There’s something I’ve carried for years.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5LHYhfrZd
Something I never had the courage to say — not even when I sat beside you every single day, not even when your voice was the only comfort I knew.
We were best friends.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTT4ocUj4Y
You let me in, shared your secrets, laughed with me, cried with me, made memories that stretched across years.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB70DkptuuA
And I held them all like tiny treasures.
But somewhere along the way…13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyev8zIZz7i
I fell in love with you.
Not in a loud, dramatic way.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZhzAnD49s
Not in a way that ever asked for anything back.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQsq8kf5lk
I just… loved you.
In the quietest, deepest corners of my soul.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xgmLCoBpx
In the spaces between your words.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOVN5mYKgE
In the silence after your voice.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJfzbv235m
In the warmth of every “pagal” you called me.
I listened when you spoke about her — the girl you liked.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSOaLpNskr
I helped you find the words, plan the replies, understand your feelings.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9dVf15Siw
And with each sentence I gave to help you be closer to her…13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1agPzG63g
I lost a little piece of myself.
Because I wasn’t just your friend.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiN2VWsY6C
I was the one who stayed up late, not to talk — but to overthink every conversation we had.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xMIQ2v5PA
I was the one who replayed your voice in my mind when everything felt heavy.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmM0WiToi1
I was the one who watched you choose others — and still smiled, like it didn’t hurt.
But Zuni, it did.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡou8iQ0l8QZ
It hurt more than you’ll ever know.
The world saw you as the strong one. The admired one.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDp2Cg8C4lb
But I saw something softer — something only I got to know.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsA5Mxej3M
Your laughter that came after anger.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMg2F5YBeY
The way you forgot things but remembered how to make people feel loved.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnb2wT4atBj
The way you chose me, again and again, when others wanted your time — and I thought, just maybe, that meant something.
I remember the night I sent you that video…13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9ARJMrUDE
That baby crying, and the words:13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJzKtb6mvb
“No one ever says they miss me…”
And you replied —13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkYY799cvJ
“Pagal… you are always missed. Always remembered.”
Zuni…13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVWnIRGk2j
You didn’t know, but I broke that night.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZrkouzFzL
Because that was the closest I ever came to hearing what I had waited years to hear.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyZdB0ZksN
And it still wasn’t what I needed.
The truth is, you never knew what I carried inside.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJRNrOH7S4
How every word I said was soaked in feelings I buried.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruzCTThcHz
How every smile I gave hid the pain of being almost everything to you…13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEGWDZZvWF
But never the one thing I wanted to be.
We still talk.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpu3xOEMrTi
Every day.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0KQJkZhl2
Like everything is fine.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNssKaD2IQG
Like there’s no storm behind the screen.
But every message I send is a love letter written in disguise.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIfMDE1keD
Every reply is me pretending that “friend” was ever enough.
And you’ll never know.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKq2kEDBnM
Because I will never tell you.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTISy63MLy
Not because I’m afraid —13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBc5TK4DZWk
But because I love you too much to ruin the only place I exist in your life.
Maybe Allah never wrote your heart for me.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Iv54OYHTw
Maybe I was just meant to love you from the edge of your world… and pray for you from a distance.
So I do.
I pray that you are always happy.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufvYjLckcY
That your heart is always full.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Y0sCHkeNy
That the person you choose gives you every joy I once dreamed of giving you.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPkk9ZfZOh
And I pray — selfishly, quietly — that if you ever wonder if someone truly loved you without asking for anything…13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAKq90ZrZa
You’ll think of me.
Not as the friend who stayed.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGpBeYkKS6
But as the heart that broke —13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtXYh9gIvX
And still kept loving.
Always,13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjVU72yaiD
your friend...................13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAZXyFojV3
—The girl who never told you. But always meant it.
