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'Hey, listen, I think you're pretty cool.' Alice said this only after I had landed a detention for flinging my fists at her. 'We should hang out more.'544Please respect copyright.PENANAI62ybw9UXs
I rubbed the bruise on my cheek. 'Yeah, really? You didn't think so yesterday.'544Please respect copyright.PENANAF3Ih4T3RUH
'Oy.' She says. 'You were asking for it. I see fights through when I get picked on.'544Please respect copyright.PENANAKIjYOGef1i
'I wasn't picking on you!'544Please respect copyright.PENANAgot1dhK8mv
'You said my father was trailer trash, so close enough. Just don't do that again, okay?'544Please respect copyright.PENANAlK6S0Dfk5T
What a crazy bitch. 'Fine.'
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'You will not believe this, John. I caught Samantha and Adam snogging in the locker room.'544Please respect copyright.PENANAif3YhR9na5
'You know it's not cool to gossip, right? A, I don't really care, and B, I thought I told you to leave me alone.'544Please respect copyright.PENANAIWze9ewCKk
'Yeah, well, no one else was gonna talk to you. It's not like I scared any of your friends away.'544Please respect copyright.PENANAzNPddnrbvo
'Alice, can you learn to shut up?' I began walking away from her to make a point.544Please respect copyright.PENANA9l8tJFNoNq
'Whatever.' She laughed, godammit, she laughed as she strutted across the oval. Where the hell does she get the bloody confidence?
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'Hey.' I sat down next to Alice in history.544Please respect copyright.PENANAxrn6rYuhZX
'Hey, look who it is. Lemme move my stuff.' She made some extra room on the desk for me.544Please respect copyright.PENANA9hUE0x4jA6
I didn't want to surrender so early. 'Thanks.' I made an effort not to talk to her during the class, and she made an effort to show that she really didn't care what I thought of her.544Please respect copyright.PENANARfO16zHnol
The bell rung, and as she gathered up her papers I caught glimpses of strange little sketches - a nude woman lying inside the core of a rose, spheres and pyramids in a dappled desert - and as much as I hated to admit it, she had a way with her pen, no doubt.544Please respect copyright.PENANA0mj1z7of3z
'Oh by the way - ' she put her hand on my shoulder just before she left, and used the other to point at a figure on my page, 'it's 1954, not 1953.'544Please respect copyright.PENANAkDV80sHtcZ
The bloody cheeky smile of hers.544Please respect copyright.PENANA8LCYPo3yIo
I didn't correct it until she was out of my sight.544Please respect copyright.PENANAh2VCxOjYGX
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MOMENT 4:544Please respect copyright.PENANAWRAAu68zhx
'What're you drawing?' Shit. Did I really just initiate conversation with her?544Please respect copyright.PENANAFM7oHQdxXA
She looked up with less than half the surprise I expected. Couldn't even grant me the small victories.544Please respect copyright.PENANAXoBikTEKTo
'Just people.'544Please respect copyright.PENANAUgwpEYCT5b
I crouched down beside her and glanced into her notepad. It was faces. Luke, Chris, Jenny, Samantha and Adam (kissing), Paul, and -544Please respect copyright.PENANApWpM1dMKOR
'Woah, is that me?' It was a rhetorical question, of course - the sketch was so finely crafted there could have been no doubt as to who it was. I could see my tired eyes looking back up from the page, messy hair and one hand supporting the side of my chin, angular fingers curling up a faint trail of stubble.544Please respect copyright.PENANAmCKz9B9CMP
'Nah, it's my brother. Of course it's you, doofus. You can take a closer look if you want.' She handed me the book, and I flipped through the pages. All pen sketches, some surrealist and some gritty and all too real. And on the last used page, me.544Please respect copyright.PENANAefQZ7eWFRG
'Why're they all in pen? Do you do any painting?'544Please respect copyright.PENANAwlv9qsGy17
She shrugged. 'I just sketch. Can I have it back now?'544Please respect copyright.PENANAaKju44tJ95
'Sure, sorry.' I handed it back into her lap. 'You, um. You're a really good drawer.'544Please respect copyright.PENANArQy5WEUGS4
'I know, right. It's such a pity the things I choose to draw are so damn ugly, then, isn't it?'544Please respect copyright.PENANARy5322pKDN
'Bastard.'544Please respect copyright.PENANAGPEhzukvo4
But I laughed.544Please respect copyright.PENANAERse91vpE6
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MOMENT 5:544Please respect copyright.PENANA6qzS0oVZdF
'Merry Christmas, you bugger.' I held out my two wrapped parcels for her.544Please respect copyright.PENANA1MhMijwN8x
'Oy, I didn't ask for anything. So I don't feel obliged to give you something in return.' A wink. She always had a way of avoiding saying thanks.544Please respect copyright.PENANACoxQ1rScHy
'Open em. Smaller one first.'544Please respect copyright.PENANAGAD8KlXos0
Oil paints and brushes. She never talked about money, but I knew why she only sketched.544Please respect copyright.PENANAGXTq4h8VWN
The other gift was canvas paper.544Please respect copyright.PENANAe5aIu1vILy
'Wow.' She said. That was all. 'I really don't - '544Please respect copyright.PENANA9ySm2eiXrE
'Come on, take it.'544Please respect copyright.PENANALFN7THuoiz
She smiled, but there was something else underneath. 'So long as you take these.' She handed the torn wrapping back into my hands before turning around and running away across the grass, footsteps light on the weeds below and laughter spiraling behind her.544Please respect copyright.PENANAPXYpHmiJKu
Part of me knew, though, that the joke wasn't the whole reason for her quick exit.544Please respect copyright.PENANAAafPVXJQ9f
She didn't want me to see her crying.
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'It's a few weeks late, but you finally got your Christmas present.' She was holding something wrapped in plain brown paper and string.544Please respect copyright.PENANAFGfsUYU8Gt
'I'll take that.' It was light, but firm. I tore the corner - canvas paper, and the smell of oil paints. 'Now that's cheating. Returning gifts much?' But she didn't laugh as I expected.544Please respect copyright.PENANABEfp1QfyKh
It was a painting of us. Smiling, side by side, arms over each other's shoulders as we walked through a park.544Please respect copyright.PENANASzJyshYEoF
'Do you like it?'544Please respect copyright.PENANA7W6JClRzc3
'I, um, yeah, I do, but -'544Please respect copyright.PENANAYwJdTYQkTN
'But?'544Please respect copyright.PENANAKfnqE0Mvjm
'Nothing. It's nice.' I didn't know what to say.544Please respect copyright.PENANAHFI3daUysu
'John?'544Please respect copyright.PENANA5phcvfH6zK
'Yeah?'544Please respect copyright.PENANAjC5LXY3Pdu
'I, um. I really like you and. Um.'544Please respect copyright.PENANAqfdy6kv5t1
'Okaaay, okay.' Shit, what? 'Right.'544Please respect copyright.PENANA4pNz3EIb8S
She took a few steps towards me, and (fuck) I stepped back.544Please respect copyright.PENANAJwiO23wvj0
It took only that moment - that one step back - to see the hurt staining her eyes.544Please respect copyright.PENANAgnPVQIloVh
'No, wait, that's not what I - '544Please respect copyright.PENANAJG9hdmsjJP
'Yeah, sorry,' she said as she wiped her nose. 'Forget it. It's all cool.' She brushed down her sleeves. 'I should get going.'544Please respect copyright.PENANAltbGeSBmFY
'Wait!' I took a long, shaking breath. 'Listen, I... I really like you too. It's just that - I don't want anything more than this. This is all I need, this is all I want.' I put the painting down and held her wrists. 'Just this.'544Please respect copyright.PENANACmSnUEFO1h
'I... I don't understand.'544Please respect copyright.PENANA24n5IvcYvH
'Just the way we can insult each other. The way we can mess around, the way we can talk about all kinds of stupid shit and just not care, you know? It's all I want.' To be friends.544Please respect copyright.PENANAXvYtm42qBW
She managed a smile, a tear catching at the corner of her lip. 'It's all I need.'544Please respect copyright.PENANANLyw1h12aA
I hugged her then, not whispering time old lies about love, just hugging her because I cared, because I cared about that girl who punched me, because I cared about what my feelings meant for hers.544Please respect copyright.PENANA0DnmgMEqNf
'I just don't want anything to change.' I could feel, in every struggled grasp of her fingers behind my back, the futures she imagined folding in upon themselves.544Please respect copyright.PENANAJJg10xWI79
I don't know how long we stood there in that frozen eternity, holding each other as she gazed through tears at pastel smiles laying upon the ground in a sun-filled park only a single lost moment away.