當我醒來時，已經坐在了列車的座椅上，睫毛和眼角有眼淚揮發後留下的痕跡。低下頭看了看手錶，已經八點半了。窗外已經徹底被黑暗籠罩，循環的列車不知開到了哪一站。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5oaowFitx
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不出所料，手機有幾個家裡打來的未接來電。把手機塞回口袋，我看著窗外夜景，睡意猶自未消，幾天來鬱結心中的痛苦暫且被掩蓋，迷糊之間不知哪裡來的勇氣，我撥通了她的電話。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DDjhgxjMI
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「嘟──嘟──嘟──」此刻電話等候聲的間隙變得格外漫長。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Fg2wSF9JC
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「喂？」電話那頭傳來熟悉的聲線。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEmTLJLs8d
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「......喂，是我，陳遠木。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93NbPfbKfH
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「你好，請問有什麼事嗎？」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqvZaNMdkN
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「我現在可以去找你嗎？」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn75VbY3ufi
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「可以是可以，但是醫院十點就有門禁了。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4PlZPdWCu
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「沒關係，我儘快趕到。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYAoBhaMxJ
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「那我等你。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUL6EDcsv9
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「嗯。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELTwdkUoVL
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打電話向家裡交代後，我的視線再次落在了窗外，看著斑斕的霓虹，等待列車到站。經過兩次轉車後，我來到了醫院，通往大門的過道上人流疏落，空氣久違的滲著一絲涼意。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwrLzyVJu5
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上次見面已經是四天前了，這幾天來我都極力逃避著那天她所說的一切，直到這一刻我還是很難相信，又或者是根本不願意去相信。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVStRTkoCYn
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站在病房前，心跳在不自覺地加速，深呼吸後，我推開了門。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9rQZOZcea
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她挨在床頭的靠背上，一頭濕潤的長髮披在肩上，耳朵裡塞著耳機，手裡握著手機和纏繞在手掌的耳機線，眼睛閉著，就這樣靜靜地，空氣彷彿隨她一同靜止。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5U1OhXV6b
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眼前的她是這麼的熟悉，但她的一切卻彷如湖面泛起的波紋，無限向外延展擴散，直至消失殆盡，絲毫沒有留下存在過的痕跡。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbjDEkReZD
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我呆呆佇立在病床旁。直至廁所馬桶的沖水聲把我倆一同喚醒。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgW5VoxcBP
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她注意到了我。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6Dv44VAiZ
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「你來啦？怎麼不叫我。」她拿下一邊耳機，扭頭問。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGcu7Lq62o
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「對不起，我看你睡得正酣。」我明知道她沒睡。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwz2FYSVnj
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「沒有啦，我在聽音樂。」她側著抬起頭，展示淺埋在長髮下的耳機。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvPrwd8nvL
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「音樂嗎......她也很喜歡呢。」我口中喃喃念著，在床邊的椅子坐下。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAXRfQnJ01
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「這麼晚了，有什麼事嗎？」她邊問邊把另一邊的耳機摘下。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYR56dppYeh
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「沒有，就是想見一面。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqKSWKjHgC
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「我叫嘉雯，你還記得嗎？」她問。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgC2ndq9eKd
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「嘉雯......」我默念著這個從這張熟悉臉龐說出的陌生名字。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpxJgJvNTv
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「你叫陳遠木對吧？」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1PFos1zDl
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「嗯，陳遠木。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjKB8kqUBz
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「你認識的她呢？是叫李子晴吧？如果我沒記錯的話。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23AjBfdjN3
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「是的，李子晴。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcj3RMNWzXF
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「陳遠木，李子晴。」她微微抬頭像是搜索著腦海中有關這兩個名字的記憶。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrNwiu1mBq
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「還是記不起來嗎？」我的失落溢於言表。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirAUWKaAej
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她見狀連忙岔開話題：47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUjAbyYPYx
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「你說有沒有可能是人格分裂呢，雖然是發生在自己身上，但也是有可能的吧？」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4oRFL6aLa
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人格分裂嗎？也就是說在這幅軀體中存在著兩個她，這幾天，我想過無數可能的原因，當然也包括人格分裂。但通通都被莫名的不真實感所覆蓋，我始終不敢相信她就這樣離開了，不管是什麼原因。我看著她的臉，尋找著任何關於「她」消失的線索。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrvVhC2PSW
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「可是醫生不是說一切正常嗎？」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡay2CQRrCRt
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「如果按常理來說，這樣就解釋不了眼前所發生的一切了吧。如果說是靈魂附體的話，確實很難讓人相信吧，居然會發生這種事，太難以置信了。如果不是你那天生無可戀的表情，我一定毫不猶豫地把你當成騙子。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tUkIKI50Y
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「可它確實是發生了，也只能這樣相信了。」我腦中想起與許老師關於靈魂的對話，便問：47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjfwrrRYmM
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「這幾天你有想起什麼來嗎？哪怕是一點點的片段。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbW9vrMgJH
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「很遺憾，實在無法想起來，如果你所說的一切是真實發生過的，你能證明嗎？」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIT6BMkGd0
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她冷漠的神情如同對待初次見面的陌生人。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevxIqcNPZ9
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「她最喜歡紅色了，特別是粉紅色，絲木棉樹下她的眼睛都看得發直了。像是這輩子沒見過粉紅色一樣。」我獨自懷緬著。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9zihjSDN1
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「這也太籠統了，女孩子都喜歡紅色吧。有更確鑿的證據嗎？不然也太難以使人信服了。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDysvzzyF7v
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「你右胸有一顆痣，沒錯吧？」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0NEditeKX
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「......」她臉上頓時泛起一陣潮紅，耳根子都紅透了。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7njxPt6k5
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「對不起，只是在暑假旅行時無意間看到的。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbbFX1Gfa7
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「怎麼會無意間看到！說！你到底做了什麼？」她瞪大眼睛看著我。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYBCyJwp9H
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「那天在海邊，她穿著泳衣，就看見了。」我支吾著說。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqdwTlNwIE
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「你偷看！」她雙手摀在胸前。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkLtfqyNGr
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「對不起！」趁形勢還沒有到不可逆轉前，我連忙道歉。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSdmUqrvgW
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「......」沉默了好一會，她說：47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsMSTGcABd
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「好吧，我相信你。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCgyCapwh3
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「嗯。」我腦袋還在回憶著沒多久之前暑假那天的畫面。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kcylUi18Z
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她沒有馬上接話，讓我們之間的空氣沉了下來。這時我才發現，由於是多人病房，不少家屬都趕在門禁前探望親人，我們的對話被淹沒在聲浪中，並沒有引起其他人的注意。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MwGRsy2fw
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「那我們的關係......我的意思是你和「她」的關係發展到什麼地步了？」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrXUCnUgBm
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她低著頭，雙頰的紅暈尚未褪去。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvQqjCTOPe
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「我愛上了她，從中三的那個夏天開始，不知不覺已經一年了。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaS6WvhllVH
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「我當然知道，不然那天你也不會哭得那麼撕心裂肺了。我的意思是──你們接吻了嗎？」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFSZlZ3sJp
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她最後那句話細得幾乎聽不見。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQWQUti9E0
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「當然。」我神色黯然，欲言又止。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKGB8HPH7w
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她看著頭頂的燈泡，像在思考又像在回憶。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7Yf8vBeRf
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「對不起，如果那是你的初吻。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2ZbLH7xnY
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「沒關係，就像是意外發生的吻不會被視為初吻吧，何況我還記憶全無。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdSAdBSDWy
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她思索片刻，然後樂觀地抿嘴一笑。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJNXdUEsAy
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剎那間，子晴的笑臉如同一張張的幻燈片，在我腦中逐一掠過。只是沒有一張與眼前的這張笑臉吻合，很像，很像，卻又有哪裡不同。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslm4Z6r7ge
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「如果不記得了，發生過的一切再美好的確也無法想像吧。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXgEN4xKN5
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我默默想著，就像眼前的她，再熟悉的面孔也只是個陌生人。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXqH26DLtf
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「我覺得她應該不想看到你這麼難過，如果世上真有靈魂，她應該就在某處看著吧。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NHDOkcJR2
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她安慰的同時遞來一張面紙。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl53z8xyIdr
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這時我才意識到眼角不知何時滲出的眼淚。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMRRilG1Wc
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「謝謝。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhMdgNhBI9
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「不客氣。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7whzs7MyEt
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我擦拭著眼淚，背後傳來醫院護士的聲音：47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47QdGEkc72
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「各位訪客，還有五分鐘就要離開了！」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9GvueUL5Y
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「抱歉，今天這麼晚了還來打擾你。」我起身準備離開，發現雙腳已經麻了。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7NrvNZJZk
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「沒事的，你不要太難過了。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGfGbSNQLR
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「小伙子，你女友可真漂亮，記得要好好對人家。」正要走出房門，對面病床的阿姨說。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0d8Kxs1Po
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話音傳入耳朵，竟讓胸口悶得快要窒息。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Rb7RXE61p
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「阿姨別這麼說，我會害羞的。」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJmDvOapQU
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從她熟絡地回答看來，她們已經是病友了。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ESRWSgAmf
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我想她很清楚我的心情，所以沒有否定被冠以的身份。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8r4LtPFnPu
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「阿姨，我會的。」我配合著她的演出，這算是逃避現實嗎？47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQZGW1kAtf
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走廊上，她追了出來。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRnm0VMrJU
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「如果可以......」她頓了頓，繼續說：47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLLYhgl8cL
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「請告訴我，你們的故事，畢竟這曾經發生在我身上！」47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQJOV2S3Uc
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「早點休息吧。」我無奈回頭，對她的請求不置可否。47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyU7NTg35X
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