I've been here at times, more to be foreign dear.8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZib4NIWVm 維尼

A tall pale boy stood in front of small camcorder setting it up. The room was mostly dark and cleaned. Candles were set up around the room giving it a eerie, ethereal glow. Once the boy had finished setting up the camcorder, he pulled out a chair and turned it on. Then he broke the silence of the room.8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPdYuaRESq 維尼

" Hey. I bet everyone's wondering why I'm doing this. What would make the most happiest boy you think of commit suicide? Well news flash. I'm not happy.8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZQ46rJzA4 維尼

I am talking myself off the ledge again.8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbFYQndomD 維尼

" I haven't been happy since freshman year. Since everyone abandoned me. Since my grades have been dropping. Since I quit sports because they didn't make me happy anymore. Since I would sit in my room and would just brood. Since I quit drawing.I haven't made new comics in months. Since I couldn't find it in myself to smile anymore. Since everything.8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIrbSwTnD0 維尼

Is it really that bad babe, yes yes it's a pain that I can't bare.8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2IeZ2zAoW 維尼

" I'm tired. I'm tired of pretending. It's been two years since then and I haven't gotten any better. I'm so fucking tired. So I'm ending it all. I'm throwing away this mask. This facade. Though not before I say a couple things. I'm not going out without at least speaking my mind first."8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMBQLkqty3 維尼

“So Jake your first. Dude we were the best of friends. Two peas in pod. Sure we were different. Sure we got in our share of fights, but you were my best friend. The brother I never had. Then you decide to fuck me over. You got rid of your best friend for a little popularity. Although it started off small. You wearing contacts, joining sports, wearing cooler clothes...I just thought you were finally coming out of your shell. I never thought you would just chuck me away like a piece of trash. "8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXOey1JdtN 維尼

The boy laughs a little. A deep bitter laugh.8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡcepfCUKd7Z 維尼

" I never figured. But I guess I just have myself to blame for not seeing the signs sooner."8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNImfRvH4f 維尼

Sighing, the boy slouched a little in his chair.8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbXAzIF90P 維尼

" Danny your next. You on the other hand weren't like Jake who just abandoned me. You told me off and left taking Amber and Sam with you for a bet to get in with the cool crowd. I still remember the last words you said to me. Let me just quote you: " I hate you. I hope you go get run over by a truck and die because you are a horrible human being." Harsh. I know people can get overrun by greed, but hell Danny. I didn't know you would join my backstabbing ex best friend."8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡv350eA1ZPg 維尼

The boy bit his lip tears bubbling over dripping onto his blue jeans.8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNwzVcF2hy 維尼

What do you do when there's no cure?8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFeD3yUlez 維尼

" To Danny and Jake. I don't hate you. I don't forgive you either. But what does it matter? It'll be to late to say I'm sorry and then my blood will be on your hands. So see you hell.8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsmLsyYjyQ 維尼

" To Amber and Sam. I'm not mad at you because you didn't do anything wrong, but I am pretty pissed that you guys don't have enough courage and conscious to at least decide for yourself. I guess popularity was to good of an opportunity to pass up."8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡApipVAiob1 維尼

" Next is Conner. Conner. You never did anything bad. In fact I want to thank you for always sticking by my side until the end. I miss you like crazy and I hope your having fun in Europe. Since this is the last time I'm speaking to anyone, let me just say I used to be so jealous of you and then I figured out it was pointless. I wasn't going to be you. I never would. So I gave up. And I'm so glad I did. You were a great friend Conner. I hope you have a nice life."8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3S4bGzhZjY 維尼

The boy lifted a hand to his hair and ran it through sighing.8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡqptd7wILGI 維尼

" Next is Allison. Allison you are a total bitch. I have no clue why I chased after you all those years. You were just icy and cruel to me all those years. But despite that I hope you have a nice life."8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GYHEkT5oV 維尼

" Last but not least Dad and Jamie. Jamie I love you so much. I'm gonna miss you when I go to wherever I'm going. I hope you have so many kids and live such a good life. You will be a great wife and mother. I know it. Dad. I love you so much. I'm sorry I'm doing this but it's for the best. I hope you finally get married to Holly and live the rest of your years beautifully. I'll be waiting for you if I ever make it to Heaven. I'm going to miss you both."8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91y0c4vySz 維尼

I'm going through it, little voice in my head saying "Do it"8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9Ey4qTRc6 維尼

Wiping tears from his eyes he turned his focus back to the camera.8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtO4wKTIP4 維尼

" Now that that's out the way I have a couple more things to say. I'm depressed. I know I am. There's no changing that. So I'm going to take the quick and painless way out. I'll be dead before you even see this. So there is no point in trying to save me. It'll be to late. So see you in hell ex-friends of mine and I love you Conner, Dad, and Jamie. Aiden Collins out. For good."8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQTmI5M1ip 維尼

Reaching over he grabbed a sleek black object and put his index finger on the trigger. Raising it to his head, he said his last words.8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQZNuJGwSK 維尼

" Goodbye world. May god preserve my soul."8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRd9MHjOdW 維尼

Then he pulled the trigger.8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡtn010teC9R 維尼

It would just be better if I wasn't here.8964 copyright protection378ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvY48K3q4H 維尼