Watch this space, my brother said, did he know something I didn't, has Alex said something to him, who the hell am I trying to kid, guy's don't talk to me, let alone like me.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ508x6VW3ny
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No Reagan, get the idea out of your stupid head, he's just being nice because mates with your brother, but that doesn't mean for once second you can't drool over him or imagine him...... Oh Jesus Christ! Shut the f%&k up already. 887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4b5iOP7Bn3
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I look over to see the diary on the bed, why the hell did he think I needed one, was this the only way I can display my true feelings, without giving the others satisfaction of seeing me cry.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHq8dAICpT
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Hold on a god damn minute, not only is he hot and sexy with suckable lips, but the boy was a shiting genius! Ah, what the hell, I open it up and start on the first page, here goes.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFcCb8QGlw
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Welcome to the world of Reagan, Charles, where nothing goes right, where every guy I fancy runs away like they're being chased by a herd of elephants.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbylMCJuha6
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How the hell am I going to get any guy to see me, not some 14 stone midget who has a big round belly and big ta tas.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OFyOBRIjw
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I'm not even an adult yet and they already give me back ache.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RVYCpI29p
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I have naturally auburn curly hair, not so much curl, but corkscrew curly, with big brown eyes, I'm not the ugliest person, but I'm not the prettiest either.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptqftzqZxp
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Ok, so here I am writing in this stupid thing, I know people have them, but I never thought I would need one, I just carry my hurt on my shoulders.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkF5ZDaTif1
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I'm what they call an open book, I wear my heart on my sleeve, I shy away and I don't show my emotions, I won't let them see it.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPAo1fUV2X
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I think that's why I run away with my gob sometimes, people would think I'm no different to the bullies because I create names for them in my head! Or I'll answer back, or if they upset me too much I'll be planning their own funeral! But the difference with me and them is, I would and could, never hurt them, It's not in my nature.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjunjYxXmB
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I keep it all in my head.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcd5aiP5WH1
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When I was thirteen after a solid week of abuse and torture from home and school, I thought it was time to end my life.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6nnggq8bV
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I felt I didn't belong anywhere, so when everyone went to bed one night, I crept down and got one of my mums razors, and well, they said for my age, I certainly knew what I was doing and if only my brother hadn't come down cause he was sneaking out, I would have bloody succeeded.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWY3a81pXY
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I remember him sobbing holding me so close, telling me to hang on, I didn't want to hang on, I didn't want to feel pain and rejection anymore, I wanted to feel peace.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sHSNMlJlT
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Two years later, my brother is always there for me, yeah nothings changed, but after seeing how much it affected him I swore I would plod on for his sake and f%&k everyone else who tried to drag me down again, now I'm glad I did. 887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfACKMKTB61
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I'll never be twig thin, I'll never be popular, but what I could be is real, if real means I use a lot of profanity and create my own little dream world to cope with it, then so be it.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLVRWmAmAB
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Shit I'ts almost 1:am, here I am writing in this pissing book about the ins and outs of who I am, but deep down I still feel like I still don't know who Reagan Charles really is.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8AuhhiB2S
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I close the book and place it on my night stand I snuggle into my panda and fall fast asleep hoping for some solid sweet dreams. 887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXkcJdhpBi
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I was back in the meadow laid across a blanket, I was smiling, laughing, I looked happy, a hand moved a misplaced strand of hair away from my face, but I couldn't see who it was.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYR4zbMmdAK
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Oh for god sake I don't want to see myself, move out the way, let me see who you're with, I see myself smiling again and I blew whoever it was a kiss then I giggled sipping on a water bottle, aw what the hell your drinking water for, you never drink water! I see a hand on my leg and my cheeks go red and I'm finally looking at the person who's making me all hot and flustered. Omfg wake up! Wake up you stupid mare, it was Cal! Oooo shit.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjfPVb4u13
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"Reagan! Reagan! Wake up turd burger, your fans await you, come on!" 887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLCWOzGpjO
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I open my eyes giggling "Yes, yes, I'm awake and the only fan I got is you," he smiled at me "I'll be your number one fan forever, but I'm thinking after yesterday you got a few more, now get dressed!" I threw panda at him he quickly ducked, moving quickly out my door laughing.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6Lb7Ppaqy
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After a soak in vanilla bath oil, I sprayed myself heavily in vanilla, musk and decide to leave my hair down, I put a small amount of makeup on I was ready to indulge in another day of piss take.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGUFpcINlm
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"Morning sweetheart," I see dad sitting at the table, "Morning daddy," he grabbed me as I walked past and pulled me onto his lap, he shocked me we wasn’t a huggy type of family there wasn't a lot of that between my parents either but I knew my dad loved me.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGpWauHzYI
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He tried to show me affection often which is more than I can say to my mum, she was stone cold that's for sure.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTM0CEF5ghG
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"I'm sorry about last night Huni, your mum can sometimes be a little cold, but she does love you! I rolled my eyes, "It's ok dad, I'm use to it," he smiled, "I know but It's not right, anyway I've told your mum that your going to Cal's barbecue tonight with or without her permission," and he winked.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTzo8enc2d
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"Thanks dad," I grabbed a bottle of juice and a banana and followed my brother out to his car, "So, you and Alex, do you like him Reagan?" I looked at him in shock "Would it matter if I do? besides he's way out my league, so you got nothing to worry about," he laughed.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnXML3hdYe
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"Your not out of anyone's league, don't ever let me hear you say that again, he seems quite smitten by you," there goes the beet cheeks again.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvI4xH7BUuv
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"Shut the front door! Your joking with me, you got to be kidding." He shakes his head "No I'm not, but don't let him know I told you," I nod in response.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiZRGu6cOc
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I sit in silence the rest of the way, I felt excited, so excited I could probably piss myself, I giggle inwardly, but then my excitement turns into utter confusion when we pulled into the school car park. 887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKubL61YF9i
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I kiss my brother goodbye and ran, well stompede all the way to the girls toilets, into my favourite cubicle.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RO6u3PeF2
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I say my favourite the reason being is, I've kind of drawn all over one wall in different designs, you can tell I spend alot of time in here, but now I needed my tranquility more than anything. 887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4p2o8nKoJs
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Help! My brother seems to think Alex also likes me, what do I do? Do I confront him? Do I leave him to tell me? Hold up what the hell am I doing, the diary ain't going to come alive and say "Hmmm I'm not sure Reagan! Oh jeez! Maybe I need some nutty pills, ok Reagan this is upto you not a diary, ok lets break it down.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqLpt5uD1C
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Alex ❤❤❤887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡub8e30b0Ju
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6ft 3(I'd have to stand on Orange boxes just to lips him)887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BGrsMK8RI
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Brown tousled hair (sexy bed hair)887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrcpldBlPv
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Hazel eyes (come to bed, Right now! Eyes)887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9azCN4xzb
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12 pack (I exaggerate you not! But you get me)887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88FcPwRUT4
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Nice bum(you could crack a nut in them cheeks)887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eCknXm0Ar
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Omfg! Let me have him right here right now on this bog.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmohtmIndaj
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I laugh out loud, oh shit shhh, I'm meant to be in lesson. 887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQEJsY2G1J
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Ok now for me this should be fun887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoa6kY7XU4E
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Reagan Charles887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3neBfHQCB7
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5ft4(short ass) 887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcumTdiwG3
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44dd(they go south when I lay down)887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLlKd064Ut
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Round belly (which wobbles when I laugh like a bowl full of jelly)887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QnaUzupHy
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Wide hips( well what more can I say)887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMAV96z82o
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Fat ass(God don't get me started on that!)887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGgJW4WfUJ
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Positives about me hmmmm887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrmjxrEYdx
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Nice eyes887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCk2y4cOMT9
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Good teeth 887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7DcpC8ZI8
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Nice hair887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeG9VLij5ki
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Hmmmm not many then, shit this is what it all boils down too, I got f%&c all going for me and he's got everything going for him, I actually felt worse than what I did before I came in here, I started hyper ventilating, who the hell was I trying to kid he's right he's had quite a few girlfriends.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7aTUFVlNL
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I can remember a few, Tara Jackson, eve porter, Lisa carter, these girls are what I call barbie dolls, perfect in every way not a hair out of place washboard tummies the perfect handfulls everywhere, with me he would need both hands to grab one boob that's no lie, oooo er misses. 887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedfrV7zNz5
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I ain't saying that it ain't a nice thought, but hey this was some serious shit and hell yeah I was jealous.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgl2Ir4j5Xm
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Right, that's it, I slam the diary shut and shove it in my bag, f%&k you I can't be doing with writing in you anymore your making me feel more depressed, tears roll down my cheek.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gBeCPJcbe
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The bell goes and I walk out of the toilet heading for maths, let's just try get through this one lesson then I can be alone again and maybe come up with some plan as to what the hell am I going to do at lunchtime.
