There’s something I’ve carried for years.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjk7dpq58KF
Something I never had the courage to say — not even when I sat beside you every single day, not even when your voice was the only comfort I knew.
We were best friends.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xRc5tJxVm
You let me in, shared your secrets, laughed with me, cried with me, made memories that stretched across years.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dZ8FDJGWK
And I held them all like tiny treasures.
But somewhere along the way…15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpW4kowFzR
I fell in love with you.
Not in a loud, dramatic way.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdtGz4SBgJ
Not in a way that ever asked for anything back.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Ux6EhBzRS
I just… loved you.
In the quietest, deepest corners of my soul.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdanfZZvhz
In the spaces between your words.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrwX3ck4Co
In the silence after your voice.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJYaHNsJGf
In the warmth of every “pagal” you called me.
I listened when you spoke about her — the girl you liked.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8kZ9yBIay
I helped you find the words, plan the replies, understand your feelings.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCloyCzntz
And with each sentence I gave to help you be closer to her…15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADAJLyiEnz
I lost a little piece of myself.
Because I wasn’t just your friend.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3RE5HaE33
I was the one who stayed up late, not to talk — but to overthink every conversation we had.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtwGQhh4Zn
I was the one who replayed your voice in my mind when everything felt heavy.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36PQIUmfdD
I was the one who watched you choose others — and still smiled, like it didn’t hurt.
But Zuni, it did.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRGPpgDwRx
It hurt more than you’ll ever know.
The world saw you as the strong one. The admired one.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vvh24zby1
But I saw something softer — something only I got to know.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGQ0STI5X9
Your laughter that came after anger.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2I2ma6kGN
The way you forgot things but remembered how to make people feel loved.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJ8r5VjtEg
The way you chose me, again and again, when others wanted your time — and I thought, just maybe, that meant something.
I remember the night I sent you that video…15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhINpLNeNJO
That baby crying, and the words:15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jHO4s3C3E
“No one ever says they miss me…”
And you replied —15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzd5BHkPlkn
“Pagal… you are always missed. Always remembered.”
Zuni…15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3SiXKlMdc
You didn’t know, but I broke that night.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8F50PgfpLg
Because that was the closest I ever came to hearing what I had waited years to hear.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnhA8nbxSz
And it still wasn’t what I needed.
The truth is, you never knew what I carried inside.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLNkKUwQ6B
How every word I said was soaked in feelings I buried.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnioHd7KKV6
How every smile I gave hid the pain of being almost everything to you…15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhmr81uSbx
But never the one thing I wanted to be.
We still talk.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRsQeIyDtX
Every day.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrruWIduIM
Like everything is fine.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUL3lBxIAU
Like there’s no storm behind the screen.
But every message I send is a love letter written in disguise.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTVNJpCX5M
Every reply is me pretending that “friend” was ever enough.
And you’ll never know.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsxhe113Oa
Because I will never tell you.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV68KtOQwiT
Not because I’m afraid —15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yKsChAMMC
But because I love you too much to ruin the only place I exist in your life.
Maybe Allah never wrote your heart for me.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUn2SlXUnK
Maybe I was just meant to love you from the edge of your world… and pray for you from a distance.
So I do.
I pray that you are always happy.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNEstfBEPe
That your heart is always full.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyRklXyWPG
That the person you choose gives you every joy I once dreamed of giving you.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrqcEdRaYc
And I pray — selfishly, quietly — that if you ever wonder if someone truly loved you without asking for anything…15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWFVv6D3pM
You’ll think of me.
Not as the friend who stayed.15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYmwdKmeba
But as the heart that broke —15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQgjRDOUeA
And still kept loving.
Always,15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGRhk49DNM
your friend...................15Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8I5LLuTnAD
—The girl who never told you. But always meant it.
