第二天,我們在酒店的餐廳碰面了。979Please respect copyright.PENANA2c0WXHeKCh
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女神整個人都容光煥發起來,她更主動熱情地向我打招呼,整個旅程,不,在我們發生關係的那晚開始她就從未對我有過好面色,更遑論她竟然會露出現在這個讓我不禁看得愣住的笑容了。979Please respect copyright.PENANA63P3iouKKz
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自她和我坐上離開香港的飛機之後,她的面上就仿佛蒙上了一層灰色似的,除了無時無刻在防備我,更多的卻是提不起勁的那種頹喪。979Please respect copyright.PENANAdYJ28jo3xx
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哪怕在當我性奴的那段日子之中,她還是能夠對老公對朋友甚或乎對員工對別人都露出往日那個樂觀而可愛的笑容,就只是對我像有什麼深仇大恨似的而已。979Please respect copyright.PENANAXoqyzGRyPi
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站在她的角度來看,我們之間的確有深仇大恨。但離開香港之後,她好像連恨我的力氣也失去了,大概就是那種已經心死的無力感。979Please respect copyright.PENANAHtvoBKqLqb
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也難怪她的,被自己的老公要求和曾經對她那麼過份的變態色魔一起去外地接受人工授孕的手術,而且即使她成功懷上了之後也不見得能夠和老公回到以前甜蜜的日子之中。979Please respect copyright.PENANAFyqbTzYZNR
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她已經徹底變成了愛人爭奪家產的工具。979Please respect copyright.PENANAqtfbpGx2CU
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這應該就是中學時我知道她和籃球隊隊長戀愛了的那種絕望感覺吧。979Please respect copyright.PENANAlkPGdWxmg8
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只能面對現實,做什麼也改變不了的那種絕望。979Please respect copyright.PENANAy04LyD3tPh
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但看到女神現在的笑容之後,我就知道她已經走出了絕望之中。我還是為她感到高興的,畢竟我曾經那樣的愛著她,但我不能表露出來,我面無表情地坐在她對面,沉默不語。979Please respect copyright.PENANApP9lN5Sn5l
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女神見我不說話,她也懶得主動找話題,專心地消滅桌上的食物。除了她嘴角時不時不自控地彎起,看到她胃口這麼好,我就知道她已經解開心中的鬱結了。979Please respect copyright.PENANAqGgM667sTA
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這個傻女人……我們還只是初步結成同盟而已,我們要面對的問題一個都未解決過。979Please respect copyright.PENANA135PD14kW9
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「我們再在這裡待上幾天就回香港了。」我說。979Please respect copyright.PENANAaXq2O3O3mR
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「好啊。」女神將切成小塊的食物送進口中。979Please respect copyright.PENANAkIOuvBmeWZ
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「明天我們就去醫院。」看到她吃得這麼開心,我的心情也好起來了,但我控制自己繃緊著面,昨晚她那樣戲弄我,我不能對她態度太好的。979Please respect copyright.PENANA32Uigz6TDB
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「嗯。」女神還在繼續吃著。979Please respect copyright.PENANAKhlF7rKQh3
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我還是忍不住了,問:「關於昨晚的事你就沒有什麼想說的嗎?」979Please respect copyright.PENANA4ujmm46KYq
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「嗯?」女神挑了挑眉,說:「昨晚發生了什麼?我忘記了。」979Please respect copyright.PENANA6MQexFjdkP
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啊?還可以這樣的啊?再不濟你也說句「大家都是成年人,昨晚發生的事就不要較真」吧?你這態度,這樣……磨完鬆是什麼鬼反應?979Please respect copyright.PENANAlkRH18g1Pw
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女神望住我,眼中是掩飾不住的笑意。979Please respect copyright.PENANAMO0ETBvUXS
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我自己也忍不住笑了出來。979Please respect copyright.PENANAKNnBkSQMlu
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「其實中學那時你是怎樣想我的?」我突然下意識就問了這個一直都很想問卻問不出口的問題,但問了之後我卻後悔了。979Please respect copyright.PENANAALMsAKfIgB
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每當回想起那段不堪回首的日子,已經深藏起來的自卑感便會控制不住浮現出來……雖然在還能隨心所欲玩弄女神的時候我沒少想起那時的屈辱,特別是她含住我時,想起她中學時那樣對我,現在卻要羞恥地舔著我的下體,簡直是雙重享受啊。979Please respect copyright.PENANAVsbvLSbR0h
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女神也愣住了,她也沒想過我會問出這個問題。979Please respect copyright.PENANADw31BvNiZa
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她咬住了鐵叉思索了一會,說:「其實我一早就知道你喜歡我了。」979Please respect copyright.PENANACEmMKKLUse
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「在那些人傳出來之前,我就已經知道了。」979Please respect copyright.PENANAwSzbEkFvjZ
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「其實你偷望我真的很明顯好嗎……」979Please respect copyright.PENANAUpJqA48SIk
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「我一看到你的眼神,就知道你想什麼了。」979Please respect copyright.PENANA1VYWJbpCFj
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「初時我還是想多了解你一些的,因為你望我的眼神不像其他男同學一樣,都聚焦在我的……哎,就是胸口。」979Please respect copyright.PENANAilt0rm9tN5
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「你知道嗎,你們這些男人自以為掩飾得很好,其實女人是能夠察覺到你們在望哪裡的。」979Please respect copyright.PENANAZHMGWSN3ET
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「但每次我接觸你的時候,你都躲躲閃閃的,連望住我雙眼說話也做不到,時間長了,我就沒有耐心搭理你了。」979Please respect copyright.PENANASimZgX05TI
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「到後來你望我的眼神也變得跟其他男同學一樣,一樣……下流,我就真的懶得再理你了。」979Please respect copyright.PENANAXizxJXOlva
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「不一樣的!」我忍不住拍檯叫了出來。979Please respect copyright.PENANAQsE2znSKfl
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女神被我嚇到了,她瞪著我說:「好好說話就說話,你發什麼神經呢!」979Please respect copyright.PENANA6lwXLJtoO8
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「抱歉,一時激動了……」不單女神被嚇了一跳,周圍的食客也望了過來以為發生了什麼。我不好意思地收回了手說:「但我真的和他們……」979Please respect copyright.PENANA6YIbzw9RmU
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「你不用解釋了。」女神站了起來,無所謂地說:「都過去了。」979Please respect copyright.PENANA8odnnRDtmy
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我一手抓住想離開的女神的手臂,卻被她無情地甩開,她頭也沒回地說:「雖然我們暫時是合作的關係,但你對我做過的事我不會忘記,我不會原諒你的。」979Please respect copyright.PENANAxA5MuwN3uX
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望住女神離去的背影,一陣無力能擴散到我全身,我真的很上去解釋,但我還是像中學時的我一樣,望住女神的背影有很多說話想告訴她有很多心聲想讓她知道,但卻始終沒有行動。979Please respect copyright.PENANAE1TLFeCvOt
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這麼多年過去了,我還是那個只敢盯住彼方的身影永遠都不會行動的毒男。