《赤足的庭院》（2）114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNdeZLTKBN
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我對故鄉的印象僅僅是印象。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjYYjHhoBY
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因為那裡的事物並不是被人實務性的記憶下來，而是作為更不完全的東西，留在心底的某些角落。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaBv2w1lBm
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我記得潮水的味道和海浪等聲音，沙子的觸感，樹梢下刮起的微風，夜晚時絕對黑暗的地面，和成為那個時間裡唯一存在事物的星和月。魚腥味、油輪的廢氣、風雨來的時候，所感到的恐懼。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOi2Mo5LUP
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我的故鄉作為一個印象，我記錄在腦中，知道自己總有一天會以某個型式的遠離它。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvsdTGzJpe
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但那不是指現在。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOJeW5ldzh
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就算獨自一人逃到台北，看過了城市鮮豔的夜色，耳裡塞滿城市的吐和吸，我還是知道，自己並沒有真正的遠離故鄉。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5C6nSXVtE4
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「嗯⋯⋯可以問你的名字嗎？」小舫姐說她昨晚沒能睡著。在平常的那張餐桌上，她癱軟的用雙手撐著臉。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OnLjJKLxe
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我一邊解釋著自己的事，一邊看著她疲累的試著聽進我所說的。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCNPFGsMNF
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看她渴望睡眠的樣子，我感到有些內疚。她睡不好大概就是因為我。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMe8RZKs9l8
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昨晚，小舫姐讓我暫時待在她家借住一晚。公寓的房間很小，只有一張床鋪。我原本堅持要睡地板，不過被她拒絕了：「落到這副德性的人少跟我客氣。」。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpFCZm7GqR
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多了一個人在床上，一定很不習慣。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLCNdIesKM
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但是昨晚，還好我實在是筋疲力盡，不然大概會整夜無法入睡。年紀的問題。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiE8ROQfRrQ
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「李靜。」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpQAc7BJab
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「噢，好娘。李靖或是李欽不是更適合男孩子嗎？」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5EsrwojJJD
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「⋯⋯」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡse4DpAdpJS
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「不過還好。要是是李靖或是李欽的話，昨天晚上我大概就危險嘍。」我說。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1H2gX1CHDd
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「哈⋯⋯」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEvRmOoUR3
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當然，昨晚的我本來就沒有對他抱著任何期待。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWUYR0VDpg
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只是回想起來，那確實是很荒謬的決定。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3W3wrBI8DG
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「一個23歲的女人，讓16的陌生少年上了自己的床鋪。」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlQowll0fA
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寫成文字或是作為台詞被唸出來，大概都不會影響它的離譜。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcB0FjLBIs
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「那麼，李靜。你打算就這麼住下來嗎？」她問，十分嚴肅的。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqAdATYzmL
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我搖搖頭。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8326pb2ZJs
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「靠著你偷出來的錢，青年旅館還能住多久呢？要是在那之前，你依然不想回到自己的故鄉，你打算怎麼辦？」還不想，的話。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgXkWUUEXs
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面前的少年低著頭，一語不發。我大概知道他在思考著什麼。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDg84qrrvbB
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「我遲早會遠離我的故鄉⋯⋯」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bwCm1ICQ0
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「但不是由這個方式。對吧？」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdWAjksgYm
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「是的，所以⋯⋯」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFntTm5Frne
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「怎麼辦呢？」這次不是為了捉弄人，她露出溫柔的微笑。「在錢花完之前，你得思考噢。來到這個混亂的場所，你能得到什麼？或是追求什麼。」她說。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiCFhJy1x5
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「小舫姐，妳常常離家嗎？」他突然一臉佩服的看著我。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0NM5VRbPb
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「這是什麼蠢問題？」啊，說錯話了。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtimBYZzHj
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「嗯⋯⋯不是，總感覺妳很熟練的樣子。」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5f5fMc2PrI
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「怎麼可能。」她說。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHKpCDSLMW
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然而這是事實。16歲之前，我離家過無數次，每次都是無功而返，只帶回挫折跟疲勞的身體。然後，到了他的這個年紀，我幾乎像是投降了一樣。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO01CddHyM3
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好好的準備了考試，盡了全力去考大學。畢業之後也找到了穩定的工作。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQWr36QBHp
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這7年來的生活十分穩定。而且那是不容置疑的正確。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAIGFvGRL8
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直到他出現的那天。我再次質疑起自己作的決定。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCZj1TYzxe
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長時間離開過我的這份自我懷疑又找上門來，然而我絲毫不比之前的自己成熟或是冷靜。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZlNhpj7J5
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但是看著他，我總有一種感覺。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1xMJL9DYJ
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「大概沒問題的。我想⋯⋯。」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeWTJSPMvj
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沒有理由的，我這麼相信著。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmANtOB9TA
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因為，注視著她時，海嘯和風的呼嘯聲就會從腦袋中消失。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtWlqHwfKa
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「阿靜，你是獨生子嗎？」最近每到中午，她都會走到我身邊，把我從樓下的那個陰暗的角落，帶到樓上的用餐區。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtSSjRZXj9
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「是啊。」我吃著員工餐，回應的問題。到台北之後，這是我第一次吃到泡麵以外的熱食。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mOlwGoFbN
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「好吃嗎？」她用頭指了指我的盤子。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBD4WKAWY5
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「嗯，非常美味。」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWSUtRBkD2
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「那就好。」她又塞了一口飯到口中。「你看這個。」她拿出手機。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCJ2NtfNaM
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滑開桌面，她打開某個定期回報全球衛星雲圖的程式。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFi46Mo7SF
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不知道為什麽，程式剛打開所指定的地方是新幾內亞，但是她好像不太在意。說實在話，我也不太在意，我滿腦子在想桌面照片是哪個作家的書。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4JQCN4zVp
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然後她讓我看了台灣附近。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZr6DKWutP
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「一次來兩個颱風噢，很要命對吧？」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7Gq0FoVAz
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「嗯⋯⋯。」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSXc7PQoiS
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「可是啊，你看這個。預測路線說，它們會剛剛好⋯⋯像這樣，一個往上、一個往下，躲開台灣噢。」她用手指畫出線條，語氣雀躍的說。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXukSzUqNH
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「真的是這樣就太好了。」他皺著眉頭說。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3IrbyVlMYL
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肯定沒事的。看到她笑著這麼說，我的心不知為什麼就這麼安心下來了。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1c4H8Wdxg
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我從二樓的圍欄往一樓看，看到不少人離開座位，或是把書本丟在一旁，往樓上來。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklRSYSn4ez
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離席的人一個個往同一個方向去，每個人離開前的習慣和走路的姿勢、服裝的外型，從腳的移動到眼神，每個人都有所不同，卻做著一樣的事。我很喜歡這幅光景。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9hRwGZSsY4
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「阿靜，獨生子是什麼樣的感覺啊？」我的注意回到她身上。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwhALnX1Ed
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「什麼？」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOt8GeYuEe
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她又問了一次。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEN2aQfVBH
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「啊⋯⋯獨生子啊，不知道，小舫姐不是獨生女嗎？感覺很像啊。」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQo8xySdC1H
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「什麼意思？」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqJmquZhcy
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「對那種需要一個人鑽研的事物比較感興趣。」孤僻的怪人。我從來沒看見她和其他圖書館員熱絡的交談過，說不定，她在這唯一的朋友就是我了。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSbXhIZkau
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「噢，這樣啊⋯⋯還有呢？」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJfu8YzqEx
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「感覺很有自己的想法。」不顧別人的感受。從來不看場合的捉弄人，不管話題或是氣氛，只要她覺得好玩就好。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0crWKeFcB4
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「這樣啊，可是我不是噢。」她笑著說。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpV1xTyKK8t
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「是嗎？」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMMbtcyxN9
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「嗯，我有一個弟弟⋯⋯長得跟你很像噢。」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtkHyR7QhM
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她這麽的同時，皺起眉頭，仔細的觀察的我的五官。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCj5sqKGqe
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果然很像。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgslkG769YG
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午餐時間結束，他作為暫時的圖書館員，整理書架時的那副神情，和弟弟替我收拾行李時的表情一模一樣。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeCazdQX3W
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那是我第四次的離家出走。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WFiaCQZQX
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準備離開家門前，剛升國中的弟弟，突然擅自打開我的行李箱。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPS3qTfBYqQ
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我害怕會錯過父母不在家的時間，對他斥責了幾句。但是他很冷靜，說要替我檢查。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7vPjjq6nZ
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「少了牙膏和食物⋯⋯啊，火車上要看的書呢？姊，妳沒有書活得下去啊？」這時的我，為了大學的志願在鬧家庭革命。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTm6whJV25
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我喜歡文學。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tQhZcjI5g
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那個時候，驅動我一切不成熟和自私的動力，都來自這麼一個模糊而膚淺的理由。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBjyfPFBWR
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因為這個尚未成形的夢想⋯⋯那個時候，更適合的詞可能是妄想。因為它，我把自己的容身之處給否定了。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdPmGXud6l
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「 我無法待在那個否定我一切的地方。」我那個時候是這麼告訴弟弟的。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQJ5ypJkg0
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我看著他替我收拾書本和盥洗用具後，他堅持要送我到車站。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNpip8WqJF
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於是我在車站冷冰冰的塑膠椅上，用極為平淡的語氣對還是國中生的他說。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQshS3cnp7I
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「嗯⋯⋯從妳的角度來看，待在家裡確實是很痛苦吧。」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXh3NYYutQ
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我沒有說話，於是他繼續說。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW16gVrIUHt
114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEokiLiauj
「我希望妳能快樂。當然，我也希望爸爸媽媽快樂⋯⋯嗯⋯⋯怎麼辦呢？」他笑著對我說。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ni7KkfRBE
114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtRzNdG6vY
那時的我沒有意識到，他的笑之後有著多麼巨大的重量。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OmJFlf5gR
114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchW0V5Jm8l
也許因為我，他時時刻刻對自己的存在感到矛盾。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTH0QU5FLJ
114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pREUdBx65
但我被自己的夢想遮住了耳，沒能聽出他的求救。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0LZVpNA0d
114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPn8cwkoCD
「謝嘍。」搔搔他的頭，我抱住他瘦小的身軀。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGnqE96SCU
114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZBxxAllP8
「姊⋯⋯早點回來噢。不要餓到肚子。」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5hJFomZtU
114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUJPaFMpdd
「嗯，你也是。」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsXW8m78rf
114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv14IR5pwfW
我記得，那個冬天，台北第一次下了雪。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SKrqjlv5W
114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcXzizJKGZ
雖然是很少、很細的冰線，但那確實，是貨真價實的雪。114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4IzTHGe03
114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKVnR2ChKq
114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAOvIeIrIh
114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8qeGMXGcz
「小舫姐⋯⋯這個算是小說學術類還是偉人自傳啊？」114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaeUNQFh8T
114Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8y9hjxtHu
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