不會有沒貨的問題
咑咑咑
—所以不要跟我說什麼是因為賣完了才沒人59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsd6xfCMYM
—還有很多59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkereAJIm1
—像是要趕時間的時候大部分不會遇到紅燈59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZgqARtxcG
—通勤的時候不太塞車59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPB91Mp4Fw8
—打字的時候不太需要選字審字59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSaOoZpwGs
—還有很多其他59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQGVURfNaT
—反正就是
咑咑咑
—不只事情都確實按著計畫走59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpAFtiTFNq
—還有很多意外的小確幸59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7AUI3C51s
—房東太太也很好相處59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6gcPGYhDu
—你知道59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWt061DJABv
—這種便利的小幸運真的是59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXXq0dAGXe
—可遇不可求59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2iPO3yVw7
—所以我最近心情真的59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0XNLsUESN
—超好！
咑
「哈哈⋯噗哈哈哈哈⋯⋯⋯咳咳咳⋯」59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQFS21mQHe
幾滴嫣紅的狂笑自嘴角流出，敲擊聲再次響起。
咑咑咑
—然後公司裡啊59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoPg28dKs1
—大家人都59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTR70L1VN5r
—該怎麼說59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekHztsc0e4
—看起來有點難親近的同事實際上是那種外冷內熱的類型59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyu4eeHx8D
—開始變熟了之後59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzmwhzhI87
—發現不只很好說話
咑咑咑
—樂於助人59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTqn3XoRs4
—對大家都很貼心
「⋯很貼心，熱心助人⋯⋯」一坨沾染著幾許赭紅的衛生紙被丟出床外。
—而且主管人也很好59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn732x19kct
—架子不高，很有責任感59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQpggJRS8V
—不會一直讓人覺得很壓迫59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SIwcqmKky
—也不會亂塞一堆無理的工作然後當甩手掌櫃59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxN1UwZAtv
—而且⋯⋯
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⋯⋯陸陸續續又打了兩分鐘後，敲擊聲再次唐突地停了下來。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteOeu0Ns90
她看著螢幕，陷入沉默。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpXjamqfUN
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「⋯⋯」
褪下包裹著的厚重棉被，揮開旁邊成堆的衛生紙，她托起身子，走近梳妝台。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUCwmVPxem
稍顯陳舊的白花藤椅在她的拉扯下發出一聲尖銳叫喊，但她不予理會，徑直坐下。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSIeKe3dnz
「哼哼哼～」59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjmbCBwSXS
一段不知名的旋律輕巧地推開發紫的薄唇，墜落在無光的空虛之中。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDxMkIJWeg
她拍上化妝水，開始上妝。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWyTGPf6Dd
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「哼哼哼～咳咳⋯⋯」59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsBSLdejBh
一邊扯開喉嚨，盡可能模仿著她那淒美的樂聲，我看著她一步一步完成商業用妝容，開始梳理自己深褐色的長髮。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOh837lJDD
琥珀色的扁梳不發一語，輕柔而無聲地帶走了一絲又一絲，渲上幾點鏽斑的棕髮。剩餘的髮絲被撥到右肩上，襯出頸部那圈靛色的瘀青。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqVuKAoMxZ
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這不是我第一次看她上妝了。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy24CTyC4xp
但不管幾次，總覺得有哪裡不太滿意。
是配色不太好嗎？59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWZDY2nrnI
眼影太深了嗎？59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvz0bwIkHG
唇色太濃了嗎？59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeSLIS8CLX
底妝太飽和了嗎？59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6u0FIWFHt7
還是真的只是感覺問題？不過我們最近都還是跟以前一樣心情都不錯欸？59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjrlSA0Uxk
⋯⋯總之，我不太清楚。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtcCTHYltb
或者說，我一直都沒搞清楚。
我們對視了許久，她看起來似乎也覺得哪裡不太滿意。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyUpMnZwT1
⋯⋯看來是「我們」都沒搞清楚。
「咳咳⋯換身衣服好了⋯⋯」59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKEFQQPAb7
幾聲嘶啞傳出，她轉過身去，扶著略微搖晃的白花藤椅，撐起身子緩步邁進。賣力地推開沿途的障礙物，小心避開路上的垃圾、藥丸、藥片，玻璃，塑膠碎片⋯⋯然後抵達衣櫃前，再使勁拉開櫃門。
咚59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5r5paeyKU
砰59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCeJr2ZLiY
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⋯⋯吱咿——
仔細淘選出幾件發皺的連身裙裝，她轉回來，比對著問我。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82wroE0nZp
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「這件怎麼樣？」59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2PwaRa5GW
我搖搖頭。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4Thyo3IxB
那是她前幾年穿去聯誼的藍白相間的高腰洋裝，現在已經不適合她了。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡud3thiX0J0
我看見她也搖了搖頭，轉過去提起另一件。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1Pr2Q78zi
「咳咳⋯這件⋯咳⋯呢？」59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7dfooX7Sr
我搖搖頭。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HBLBqLvMs
拜託，現在是夏天欸，沒什麼特殊需求的話穿著深色長裙難免不妥吧？妳不熱，我光看著也很熱。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRvS550NpY
嘛，不過我們不怎麼出門就是了。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5TzFZsSZ9
她似乎愣了一下，但隨即也搖了搖頭，又轉過去提起另一件來。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡheD2r8o2ld
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就這樣一來一往，我們最終相中了一件白底黑點，V領的綁帶洋裝。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnCjf0XhFh
雖說依舊是有點差強人意，但能從那堆東西裡翻出這麼一件來已經是不可多求的奇蹟了。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmybipgt2gT
正所謂「可遇不可求」嘛。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7spDqztdj
「噗呵⋯」我們相視而笑。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAEtoqPr76
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換完衣服，她再次拉開藤椅，坐了下來，邊整理梳妝台，邊哼起那段不知名的旋律。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMXPlrGQ2Q
我也有樣學樣，幫著整理那些瓶瓶罐罐，同時慢慢唱了起來。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PuJ4iUrrv
經過剛剛的琢磨，這次已經沒那麼痛了。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOinBgSvuu
雖然偶爾還是會咳個幾下，但沒差，擦擦就好。
「哼哼哼～」
Alprazolam、Estazolam、Triazolam、Chlordiazepoxide、Lorazepam⋯⋯59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1wQb8IH3q
在無數不認識的單字中，我看見她特別挑了幾瓶出來，打開後如品茶般輕嗅了幾下，又蓋了回去。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBNtpKLsQe
也不知道是為什麼，她從去年開始⋯也許是前年？便開始四處購買這樣的藥品。
我知道那些是什麼，而她也知道。
⋯⋯看著她一罐接著一罐，讓蓋回去的藥瓶自然落下。我突然一股怒氣湧上，憤然將梳妝台上所有瓶瓶罐罐一把推開，瞬息之間，整個空間迴響起清澈的共鳴。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmOKgrxkYr
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喔對，這是我近幾年聽過最悅耳的聲音。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSY7Xaofno
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哐啷！59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0qFl5i7X2
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我在鐵紅色的梳妝台上揀選著，59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFo1z3eY7O2
不，不是你。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDwS3im2fX
不是你⋯59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWT50T4ect
不是你⋯⋯59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3qxIoKDAq
我說了不是你！！！！！！！！！！！59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajynrSLzKj
⋯⋯
砰！！！
我奮力將藤椅往窗邊一甩。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxVONWYQFk
可惜不知是手勁太小還是方向不對，它只是撞上了衣櫃，落在垃圾堆間。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCw5AkHtji
我回過頭。
喔⋯對⋯⋯59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNfVXedR22
你很不錯。
拿起地上的一把美工刀，我輕輕推出刀片，架在她的腕部。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxpqXTzgXQ
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呼吸59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeFC3XcldL
越來越急促59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlnjj39EU2
就是59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUk1qhT9JMJ
現在！59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWj2SA2HDrU
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「叮鈴—叮鈴—叮鈴—」59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUq0RnjJhX6
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⋯鬧鐘響了。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSi2yavjKF
她走向床頭，按下了鬧鐘。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tMXlyv8wy
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我們四目相交。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3ixp9tTkm
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「該吃藥了。」我說。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYXRXMEAvY
「該吃藥了。」她回答道。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATW17PWHOF
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我撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一顆橢圓的藥丸。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBr49w8DALS
她撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一片雪白的藥片。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ms2tYbm6m
我們交互著彼此的工作，服下藥物。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4i2MGXvGo
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按時用藥是很重要的，我想。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEtn4CUwuI
她應該也這麼覺得。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofQDyDjUgG
⋯⋯不，她必須這麼覺得。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvht1GjqGTx
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我走到窗邊搬回藤椅，在梳妝台前輕輕放下，坐在那裡，輕哼著不知名的旋律。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOGzoI5xI3
她兩手提起嘴角，看向我。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycTRbFa10G
再次，我們對視，然後輕笑了一聲。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUg5ETrDszz
「不用難過。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptwXNpHXee
不用生氣。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6LT7US6C5
不用委屈。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlUW6yxna9
不用憤慨。59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPg1uRysOY
今天又是美好的一天。」59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEq2dYZKxH
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⋯⋯對吧？59Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdx070zr13
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