Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEkALXLjZV
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbtIhBQRr7
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjn02NC8hj3
It's been four months since that day.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlPGfcjwP2
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxeHBQM8nPG
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGakioleeKA
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWIIXg5Fql
Only loneliness.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9N74PiVS3q
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGV5pjTpiV
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YEntyCGwR
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqARNWH3MA
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRM3B3MTbwF
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7jFNPYzxc
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2Leisb1qg
They remind me of home. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡav03sOPkVk
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehsGwM8pK5
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNAREaxxUq
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwd2TyT8Mx
I don't want to be here. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjV5QXCPdM7
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDd6u1rNAw
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qKDtlv8qx
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1TBWjswlw
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWDDcxwFYE
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjktzwyXcW
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncooCMOx4h
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcBLsdOei6
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCJiyS4GeR
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMf4nuiYQe
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bOHIPsQrT
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VwoHrTnFn
I want it to make sense.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aVqTaXv75
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJ7iDet1wX
The PaperGarden.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqPSEoRYnW
To be Continued...731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHiXkclXk4
