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Fuck. I failed.copyright protection51ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwthQJbT3R
Was it not deep enough? Did I miss? What the fuck did I do wrong? I planned it so perfectly yet I fucked it up, just like everything else.copyright protection51ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuVclF8bvC
I didn’t plan to survive. I didn’t plan to wake up in the hospital with twelve stitches along my arm, my dad standing outside the door yelling at the doctor and occasionally into his phone. I should have accounted for all possibilities. One like, you may survive this Trevor.copyright protection51ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54iebLH0xi
Great. Now my dad had a reason other than my mom’s death to hate me. He had to take the day off from work to make sure his mentally unstable child was still breathing. Taking the day off from work was like skipping a week's worth of food. We needed the money. But now, money was going to be spent on hospital bills and how could he make that money if he wasn’t at work.copyright protection51ＰＥＮＡＮＡspuHFiDmRo
After school Friday was when he found me. Monday morning was when we left the hospital for home, the entire car ride silent. copyright protection51ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78TJA2mZeV
I didn’t know if I felt relieved to be home, or just relieved to be out of the hospital. Either way, I couldn’t wait to get to my room.copyright protection51ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaWNZvCXTA
“Trev…” The first words he’d spoken to me since the incident. “You’re going to have to sleep in the guest room. I put your clothes and everything you need in there.”copyright protection51ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9w2vKqoo0P
Oh. I get it.copyright protection51ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6seIyZauc
Without further words, he headed towards his own room. I knew my father well. Any time anything happened that he couldn’t control, he would lock himself in his room and not come out until work the next day. This situation was no different. Perhaps he should have been looking out for me though. Making sure I didn’t try to succeed in my death for the second time. copyright protection51ＰＥＮＡＮＡnI6SaxNOPQ
On the guest bed was a familiar object. My phone. I needed to talk to Madison. I needed to let her know the truth before the entire school knew. However, my 73 unread messages told me that the news was already out. Everyone knew.copyright protection51ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKRxLJKs24
“Mady…” My voice hoarse as I spoke softly into the phone that was plastered against my cheek.copyright protection51ＰＥＮＡＮＡkswa6Yj0lW
There was no emotion in her tone. “Trevor...don’t. Don’t even.”copyright protection51ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnRNmQYSgH
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I knew this would happen. There was no way that beautiful, brown haired girl could date a freak. It would ruin her own reputation. I knew from the beginning Madison didn’t like me for me. She liked me for my status and my looks. But it was the same old speech. No one ever loved me for me. Not even I could love myself. 55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjvEePNQc9
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