清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVjlJwQxj1
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又做了這個夢？392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYbQD5x08u
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QScuufRc5
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZUXFdEbTm
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtrljwSsZ4
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcP54tOmq5k
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5T6ep3iQQW
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpkrV0swAY
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57Lxu6AKpu
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIqbIpmRtD
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdUxAZyitL
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡie1yDYa5HA
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BXR21aqTL
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OlZiimsTA
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxJKMv5mkk
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnZb1pN7UC
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDP76DNmxG
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZx5j5sOZy
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這個過程的目的是？392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEs2HUPsNdT
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82GYx4ISDb
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzaS4Qqtt8
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１９９８年１２月２４日：392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLy6msCsb9n
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsziSsFNxo
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTg79iYSCA
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只是為了生存！392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBMtuj6D2s
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQsT4IO1pH
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9u5USl9Ts
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88xYQ9Ry0z
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJQXcY73Ei
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2XreSaUiQ
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lRnKQfKJL
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKD4Ylcu0K
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8RAnZsHZLP
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxFe22rcye
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCy6UfvtPKY
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聽到我的問題 眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rH3jhYpHv
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5s9IxbZtKp
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAb6hdXnqO
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRy2TQ5kl3d
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo81HXEhTig
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「喔？為何呢？」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYGppBWBXW
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbE1aJNhl3G
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想起了雙親．．．．．．392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MIimIRs7U
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNhGcAE1ra
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNoF1bjPdE
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYSpwrFxAx
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONbKm8xbxl
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi360rYOZuC
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBaI1drNlz
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOqI9wUG8i
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「你感覺到了什麼？」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvtadIJWHf
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASQm5Tpppa
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0S5E4JexpK
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我仍是搖頭。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7oaPxnJo8
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9zPasbsmw
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQO4zd8uFuJ
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPKol8aDS7
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUxlcj2R7O
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「．．．．．．．」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgW5jPcIR1q
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyuyP5IH1S
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKdNekhfNi
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「是這樣子嗎？」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzQPWyKaQv
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4dj504fqo
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReeZgTmNMD
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOk0BTd7INH
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhQNJ43pwz
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgigIiycjY2
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXciwpJI0l
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53nJS8s1nd
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「我、我的水彩？」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoNA56DeI7
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0YbA29c5A
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBU0vyqQkb
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsFaPKdp3L
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHa0YhTUJd6
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWWb4a0dJS
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKkDsIgUVL
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpFcVIpzAz
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkl6QDvniz
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英國；392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7ROOSCC8M
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１９９８年１２月２４日；392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4LtwNxTVz
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIYwrBXR5N
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHUkHuhjTZ
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）
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