#1 Entry: Why I Started This.736Please respect copyright.PENANANDIhNkVEEE
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.736Please respect copyright.PENANAinKZaEkScb
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 736Please respect copyright.PENANA3rqrxiQTfh
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.736Please respect copyright.PENANA9uKfHcvDBt
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 736Please respect copyright.PENANAIQyZf5MeJi
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 736Please respect copyright.PENANAOg4Ms7WSzW
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 736Please respect copyright.PENANAmTQaQMCoO3
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 736Please respect copyright.PENANAAEOMfltu8o
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 736Please respect copyright.PENANASHdmg5cfFZ
...736Please respect copyright.PENANASDNKHHwIVJ
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?736Please respect copyright.PENANAO0R1xl86tF
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.736Please respect copyright.PENANAuXRBtGNYpY
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)736Please respect copyright.PENANAlCGsFeHdQS
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 736Please respect copyright.PENANAUOEGJGfHf2
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 736Please respect copyright.PENANA9AYuN9yvh8
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?736Please respect copyright.PENANA3awf2qSrOC
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 736Please respect copyright.PENANADEAaGBdzuW
So calling it off, was it that bad?736Please respect copyright.PENANAR2IJpvdeHG
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 736Please respect copyright.PENANA4qNaCXwwGx
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)736Please respect copyright.PENANACwvv0vJjZg
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 736Please respect copyright.PENANAKs5G7Z4I4L
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 736Please respect copyright.PENANA6lhoLrNSuW
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 736Please respect copyright.PENANALsaSMuYxww
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 736Please respect copyright.PENANAojSP7lPBOr
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 736Please respect copyright.PENANA0n5iDixtMe
Henceforth, we have this. 736Please respect copyright.PENANAzpmbsXR9NN
Thanks for bearing with me. 736Please respect copyright.PENANAXHNTM5qE75
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