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「我是孤兒。這是我十多年來沒有告訴任何人的事,除了政府、學校,你是第一個知道。我不想其他人用同情的眼神看我,也不想受其他人白眼,我自己的事,我能想方法解決,雖然到最後還得依靠香城政府的幫助,所有事在初中已經解決了。」8964 copyright protection378PENANAAbjJrDEFe6 維尼
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想不到李沛弦初中時候已經這麼懂事,有心理質素面對痛失雙親的事實、處理後事,還為自己打算將來,把所有事都做得相當完美。8964 copyright protection378PENANAmayCdGaPe0 維尼
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「親戚我不是沒有,只是沒有願意幫忙的親戚,他們抱著看戲心態,我有事相求就諸多推搪。我知道,限制不在任何人,沒人對我施加壓力,這是環境的問題,改變一下環境就可以了。不是說過︰愈年小,環境愈容易改變嗎?」8964 copyright protection378PENANA6rRqs0KKwg 維尼
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對這句話有點印象。8964 copyright protection378PENANAPIDZhvmpkU 維尼
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「所以我沒有哀求成為親戚的養女,而是向政府求助,申請成為孤兒,要犧牲的是不能再享受家庭樂趣,享受夠了,沒有也不要緊。」8964 copyright protection378PENANA90GCxDHpDp 維尼
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「享受夠了」…8964 copyright protection378PENANAHYDRRPGJ3T 維尼
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「當時你沒有法定地位,你沒有這個選擇權吧?」我問。8964 copyright protection378PENANAUhsaesqzeG 維尼
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香城的法律裡,要達到一個年齡才有完整法定地位,為自己下決定,不然就需要找監護人作主。8964 copyright protection378PENANAMXYZLY5MuW 維尼
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「剛剛不是說了,沒有親戚願意幫忙嗎?他們覺得我是麻煩製造者,多一個人多一張嘴,負起所有開支。照顧別人家的女兒,誰會做?」8964 copyright protection378PENANAxYyvPNp3CF 維尼
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年小時候已經要面對殘酷的現實…李沛弦為甚麼有心理質素應付所有事?她究竟是甚麼人?8964 copyright protection378PENANAsQEL0GRKhG 維尼
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說回來,既然沒人會照顧親戚的兒女,那為甚麼李沛弦會照顧弱小的我?8964 copyright protection378PENANALScE5HkaST 維尼
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「這不是值得自豪的事,只能說明我的求生意志很強而已,所以我沒有跟任何朋友提過,對外的說法是『我很少回家』,然後三緘其口。」8964 copyright protection378PENANAyXjr6PFZTu 維尼
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原來李沛弦住在社會服務區的風台,是住在孤兒院。8964 copyright protection378PENANA6petRod5BP 維尼
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「你之前在教堂說過『想當護士是因為受過幫助』,就是這個原因?」我問。8964 copyright protection378PENANAIKkQWwLEwE 維尼
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白先生的調子。8964 copyright protection378PENANAOeVizTUq0K 維尼
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「不是說過『我只會救還能救活的人』嗎?那麼不能救的人呢?我很清楚,這類人有不少都希望結束這刻的痛苦,有尊嚴地離開這個世界。所以,我非常希望助他們一臂之力。」8964 copyright protection378PENANAKWzR5Q7WZk 維尼
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香城是世界少數安樂死合法化的地方,部份醫院設有臨終治療部,擁有執行安樂死的法定權力,這部門的醫護若干地「像」古時的劊子手,每天需要「殺」幾個病人,久而久之會出現嚴重心理壓力,甚至心理創傷。據說臨終治療部的醫護職位,是香城有名的厭惡性工作之一。8964 copyright protection378PENANAji9MJBiQCl 維尼
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這麼說,李沛弦的目標是希望以臨終治療部的護士身份,「貢獻」社會?8964 copyright protection378PENANAnrylTFLS0t 維尼
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「想不到,這才是你想當護士的原因。」我說。8964 copyright protection378PENANAUMr48YEIds 維尼
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「嗯,我聽說執行安樂死的醫護都是被迫才到那裡上班,真的沒聽過志願是那裡。」8964 copyright protection378PENANANiAHGdeWme 維尼
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「不如我問你吧,對一個快要死的人,你知道無藥可救,你會選擇維持他的生命,還是送他有尊嚴的最後一程?」知道我不太認同她的志願,李沛弦問。8964 copyright protection378PENANAiSoNJSwtGM 維尼
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「當然是救他啊,這是人命。」8964 copyright protection378PENANAm7moP6QIQq 維尼
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「你有想過,病人很痛苦吧?」8964 copyright protection378PENANAXkQtsJXEGa 維尼
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「見到有人很痛苦,伸援手是人之常情;那為甚麼見到其他人痛苦到想死,做法就完全不一樣?要強行延續他的痛苦?」8964 copyright protection378PENANAFBhaPBsHED 維尼
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「說不定你救活了他,他會咒罵你啊。」8964 copyright protection378PENANAVzTP6dFBvx 維尼
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活著比死更難受的時候,強行要病人存活,對他是好事嗎?8964 copyright protection378PENANAGaWtjnfd9E 維尼
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「所有人知道病人無藥可救,他選擇放棄治療,渴望一死,我配合,在香城沒人會怪罪我的,因為所有人都知道︰施救是沒用的。手軟,只會毀掉病人的尊嚴。」8964 copyright protection378PENANAVMui1jmePA 維尼
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「即使病人勉強繼續治療,我想我有勇氣送他一程,當送給他的禮物,我想我絕對能下手,假如病人需要我不惜一切送他一程的話。因為作為旁觀者,無力救援的感覺更痛苦。」8964 copyright protection378PENANAxy613x48jB 維尼
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認真?真的下手,就是犯了殺人罪,會被追究的。8964 copyright protection378PENANANxVaSXogZs 維尼
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「不用太認真,說說而已。」李沛弦強調說。「說真的,我覺得我是個快要患上絕症的人。」8964 copyright protection378PENANAvgBx35IcZN 維尼
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這個人跟穹雪霞說起一樣的話來。8964 copyright protection378PENANABFsuD4QrT7 維尼
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「為甚麼…?」我問。8964 copyright protection378PENANAccLsgbUYvv 維尼
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「基因問題,發生時間比較遠而已。」李沛弦答。8964 copyright protection378PENANAeXsWqqIUpk 維尼
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不是說她的父母在她小時候就過身了?8964 copyright protection378PENANAzn3xrI72n0 維尼
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「可能會勾起你的不快回憶,但是可以問嗎?你父母過身的時候,有甚麼病症出現了嗎?」我問。8964 copyright protection378PENANAFSiYZsUsBf 維尼
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李沛弦未有回答,一直未有回答。8964 copyright protection378PENANAY8S4RbHE7g 維尼
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「有,病徵出現了。」沉思了很久,她說。8964 copyright protection378PENANA2tBi0zgiZe 維尼
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「但是同一個病徵,可以有很多病因吧?為甚麼你能斷定那是基因問題,遺傳了給自己?」我問。8964 copyright protection378PENANAexOpnGcleo 維尼
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「不,我知道。」8964 copyright protection378PENANA0xqQAnpGBd 維尼
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父母還沒有正式發病就知道基因病會遺傳給自己?8964 copyright protection378PENANAOnnEKVwEo0 維尼
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──知識範圍外的知識。8964 copyright protection378PENANASUvpDmxI2M 維尼
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果然穹雪霞說的話,可能是對的。8964 copyright protection378PENANAkdpdqTEZes 維尼
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「不要說這些話好嗎……」我說。8964 copyright protection378PENANAGsUV6yEjcO 維尼
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穹雪霞是這樣,現在李沛弦又是這樣,快瘋了…8964 copyright protection378PENANAZ9THc9RfNc 維尼
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「直覺而已,人總要面對這種時候,我猜…這一天不會很久。」8964 copyright protection378PENANAFvPPUVxY2R 維尼
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「如果那天真的到了,不要救我,就像我不救其他人一樣。」李沛弦說。「不能救的時候,做甚麼都是無謂。」8964 copyright protection378PENANAZyUChH0lbc 維尼
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「你希望我送你一程嗎?」我嘗試順著她的思路問問題。8964 copyright protection378PENANAxrprIKvu9f 維尼
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「我的小程程變聰明了。」李沛弦摸我的頭。8964 copyright protection378PENANA6lYsypdf7C 維尼
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「如果你有放棄一切的覺悟,我希望你能送我一程。」8964 copyright protection378PENANAxfKoInrZDe 維尼
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李沛弦,不要…8964 copyright protection378PENANAqfZoHool46 維尼
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「雖然我會先到臨終治療部交申請。」8964 copyright protection378PENANAOYiL2nohkd 維尼
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我開始分不清眼前這個人是李沛弦還是穹雪霞了。8964 copyright protection378PENANAZd19UJXbPm 維尼
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「現在我的小程程陪著我,我甚麼也不怕。」李沛弦又蹭我的背。「小程程的背很柔軟啊,抱著甚麼也沒有穿的小程程很舒服。」8964 copyright protection378PENANAGXnykNhAk9 維尼
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「內褲我有穿的。」我無奈地說。8964 copyright protection378PENANAFvfqDsFpq3 維尼
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還有你的運動裝啊可惡,哪裡「甚麼也沒穿」?8964 copyright protection378PENANAtVNLd4lzcE 維尼
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「如果我說,我有超能力,你相信嗎?」李沛弦靜下來,在我背後說。8964 copyright protection378PENANAmE9j0ETew0 維尼
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