清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjswjV9yCXp
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又做了這個夢？390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLA68yhSJKw
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxIaG4RTaI
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJx23j75YW4
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6QHXwUwh4
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hmxbp4GU3
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLSer4Vb1o
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUwjAIxyF6
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnwxTa8Bda
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLCmqjaRdf
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTb5BBYxDMk
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbnFHnLPlH
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmPX1i0zP3
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHa0szDhm4
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１９９８年１１月２７日：390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡov7k0pgoFc
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG82772lhM2
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWThvyE6lX
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0k1EqSYbAF
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVyq4O6O4x
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這個過程的目的是？390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGAx2gxgeY
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPIZOy3CKt
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSlvez89q4
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１９９８年１２月２４日：390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOVM2ZNaGs
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdirQbTj4Z
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOFUZC0hxr
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只是為了生存！390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc07SEqqx2d
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnO81hoGhv8
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuu3npelZi
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUG46E75Zdy
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LwCZbMzBB
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIjvMP9HKO
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSd7oq2fHo
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBq311ZVMi
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUwysJc8pa
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlNHZ3EnTG
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6WXwiDz99
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聽到我的問題 眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCp27uZmktI
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0SQnZN8Jh
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyTRFKxSJH
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgljhQ7aot6
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdlRbJuqAZ
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「喔？為何呢？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsoLn7y48iw
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ANW8lhDVa
「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfbjm23IAg
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想起了雙親．．．．．．390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQRgOhAho4
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWG8eC1akXB
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PiG5VRvOe
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SbuZQ2ikV
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncIGTVt8Vl
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1pZs5cwyc
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvA2VthPIR
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRALM3wdqC
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「你感覺到了什麼？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQiB7dcJwy
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2n1w47A1y
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XEkTRHYt8
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我仍是搖頭。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4OMYo3OmQ
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylQL8XMY6M
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dDkeWVwpX
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBpBlFCM8c
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UuMpODUfP
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「．．．．．．．」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFSW5kYh3Q
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1Cf7sxbEu
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpmVmLhuEv
「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36GLY9PeTq
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrHwLrPdLw
「是這樣子嗎？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jv8R5hqTE
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9W5ra8GCBO
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2gBImUjuT
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SqHXMIcnJ
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3jJdZybq1
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3J8hBhwDO
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FNOmXURuw
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9Y54Ht39g
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「我、我的水彩？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSxw7uhxEb
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmV1wTKmsst
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpHllHp3Rf
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4vMIme3KC
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGo2efVDYY
「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLY3ebsaJ6
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJH36RJ5Igl
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57LTNStRjO
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl905hdHTbq
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8BStgeUt7
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英國；390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRF8rO8Zxc1
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１９９８年１２月２４日；390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51NBTYwJNW
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPOHHMhDBi
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvoQghXjaM
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）
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