Encounters with El: Three Lights
El didn’t just appear once. El came when I was ready—again and again.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oEPcaiXAx
As a child. As a teen. As a becoming soul.
The first time I met El, I was four.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9KRszNeU7
They say children imagine things—but I wasn’t imagining.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2O6KJFctH
I saw what I saw.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwE12mqsxa
Ghosts. Spirits. Things no one could explain.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHg3fJf0MQ
My dad could make them stop. Not by yelling.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4E77EuYQs
But by speaking in tongues.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8oayBGFv3
I watched him push back darkness with words the world couldn’t understand.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeCrMWC2dJ
So one Sunday morning, I walked up to the altar myself.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxokC0rcK0D
Not out of fear—but purpose.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJvcfLh1nZ
I didn’t want safety.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4kYysswXT
I wanted power.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAMWZj6TmB
The kind that stops nightmares.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZLHwit7oJ
The kind that says, “No more.”
They laid hands on me, and something moved.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsylc6yg1L
I didn’t know the word for it, but I would later:31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeA64RA5pdl
El.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCn20FHt4S
The Eternal Light.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4d6nkO6Ib
The Presence behind all things.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBzX5cFKJ7
It touched me then. Quiet. Gentle. Just enough to open a doorway I’d one day walk through.
The second time I met El, I was sixteen.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEOEJKBSkZ
It was 1997. Hinesville, Georgia.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyvjrwIrDC
I didn’t go looking for it this time—at least not directly.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVH88f8Aa1T
I was forced into a youth group at Victory Assembly of God.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Lt4YamRYB
Thrown into a building full of teenagers trying to pretend they weren’t bleeding inside.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnImFnjP8B
But something was there. Something real.
We were praying. Music was playing.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2xrJv3f9k
And suddenly, without warning—31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSJPCklTLh
I was lifted. Thrown.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRd9GRBeKe
Not by violence. By presence.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUuUAzaMZZ
A force so powerful and loving I couldn't stand in it.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasfrODGxXo
I flew across the room.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3Zuh1j54q
Light.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJqYEsp8QV
White.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Bl0IVBVrl
Blinding.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAOeXKHVXq
Every molecule of my body was undone and healed in the same moment.
A woman I didn’t know came up to me.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xQVdlGVyg
She said words I’ve never forgotten:
“Healing. On all levels. Physical, emotional, spiritual. You are being transformed.”
That wasn’t metaphor. It wasn’t church hype.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYbOYwLSQI
It was activation.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HKGn9zOZf
El didn't just touch me that time—El claimed me.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dC7KptLYh
I left different.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGy8ANcSu6
More open.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOzwWTaSDU
More haunted.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQuPUUvFr3
More awake.
The third time I met El, I saw Them.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrUvEoPxks
Not as fire. Not as light.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQiMU8Dl93
But as spectrum.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxGydCUONL
I was 24, in Colorado, preparing to leave.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9XJq74NDx
I was shedding skin, homes, identities.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2EIll0PE0
I sat in stillness and asked the question no religion ever dared me to ask directly:
“Show me the Creator. Show me the Source of all things. I want to know.”
And El answered.
Not with a man on a throne.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvymAECKFm
Not with thunder.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4h8AnW5ON
But with Prism.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxurzXfYN5
Color so rich it sang.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3j9S7KpKrO
Light broken only so it could become everything.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnoSM14lZyM
It wasn’t God the Judge.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalRlyPHIcP
It wasn’t God the King.
It was the Pattern Maker.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MtPhLGFjs
The Harmonic Source.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmdjg20l1C
The One That Loves By Creating Room.
And in that vision,31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡorhYsudKzm
I remembered that I was not just meeting El…
I was returning to Them.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBe0YZmxie
And They… to me.
Why was I chosen, and what am I here to do?
I was not chosen because I was perfect.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUswIlqUqKw
I was chosen because I remembered.
I remembered before I had language.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9Kep5mDIO
Before I had safety.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZetrgXLaa
Before I even had a reason to believe I was allowed to shine.
I remembered what it meant to be a Chandakran—31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgyL2SfRoR
One of the first souls to walk the breath of eternity.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsV6BBkRrSC
Born of the First World, forged not in matter but in meaning.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKxgFewyIZ
The Chandakran are the memory of balance,31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9PtWRE3In
the soulkeepers of the Great Pattern before time bent into form.
We were not angels. We were not gods.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhhmtFweCj
We were Witnesses.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWYXOLCtvD
Builders.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzN1HMgyO15
Patternweavers of harmony.
And when the Veil began to fray across the worlds—when the song turned to static—31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNpOjA9Rhf
some of us volunteered to descend.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2FjXIIoDf
To fall through the light and the blood.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9Wzj6xqzn
To wake up inside the chaos,31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPIFZ6K954
and burn as beacons from within.
That’s why I’m here.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDuR98AJuT
Not to dominate. Not to convert.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDsGHhBBaX
But to remind.
To call the scattered sparks of the ancient light back into themselves.
To be Prisma—the full spectrum.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsqIwzWOqN
To show that all light belongs to the One Light.
What false powers does my truth stand against?
I do not fight for a flag.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUz1bCc2JZV
I do not carry a sword made of scripture.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4f508XlkL
But I stand against the shadows that call themselves light.
I stand against dominion dressed as doctrine.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxMYiJi3r6
I stand against the lie that only one path is sacred,31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoypcfeWqW6
and the rest are threats to be crushed.
I resist every power that fractures the human soul—31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciakup7pmX
that teaches children to be ashamed of their truth,31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9w2gimb9oC
that turns temples into weapons,31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54SZfOUVv2
and love into leverage.
My truth—Chandakran truth—restores balance.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XawzrT6V9
It honors difference without division,31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkKTCtYQDX
and power without oppression.
Where there is harm, I shine healing.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Uhflx9zBa
Where there is distortion, I radiate clarity.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeoJBgblcW
Where there is fear, I stand still and become the light.
What is the Firebrand Church, and what is it a response to?
The Firebrand Church was never supposed to exist.
It had to exist.
When holy words were twisted into political chains...31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6Q40hpQl5
When crosses were wielded like blades…31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BbDhRseWF
When pulpits preached pride instead of humility…31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rF9rnp2Vs
I lit a match in the dark.
Not to burn the world down,31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9IsFeDIse
but to ignite what was buried beneath the ashes.
The Firebrand Church is not a place.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00vEBX8ac3
It’s a movement,31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeDjd3Qxh0
a remembrance,31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTiDHrL8Mq
a response to the desecration of what was once sacred.
We are not here to replicate the old empires in softer colors.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZusLkA4jdK
We are here to declare:
“No flag owns God.”31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PdgVbinrW
“No system owns the Spirit.”31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfjF3E29vo
“No human power owns the light that lives in all of us.”
We are Firebrands—lit from the inside,31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBg7RviUeN
called to burn away illusion and build a future rooted in eternity.
What does it mean to awaken as a spiritual being in today’s world?
It means coming home.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rCDPLJpS3
Not to a temple or tradition,31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnvjhmbdM2
but to the radiant truth of your whole self.
It means remembering what you were before the world told you who to be.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iApZ7ufdk
It means no longer hiding your power to make others comfortable.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09FGIarReA
It means reclaiming your divinity without shame.
Awakening doesn’t separate you from the world.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnjqBvbi5F
It binds you more deeply to its healing.
When you awaken, you don’t float above.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVgafjTRLh
You rise within.
You remember your name.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1NlKS7iP6
Your soul.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBORNCrfXq8
Your origin.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGBG3VHTtp
Your mission.
You become a mirror for others.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxx1WPSAL9
A beacon for the scattered.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOdikIbzhM
A resonance for the ones who are just now stirring.
The Gifts I Received
After the altar call when I was four, my gifts began to bloom.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxuJ17G8wR
I received the power of tongues, enhanced beyond anything I had seen.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5JHHFtNTO
Not only could I speak in tongues, but I was given the gift of interpretation,31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHXMhY3iQa
along with the word of knowledge and word of wisdom.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOokqB07v7
My healing powers were multiplied tenfold.
My psychic senses never wavered, only sharpened.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SZGCmGIxL
My ability to control them became easier, more precise.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6Fhov7utQ
People treated me differently—because they could see I was different.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvihpbPEbX
At that time, I was gay, still wrestling with the truth that I was a girl trapped in a boy’s body.
Spiritual Tools and Battles
I learned quickly that calling upon the names of El Shaddai and Yeshua could repel nearly any evil presence.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fMjvES8uq
Except for one persistent adversary—the constant interference of the Gray Aliens.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtKYZt0X3C
They haunted me from childhood into adulthood, a relentless presence I fought but never fully defeated.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZxwM7Db5m
This shadow war would continue for decades.
Reflection
My spiritual DNA touched Source and ignited.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8le31MmZXd
I began to remember how the universe was meant to be.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1kYsqowVo
But I was stifled—by doctrines and dogmas of men.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzMYTFkZab
I knew the Spirit behind Christianity was real.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9l00yNRTl
I learned to discern truth from falsehood:31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPbZncjDL3
Do not trust this church. Get out as fast as you can.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaTQID18vF
Trust God. Trust El Shaddai. Trust Yeshua.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbPijZwBNf
But never let corrupted institutions warp your sacred truth.31Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuuZCVdOUP
