I always thought I would never be such a sentimental piece of work.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzeWp8rw4a
Yet, here I sat. In the midst of my husband's posessions, wondering how I got here.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpyEeTqDJ3
Of course I knew how, I will never forget that day. The day they stole him from me. The day I officially lost the man of my dreams because of a doctor who got stuck in traffic. Tears welled up in my eyes as I touched one of his work ties.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡg2ZPEMWCBv
He always looked so handsome at work.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡgndg61oTLk
Wondering why I kept living like this, my mind and eyes wandered around our bedroom.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInldoXmsiY
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It was strange, almost everything, I had picked out all of our furniture. Except from those obnoxious yellow curtains. They'd gotten old and dusty over the course of our marriage, the colour drained by the sunlight.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGIw8WTxj9
I liked everything to be clean and white, Ben didn't. He was such a colourful person, truly a ray of sunshine on my pale, monochrome life.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWI57WILpd
My phone rang.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSmmpBi1bl
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"Mom? How' s it going? We'll be over in about an hour if that's okay?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbuXPDVkmD
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An hour? I didn't have much time left. I was surrounded by boxes that were all nearly empty.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5xA5PLcLI
"Oh sweetheart, I am nowhere near ready," I trailed off. Not ready packing, not ready for any ot this. Not ready to be this alone, to be the widow everyone dodges.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡXpdhBSQWob
"I know," Lance sighed.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKeF9fwQsr
Our son was born out of pure love. We'd only be together for about a year when I suddenly didn't get my period anymore. I was eighteen and pregnant. copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Qzmn3OI18
Who'd have thought my son would only know his father for thirty years? I was always quite fond of the image of my husband with his grandchildren. Unfortunately, my son was as much of a workaholic as his father was and was not even close to settling down. copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8KVnRAanX
Lance and I had an extremely good bond. He had bought a condo a couple of years back and one in his building came up for sale. copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqq0QEOpfV
I didn't really like the idea of leaving this place.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡjR7ggyGmUn
My home.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IzYdbvR6U
We'd made so much memories in here. I rationalized that that was all this was: memories tied to a bunch of bricks. copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4ktwE4hg6
I was scared that once I stepped out of the box of bricks, the memories would fade. I'd seen it with my mother. The minute she set foot in the nursing home, I felt guilty. My mother was a very emotional person. She stuck to objects that sparked a memory.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8FASFwukw
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Always thought that I would never do this.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhmbb4wMqf
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I suddenly had an epipheny. What was I doing here again? Living in a shadow of what once was my happy, cherished life. Instead, I could be starting a new life. I needed to, to heal and grow as a person. Make new memories for myself. Make it hurt less.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4gmdnQ8rg
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The empty rooms here, the chair he used to sit in and the basement full of Ronald's stuff made it so much worse. Made me worse, pained. I could be living in the same building as the son I am so proud of. We'd be close, I'd be close. He could help me when I needed him and I could take care of him when he needed me.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UasvPtpH8
It would be better for all of us. copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡobFa399oe6
"You know what? I am ready, hun. I'll be ready when you get here," I told my boy and put my phone down.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡrktE8kRYo2
Standing up, I took the box that held our photo albums and threw in what made me smile and think of Ronald.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3wGlE4Lio
His engraved pen and pair of sunglasses that I found on the kitchen countercopyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡIC9TLZ8DtJ
His flannel he used to wear when mowing the lawn, that hung on the doorknob to the laundry roomcopyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qJrCOWOXG
And the dusty, old curtain hanging in our bedroom.copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwGPmLarez
He loved it, and I love him. Nothing else mattered. copyright protection149ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0pI3fTPZq
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