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他在床上徐徐張眼。383Please respect copyright.PENANAWUAOEHaTVB
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床褥太軟,腰骨微痛。這不是家裡的床。383Please respect copyright.PENANAvjF8TZOJFl
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暈眩冉退,目光聚焦。看見多張整齊排列的病床和面無血色的老者,他瞬間得出以下結論——醫院。383Please respect copyright.PENANA4YI4mDv5OK
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嗯。醫院。383Please respect copyright.PENANAE9c9DHZ96F
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接受醫生的檢查,證實無恙後,獲告知可以隨時出院。護士根據過往紀錄,已通知兒子和媳婦,只待他們前來接送。383Please respect copyright.PENANApwMQYbU3O3
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醫生離開後,護士也去忙別的。383Please respect copyright.PENANA191Fm8lnj1
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他呆坐床上,默默看著醫護人員在多張病床之間來來回回,感覺實在又虛幻——活到這個年紀,總得要到醫院走幾趟,實屬平常不過的事情,對吧?383Please respect copyright.PENANAotZ42U76Af
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如他所料,兒子在晚上八時許現身。一臉倦容。383Please respect copyright.PENANAEGsWES3lCY
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「醫生說我沒大礙。可能是公園太熱,熱昏了。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAuBc8yniAk4
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「那就多待在家裡避暑,不要外出四處走動。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAKVap6n8DdW
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「知道。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAUEE4krnOxW
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兒子攙扶他走出醫院,在街邊截下的士,直驅住所。383Please respect copyright.PENANAQ7tgwgoGKs
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車廂裡,二人不發一言,各自對著窗外景物發愣。383Please respect copyright.PENANAtiUS6kfJZ1
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沒有怨氣或鬱結,只有緩解不了的疲憊。身心俱疲。383Please respect copyright.PENANAQVupIHEx4g
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黃色街燈在夜幕下迅速往後退。一盞、兩盞、三盞……不盡,無窮。383Please respect copyright.PENANA1INzFZcJDK
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兒子倏忽開口,神色惘然。383Please respect copyright.PENANA9tvlyU2tt8
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「我有末期肝癌,剩半年壽命。」383Please respect copyright.PENANANE0IwSzk3I
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「她知道了沒?」383Please respect copyright.PENANAlddGJcHhBJ
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「不打算告訴她。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAQqv8PeE1Z9
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「你如何在她不知情的情況下抽時間接受治療?」383Please respect copyright.PENANAXauVPPhx2n
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兒子笑而不語。383Please respect copyright.PENANAvNJ22bHlt1
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他愣住片刻,良久才道:「明白。」383Please respect copyright.PENANA8tbecPL7O7
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兒子輕拍他的肩膊,以示感謝。383Please respect copyright.PENANA41n9CFX3ya
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抵家。兒子依舊朝妻兒溫柔地微笑。他沒作聲,逕自到浴室洗澡去。383Please respect copyright.PENANAeLbWIrB2rk
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蒸氣瀰漫,看得見,抓不著。甚麼也抓不著。抓不著開始,也抓不著終結。383Please respect copyright.PENANAjW0Yg2vZrz
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沒選擇的情況下被生產下來,沒能選擇長大與否,沒選擇的情況下經歷病痛,沒選擇的情況下死去。生老病死,全是沒能選擇的。383Please respect copyright.PENANADbWEtPWh0W
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翌日,兒子和媳婦如常上班,孫兒如常上學,家裡只餘他一人。百無聊賴。383Please respect copyright.PENANAt39VNVxoB0
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他決定到公園走走。383Please respect copyright.PENANA7KnEsk8Kq4
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。383Please respect copyright.PENANALEyTLATLq7
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此樹是否去年那樹?此鳥是否去年那鳥?此蟲是否去年那蟲?要緊,不要緊。在意,沒能在意。383Please respect copyright.PENANAct4AboqT3F
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幽幽踏步,皆因內心焦躁。383Please respect copyright.PENANA23AwxtS48p
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來到涼亭,棋友們向他問好。他笑說自己比年輕人更健康。棋友們以為再也看不見他,感到難過。他認為無論難過與否,該死的時候總得要死。383Please respect copyright.PENANA89kzHnrRzu
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全場一片默然。383Please respect copyright.PENANATTA699Iz8T
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聊聊笑笑罷。下棋耍樂罷。383Please respect copyright.PENANA7wFX5dCTzl
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不要問為何。不要問感受。383Please respect copyright.PENANAP2Vuw7wcL7
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有如那樹那鳥那蟲。沒能在意。383Please respect copyright.PENANAtsWWaXxA7A
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正午,他前去學校接送孫兒。孫兒說吃過同學送的怪味糖果後身體輕微不適。他不以為然。下午,孫兒痾嘔不止。聯絡不上兒子和媳婦,他只好獨個兒帶孫兒到醫院去。輪候期間,一張發白的熟悉臉孔癱軟在擔架床上,被匆匆推送入急症室深處。383Please respect copyright.PENANAoQRBI0LAqp
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那是今早與他談笑風生的其中一位棋友。383Please respect copyright.PENANAxbVgPXL6Yt
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數個身穿便服的男女先後抵達護士站,然後按指示守在急症室外。沒多久,醫生步出急症室,宣告棋友的死訊。男男女女隨即哭作一團。383Please respect copyright.PENANAFzIAlYxGJ8
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他默默將孫兒擁入懷裡。383Please respect copyright.PENANAF838kxQmbo
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心慌的極致原來是平靜和淡然,皆因透徹體悟到自身的無能無力無奈。383Please respect copyright.PENANACfCRHRGA5b
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「爺爺,很熱啊!」不知袖裡的孫兒輕輕推開他。383Please respect copyright.PENANAGsfVnfROOg
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「嗯。」對於眼前一切,他花盡全身力氣發出渺小的一聲。383Please respect copyright.PENANAiAXUWV1Etr
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晚餐後,兒子在露台抽菸,媳婦在廚房洗碗。孫兒是個好動的孩子,五分鐘前肚痾得雙腿發軟,此刻已然在梳化上跳個不停。383Please respect copyright.PENANA923iuBzdvh
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跳跳跳,有節奏地跳個不停,像心臟。383Please respect copyright.PENANAJ8aynFBVez
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心臟停止跳動當刻,棋友有何感受?掛念未完的棋局?掛念急症室外的男女親友?383Please respect copyright.PENANAW9oKA7tPEi
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他的目光不期然落瞄向露台,看著兒子呼出個個煙圈,圈圈復圈圈,冉升消散不復見。383Please respect copyright.PENANAqqd5mBIU9t
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不復見。383Please respect copyright.PENANAFvXDoOnTuS
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他莫名的被深深憾動。383Please respect copyright.PENANAPnuiGz5Ln0
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走到兒子身邊,告知棋友的死訊。383Please respect copyright.PENANAy3oWC4FHiT
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毋須明言,兒子已猜測到他的用意。383Please respect copyright.PENANAELM0zZEbc5
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「我不怕死。」383Please respect copyright.PENANA1ieyPVNgoF
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「我也不怕死——死亡並不可怕,只怕沒能完成想要完成的事。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAWyeJpPmpIv
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「你有沒有想要完成的事?」383Please respect copyright.PENANA77z0iwrig9
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「每年夏天買『菠蘿油』給你媽。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAFx0K7znZ7L
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「她的叮囑?」383Please respect copyright.PENANA8zRmYjaOwk
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「不。她離開得太突然,我沒機會問她,只得按照她生前喜好去估計她的心思。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAmWQ9lSTHWU
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「別傻!她不願看見你耿耿於懷!」383Please respect copyright.PENANAPDv7SO51hS
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「她沒這麼說。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAjLgEhAzQqT
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兒子苦笑,笑他彆扭。383Please respect copyright.PENANA1LbuPo1zGd
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再次不了了之?他以為是,直至夜半聞得媳婦哭聲不絕。383Please respect copyright.PENANAGblQDaPe13
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無論大家怎樣勸說,兒子依然不願接受治療,堅持要盡量留下金錢予家人。383Please respect copyright.PENANAUV8pC4B8eo
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半年後,兒子沒死去。一年後,兒子仍活著。三年半後,兒子依然沒斷氣。383Please respect copyright.PENANAfrz4NRF5zu
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問何解。醫生說原因不明,但癌細胞消失了。兒子說只想盡力工作賺錢養活家人。383Please respect copyright.PENANADq3CwX7VRb
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離開醫院、歸家路上,兒子和他拐到公園散步去。383Please respect copyright.PENANAcQE7VkCMU8
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。383Please respect copyright.PENANAZthj1Lu8Id
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「你多活了三年半。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAtQYsC7rkUh
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「我多吃了三個『菠蘿油』。」383Please respect copyright.PENANA06glbusO04
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「想繼續吃?」383Please respect copyright.PENANAPfvlt7cYfU
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「是。期待下一個夏天。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAZbWtmFPHGo
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兒子認為這次大病是上天的提醒,希望他往後好好珍惜時間。打算辭職休養一段日子,在接下來的暑假與大家出國旅遊後,才重回職場繼續拼搏。383Please respect copyright.PENANAbePV94kwCl
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他為兒子衷心高興著,亦感謝上蒼的好生之德,沒有帶走……383Please respect copyright.PENANAVp1kk3Lp76
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兒子呢?383Please respect copyright.PENANAhoLUpkZ6I5
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悉才尚在身邊的兒子不見蹤影。383Please respect copyright.PENANAUDLbHewNuf
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啊!記起來了。383Please respect copyright.PENANAiBnsGAr11l
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兒子去年在暑假前遇上意外,下半身癱瘓。沒能出國旅遊,沒能重回職場,沒能享受期待已久的夏日。383Please respect copyright.PENANA00itmnzdD7
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果然。383Please respect copyright.PENANAl6gA1R5ZrQ
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不努力走下去,就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。383Please respect copyright.PENANAYPWuBWEp7V
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婆娑樹影之下、鳥叫蟲鳴之中,他繼續走。383Please respect copyright.PENANA32aQUNmCkR
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幽幽踏步慢慢走。383Please respect copyright.PENANA5SVUFJBVI9