九月二十八日,子晴靈魂消失的第五天。55Please respect copyright.PENANAuwgkYM2n7A
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「快起床!要遲到了,咳!咳!」老媽的聲音從客廳傳來,略帶沙啞的聲線伴隨著幾聲乾咳。55Please respect copyright.PENANAxBhApRUpsf
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那深具威嚇的聲音把我從睡夢中喚醒,茫然若失的感覺使我一下子徹底醒了過來。55Please respect copyright.PENANAGeWxANsE9X
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為了避免老媽的嘮叨,即便完全沒胃口,我還是拿上一塊麵包,出了門。55Please respect copyright.PENANAmZ72K5kjZL
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上學的路上,昨晚的夢在放空的思緒中趁機而入,至於夢中情節,在昏沉的腦袋中只剩下模糊的片段。或許是回憶中我們相處的某個節點,微小或盛大的時刻。甚至這夢境遺留的痕跡,或許只是我由思念編織出來的幻想也未可知。55Please respect copyright.PENANAxb0AspYie0
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不過這些已經不重要了,因為我深刻地意識到了一點:夢境在有些時候是讓人愉快的,特別是當沉浸其中。但如果它不適時地出現在現實,原來夢中的美好只會把現實中的痛苦無限放大。55Please respect copyright.PENANAec8MiqOG3F
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我能感覺到從痛苦源頭散發的能量正源源不斷地匯聚成焦慮的情緒。那是和小白死去時一樣的感受。循著這近似的情感軌跡,我發現自己似乎在慢慢接受她消失了的事實,即使我內心是無比抗拒的。但縈繞著的不真實感在慢慢消退,宛如黏附在鏡子上的水蒸氣受熱風吹拂而蒸發。55Please respect copyright.PENANAUgAimM14ej
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我試著把昨天的見面當作是我夢境中消逝的某部分,直到她那張空了四天的課桌再次出現在我眼前。那畫面像是在清晰地告訴著我,這發生的一切、昨天的見面、她的消失,都是真實的!55Please respect copyright.PENANAd0yFvHRhRv
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秋涼,教室內沒開冷氣,開著窗。我坐的位置靠窗,樓下操場正上著體育課,發出的嘈雜聲起伏不斷。坐在前面的程志楓轉頭找我聊天的聲音,沒有引起講台上生物老師的注意。55Please respect copyright.PENANAIe5iXFpYlj
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「又是無聊的生物課啊。」他裝作看窗外的風景。55Please respect copyright.PENANAT0WzUg0ucX
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「怎麼又遲到了?」上課前他的位置還空著。55Please respect copyright.PENANAsKSk8pWRNN
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「還不是因為輕鐵塞車,我一向準時。」55Please respect copyright.PENANA99yMNggnqw
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「是嗎?」我不以為意地說。55Please respect copyright.PENANA1Zr4H2DJij
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「哇,年輕真好。」他的注意力被樓下的女生吸引住。55Please respect copyright.PENANANlgg2OdIOh
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我看向遠處郊外的小山丘,視野邊緣飄進來一朵雲。55Please respect copyright.PENANAIPKNVwxU7a
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「子晴的病還沒好嗎?」他悠悠地問。55Please respect copyright.PENANAZ4wxLynO8a
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「嗯。」55Please respect copyright.PENANAX1zkVgzSn1
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我沒有把子晴靈魂從她身體上消失了的事情告訴他。太荒謬了。55Please respect copyright.PENANA6F8VgU6Lx6
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至於為什麼他問病好了沒,大概是我意志消沉時胡亂說的,以致沒有半點印象。55Please respect copyright.PENANA4txM9kwiaB
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「認識這麼久了,也沒見過她怎麼生病過嘛。」他說。55Please respect copyright.PENANAJNakB1kVxH
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「對啊,我也搞不懂怎麼突然就......」未完的話語哽在喉頭。55Please respect copyright.PENANANu0d0HsVWW
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「已經兩天沒上學了,不會得了什麼大病吧?」55Please respect copyright.PENANAgBg3EFeqB3
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事實上,子晴沒來上學這件事還沒引起同學們的注意,原因是她雖在星期五就缺席了。但是由於緊接著禮拜六日,初中生的記憶往往會被週末的間隙重置。所以子晴的缺席,在同學腦海中的印象中也不過是第二天而已。55Please respect copyright.PENANAcN7lTbxckl
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「應該沒事吧。」我應付道。55Please respect copyright.PENANAYmOVbWCAUA
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「應該?」他語調上揚,說著瞥了我一眼:55Please respect copyright.PENANAOZ4ZbBtt34
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「你可是她的男朋友,應該要清楚吧。」55Please respect copyright.PENANAN7LFw6ebjP
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「聽過「男友力」嗎?最近很流行呢。」55Please respect copyright.PENANAGAYrXqakP6
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我默不作聲,他便接著說:55Please respect copyright.PENANAIPWWTMYe0b
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「上次曉琳感冒的時候,我的那杯熱薑茶簡直是殺傷力十足,你真的該好好學學。」55Please respect copyright.PENANAuRfIFqyU9R
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對於吹噓,他毫不吝嗇地把聲量提高。55Please respect copyright.PENANAbe5Q2N3ULg
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「雖然很難做得像我這麼面面俱到,但你也該做點什麼吧。」他忘我地把頭扭了過來。55Please respect copyright.PENANAinr995qPVL
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「......」我迴避了他的眼神。55Please respect copyright.PENANA0vQWOVR29s
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「你該不會是忘記我們當初的約定了吧?」他見我眼神閃爍,更加肆意地說道。55Please respect copyright.PENANARx5iEQ57Yq
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這時生物老師已經走到了他身後,生物課剩下的時間,他被罰在教室門口聽課。55Please respect copyright.PENANA9sSKT1rSqH
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我當然記得,那天的約定,可是還有辦法延續嗎?我看著藍天下那朵憂愁的白雲,想著。55Please respect copyright.PENANAEUCr6R5mGE