I always thought I would never be such a sentimental piece of work.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡzi58yuQ1FT
Yet, here I sat. In the midst of my husband's posessions, wondering how I got here.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNljR2APUu
Of course I knew how, I will never forget that day. The day they stole him from me. The day I officially lost the man of my dreams because of a doctor who got stuck in traffic. Tears welled up in my eyes as I touched one of his work ties.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡakxecbxRLh
He always looked so handsome at work.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkz4t8yk9d
Wondering why I kept living like this, my mind and eyes wandered around our bedroom.24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3R5hEowqz
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It was strange, almost everything, I had picked out all of our furniture. Except from those obnoxious yellow curtains. They'd gotten old and dusty over the course of our marriage, the colour drained by the sunlight.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTQ582gGT2
I liked everything to be clean and white, Ben didn't. He was such a colourful person, truly a ray of sunshine on my pale, monochrome life.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSnxWQFvaO
My phone rang.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoXKWqDxsm
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"Mom? How' s it going? We'll be over in about an hour if that's okay?"24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2m3RxuPMEJ
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An hour? I didn't have much time left. I was surrounded by boxes that were all nearly empty.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Va1G7rkFU
"Oh sweetheart, I am nowhere near ready," I trailed off. Not ready packing, not ready for any ot this. Not ready to be this alone, to be the widow everyone dodges.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡGIUWCZkzmp
"I know," Lance sighed.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKr9v1P8g2
Our son was born out of pure love. We'd only be together for about a year when I suddenly didn't get my period anymore. I was eighteen and pregnant. copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkX5lEdMYS
Who'd have thought my son would only know his father for thirty years? I was always quite fond of the image of my husband with his grandchildren. Unfortunately, my son was as much of a workaholic as his father was and was not even close to settling down. copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFBBCeBWNX
Lance and I had an extremely good bond. He had bought a condo a couple of years back and one in his building came up for sale. copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡmeIOnePdm5
I didn't really like the idea of leaving this place.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhpdmLRAxQ
My home.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡsew4Q8ir56
We'd made so much memories in here. I rationalized that that was all this was: memories tied to a bunch of bricks. copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡprk7fIl5VH
I was scared that once I stepped out of the box of bricks, the memories would fade. I'd seen it with my mother. The minute she set foot in the nursing home, I felt guilty. My mother was a very emotional person. She stuck to objects that sparked a memory.24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoM9t4NSAe
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Always thought that I would never do this.24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrH4TJPW1oK
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I suddenly had an epipheny. What was I doing here again? Living in a shadow of what once was my happy, cherished life. Instead, I could be starting a new life. I needed to, to heal and grow as a person. Make new memories for myself. Make it hurt less.24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeq7iiFN7rr
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The empty rooms here, the chair he used to sit in and the basement full of Ronald's stuff made it so much worse. Made me worse, pained. I could be living in the same building as the son I am so proud of. We'd be close, I'd be close. He could help me when I needed him and I could take care of him when he needed me.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0P1ZqpkLFg
It would be better for all of us. copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNENr7MdSd
"You know what? I am ready, hun. I'll be ready when you get here," I told my boy and put my phone down.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5K3pX1ZRkE
Standing up, I took the box that held our photo albums and threw in what made me smile and think of Ronald.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡHltJkU8FFO
His engraved pen and pair of sunglasses that I found on the kitchen countercopyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlBA93IVgA
His flannel he used to wear when mowing the lawn, that hung on the doorknob to the laundry roomcopyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mldMifLaA
And the dusty, old curtain hanging in our bedroom.copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSVUBfOKVt
He loved it, and I love him. Nothing else mattered. copyright protection20ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQObrXe9Tv
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