School's back but we had may so much fun in the past few weeks. I guess we'll see them next semester. Soo... School works are all piled up. That's just nasty!
"Wake up sleepyhead! class is over!" Bea kept on poking my forehead. It's self study today and I fell asleep. well, after passed all of my homeworks and seat works. I am so productive it drained the shit out of me.
"Can we get something to eat before we go home?" I asked Bea. I am so hungry I can't even drive.
"Can't. Have practice for volleyball today." Bea said as she reads some messages in her phone.
"Reid! Let me copy some of your notes I dozed out during discussion the last time!" One of my classmates asked me and me, as a great person let them copy my notes.
"hey, practice is canceled. Let's eat. I'm hungry!" Bea said. Her eyes were actually sparkling!
"Alright! let's go in any fastfood!" I said as Bea and I head towards the car.
I don't want to say something like "I don;t wanna see Brian coz if I say that, life will know and it will let me see Brian! The Irony of life! Ugghh!
Reasons why I don't wanna see Mr. Jake Brian Jackson:
1. He's stupid playboy, I'm tired to see him getting all girls and toying them.
2. He kept on bugging me! I'm irritated!
3. Whenever he's near, I feel uneasy.
4. I think something is wrong with me so I need to settle this on my own.
5. I just hate his ego.
Bea and I entered the fast food chain and get ready to eat.
"hey, did you see my brother? I believe he did not attend any of the class we had." Bea suddenly said. great. What a great topic to have Bea!
"Nah haven't seen him. I believe I don't even want to see him." Oppps... I said it! Life please no no no! I swear if Brian is suddenly in this place I'll snap!
"Ohh... well look! ther-" I covered Bea's mouth. Nope. I refuse to believe that Brian is also here! She grab my hand. "Aeroe! What are you doing here!?" She beamed and gave me the money to order as she approached Aeroe.
What? So it's not Brian? I guess I'm just paranoid.
"So! What are you doing here?" Bea asked Aeroe while we're eating. He's actually alone.
"Nothing that much. I just need to ran an errand and give Aunt the papers she needs." Aeroe as he eats like a barbarian. LOL
Well, I on the the hand couldn't care less coz' I'm also hungry! Bea, Aeroe and I chat for a while before going home.
"I'm home!" Wait? No ones' answering? I saw a note at the fridge. Looks like mom and dad where out of town and will be back some other day.
This is the best day ever! Well it's because the only person that I want to avoid... Well.. I actually did not see even his own shadow! I can sleep peacefully! or... Over think of the things why I don't wanna see Brian. I was spacing out when I heard noises from the other house. Apparently It was Bea's house. Unfortunately, It was Brians' room who's sitting next to my room with only a few inches.
As I sneak a peek in the other room, I saw Brian with another girl. Well, I already saw this way back before. There is nothing new about me, seeing Brian having sex with other girls... well, uhm.. almost have sex, coz' I never saw the actual intercourse. Not that I want to see it by the way! I am not I repeat! I am NOT a pervert.
The girl is sitting in Brians' table and they were kissing. Deep kissing. Brian carefully undress her and kissed her neck slowly allowing her to let our small moans. He traced her back as she arched allowing Brian to have access to her breast which Brian openly welcomed. He grab them and bite her neck and with this the girl looses her cool as if she melted in his hands.
Tears fell in my cheeks and once again I don't know why. Should I supposed to feel horny if I saw a live porn show? But... this one is different. Coz' I think, I have a tinge of feelings for Brian. I don;t want it but I can't help it.
Burn the images in your eyes and don't let your brain to forget these. I said in myself.
If you can't help your feelings to fall, destroy it before it deepens.
I never took a glance away at my window. I watched how they had sex. It's their fault anyway, why don't they close the window! or even let a curtain cover the window! It is as if they are having sex to show me. I can't even remember when did I fall asleep.
I did not go to school today. I took my great sweet time to let the scene last night conquer my brain, allowing it think that I am a fool almost falling in love with this kind of guy.
"I'll be better in no time." I said to myself as I continue to cry. I hurts so bad.
After that day, I go back to school saying that I am sick last day.
"Hey, I know you can play volleyball." Bea blurted out of nowhere while we are in the cafeteria.
I dropped my spoon "how did you know?"
"mom gave me a sweet time looking at your trophies the first time I had breakfast in your house." Bea said as a sly smirk was in her face.
"Yeah, that was years ago." I shrugged her off.
"Apparently, the boys volleyball team needs a new wing spiker. And I know tha-"
"I'm not interested." I said to her. Wing spiker is my position before.
"I'm not so sure about that." Bea's glance was so intense at me.
"You mom told me. You were bullied because you're way too good and your spike is powerful even in match of a real guy's spike. saying that you stole their glory." she hold my hand as I remember these.
"Well, time to face fear. I'll try out." I smiled at her.
I can do this. If I can stand those images and scenes that I saw the other day, then this is just a piece of cake.