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他在床上徐徐張眼。387Please respect copyright.PENANAHnDoW4gnpb
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床褥太軟,腰骨微痛。這不是家裡的床。387Please respect copyright.PENANAxKIKQLCUhI
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暈眩冉退,目光聚焦。看見多張整齊排列的病床和面無血色的老者,他瞬間得出以下結論——醫院。387Please respect copyright.PENANAky8KvhCmyc
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嗯。醫院。387Please respect copyright.PENANACkLD96EwW4
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接受醫生的檢查,證實無恙後,獲告知可以隨時出院。護士根據過往紀錄,已通知兒子和媳婦,只待他們前來接送。387Please respect copyright.PENANA5YCGyYSOvW
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醫生離開後,護士也去忙別的。387Please respect copyright.PENANAHPUX3kSy8O
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他呆坐床上,默默看著醫護人員在多張病床之間來來回回,感覺實在又虛幻——活到這個年紀,總得要到醫院走幾趟,實屬平常不過的事情,對吧?387Please respect copyright.PENANAwSjoFdfsZ6
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如他所料,兒子在晚上八時許現身。一臉倦容。387Please respect copyright.PENANAneMVFGa05H
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「醫生說我沒大礙。可能是公園太熱,熱昏了。」387Please respect copyright.PENANAtl7FtvBCDt
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「那就多待在家裡避暑,不要外出四處走動。」387Please respect copyright.PENANAiGfcGWXjHF
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「知道。」387Please respect copyright.PENANAwluZRgIJXT
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兒子攙扶他走出醫院,在街邊截下的士,直驅住所。387Please respect copyright.PENANAazmEI7qywt
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車廂裡,二人不發一言,各自對著窗外景物發愣。387Please respect copyright.PENANAwSvGCPRHbc
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沒有怨氣或鬱結,只有緩解不了的疲憊。身心俱疲。387Please respect copyright.PENANAIotEU3EPRH
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黃色街燈在夜幕下迅速往後退。一盞、兩盞、三盞……不盡,無窮。387Please respect copyright.PENANA7NmRPtXXzU
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兒子倏忽開口,神色惘然。387Please respect copyright.PENANAkPV1Sdd8aK
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「我有末期肝癌,剩半年壽命。」387Please respect copyright.PENANAvDQe1YCbt9
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「她知道了沒?」387Please respect copyright.PENANALCXctznCUp
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「不打算告訴她。」387Please respect copyright.PENANA8GslMe6dX8
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「你如何在她不知情的情況下抽時間接受治療?」387Please respect copyright.PENANAgNRw6wkGkW
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兒子笑而不語。387Please respect copyright.PENANA9QfL9HTZg3
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他愣住片刻,良久才道:「明白。」387Please respect copyright.PENANAac5lDwyKlE
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兒子輕拍他的肩膊,以示感謝。387Please respect copyright.PENANAhtyyZY1X4S
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抵家。兒子依舊朝妻兒溫柔地微笑。他沒作聲,逕自到浴室洗澡去。387Please respect copyright.PENANAmFvkolbi8U
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蒸氣瀰漫,看得見,抓不著。甚麼也抓不著。抓不著開始,也抓不著終結。387Please respect copyright.PENANAnAVXVOyEmC
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沒選擇的情況下被生產下來,沒能選擇長大與否,沒選擇的情況下經歷病痛,沒選擇的情況下死去。生老病死,全是沒能選擇的。387Please respect copyright.PENANApmO9usgnoM
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翌日,兒子和媳婦如常上班,孫兒如常上學,家裡只餘他一人。百無聊賴。387Please respect copyright.PENANAdWWr6gRRgc
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他決定到公園走走。387Please respect copyright.PENANAYnmiw6B8cE
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。387Please respect copyright.PENANAj5XqNHwmLa
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此樹是否去年那樹?此鳥是否去年那鳥?此蟲是否去年那蟲?要緊,不要緊。在意,沒能在意。387Please respect copyright.PENANAlyErla90bx
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幽幽踏步,皆因內心焦躁。387Please respect copyright.PENANA1hLIn9dszI
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來到涼亭,棋友們向他問好。他笑說自己比年輕人更健康。棋友們以為再也看不見他,感到難過。他認為無論難過與否,該死的時候總得要死。387Please respect copyright.PENANANEECXMvlEh
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全場一片默然。387Please respect copyright.PENANAlFd9guK77R
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聊聊笑笑罷。下棋耍樂罷。387Please respect copyright.PENANAdDscXP8zuq
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不要問為何。不要問感受。387Please respect copyright.PENANA30byWjkMii
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有如那樹那鳥那蟲。沒能在意。387Please respect copyright.PENANARURVnbBhGa
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正午,他前去學校接送孫兒。孫兒說吃過同學送的怪味糖果後身體輕微不適。他不以為然。下午,孫兒痾嘔不止。聯絡不上兒子和媳婦,他只好獨個兒帶孫兒到醫院去。輪候期間,一張發白的熟悉臉孔癱軟在擔架床上,被匆匆推送入急症室深處。387Please respect copyright.PENANATka4gZGJ45
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那是今早與他談笑風生的其中一位棋友。387Please respect copyright.PENANAaBaJBxVUhg
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數個身穿便服的男女先後抵達護士站,然後按指示守在急症室外。沒多久,醫生步出急症室,宣告棋友的死訊。男男女女隨即哭作一團。387Please respect copyright.PENANAiOZtpAQjIQ
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他默默將孫兒擁入懷裡。387Please respect copyright.PENANAikzN51hnTw
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心慌的極致原來是平靜和淡然,皆因透徹體悟到自身的無能無力無奈。387Please respect copyright.PENANAUBaZ4gaXGN
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「爺爺,很熱啊!」不知袖裡的孫兒輕輕推開他。387Please respect copyright.PENANA6ElCJjmQgc
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「嗯。」對於眼前一切,他花盡全身力氣發出渺小的一聲。387Please respect copyright.PENANAu36gcEKgsq
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晚餐後,兒子在露台抽菸,媳婦在廚房洗碗。孫兒是個好動的孩子,五分鐘前肚痾得雙腿發軟,此刻已然在梳化上跳個不停。387Please respect copyright.PENANAyMgEmOzLQE
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跳跳跳,有節奏地跳個不停,像心臟。387Please respect copyright.PENANAkeWyMBfSMu
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心臟停止跳動當刻,棋友有何感受?掛念未完的棋局?掛念急症室外的男女親友?387Please respect copyright.PENANAITqoK94BCx
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他的目光不期然落瞄向露台,看著兒子呼出個個煙圈,圈圈復圈圈,冉升消散不復見。387Please respect copyright.PENANAbFZH7eewO6
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不復見。387Please respect copyright.PENANAF6m9WyExCC
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他莫名的被深深憾動。387Please respect copyright.PENANAIQyYUsBquf
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走到兒子身邊,告知棋友的死訊。387Please respect copyright.PENANAtHnxoZr43J
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毋須明言,兒子已猜測到他的用意。387Please respect copyright.PENANAAuzpBK12xV
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「我不怕死。」387Please respect copyright.PENANA2h3VFBQslA
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「我也不怕死——死亡並不可怕,只怕沒能完成想要完成的事。」387Please respect copyright.PENANANAvTO3iCTn
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「你有沒有想要完成的事?」387Please respect copyright.PENANAlN873fauMD
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「每年夏天買『菠蘿油』給你媽。」387Please respect copyright.PENANAwACbuFTLM5
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「她的叮囑?」387Please respect copyright.PENANAZYuj2JUxHq
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「不。她離開得太突然,我沒機會問她,只得按照她生前喜好去估計她的心思。」387Please respect copyright.PENANAR8dELwYU06
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「別傻!她不願看見你耿耿於懷!」387Please respect copyright.PENANANLNCPJb2BP
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「她沒這麼說。」387Please respect copyright.PENANAAksOhI6vwu
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兒子苦笑,笑他彆扭。387Please respect copyright.PENANAsR9ZIKBD34
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再次不了了之?他以為是,直至夜半聞得媳婦哭聲不絕。387Please respect copyright.PENANA8QA08LYqmb
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無論大家怎樣勸說,兒子依然不願接受治療,堅持要盡量留下金錢予家人。387Please respect copyright.PENANAa0ZJaKnf4H
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半年後,兒子沒死去。一年後,兒子仍活著。三年半後,兒子依然沒斷氣。387Please respect copyright.PENANALPIUn4sZvY
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問何解。醫生說原因不明,但癌細胞消失了。兒子說只想盡力工作賺錢養活家人。387Please respect copyright.PENANA8iF5D84upf
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離開醫院、歸家路上,兒子和他拐到公園散步去。387Please respect copyright.PENANA2tgxbCWSJ7
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。387Please respect copyright.PENANAppK3ns8Rfo
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「你多活了三年半。」387Please respect copyright.PENANAjLsuc9OXm5
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「我多吃了三個『菠蘿油』。」387Please respect copyright.PENANAuaoGv0RyLj
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「想繼續吃?」387Please respect copyright.PENANAIaU9vlupAw
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「是。期待下一個夏天。」387Please respect copyright.PENANAeqUlwhNBPH
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兒子認為這次大病是上天的提醒,希望他往後好好珍惜時間。打算辭職休養一段日子,在接下來的暑假與大家出國旅遊後,才重回職場繼續拼搏。387Please respect copyright.PENANAx79dG8KlC8
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他為兒子衷心高興著,亦感謝上蒼的好生之德,沒有帶走……387Please respect copyright.PENANA63dqWctSpv
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兒子呢?387Please respect copyright.PENANAttS9tVKvCx
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悉才尚在身邊的兒子不見蹤影。387Please respect copyright.PENANAr4BMFlVOYV
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啊!記起來了。387Please respect copyright.PENANAZxqsJURuES
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兒子去年在暑假前遇上意外,下半身癱瘓。沒能出國旅遊,沒能重回職場,沒能享受期待已久的夏日。387Please respect copyright.PENANAvckGuq22ZG
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果然。387Please respect copyright.PENANAyENKTH9lMA
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不努力走下去,就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。387Please respect copyright.PENANAQoKb4J7hQb
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婆娑樹影之下、鳥叫蟲鳴之中,他繼續走。387Please respect copyright.PENANAqAaNJgLvin
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幽幽踏步慢慢走。387Please respect copyright.PENANAz6rlFhxaEs