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他在床上徐徐張眼。381Please respect copyright.PENANAR2zijQp64L
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床褥太軟,腰骨微痛。這不是家裡的床。381Please respect copyright.PENANAc89H4gzhR0
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暈眩冉退,目光聚焦。看見多張整齊排列的病床和面無血色的老者,他瞬間得出以下結論——醫院。381Please respect copyright.PENANALUp1zpXg5q
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嗯。醫院。381Please respect copyright.PENANA1bECG97bQK
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接受醫生的檢查,證實無恙後,獲告知可以隨時出院。護士根據過往紀錄,已通知兒子和媳婦,只待他們前來接送。381Please respect copyright.PENANAyvbgklQ1iH
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醫生離開後,護士也去忙別的。381Please respect copyright.PENANALnLN2Zc7ax
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他呆坐床上,默默看著醫護人員在多張病床之間來來回回,感覺實在又虛幻——活到這個年紀,總得要到醫院走幾趟,實屬平常不過的事情,對吧?381Please respect copyright.PENANAKSlhDiAktl
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如他所料,兒子在晚上八時許現身。一臉倦容。381Please respect copyright.PENANA3tYheszB21
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「醫生說我沒大礙。可能是公園太熱,熱昏了。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAJhfloJlMoo
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「那就多待在家裡避暑,不要外出四處走動。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAWh5G14FzMG
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「知道。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAF63U3JDeQB
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兒子攙扶他走出醫院,在街邊截下的士,直驅住所。381Please respect copyright.PENANABD1rWQPCjY
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車廂裡,二人不發一言,各自對著窗外景物發愣。381Please respect copyright.PENANAiQaALbYA6n
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沒有怨氣或鬱結,只有緩解不了的疲憊。身心俱疲。381Please respect copyright.PENANAKCtvaVK3QA
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黃色街燈在夜幕下迅速往後退。一盞、兩盞、三盞……不盡,無窮。381Please respect copyright.PENANAbS1WMygHCW
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兒子倏忽開口,神色惘然。381Please respect copyright.PENANAH0NUcu0Skd
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「我有末期肝癌,剩半年壽命。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAJyRzTD5cJ6
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「她知道了沒?」381Please respect copyright.PENANASBqNkd0sLg
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「不打算告訴她。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAsZ2yVwnpWZ
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「你如何在她不知情的情況下抽時間接受治療?」381Please respect copyright.PENANAhVYDbwjtGb
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兒子笑而不語。381Please respect copyright.PENANAU6xUNZoZ9n
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他愣住片刻,良久才道:「明白。」381Please respect copyright.PENANARdS7DTR0g7
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兒子輕拍他的肩膊,以示感謝。381Please respect copyright.PENANAUhHaR4Ea0a
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抵家。兒子依舊朝妻兒溫柔地微笑。他沒作聲,逕自到浴室洗澡去。381Please respect copyright.PENANAJlknSbEkML
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蒸氣瀰漫,看得見,抓不著。甚麼也抓不著。抓不著開始,也抓不著終結。381Please respect copyright.PENANAIkZQ8Yr5bC
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沒選擇的情況下被生產下來,沒能選擇長大與否,沒選擇的情況下經歷病痛,沒選擇的情況下死去。生老病死,全是沒能選擇的。381Please respect copyright.PENANAhrmOeKEEuf
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翌日,兒子和媳婦如常上班,孫兒如常上學,家裡只餘他一人。百無聊賴。381Please respect copyright.PENANAMnCo05p3s7
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他決定到公園走走。381Please respect copyright.PENANAPJPPC7X9Lq
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。381Please respect copyright.PENANAyGjCAFmSEv
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此樹是否去年那樹?此鳥是否去年那鳥?此蟲是否去年那蟲?要緊,不要緊。在意,沒能在意。381Please respect copyright.PENANAWCseqCS3fc
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幽幽踏步,皆因內心焦躁。381Please respect copyright.PENANAHO1btnpKHg
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來到涼亭,棋友們向他問好。他笑說自己比年輕人更健康。棋友們以為再也看不見他,感到難過。他認為無論難過與否,該死的時候總得要死。381Please respect copyright.PENANAA76IWiTIR6
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全場一片默然。381Please respect copyright.PENANAbavq3JN7aj
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聊聊笑笑罷。下棋耍樂罷。381Please respect copyright.PENANAIBGt9Bn7b4
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不要問為何。不要問感受。381Please respect copyright.PENANAzdgArWtHQ2
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有如那樹那鳥那蟲。沒能在意。381Please respect copyright.PENANA0BJCiFOwzt
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正午,他前去學校接送孫兒。孫兒說吃過同學送的怪味糖果後身體輕微不適。他不以為然。下午,孫兒痾嘔不止。聯絡不上兒子和媳婦,他只好獨個兒帶孫兒到醫院去。輪候期間,一張發白的熟悉臉孔癱軟在擔架床上,被匆匆推送入急症室深處。381Please respect copyright.PENANAx2Bi9iTRDY
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那是今早與他談笑風生的其中一位棋友。381Please respect copyright.PENANA2lz9kPz5aO
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數個身穿便服的男女先後抵達護士站,然後按指示守在急症室外。沒多久,醫生步出急症室,宣告棋友的死訊。男男女女隨即哭作一團。381Please respect copyright.PENANA4cqgXHWPwd
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他默默將孫兒擁入懷裡。381Please respect copyright.PENANAKVuYkbrzRX
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心慌的極致原來是平靜和淡然,皆因透徹體悟到自身的無能無力無奈。381Please respect copyright.PENANAk2kK4W3cYD
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「爺爺,很熱啊!」不知袖裡的孫兒輕輕推開他。381Please respect copyright.PENANAulRUlXgS4K
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「嗯。」對於眼前一切,他花盡全身力氣發出渺小的一聲。381Please respect copyright.PENANAH19TnyKAAc
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晚餐後,兒子在露台抽菸,媳婦在廚房洗碗。孫兒是個好動的孩子,五分鐘前肚痾得雙腿發軟,此刻已然在梳化上跳個不停。381Please respect copyright.PENANAp5fEggQirZ
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跳跳跳,有節奏地跳個不停,像心臟。381Please respect copyright.PENANAo8aWSVdsKi
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心臟停止跳動當刻,棋友有何感受?掛念未完的棋局?掛念急症室外的男女親友?381Please respect copyright.PENANAuVHPjeM87o
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他的目光不期然落瞄向露台,看著兒子呼出個個煙圈,圈圈復圈圈,冉升消散不復見。381Please respect copyright.PENANA8jKBZJ324p
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不復見。381Please respect copyright.PENANAb7GQPN1IIt
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他莫名的被深深憾動。381Please respect copyright.PENANAp3jUVc4y3t
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走到兒子身邊,告知棋友的死訊。381Please respect copyright.PENANAip72kn6Yp3
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毋須明言,兒子已猜測到他的用意。381Please respect copyright.PENANAMeAKKMc69q
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「我不怕死。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAqsHK3KHQqM
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「我也不怕死——死亡並不可怕,只怕沒能完成想要完成的事。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAO9naatGHMa
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「你有沒有想要完成的事?」381Please respect copyright.PENANAIxMsdl5JI0
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「每年夏天買『菠蘿油』給你媽。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAWj8HBPW1mz
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「她的叮囑?」381Please respect copyright.PENANAbiY1Kh0V04
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「不。她離開得太突然,我沒機會問她,只得按照她生前喜好去估計她的心思。」381Please respect copyright.PENANASCckqfMBbF
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「別傻!她不願看見你耿耿於懷!」381Please respect copyright.PENANAyVUNAVwsiu
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「她沒這麼說。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAHlpFBWwz6D
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兒子苦笑,笑他彆扭。381Please respect copyright.PENANAUf9e66Pvr2
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再次不了了之?他以為是,直至夜半聞得媳婦哭聲不絕。381Please respect copyright.PENANA1MmSJ0YLOE
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無論大家怎樣勸說,兒子依然不願接受治療,堅持要盡量留下金錢予家人。381Please respect copyright.PENANAN7iWiKw4jp
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半年後,兒子沒死去。一年後,兒子仍活著。三年半後,兒子依然沒斷氣。381Please respect copyright.PENANAqjP8UskCZZ
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問何解。醫生說原因不明,但癌細胞消失了。兒子說只想盡力工作賺錢養活家人。381Please respect copyright.PENANAI2LTp8dQ1h
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離開醫院、歸家路上,兒子和他拐到公園散步去。381Please respect copyright.PENANArXlFYznUM9
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。381Please respect copyright.PENANA0qK8AamuNi
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「你多活了三年半。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAa8xx4Fahbr
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「我多吃了三個『菠蘿油』。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAeJfieRnjFe
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「想繼續吃?」381Please respect copyright.PENANAR9Dz5gEV2p
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「是。期待下一個夏天。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAVJKLs29TV3
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兒子認為這次大病是上天的提醒,希望他往後好好珍惜時間。打算辭職休養一段日子,在接下來的暑假與大家出國旅遊後,才重回職場繼續拼搏。381Please respect copyright.PENANAhZituW8Zcm
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他為兒子衷心高興著,亦感謝上蒼的好生之德,沒有帶走……381Please respect copyright.PENANArZmKn5bObo
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兒子呢?381Please respect copyright.PENANAKUsfEU4Fa8
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悉才尚在身邊的兒子不見蹤影。381Please respect copyright.PENANAm3XK93FnRa
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啊!記起來了。381Please respect copyright.PENANAPOTw23UubY
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兒子去年在暑假前遇上意外,下半身癱瘓。沒能出國旅遊,沒能重回職場,沒能享受期待已久的夏日。381Please respect copyright.PENANAYCnNhqiOY7
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果然。381Please respect copyright.PENANAHvpppJV5Wc
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不努力走下去,就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。381Please respect copyright.PENANAzexBApvrbD
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婆娑樹影之下、鳥叫蟲鳴之中,他繼續走。381Please respect copyright.PENANA6Cxal6ACNe
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幽幽踏步慢慢走。381Please respect copyright.PENANAAbU0hgx64J