清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CIjEBZxFU
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又做了這個夢？434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XtLxiv03K
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0mNkgvU7j
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68lEUxP1IM
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVv66jR6Ml
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkiGUTHPW46
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUna1KcwnH
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgD5uYN6UrM
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtFGtMEhLC
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy72VzVX029
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CgWT5YZx5
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnXC3VISBF
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrpXfcE0CO
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNwStoYKag
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEa6byBmFu
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mFhvi9d6x
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ceNI0dNTs
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1aH1UasYV
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這個過程的目的是？434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1bZWlPEwf
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwxCGhvMhT
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MnIERoXbV
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１９９８年１２月２４日：434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBn4oK6idcU
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4bh6ff69W
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgc9flDQa4
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只是為了生存！434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJQy4WjtDN
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbwo76PuHB
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96GZmgzTiC
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ym1cAEshZ
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRPisvIBrG
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdCY6S7t30
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDzVcItGKY
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZO35xfZ5U
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5i28mZ3fr
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUMcw3FIJD
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJALm3SEEA
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聽到我的問題 眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88CtzK52nk
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cIhNadNYt
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJBODlpBYu
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGoW68a3Du
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7YfE86mwo
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「喔？為何呢？」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ElWNsUTaq
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtf37iPq96k
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想起了雙親．．．．．．434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR25yAsM8mV
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhrJ0NaKhG
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EPefMO4a4
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2hfPKPenk
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5OFIz4kEw
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2yq3m7sPI
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAmchj3xi7
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLBk5W4rL7
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「你感覺到了什麼？」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAV4MeHIWm
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPwEvh6J8V
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywDE33JasK
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我仍是搖頭。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAw43PndBA
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YlWyJTmfI
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡns5L1BhAbJ
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnGpsF8uju
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHGYSyo5ho
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「．．．．．．．」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVE4FjSWJGv
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1tGE1qTIk
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBRxfn3uYl
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「是這樣子嗎？」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6riLH4Nbd
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrsidZy6QMM
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6k1vdxGgS
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMznOvVEQb
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFkcn3CTt2
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1r5ip0bzz
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSOlXpJENg
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QqKC1JYYF
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「我、我的水彩？」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNIzKSdOyW
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdi3VsrtGj
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCYyf3aDbP
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLnVcFRz6z
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjf2pr2LLe
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKB9xJXYCr4
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzreL9Hfhqw
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQ9AUbu6Dx
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57fmiJdGSk
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英國；434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYx4MFBnP2Q
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１９９８年１２月２４日；434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0JA84HOzi
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzIiv2uXEA
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGMjqkywoe
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）
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