清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oKIGx13ou
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又做了這個夢？395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVV924ZFah
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJ2TCgDvvU
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TvHvheN8c
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx68GIUQLk4
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKs9gnPD8Ql
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLViSn5FgE
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUXoOK3uDY
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuESsahTcA3
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt20llgPiUx
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZo9ITbM6y
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluCAQq3bfq
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvT3BozURh
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxt2vtwVXbd
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKBo8XyTNy
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgsS6uo2VB
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPlTXPxdoB
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuWaREeXCz
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這個過程的目的是？395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo13cFPF0qJ
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vgD3QESIj
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUZpPlLUss
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１９９８年１２月２４日：395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxYz3FUBQ3
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomE3nCe1Xt
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycnYxCH9OS
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只是為了生存！395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡru1SBdGquU
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6cOeMHc3m
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9epFP9Eed
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZfzRzKJQE
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6O2dNtytH
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmy5MbzVBfH
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2eChsGz9V
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wQObeP3nG
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnFEwHjT2b
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoOko7nXTY
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyM6NBVRbOH
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聽到我的問題 眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIH7OEmjiM
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Ta408o0UM
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCg6iJduMr
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB77TgM7Rv2
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkz01MQ1c9s
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「喔？為何呢？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQnTfbY1FY
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lP9ybMdlr
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想起了雙親．．．．．．395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeS6BpYfr58
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseB6NJ2Yhp
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYR4Xw3Ve9A
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSHAhAmwMD
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dh1rbolSz
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElHNAFOJLF
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEGlhdloF8
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSQ44YCFva
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「你感覺到了什麼？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5ctPCZtL3
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS323PfkbjR
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfMi8UaEZz
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我仍是搖頭。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS64hu9c8EP
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSpox8kGdK
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL08VikZgWF
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXSMe8q4lA
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzyFiOee6N
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「．．．．．．．」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBCozoyuBU
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk53OEmInQK
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QYtshi8hQ
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「是這樣子嗎？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzJcnexCde
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihlr90syZU
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ288BmBJ3IT
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6xhCQHqtJ
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRGQvx3wjx
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yiWTuys9v
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbSo65TWvp
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJRjzjcR0u
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「我、我的水彩？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhegGf17b6E
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HFDlz7fkx
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCvP5izUe4
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcoYToaryj
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Lu1aRL6BQ
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixhCd05ny3
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4evNjzOvOC
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbMtNtNsjv
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRuQZNr109
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英國；395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfT1Sfkr6GM
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１９９８年１２月２４日；395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xw1IPmNmy
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwruvOd4sZy
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3b2a0uKw2
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）
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