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「天就快亮了,在那之前做個好夢吧。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAiiiFiKuEcU
有個聲音這麼說,像剛從太陽下收起的棉被一般,柔軟且暖和,讓人想深深陷進裡頭一覺不起。83Please respect copyright.PENANAVIDtMPSHuM
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「好夢不會變成噩夢嗎?」83Please respect copyright.PENANAoNutSti2rm
另一個聲音這麼問,顫抖著,像是隨時都會哭出來似的,在雨中縮瑟的青色果實。83Please respect copyright.PENANAzuKj4QBgxC
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「我不知道,但是到時候我會把你叫醒的。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAzugUUdmoqE
「你是誰?」83Please respect copyright.PENANARMZUVIrHNm
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「我也不知道我是誰,由你來決定吧,只要你開口的話,我就會為你扮演那個角色。」83Please respect copyright.PENANA6Er5MSzu57
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為了我?83Please respect copyright.PENANAdDTtoBi1hU
我還可以對誰許願嗎?並不是因為坐在漂亮的櫥窗裡被誰用期待和渴望注視著,也不是被誰拿在手上肆意玩弄,而是對誰提出願望,讓誰來幫忙實現,真的會有這種事發生嗎?83Please respect copyright.PENANAYiZ4LhBPxs
話說回來,許願什麼的,該怎麼做才好?83Please respect copyright.PENANAeBMFRVkCxW
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「我也不知道到底還有甚麼樣的角色是可以抱有期待的。但是,我有點害怕人,所以……」83Please respect copyright.PENANAq2WX7jAi9Y
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這種話會不會太任性了呢?他停住嘴,如果接下來會被否決的話,是不是停留在有人願意為他做點甚麼的此時此刻就好了。83Please respect copyright.PENANA2HOX9AIRmO
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「我知道了,那我就變成錫樵夫,而你是稻草人,雖然有著和人相像的地方,卻都不是人、不再是人的某種東西。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAL2Zz2LIQ2m
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這個故事,好像在哪裡聽過,某個踩著黃磚道去尋找能圓滿自己的人的故事。83Please respect copyright.PENANAJeA5qS5Bg2
他將身體縮了起來,他大概跟稻草人一樣缺少了些甚麼,稻草人被綁在玉米田中央,無關意志的執行著自己的工作,他也是如此,除了當個商品以外一無所有,包括「自己」。83Please respect copyright.PENANAaEXk15l5eD
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「那你喜歡我嗎?」83Please respect copyright.PENANAsYFbdTU23f
「錫樵夫沒有心,不知道什麼是喜歡。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAXvbvNTA15q
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「這樣啊,太好了。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAPkTBPXwAEr
「嗯,太好了呢。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAbvAyidnTqj
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聽到錫樵夫這麼說,稻草人緩緩的將縮緊到隨時都會散架的身體攤開。83Please respect copyright.PENANARwwW6QB01h
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好像做了什麼夢,在陽光普照的日子裡下起雨,溫柔的同時卻又讓人感到哀傷。83Please respect copyright.PENANAnIoLau1F49
リンドウ有些迷糊地從床上坐起,窗外的陽光照進房裡,久違的溫暖和恰到好處的光亮填滿視野,或許他還在夢中也說不定。83Please respect copyright.PENANATnBISYygUq
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過了許久,他才注意到房間裡還有其他人在。83Please respect copyright.PENANApixm50AJ9W
マイカ睡在鋪好的床上,而メノウ則裹著毛毯趴在リンドウ床邊,抱著的枕頭像是被硬塞進去的。83Please respect copyright.PENANA6eJJmIq3Xq
メノウ的睡相原來是這樣嗎?明明在店裡不是這樣的,這樣趴著,等會起床會很痛苦的。他不禁這麼想。83Please respect copyright.PENANAfW0tkBujks
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為了不驚動房裡的兩人,リンドウ躡手躡腳地從床上爬起,將メノウ連著毛毯一起抱到床上,並調整了下睡姿。83Please respect copyright.PENANAYPVLgFklCv
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這樣應該好多了。リンドウ後退了幾步,腳下傳來紙張的觸感,一張被揉爛的紙正被他踩著。83Please respect copyright.PENANArRoemlEOrh
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是甚麼時候掉到地上了呢?83Please respect copyright.PENANAnznCGgYSB6
リンドウ撿起那張為他帶來無數不眠之夜的罪魁禍首,手指劃過扭曲的摺痕,接著將它撕成碎片。83Please respect copyright.PENANAoGwUyOQR5Q
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明明早就該這麼做的。リンドウ走到垃圾桶邊,將那些碎片扔掉。83Please respect copyright.PENANAJvQ3FhlQDK
在剛收到的當下就應該直接銷毀掉的,而不是拆開來放在枕邊,每晚睜著眼咀嚼著裡面的文字。然而每當想起要這麼做時,卻又感到猶豫。83Please respect copyright.PENANAECBstU0VKi
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這些痛苦如果僅憑如此就能消除的話,自己的過去似乎就會跟著變得不值一提。83Please respect copyright.PENANAnjDdM5tbI8
這樣沉重的恨意,不想輕易投降的心情,如果真的就這麼忘記的話,未來的他還有什麼是可以依靠的呢?83Please respect copyright.PENANAY8IBYPaJmU
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即使這樣的復仇無論如何都不可能讓對方知曉,既幫不了誰,也不可能真正擊倒對方,只是反覆地想做點甚麼,來證明自己已經跟過去不同了。83Please respect copyright.PENANAF8fv9iYon0
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不管有多麼難堪,多麼不甘,過去都是無法改變的。這種事他怎麼不可能不知道呢?83Please respect copyright.PENANAQqSROoCSDW
可他還沒辦法對著過去的自己說出沒關係這種話,也沒能將回憶放下,就算知道再這樣下去不行,明白一切都只是徒勞,也無法停止將自己沉浸在過往的悲傷中。83Please respect copyright.PENANA988LxDqpWx
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但是……83Please respect copyright.PENANA4J54egCxHL
リンドウ轉頭看著在他房裡熟睡的メノウ和マイカ,還有昨天的真珠跟夜光。83Please respect copyright.PENANAT8UqD3Hojy
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在知道天黑時會有人來時,一方面覺得自己給人添麻煩了,另一方面卻又對這樣的陪伴感到安心。83Please respect copyright.PENANAeZird3lIqj
他得對這些溫柔做出回報才行,就算無法放下,他也得繼續前進。83Please respect copyright.PENANAurzie56As9
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沒事的。リンドウ輕輕拍撫自己的肩,總覺得有誰也對他做過同樣的事情。83Please respect copyright.PENANAnJVwXXjUip
リンドウ將窗簾拉上。原本還覺得溫暖的陽光,隨著時間過去變得刺眼起來。到這裡就好,他只要這些就足夠了。83Please respect copyright.PENANADGDe1Rta0s
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身後傳來棉被翻動的聲響,マイカ也醒了。83Please respect copyright.PENANAEG6Q9uZS1n
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「リンドウ,早安。」83Please respect copyright.PENANATqWdyp9hJM
「抱歉,マイカ,我吵醒你了嗎?」83Please respect copyright.PENANAFop9biQ28e
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「不,我平常就是在這個時間起床的。リンドウ呢?」83Please respect copyright.PENANAsTj6p03ATM
「我也是。而且昨天也很早睡。」83Please respect copyright.PENANA00upa2bhJp
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「那……你睡得好嗎?」83Please respect copyright.PENANAflJi4M25kb
「多虧マイカ泡的茶。」83Please respect copyright.PENANA9KEVqkUv04
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小時候每次睡不著,姐姐都會幫他泡杯熱茶。83Please respect copyright.PENANATroJv6dTmp
他還以為再也不會碰到這種事了。83Please respect copyright.PENANADi8hZU3Af0
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「我多帶了幾天的份,等會告訴你要怎麼泡吧。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAQQgdipTEHH
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「リンドウ,我可以問你幾個問題嗎?假設性的。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAgSxHx8Ukfu
マイカ一邊泡茶一邊問道。83Please respect copyright.PENANAxN5vsr8RSo
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「可以是可以,但我不能保證一定能回答你。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAABWmipJZPU
大概是問為什麼前幾天睡不好的問題吧,該怎麼回答呢?83Please respect copyright.PENANAV0bPmLaQ9h
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「如果,我是說如果……店裡有人在談戀愛的話,你會反對嗎?」83Please respect copyright.PENANAqnpL3fBO93
「欸?」做了心理準備,但マイカ問的卻是另一個他從沒想過的問題。83Please respect copyright.PENANAVgnKBw9zgg
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「リンドウ會反對嗎?職場戀情之類的。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAtdE0WK7S3L
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「嗯……大家私下的交際不是我可以干涉或是反對的問題。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAKFu0XVMXdd
「這樣不算回答吧?」83Please respect copyright.PENANAFJtU51mtTE
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「說得也是,以我的立場來說,只要不影響到演出都沒關係,但這只是我的立場問題。我個人是不抱持贊同或反對意見的。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAbvglOstXt9
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「那……如果有人跟你告白,假設是真珠跟メノウ好了,你會怎麼做?」83Please respect copyright.PENANA8y419JC2gx
マイカ為什麼突然問這個問題呢?是真珠跟メノウ做了什麼嗎?83Please respect copyright.PENANA7uFhQY3Kx1
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「真珠跟メノウ應該不會對我抱持這種感情,而且我也不打算和人發展戀愛關係,所以會拒絕掉吧。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAmexHR3K3PK
在做出回答之後,マイカ露出了有些複雜的表情,像是想針對他的回應做出反駁的樣子。83Please respect copyright.PENANAW7M19wOnuM
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果然發生了什麼。83Please respect copyright.PENANAHrfZQ5XVsl
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「那如果……」83Please respect copyright.PENANAPeoA6y66PM
「マイカ最近有什麼戀愛方面的煩惱嗎?」83Please respect copyright.PENANAcowhdDhemK
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「蛤?我可是在幫……」83Please respect copyright.PENANAxsFj8E2q0U
叮——烤好的吐司從吐司機裡彈出,打斷了マイカ的話。83Please respect copyright.PENANAE09hcwqfx5
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「抱歉,マイカ,我沒聽清……」83Please respect copyright.PENANA1CC4Cvx53i
「不不不,沒什麼,リンドウ你剛剛聽錯了。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAdrLDXRmHh8
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雖然有點在意,但看マイカ的反應好像不是什麼會產生負面影響的事,就先裝作不知道吧。83Please respect copyright.PENANAEBTCug8xQx
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「我知道了。我去叫醒メノウ。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAzDvnT512DP
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リンドウ回到房裡,將睡在他床上的メノウ叫醒。83Please respect copyright.PENANAUILRCB40B3
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「メノウ,起床了。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAmyWX89k9tl
他彎下腰,輕輕搖晃著メノウ的肩。83Please respect copyright.PENANAF7bnhpCbgV
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「嗚嗯……」83Please respect copyright.PENANATXjYl6fZh0
メノウ有些難受的用毯子摀住臉,就這麼叫醒他好像有點殘忍。83Please respect copyright.PENANACLwgpFh8JO
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リンドウ在床邊坐下,靜靜的看著メノウ的睡臉,出於某種衝動和好奇心,他伸手戳了戳メノウ的臉頰。83Please respect copyright.PENANAXMLdrvSAU6
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這個樣子有點……可愛。83Please respect copyright.PENANAfaI6G4Hg6z
リンドウ不自覺的勾起嘴角。明明メノウ在店裡睡覺被趁機戳臉的景象已經見過不少次了,今天卻莫名感到新奇。83Please respect copyright.PENANABo7sOtCWZA
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在リンドウ將手收回時,不經意的和メノウ半睜的眼對上。83Please respect copyright.PENANAGEvaiJxQjO
「リンドウ不繼續嗎?」83Please respect copyright.PENANAVuE0SFMCfY
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「抱歉,メノウ,我本來是想普通的叫醒你的。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAp2n6ek0mE4
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「マイカ呢?」83Please respect copyright.PENANA7PUeySguQ7
「他在廚房,我是來叫你起床吃早餐的。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAaEEIKjuFbf
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「那接下來就輪到我了對吧?」無視リンドウ後半段的回應,メノウ這麼說。83Please respect copyright.PENANAHAZPUUiur1
他維持著躺在床上的姿勢,手慢條斯理的拂過リンドウ的髮梢。83Please respect copyright.PENANAC2FyiRNUSq
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「メノウ,這是什麼意思?」83Please respect copyright.PENANATG5xQfZhxB
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不,他知道這是什麼意思。83Please respect copyright.PENANAPONWMp9Uib
他知道メノウ想做的事情,他還記得昨天。83Please respect copyright.PENANAPQLx5P2UWR
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「リンドウ不可能不知道我的意思吧?」83Please respect copyright.PENANAWzu42h55Hq
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「メノウ,我不知道。」リンドウ往後退了一點,離開メノウ伸手能碰觸的範圍。「我不知道メノウ是在惡作劇,還是說有其他的想法。我也不知道你接下來又會抱著什麼心情做些什麼。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAtFuh3DGNCq
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昨天的メノウ,像是在確認什麼似的,試圖將手伸進他嘴裡,在猝不及防的吻之後留下了「晚上見」的約定。83Please respect copyright.PENANAPl1DA1SskH
除了メノウ一如往常的好奇心作祟外,他不敢做多餘的想像。83Please respect copyright.PENANAQFGYHRgRp9
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「交給リンドウ來決定就行了,我有我的解釋,リンドウ也是。」メノウ抱著枕頭從床上坐起,腳趾踩在木地板上,身體傾向リンドウ。83Please respect copyright.PENANANZBvjc6k4R
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「你不害怕我對吧?所以在那之後你還是拿著浴巾將我裹起來,還將我抱到你床上。」83Please respect copyright.PENANApRiYZV9ApG
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雖然有許多想說明的地方,但メノウ說對了一件事:他並不害怕メノウ。83Please respect copyright.PENANAsa4J1NsexG
真正讓他不安的是連メノウ自己都不明白,只能透過劇本詮釋的情感——那些伴隨吻而浮現的往事。83Please respect copyright.PENANAsZb7dMmT26
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「我想我是喜歡リンドウ你的,排在演戲和溫泉之後,就算沒有了也不會傷心的喜歡。這大概就是我的愛情吧。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAN5Kf6onyYq
「那真的能稱作愛情嗎?」83Please respect copyright.PENANAEu3vYhNlNh
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「マイカ說這就是對我來說的愛情。但如果リンドウ不這麼認為的話,就由你來決定好了,リンドウ的話一定能為我的心取上適合的名字的。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAwkPGAtDsM8
我可以為你扮演你所希望的角色,這就是我對你的感情。メノウ的手貼著リンドウ的頸側,輕輕地說著。83Please respect copyright.PENANAZua2yyzXWl
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扮演?太狡猾了。83Please respect copyright.PENANAY7N4NOzxiY
無論如何你還是做著自己所鍾愛的演戲,而我卻會因為你的話語而輕易改變。83Please respect copyright.PENANA5z6CiWY1VA
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「如果害怕的話,你就否定我吧,我是你可以命令的對象。」83Please respect copyright.PENANAfylXNmvRJ6
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メノウ一邊說著「你可以拒絕」這種話,一邊將自己的牽繩塞進他手裡。83Please respect copyright.PENANAiCjR4Vpe4M
如果就這麼丟下的話……怎麼可能做到呢?83Please respect copyright.PENANAZNrmYb2NAr
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可以吻你嗎?メノウ一邊問著一邊朝他貼近,最後被迫躺倒在地上。83Please respect copyright.PENANA9SAwKlVmv6
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我曾經很喜歡你的……83Please respect copyright.PENANAztcorR8un2
說你愛我。83Please respect copyright.PENANAo6XOcGAoDQ
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メノウ是不一樣的,他這麼提醒自己,將甦醒的不安壓下。83Please respect copyright.PENANApoLNXAcUo0
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不是這一瞬間的情感,也不是リンドウ這個人,メノウ真實的愛情存在於舞台上,只有演戲才是他的一切。83Please respect copyright.PENANAdLCtTpFGtC
メノウ在他這裡沒有可以被破壞的幻想和期待,也沒有要脅他的理由。83Please respect copyright.PENANA89sw3mApuY
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跟其他人不一樣,只有メノウ是在這最後之地裡永遠不變的風景。83Please respect copyright.PENANABz17PXF2YB
既不會喜歡上他,也不會憎惡他,一心只想著舞台,除此之外什麼都不需要。83Please respect copyright.PENANAM8lrW6pkZg
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所以在最一開始メノウ贊成真珠的提案時,他是非常驚訝的。83Please respect copyright.PENANAIUKPG5r9im
連同マイカ試探性的提問,他所認為不變的事物也有了改變。83Please respect copyright.PENANA2r5eGAoFDD
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他倉皇地穿梭在走廊上,迫切的想洗去身上的污穢,而那條路上メノウ永遠躺在一邊,做著世界之外的夢,聽著他狼狽的腳步聲不發一語。83Please respect copyright.PENANArrOkAOxZJY
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即便是昨天那樣的吻,也還可以當作是突來的睡姿轉變,他只是不經意的被メノウ絆倒了。83Please respect copyright.PENANAV8Fu03hx49
但從今天開始,他已經無法繞過メノウ逃走了。83Please respect copyright.PENANATHd2WPhQX0
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「……不,メノウ,我不想跟你接吻。」83Please respect copyright.PENANATaj2xXqPkH
連自己都難以想像,他對メノウ竟然保持著這種心情。83Please respect copyright.PENANAd0kQk5K2fV
拒絕被拯救的他依賴著什麼都知道,卻什麼都不說的メノウ。83Please respect copyright.PENANApKvOKKbKUd
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指尖貼著皮膚,接著是手掌。83Please respect copyright.PENANA0dr7SuaNI9
他還記得這個觸感,被昨天的メノウ親吻的前一刻也是如此。83Please respect copyright.PENANAXSbWsCwz4T
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連你也是嗎?刺痛感在心中蔓延,他閉上眼睛。83Please respect copyright.PENANAtNAFVNXZTm
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可最後迎來的,卻是メノウ說著「那就沒辦法了」的惋惜話語,以及溫柔的綴在額頭上的吻。83Please respect copyright.PENANAXSZKKarXId
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連自己都沒有意識到的這份依賴,現在還完好著,沒有再次遭到破壞。83Please respect copyright.PENANA2RB1tPszdp