There’s something I’ve carried for years.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRQAHQsl9y
Something I never had the courage to say — not even when I sat beside you every single day, not even when your voice was the only comfort I knew.
We were best friends.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJkqj5Zluu
You let me in, shared your secrets, laughed with me, cried with me, made memories that stretched across years.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DCuvxIavK
And I held them all like tiny treasures.
But somewhere along the way…11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuryflywo0
I fell in love with you.
Not in a loud, dramatic way.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjVvR0K4UR
Not in a way that ever asked for anything back.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyvv6xl7t6
I just… loved you.
In the quietest, deepest corners of my soul.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8h80owHKbh
In the spaces between your words.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb92oUbyvs8
In the silence after your voice.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUVLL4tfqP
In the warmth of every “pagal” you called me.
I listened when you spoke about her — the girl you liked.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUUcaJsKZO
I helped you find the words, plan the replies, understand your feelings.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOpgaKFfDR
And with each sentence I gave to help you be closer to her…11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOvpNmzG2i
I lost a little piece of myself.
Because I wasn’t just your friend.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6VY9uVKQU
I was the one who stayed up late, not to talk — but to overthink every conversation we had.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUjRmWMMZz
I was the one who replayed your voice in my mind when everything felt heavy.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToYGpCbI8D
I was the one who watched you choose others — and still smiled, like it didn’t hurt.
But Zuni, it did.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgwE3uT9E0
It hurt more than you’ll ever know.
The world saw you as the strong one. The admired one.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5A0nh5umnI
But I saw something softer — something only I got to know.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmdKi8Ax8T
Your laughter that came after anger.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzm41PIS3hC
The way you forgot things but remembered how to make people feel loved.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3u8ZxG4MBH
The way you chose me, again and again, when others wanted your time — and I thought, just maybe, that meant something.
I remember the night I sent you that video…11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmcewjB53J
That baby crying, and the words:11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeMkLgGavQ
“No one ever says they miss me…”
And you replied —11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9S0BEz1N0K
“Pagal… you are always missed. Always remembered.”
Zuni…11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY40mTDY1fN
You didn’t know, but I broke that night.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpXfglvWgln
Because that was the closest I ever came to hearing what I had waited years to hear.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP93ZfR46qZ
And it still wasn’t what I needed.
The truth is, you never knew what I carried inside.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiLydwoG83
How every word I said was soaked in feelings I buried.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAscYCXgpc
How every smile I gave hid the pain of being almost everything to you…11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3LRqDTUiV
But never the one thing I wanted to be.
We still talk.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnb3DI1ugN
Every day.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRkqto5z64
Like everything is fine.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1aaD2fI5l
Like there’s no storm behind the screen.
But every message I send is a love letter written in disguise.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7Wsu5ME2r
Every reply is me pretending that “friend” was ever enough.
And you’ll never know.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3uCK4b9tQ
Because I will never tell you.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT06VusO9kp
Not because I’m afraid —11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUsg39nqW4
But because I love you too much to ruin the only place I exist in your life.
Maybe Allah never wrote your heart for me.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ935dUi8gIN
Maybe I was just meant to love you from the edge of your world… and pray for you from a distance.
So I do.
I pray that you are always happy.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKABzpWNPq
That your heart is always full.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnizHNaWHto
That the person you choose gives you every joy I once dreamed of giving you.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoCV1lRlGC
And I pray — selfishly, quietly — that if you ever wonder if someone truly loved you without asking for anything…11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWz7Jhln3NF
You’ll think of me.
Not as the friend who stayed.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOTyYi0LJ3
But as the heart that broke —11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcYB46i4EJ
And still kept loving.
Always,11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66q7nedM7f
your friend...................11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbriVHVw5Y5
—The girl who never told you. But always meant it.
