人生有幾個十年?
不知道大家幾歲情竇初開?327Please respect copyright.PENANAyNlUKjA8Bi
以我的年紀往前推10年,大概是11歲327Please respect copyright.PENANAnJoKJWq1N6
就是這麼早,可能從小就是電視兒童,偶像劇看太多了,327Please respect copyright.PENANANVEXbdw3fD
沒錯,接下來是我的故事。
我是個蠻內向的人,有了喜歡的人只會偷偷暗戀著,327Please respect copyright.PENANApNKn7glKOV
和對方一句話都都不敢說327Please respect copyright.PENANADitkciPMbM
所以我只經歷過暗戀,從來走不到曖昧。327Please respect copyright.PENANAmp26iynfZP
國小五年級下學期,班上轉來了一個男生,327Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3DWeOaHpd
他的頭髮以男生來說留得長長的,有著厚厚一片劉海327Please respect copyright.PENANA4l1BDC6Mo5
別覺得髮型好像很怪,他的臉真的長得不錯,327Please respect copyright.PENANAMwbDybdhh7
我很羨慕那些能和男生走得近的女生,327Please respect copyright.PENANAWkr0sWCovt
但我不是,我就看著他每天跟班上其他女生說話,327Please respect copyright.PENANAweoMjB6gga
當時班上很流行傳紙條,327Please respect copyright.PENANARXy0AKFw3C
別以為當工具人在小孩的世界裡就不會發生,327Please respect copyright.PENANAWaJYRw41bg
我還當過中間人幫忙接紙條再傳給另一個女生呢。327Please respect copyright.PENANAYs8Sksuafw
快畢業的時候大家都會取買一本像通訊錄的冊子,互相交換寫。327Please respect copyright.PENANAmxOYQGi5Hs
我鼓起勇氣和別人一樣壓在他的桌墊下,傳回來的只有幾格有填,剩下的只有滿滿的「同上」兩個字。327Please respect copyright.PENANA2RlIcwBwmR
大家簽名在衣服上留念時,他在我衣服上簽的不是名子,是髒話,327Please respect copyright.PENANASIGrIqI1Hb
我知道他是開玩笑不是故意的;幾年後看到那件衣服覺得自己真傻,就把它給丟了。
國中的時候比較神奇一點,我喜歡上一個女生,327Please respect copyright.PENANAT8rH587QeK
我是個異性戀,但就剛好對她有感覺吧。327Please respect copyright.PENANApNFwjjxcnY
她是補習班聘來的數理輔導老師,是個大學生,327Please respect copyright.PENANAgCSExMBpkt
補習班是分班教課的,她通常待在成績好的那一班,而我是在普通班;327Please respect copyright.PENANA8UTGuM311Y
從那時開始,我學會在喜歡的人面前保持形象327Please respect copyright.PENANA4jlAzgfWyg
偷看她的打卡單,想知道她星期幾會來,327Please respect copyright.PENANAZEkpQwYMKQ
在她上課的時候從外面玻璃窗看著,327Please respect copyright.PENANAOw4vALV7Nu
小心翼翼地從別人那問出她的名字,327Please respect copyright.PENANALqIzlSUngV
不過很快的,也從別人口中知道她早就有男友了。327Please respect copyright.PENANAvskr0DgzTx
從那時開始我的身上就有了奇特的魔力,327Please respect copyright.PENANARP4ITd5rC6
只要被我喜歡上的通常都有另一半又或著很快就會交到另一半;327Please respect copyright.PENANAoJgk4ShDMo
我自己都開玩笑地想著,誰想脫單的,快來吸引我的注意吧。327Please respect copyright.PENANAhXm9QEUUB5
幾個月前不知道哪根筋不對,去看了她的FB,327Please respect copyright.PENANAlK95fWinJr
她結婚了,看著她婚禮的照片,看了好久,327Please respect copyright.PENANArYDxnpG0zr
她,一樣很美,真的。
高中的一次英語歌唱比賽,練習時一次不經意的轉頭,327Please respect copyright.PENANACIqRDcnGHu
感覺我們對到眼了,我喜歡上班上的一個男生,327Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1dN24jgID
我鼓起勇氣加了他的IG,通過好友申請時覺得自己有機會了,不是我自作多情了吧。327Please respect copyright.PENANANQV24l3Kpw
點進去一看,他有女朋友了,不同學校的,327Please respect copyright.PENANAY03HF2dYVb
果然真的只是「我的」感覺。327Please respect copyright.PENANAJbBW7Y54vV
不過也不是很久,他分手了。327Please respect copyright.PENANArYevFWkVtY
但我也沒有任何行動,現在想想應該要好好傳訊息安慰趁虛而入才對😂,327Please respect copyright.PENANAYMuMQyMDUo
當時迷上了一部甜劇,不過現實中卻處在暗戀,對自己又很沒自信,327Please respect copyright.PENANAD3f3Es6OTC
開始每天胡思亂想,搞到後面有點輕微憂鬱症的狀態,成績掉得很嚴重。327Please respect copyright.PENANALRBv546G5m
而之後他又交到女朋友了,是班上的女生,327Please respect copyright.PENANAftFEq8RGC1
接下來的日子就是看他們放閃一直到畢業。327Please respect copyright.PENANARegVihhmxi
後來加過他帳號的IG好像被我弄丟了,畢業後就沒他的消息了。327Please respect copyright.PENANAfXPKyIHP1O
去年幾個高中同學吃飯我才知道這對班對分手了,327Please respect copyright.PENANA4fPxDgKZoy
不過事過境遷,也沒見過面,只感到有點唏噓。
現在大學了,班上有個幽默風趣的男生五官也好看,整個就是我的菜!327Please respect copyright.PENANAPEGxQXT0Ut
但這次,我一直告訴自己,327Please respect copyright.PENANA6W9hU6zUJM
「別動心,不會是你的」327Please respect copyright.PENANAujLZJwZx5y
「別動心,不會是你的」327Please respect copyright.PENANA9FBLL9bWQV
糾結了一年,我還是栽進去了。327Please respect copyright.PENANAiRh3Cm1NVx
但這次我努力讓自己不一樣,327Please respect copyright.PENANA8hWPTGsaXs
回他的現實動態,找機會搭個一兩句話,他都會回,也許出於禮貌吧。327Please respect copyright.PENANAqA7p2ZknmL
不過現在還是平行線,327Please respect copyright.PENANAq1VVCAq2SK
我不知道我在掙扎甚麼,327Please respect copyright.PENANALIPEB7QkdU
一直找自己的缺點,想讓自己更完美。327Please respect copyright.PENANAnPv4UCioU2
弄得又痛又累,卻不知道為了甚麼327Please respect copyright.PENANAfiTGR81gaZ
也許我只是想證明,327Please respect copyright.PENANAKXVmpg5YnU
我不是上帝在指派邱比特時,327Please respect copyright.PENANAqfKlsaVeaT
被忘掉的那個。327Please respect copyright.PENANAsLjCCJmx6s
人生有幾個十年?327Please respect copyright.PENANAQvwauhF7Xz
我這個十年已經走完了,來不及了,327Please respect copyright.PENANAC4oSLZwcDv
人生真的沒幾個十年,327Please respect copyright.PENANAU72pYEFYQj
我還在努力愛上自己327Please respect copyright.PENANAjLzmV8iL5N
只要記住,別和我一樣327Please respect copyright.PENANASu45WEybYA
真的,太累了。327Please respect copyright.PENANAAn2pSYtVkX
327Please respect copyright.PENANA1krWlfdTDE