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《赤足的庭院》（2）102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fFXGsgMOr
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  我對故鄉的印象僅僅是印象。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡva8K8A4fkt
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUS6Tm12qmT
  因為那裡的事物並不是被人實務性的記憶下來，而是作為更不完全的東西，留在心底的某些角落。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZzOeAJLwH
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5kseqcOT4
  我記得潮水的味道和海浪等聲音，沙子的觸感，樹梢下刮起的微風，夜晚時絕對黑暗的地面，和成為那個時間裡唯一存在事物的星和月。魚腥味、油輪的廢氣、風雨來的時候，所感到的恐懼。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zcSYnDUYa
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  我的故鄉作為一個印象，我記錄在腦中，知道自己總有一天會以某個型式的遠離它。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd83KgbJemQ
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  但那不是指現在。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXWRoUjwKR
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  就算獨自一人逃到台北，看過了城市鮮豔的夜色，耳裡塞滿城市的吐和吸，我還是知道，自己並沒有真正的遠離故鄉。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24ld5qtypO
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3SNYoaexI
  102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuT5m75Xwp7
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCSPy15rZk
  「嗯⋯⋯可以問你的名字嗎？」小舫姐說她昨晚沒能睡著。在平常的那張餐桌上，她癱軟的用雙手撐著臉。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwM5b8wCOo3
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyLH3dAeHN
  我一邊解釋著自己的事，一邊看著她疲累的試著聽進我所說的。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQmLVV5441
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpthut2Pc0S
  看她渴望睡眠的樣子，我感到有些內疚。她睡不好大概就是因為我。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFeuXd8tgL
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvq6C5QNCv7
  昨晚，小舫姐讓我暫時待在她家借住一晚。公寓的房間很小，只有一張床鋪。我原本堅持要睡地板，不過被她拒絕了：「落到這副德性的人少跟我客氣。」。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMjNibjMX8
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  多了一個人在床上，一定很不習慣。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebhMvAdZdq
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRLSqcNEmg
  但是昨晚，還好我實在是筋疲力盡，不然大概會整夜無法入睡。年紀的問題。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATUMO6vVeO
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  「李靜。」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykj9jfG3no
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwADq3VwWRN
  「噢，好娘。李靖或是李欽不是更適合男孩子嗎？」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoHUPWjYI2
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡud67w9yJZ2
  「⋯⋯」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzTWnLlxfb
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqPoMNPlgP
  「不過還好。要是是李靖或是李欽的話，昨天晚上我大概就危險嘍。」我說。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkvfB27CHO
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMW8V1ziXgh
  「哈⋯⋯」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOacEjdl2qI
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdHJ56aT65
  當然，昨晚的我本來就沒有對他抱著任何期待。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztKCxmx4x0
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPQkmVKjPZ
  只是回想起來，那確實是很荒謬的決定。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhOwyscUl4
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSdWxZk5Uw
  「一個23歲的女人，讓16的陌生少年上了自己的床鋪。」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52gLW4aTom
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgmYk34Kvl
  寫成文字或是作為台詞被唸出來，大概都不會影響它的離譜。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqCyy9aIL3
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡci8x0MSX6x
  「那麼，李靜。你打算就這麼住下來嗎？」她問，十分嚴肅的。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN15abkUKnV
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcjgOBDlub
  我搖搖頭。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYIwavDyTb
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGoLPumvEMG
  「靠著你偷出來的錢，青年旅館還能住多久呢？要是在那之前，你依然不想回到自己的故鄉，你打算怎麼辦？」還不想，的話。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIW8PaLHuWE
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxP2UjdGF8
  面前的少年低著頭，一語不發。我大概知道他在思考著什麼。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgZynQtLH1
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ698jmK1pKg
  「我遲早會遠離我的故鄉⋯⋯」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfCmkOXxNi
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0NSsoI68c
  「但不是由這個方式。對吧？」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5lOYL5SgH
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuWfI0rwtE
  「是的，所以⋯⋯」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2SDgo4ncn
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNR4PZ24wv2
  「怎麼辦呢？」這次不是為了捉弄人，她露出溫柔的微笑。「在錢花完之前，你得思考噢。來到這個混亂的場所，你能得到什麼？或是追求什麼。」她說。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIwo9b7CG8
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57wVUkzCZZ
  「小舫姐，妳常常離家嗎？」他突然一臉佩服的看著我。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXAihEXDDt
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4VmH9qzlQ
  「這是什麼蠢問題？」啊，說錯話了。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfxqV0Fxys
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbb1wwi8u3
  「嗯⋯⋯不是，總感覺妳很熟練的樣子。」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGW2fTqHAuK
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpeOGMepjp
  「怎麼可能。」她說。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccGvNKq04G
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaGHfUiaMB
  然而這是事實。16歲之前，我離家過無數次，每次都是無功而返，只帶回挫折跟疲勞的身體。然後，到了他的這個年紀，我幾乎像是投降了一樣。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAw6yI2MYc9
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfZjSa40Yv
  好好的準備了考試，盡了全力去考大學。畢業之後也找到了穩定的工作。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg466l2Wx8C
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCTY7pw6aO
  這7年來的生活十分穩定。而且那是不容置疑的正確。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jmmdz0svm
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9FjroocKp
  直到他出現的那天。我再次質疑起自己作的決定。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uPqtbTCp5
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9s0LzbbcP
  長時間離開過我的這份自我懷疑又找上門來，然而我絲毫不比之前的自己成熟或是冷靜。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDVzOU9DBv
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMFaqURpIR
  但是看著他，我總有一種感覺。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jK5qKLGan
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYN5ziK38h
  「大概沒問題的。我想⋯⋯。」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsTDoIk4n1
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  沒有理由的，我這麼相信著。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkJpL0yGsC
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eaCfnpGnU
  因為，注視著她時，海嘯和風的呼嘯聲就會從腦袋中消失。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqjF4BzwnX
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iubkkLJ6E
  102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEW5PDvvtD
  102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCWfhnoaQm
004102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJjcU0vmu4
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTNGgnEwbf
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZgINenCED
  「阿靜，你是獨生子嗎？」最近每到中午，她都會走到我身邊，把我從樓下的那個陰暗的角落，帶到樓上的用餐區。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdz02If0ivn
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItejI4XxvH
  「是啊。」我吃著員工餐，回應的問題。到台北之後，這是我第一次吃到泡麵以外的熱食。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xwTLcGRcf
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcst2GF7E7
  「好吃嗎？」她用頭指了指我的盤子。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeNU3ZlC9Y
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyt1EyFsJZJ
  「嗯，非常美味。」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzcJIkyfUV
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcY4Z91PQQ
  「那就好。」她又塞了一口飯到口中。「你看這個。」她拿出手機。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKaQrW7vTmH
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFS4Vlxc8rh
  滑開桌面，她打開某個定期回報全球衛星雲圖的程式。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Pr86x0jIH
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhoiPI5zca
  不知道為什麽，程式剛打開所指定的地方是新幾內亞，但是她好像不太在意。說實在話，我也不太在意，我滿腦子在想桌面照片是哪個作家的書。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9IClxIypX
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKPTlckT8Y
  然後她讓我看了台灣附近。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncY3HJGYMR
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Z9mvRRPsk
  「一次來兩個颱風噢，很要命對吧？」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhytBmmTpNR
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nxOvEw8PY
  「嗯⋯⋯。」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOpOF5XlPj
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFWmJSn3Ql
  「可是啊，你看這個。預測路線說，它們會剛剛好⋯⋯像這樣，一個往上、一個往下，躲開台灣噢。」她用手指畫出線條，語氣雀躍的說。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjY6MqXO5h6
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2GQrQhLyj
  「真的是這樣就太好了。」他皺著眉頭說。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcf9bxBFTE
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiqrMQKpo9
  肯定沒事的。看到她笑著這麼說，我的心不知為什麼就這麼安心下來了。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTa1xK2lzou
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyWMWHKytL
  我從二樓的圍欄往一樓看，看到不少人離開座位，或是把書本丟在一旁，往樓上來。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNlicb6rxC
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTo2oMyHRIj
  離席的人一個個往同一個方向去，每個人離開前的習慣和走路的姿勢、服裝的外型，從腳的移動到眼神，每個人都有所不同，卻做著一樣的事。我很喜歡這幅光景。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jhA3c3Bz9
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwOlZXvAVc
  「阿靜，獨生子是什麼樣的感覺啊？」我的注意回到她身上。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhGk3ni0VE
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNMmvryBLw
  「什麼？」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2E7QTEYWJ4
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwV6ZxzaJk
  她又問了一次。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr53zLqnVMs
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfoK2H21Vs
  「啊⋯⋯獨生子啊，不知道，小舫姐不是獨生女嗎？感覺很像啊。」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Pws4WHXOa
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFloBgCTPYY
  「什麼意思？」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIqr8j8SJg
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGibmZpCWS
  「對那種需要一個人鑽研的事物比較感興趣。」孤僻的怪人。我從來沒看見她和其他圖書館員熱絡的交談過，說不定，她在這唯一的朋友就是我了。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapX8MhxmUq
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4V544Y1xVY
  「噢，這樣啊⋯⋯還有呢？」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw94BlBEgEY
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinh8HQYjjO
  「感覺很有自己的想法。」不顧別人的感受。從來不看場合的捉弄人，不管話題或是氣氛，只要她覺得好玩就好。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDfh5NMmJt
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EpuKjOYXa
  「這樣啊，可是我不是噢。」她笑著說。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1AptMXJoH
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2NafMo8in
  「是嗎？」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lucH4x0Oy
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFrGktPsI5
  「嗯，我有一個弟弟⋯⋯長得跟你很像噢。」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcr2EQlrno
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlODQrhw2uR
  她這麽的同時，皺起眉頭，仔細的觀察的我的五官。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfZSXSUeSa
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrC9aWS57gR
  102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgS5s72iqS
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aVzxytGIB
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  果然很像。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwuzptptDl
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmd3rI2Pmcb
  午餐時間結束，他作為暫時的圖書館員，整理書架時的那副神情，和弟弟替我收拾行李時的表情一模一樣。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGAlqO7Hssm
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKjsaKzCyQ
  那是我第四次的離家出走。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnnaBANZ0d
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLDVLCx1fl
  準備離開家門前，剛升國中的弟弟，突然擅自打開我的行李箱。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnG28Upamxf
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq903hKHSvx
  我害怕會錯過父母不在家的時間，對他斥責了幾句。但是他很冷靜，說要替我檢查。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jZo3Xn6X6
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtG2LZUm9K
  「少了牙膏和食物⋯⋯啊，火車上要看的書呢？姊，妳沒有書活得下去啊？」這時的我，為了大學的志願在鬧家庭革命。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8o8iAtjDsq
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Lbc3HwpN5
  我喜歡文學。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fdKGcfKbA
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExb49S2xGY
  那個時候，驅動我一切不成熟和自私的動力，都來自這麼一個模糊而膚淺的理由。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzx4VEoZiqM
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNyUHIoR5t
  因為這個尚未成形的夢想⋯⋯那個時候，更適合的詞可能是妄想。因為它，我把自己的容身之處給否定了。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLVFo5Gojz
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuB4dEWJsPs
「 我無法待在那個否定我一切的地方。」我那個時候是這麼告訴弟弟的。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteW95CZey1
102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrW3IfJxNS5
  我看著他替我收拾書本和盥洗用具後，他堅持要送我到車站。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigMHC4lJv2
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  於是我在車站冷冰冰的塑膠椅上，用極為平淡的語氣對還是國中生的他說。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEenmZFMIo
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  「嗯⋯⋯從妳的角度來看，待在家裡確實是很痛苦吧。」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNhPQTwKa3
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  我沒有說話，於是他繼續說。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ914JXxvaV5
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  「我希望妳能快樂。當然，我也希望爸爸媽媽快樂⋯⋯嗯⋯⋯怎麼辦呢？」他笑著對我說。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhPwv0G0Sb
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  那時的我沒有意識到，他的笑之後有著多麼巨大的重量。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEd52ihFWJt
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  也許因為我，他時時刻刻對自己的存在感到矛盾。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVlIIBvklP
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  但我被自己的夢想遮住了耳，沒能聽出他的求救。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVBJSqYKz5
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  「謝嘍。」搔搔他的頭，我抱住他瘦小的身軀。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLA21SSn4Tr
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  「嗯，你也是。」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RJ1a5TQ08
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  我記得，那個冬天，台北第一次下了雪。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kFmUkX6ut
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  雖然是很少、很細的冰線，但那確實，是貨真價實的雪。102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozsyYlMlCw
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  「小舫姐⋯⋯這個算是小說學術類還是偉人自傳啊？」102Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwQqC0ZWTf
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