在走路、在看電影、在說話,做任何事情的時候腦子都會一直轉,有時很想把它拿出來對它大罵:你給我差不多一點喔!256Please respect copyright.PENANAnCyuO2bk6l
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以寫文章來說好了,想寫點什麼,拿起筆,卻什麼都寫不出來。如同在沙漠中快要渴死,把身旁的水袋拿出來用力的一直擠、一直擠,最後袋子破了還是沒有一滴水。256Please respect copyright.PENANAA5dNXKEAo7
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說到底為什麼要追求靈感呢?256Please respect copyright.PENANA5BhxhEh4rE
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這個世代最常說的what how why who where。256Please respect copyright.PENANApdo9KVAXx2
就連保全,是個就連我去別人家大廈時,一個普通的保全都會問我的:「你是誰?你在做什麼?你要去哪?」這樣一些哲學性的問題。256Please respect copyright.PENANAo2W3UK2wSj
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如果我沒有答案,沒有自己做這些事為了誰、為什麼的理由,我怎麼能真正意義上的說我在完成夢想的道路上?256Please respect copyright.PENANAaiAidBrkmc
我曾經以接近病態的情緒死死抱著這樣的理念。256Please respect copyright.PENANAqZ0A32UqwZ
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所以我認真想過,多認真呢?大概是我把三色豆從蛋炒飯裡全挑出來,這樣超高層度的認真。256Please respect copyright.PENANAkrXDSrr4cT
思考到我想再把腦子拔出來大罵:你還不TM給認真點!到底……256Please respect copyright.PENANADvT4zNq3cj
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為、什、麼、要、靈、感?!256Please respect copyright.PENANAcvfEl8xP9k
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「因為沒靈感,會很想死啊。」256Please respect copyright.PENANA1GCdM3lnYF
不是隨便就能掛在嘴邊的那一種死喔,而是真的想從各種意義意上化為塵埃的那一種。256Please respect copyright.PENANA7lKrsAAsZ5
但如果我用口語來說,我想會用「輕描淡寫」吧,因為發現了這些事兒,不為任何人。256Please respect copyright.PENANAb0iBziZh4q
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很討厭沒能力的自己,但無論如何都無法將這份憧憬給捨棄。256Please respect copyright.PENANArWdtfrb6Nd
就是抱持著這種想法,才能苟延殘喘的走到現在吧。256Please respect copyright.PENANA8wavY0NQiu
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每當夜深人靜想到這些,腦中就會浮出日本文學作家-太宰治,在人間失格中的開頭:身而為人,我很抱歉。256Please respect copyright.PENANAx0P5sdKmbB
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不過人呀,就是會在掉入近乎絕望的深淵之後,才發現另一種生存的方式。256Please respect copyright.PENANAOaOWGokrIi
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所以我一直寫,把筆拿在手上,如鏟子一般,向孕育我的大地不斷的鋤著。每天戰戰兢兢、抱持感謝的,在我化為塵埃之前。256Please respect copyright.PENANAwt30hG1Ffl
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對不起。身而為人,我很感謝。256Please respect copyright.PENANAYPXgQ4coXN
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