警告：以下內容涉及敏感議題及部分特殊場面，若感不適，請立即關閉本文。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBZCXEPD63
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—嗯，我過得超～好
「我沒事。」45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjz6E06gVu
「⋯⋯我超好的。」45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCVaAvSlVA
約莫三坪的黑暗中，兩根細長的手指伴隨一段低沉而無力的女聲，在僅有的光源上緩慢移動著。
—說出來你可能不信
幾筆墨黑躍然而出。
—我最近做什麼都超順的欸！45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTboxe5wxL
—每天起床都很莫名很有精神45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFANBWv9zoM
—買東西都剛好會遇到不太需要排隊的時段45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofExYpCV2B
—喔對也不會有沒貨的問題
咑咑咑
—所以不要跟我說什麼是因為賣完了才沒人45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3DZDswdaH
—還有很多45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlxFKl8n5e
—像是要趕時間的時候大部分不會遇到紅燈45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MSY4Mq3MC
—通勤的時候不太塞車45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzShehIGLV
—打字的時候不太需要選字審字45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOvWPlZXHC
—還有很多其他45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZWTdALhpm
—反正就是
咑咑咑
—不只事情都確實按著計畫走45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhL2h2yLDAs
—還有很多意外的小確幸45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiD7s3qBTbD
—房東太太也很好相處45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAyMTDlM4b
—你知道45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUFi5Shj4n
—這種便利的小幸運真的是45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAdPzGm6k0
—可遇不可求45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DWKzVMqeC
—所以我最近心情真的45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOE6YLXm4ey
—超好！
咑
「哈哈⋯噗哈哈哈哈⋯⋯⋯咳咳咳⋯」45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWSFM9Sb3m
幾滴嫣紅的狂笑自嘴角流出，敲擊聲再次響起。
咑咑咑
—然後公司裡啊45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnRf4CCbjH
—大家人都45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCDKrIjAgy
—該怎麼說45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYap3P29C3p
—看起來有點難親近的同事實際上是那種外冷內熱的類型45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPdd9S3Ms3
—開始變熟了之後45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuj1HaTTZl
—發現不只很好說話
咑咑咑
—樂於助人45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWigtsRDRm
—對大家都很貼心
「⋯很貼心，熱心助人⋯⋯」一坨沾染著幾許赭紅的衛生紙被丟出床外。
—而且主管人也很好45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEmnGMXKyY
—架子不高，很有責任感45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRj0wq0G7BT
—不會一直讓人覺得很壓迫45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVHEwuQmgk
—也不會亂塞一堆無理的工作然後當甩手掌櫃45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lYpFiAi6S
—而且⋯⋯
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⋯⋯陸陸續續又打了兩分鐘後，敲擊聲再次唐突地停了下來。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzU38bk1OZ4
她看著螢幕，陷入沉默。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZNRcOc4M3
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「⋯⋯」
褪下包裹著的厚重棉被，揮開旁邊成堆的衛生紙，她托起身子，走近梳妝台。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLwFCP4Uo8
稍顯陳舊的白花藤椅在她的拉扯下發出一聲尖銳叫喊，但她不予理會，徑直坐下。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpfyg08Fee
「哼哼哼～」45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZO0KkEfqp
一段不知名的旋律輕巧地推開發紫的薄唇，墜落在無光的空虛之中。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjwiCiKahv
她拍上化妝水，開始上妝。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljs8jsyfkn
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「哼哼哼～咳咳⋯⋯」45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRM10BUCPN
一邊扯開喉嚨，盡可能模仿著她那淒美的樂聲，我看著她一步一步完成商業用妝容，開始梳理自己深褐色的長髮。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrORjwGMSi
琥珀色的扁梳不發一語，輕柔而無聲地帶走了一絲又一絲，渲上幾點鏽斑的棕髮。剩餘的髮絲被撥到右肩上，襯出頸部那圈靛色的瘀青。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafkoYlMuYm
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這不是我第一次看她上妝了。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oi96I3p4I
但不管幾次，總覺得有哪裡不太滿意。
是配色不太好嗎？45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcbQcegPIM
眼影太深了嗎？45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33uAIysXGK
唇色太濃了嗎？45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzurfBUdVjT
底妝太飽和了嗎？45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5TjAIkO8O
還是真的只是感覺問題？不過我們最近都還是跟以前一樣心情都不錯欸？45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeq68euwlo
⋯⋯總之，我不太清楚。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIvVdcmRFy
或者說，我一直都沒搞清楚。
我們對視了許久，她看起來似乎也覺得哪裡不太滿意。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eRFpDv8Ph
⋯⋯看來是「我們」都沒搞清楚。
「咳咳⋯換身衣服好了⋯⋯」45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTrxBpvGQX
幾聲嘶啞傳出，她轉過身去，扶著略微搖晃的白花藤椅，撐起身子緩步邁進。賣力地推開沿途的障礙物，小心避開路上的垃圾、藥丸、藥片，玻璃，塑膠碎片⋯⋯然後抵達衣櫃前，再使勁拉開櫃門。
咚45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vlfIrocTA
砰45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCzanpUxVC
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⋯⋯吱咿——
仔細淘選出幾件發皺的連身裙裝，她轉回來，比對著問我。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusQ6FdknyS
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「這件怎麼樣？」45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLh7QpZrBJN
我搖搖頭。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaViOmntSN
那是她前幾年穿去聯誼的藍白相間的高腰洋裝，現在已經不適合她了。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWmMww1Gor
我看見她也搖了搖頭，轉過去提起另一件。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZQmJKLWej
「咳咳⋯這件⋯咳⋯呢？」45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5GorNg2u4
我搖搖頭。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu76dDVnGBR
拜託，現在是夏天欸，沒什麼特殊需求的話穿著深色長裙難免不妥吧？妳不熱，我光看著也很熱。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡauZetLhprK
嘛，不過我們不怎麼出門就是了。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMUzVYYtme
她似乎愣了一下，但隨即也搖了搖頭，又轉過去提起另一件來。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzdN9VNdPM
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就這樣一來一往，我們最終相中了一件白底黑點，V領的綁帶洋裝。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMs6j1I4qI
雖說依舊是有點差強人意，但能從那堆東西裡翻出這麼一件來已經是不可多求的奇蹟了。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCfHyEs73W
正所謂「可遇不可求」嘛。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdr8td4ixcw
「噗呵⋯」我們相視而笑。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRj4n17YHh
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換完衣服，她再次拉開藤椅，坐了下來，邊整理梳妝台，邊哼起那段不知名的旋律。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tk22HReMn
我也有樣學樣，幫著整理那些瓶瓶罐罐，同時慢慢唱了起來。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrBTJfaZmb
經過剛剛的琢磨，這次已經沒那麼痛了。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnWuZ511AY
雖然偶爾還是會咳個幾下，但沒差，擦擦就好。
「哼哼哼～」
Alprazolam、Estazolam、Triazolam、Chlordiazepoxide、Lorazepam⋯⋯45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgb5dg6G1In
在無數不認識的單字中，我看見她特別挑了幾瓶出來，打開後如品茶般輕嗅了幾下，又蓋了回去。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAgfrx9QGu
也不知道是為什麼，她從去年開始⋯也許是前年？便開始四處購買這樣的藥品。
我知道那些是什麼，而她也知道。
⋯⋯看著她一罐接著一罐，讓蓋回去的藥瓶自然落下。我突然一股怒氣湧上，憤然將梳妝台上所有瓶瓶罐罐一把推開，瞬息之間，整個空間迴響起清澈的共鳴。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrv8Cq0i9u
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喔對，這是我近幾年聽過最悅耳的聲音。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDevy0QpC3
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哐啷！45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRE1oZomqqN
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我在鐵紅色的梳妝台上揀選著，45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd23E0547oz
不，不是你。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPVKcBPu09
不是你⋯45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdo2Urkt2K
不是你⋯⋯45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MEqDRoSF0
我說了不是你！！！！！！！！！！！45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPPfxKLW3R
⋯⋯
砰！！！
我奮力將藤椅往窗邊一甩。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fnS1i3GT2
可惜不知是手勁太小還是方向不對，它只是撞上了衣櫃，落在垃圾堆間。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBx5w3t9gH
我回過頭。
喔⋯對⋯⋯45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSLAtaGqb4
你很不錯。
拿起地上的一把美工刀，我輕輕推出刀片，架在她的腕部。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14iTVPwdsr
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呼吸45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAQTN7TAY6
越來越急促45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQ5FMifrsO
就是45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUemhnkdNH1
現在！45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsJ1kzkRmZ
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「叮鈴—叮鈴—叮鈴—」45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJwlpAoR90
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⋯鬧鐘響了。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWz0Pjl1mOj
她走向床頭，按下了鬧鐘。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24qqk7mloP
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我們四目相交。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ715B0rI9dA
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「該吃藥了。」我說。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSXOj05fEE
「該吃藥了。」她回答道。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDhXQfItOU
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我撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一顆橢圓的藥丸。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5F98eOOj28
她撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一片雪白的藥片。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3C3IgHRUgo
我們交互著彼此的工作，服下藥物。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjnQ0znOKz
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按時用藥是很重要的，我想。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazNoON0UVQ
她應該也這麼覺得。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4npYQ7q16T
⋯⋯不，她必須這麼覺得。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zEL9c57O3
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我走到窗邊搬回藤椅，在梳妝台前輕輕放下，坐在那裡，輕哼著不知名的旋律。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbA3vmnq2Lc
她兩手提起嘴角，看向我。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdTsblucxq
再次，我們對視，然後輕笑了一聲。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbnxen22Jt
「不用難過。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxXDgtGwXc
不用生氣。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNMbMzZwqz
不用委屈。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MFFPMPqL6
不用憤慨。45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ0znG39kT5
今天又是美好的一天。」45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKUzEvXllu
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⋯⋯對吧？45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhMnRmjnXx
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