夜色如墨,家家戶戶紛紛點起懸掛於外牆的水漣燈,水漣燈的光如清透水光,明亮了沁涼如水的恬靜夜晚。400Please respect copyright.PENANAMPHHUryXjj
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悄然來訪的綿綿細雨,在水面上掀起一波波微小漣漪,雨打荷葉的輕響幽微而空靈,於朦朧的江南煙雨天聽來格外清晰。400Please respect copyright.PENANAtIpRnNM1ZU
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這場雨已經連續下了七天七夜,對我們這些水生水長的連方鎮居民而言,可是身心舒暢的好日子,不少鎮民都會待在自家水閣裡賞荷聽雨,怡然自得。400Please respect copyright.PENANASmGQHQFRvJ
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「漪洀,許久不見了,快坐下吧。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAigEZtesg6N
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在青門客棧的水閣內烹茶的清漣,姿態端雅地如同被雨水清洗的蓮花,他看見我的到來,便熱情地笑著招呼我。400Please respect copyright.PENANA8LEig8i8hR
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我默默地頷首致意,坐在他對面的座位上。400Please respect copyright.PENANAfiT69x0MEz
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石桌上的茶水正被炭爐煮得暖熱,飄散出氤氳茶香,與被雨水洗得清透的淡淡蓮香,融混成更加悠遠清洌的芬芳。400Please respect copyright.PENANA1jLB8iWPUL
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「來到這了,先喝杯茶暖暖身吧。」400Please respect copyright.PENANASdwP1x6GEk
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清漣在我的青竹茶盞裡注入茶水,澄清的碧綠茶湯上浮盪著一枚淡粉蓮瓣,更顯雅致清趣。400Please respect copyright.PENANAQG1yuRUsMS
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我沒有理由拒絕,清冽茶水滑入我口中的剎那,喉舌間便凝聚了一股頗具深韻的苦澀,但細嚐到底後,舒展開來的是滲入心脾的清透甘甜。400Please respect copyright.PENANAdYaA5ltnUA
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「你煮的蓮心清露,已經跟清波姨的不相上下了呢。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAw3nmEB74X9
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聽見我的感嘆之語,清漣的唇角勾起欣慰卻又些許苦澀的笑,說道:「娘親已經不在了,若我不能煮出來的話,這味道就要失傳了……」400Please respect copyright.PENANAYRAUHZT5dy
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語畢,沉默在我和清漣周遭悄悄蔓延,淅瀝瀝的雨聲在默然中迴響著。400Please respect copyright.PENANAq3HhgLxFYN
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三年前,清漣和涓兒成親後,我就搬離了青門客棧,不再當客棧的夥計。400Please respect copyright.PENANAE8Lq0RfaRj
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我選擇在連方鎮偏僻的某處定居,成為舟夫替外來客擺渡以餬口,避免與清漣有過多接觸。400Please respect copyright.PENANAVSHfeQsTqF
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清漣似乎看出我對他的刻意迴避,他沒有向我深究原因,把心思都放在青門客棧和妻子身上,我和清漣也愈漸疏離。過去十幾年親密無間的情誼,被歲月的匆匆流逝給輕易沖淡。400Please respect copyright.PENANAlc5rUPX4Mz
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這幾年來,即使無法化解的苦悶於胸口不斷積累沉澱,這樣的距離卻讓我獲得了心靈的寧靜,我可以學著慢慢放下這段情思,讓將來的自己能笑著說,對清漣的這份情愛只是年少輕狂的誤解罷了。400Please respect copyright.PENANAkJeDiFY9qz
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但是今夜,清漣主動邀我到青門客棧品茶敘舊,不尋常的邀約讓我心底湧起強烈的不安,但隱然生出一絲的期盼,卻又讓我前來赴約……400Please respect copyright.PENANASEcutJ2hDp
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「漪洀,如今你過得好嗎?舟夫的工作應該很操勞吧。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAziRxUSXzO8
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清漣首先打破靜默,而我則輕啜一口茶,淡淡地道:「還好,工作再辛勞,習慣了便沒什麼,反正日子總得過下去……」400Please respect copyright.PENANAyhjAJCXilM
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雖然這些年不是沒跟清漣見過面,但像這樣坐下來好好說話卻是少見,我偷偷覷看清漣幾眼,他的眉眼已擺脫年少時期的青澀稚嫩,多了幾分成熟穩重的韻味,舉手投足間展現內在本質的清俊秀雅,讓我的目光依依不捨地在他身上流連徘徊。400Please respect copyright.PENANALpN3Hnvfp5
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此時我才驚覺,我對清漣的情意不但沒有消退,反而蘊積得更加深重,在看見他時一股腦傾瀉而出。400Please respect copyright.PENANAzrtHUhBGN8
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難以抑止的情思滿漲於胸口,這般糾纏著我的冤孽魔障,如同無底泥沼,終究令我陷溺而向下沉淪,此生無法脫離了嗎……?400Please respect copyright.PENANAb7U3D57Qcw
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縱使內心是千頭萬緒的洶湧澎湃,我卻將其壓抑在平靜淡漠的表情之下,不讓清漣察覺到我的糾結心思。400Please respect copyright.PENANAF1ltOIlWJ2
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「是嗎,你覺得好就好了。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAPZ4ogvlmco
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對於我故作淡漠的回應,清漣露出釋懷似的神情,將目光投向水閣外的雨幕濛濛。400Please respect copyright.PENANAPTU2BHisFZ
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「以前你剛來這的時候,還老是懊惱自己學不會渡舟,但過沒多久,你的渡舟仙法就使得比我還行了。」400Please respect copyright.PENANARUXX2f5Qfd
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「那時你總是晃悠悠地渡著蓮舟,而我就坐在你的蓮舟上頭,天南地北地說著各種故事軼聞,一同行遍連方鎮裡的每條水路。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAIn0AUupJwt
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「然後等到天完全黑了,我們就點著水漣燈回家,回到家後娘親都會叨唸我們一番,卻又已經煮好了夜宵給我們,就怕我們餓著了……」400Please respect copyright.PENANAFRE4bWKNA2
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清漣低啞的聲音滿溢懷思,宛若悠悠流水,溯回遙遠歲月的彼岸400Please respect copyright.PENANAfybEuomxiO
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「那些,已是好久好久以前的往事了。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAeSWoQByJR5
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我淡然地提醒清漣,那段無憂無慮的日子,是我們已然回不去的往昔。400Please respect copyright.PENANAjFErjs5v2R
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「是啊,你說得對。」400Please respect copyright.PENANArKh5CjB0pN
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清漣從我的話裡明白了,他的心緒從記憶彼端回到當下,那一雙清明澈亮的瞳眸正對著我。400Please respect copyright.PENANAZzM0CciKWM
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那一刻,一道細微漣漪,在我死寂已久的心湖悄悄擴大。400Please respect copyright.PENANAofqwHlHc1u
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「漪洀,我有件事想拜託你。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAM5iawynSNF
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「什麼事,先說吧。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAEAvv6oVD1o
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我沒有直接答應清漣,因為清漣的態度誠懇而嚴肅,卻隱然透著一股訣別的堅決,讓我心裡生出一絲憂慮。400Please respect copyright.PENANA81dhJUIuHM
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「我想拜託你,在我離開這裡之後,替我照顧涓兒。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAv90qxFqvSm
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如同一道猛雷直劈我的腦袋,我愣了半晌說不出話。400Please respect copyright.PENANAMcQb3jGGQ0
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過了許久,我發出近乎嘶啞的聲音:「你要去哪裡?你找我來,就只是為了說這個嗎?」400Please respect copyright.PENANA4G8SN4yY2t
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「漪洀,你現在還不知道吧,我們黃朝與西方異族的戰爭,已經蔓延到武陵山南方來了。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAZLviRbl0S9
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「這是前幾日投宿在我們客棧的京城商人帶來的消息,據說前方戰事吃緊,黃朝軍節節敗退,死傷慘重。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAvrNT8cNKGk
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清廉語重心長地說道,神情無比凝重,我已經隱約察覺到這番話背後所代表的含意……400Please respect copyright.PENANAmeTzmqutGK
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「再過不久,朝廷就要徵召新的兵源了,之前我們連方鎮因地處偏遠,所以沒有受到徵召,但我想這次徵兵令就會來到我們這了。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAHCNIAj3GDx
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「連方鎮裡所有入籍的男丁應該會被徵召入伍,但漪洀你不同,你是從外地來的孤兒,籍冊上不會有你的名字,你也不會被徵召。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAMvXkDxWViJ
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「所以我想拜託你,在我入伍後替我照顧涓兒,現在涓兒有了身孕,留下她一人在這,我始終放心不下啊。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAmFyeawX8uP
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「這是我對你,最後的請求……」400Please respect copyright.PENANAEPSkCDfNSh
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清漣極為哀戚地低聲懇求,坦露出最真實的軟弱及無奈。400Please respect copyright.PENANAMc9VAqryk3
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我默默的聽他說完,然後面無表情地冷然道:「你以為我會像以前那般,答應你的任何要求嗎?」400Please respect copyright.PENANAJVLAn3ledg
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清漣在那一瞬面露愕然,料想不到我會這般斬釘截鐵地拒絕他。400Please respect copyright.PENANAzJDbGunQNs
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「我知道我對你有所虧欠,但你忍心涓兒受苦嗎?」400Please respect copyright.PENANAWxpiFEZwC1
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「這話什麼意思?」400Please respect copyright.PENANA6AJpgSEjRZ
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我感到不太對勁,風雨欲來山滿樓的強烈不安充塞我的內心。400Please respect copyright.PENANAQE8bziyPCD
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「我明白的,漪洀,其實你對涓兒,是有情的吧……」400Please respect copyright.PENANANvckc5JEkL
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伴隨這句話朝我襲來的洶湧激流,將我整個人徹底吞沒。400Please respect copyright.PENANAO37DXl03mL
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雖然清漣滿載哀愁的清俊面龐在我眼底無比清晰,但我的心裡卻是昏黑一片,無法多作思慮,只能用嘶啞低沉的聲音,從乾澀得發緊的喉間擠出沉重的疑問:「你為什麼……會如此想?」400Please respect copyright.PENANAvXcMtxEY9x
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「其實很久以前,我就害怕涓兒會對你萌生情意,所以才會想先對涓兒表明心意。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAEeiHZIW6zU
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「但自從我和涓兒在一起後,你整個人就變得不太舒坦,抑鬱寡歡,像是不想看到我和涓兒走得太近。」400Please respect copyright.PENANATczMUlRDvV
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「所以我就察覺到你對涓兒有情,但我卻選擇忽略你的感受,因為我是真心喜歡涓兒。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAMobExMWk33
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「然而你卻因為顧慮我,一直隱忍下來,甚至在我和涓兒成親後,獨自搬離客棧。這一切都是我逼你的……我對不起你……」400Please respect copyright.PENANA5UXImZYalf
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清漣鏗鏘有力的音調,把他深藏多年的心聲說得真真切切,他的一字一句都在緊掐著我的心房。400Please respect copyright.PENANAtPPZJpWIkJ
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我的劇烈心跳是無聲的吶喊,我想叫清漣不要再說了,卻發現自己發不出一點聲音。400Please respect copyright.PENANANlIZtiJyDD
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「你這一生都不會原諒我也沒關係,但如果你還對涓兒有一絲憐惜,在我走後,就請你替我……」400Please respect copyright.PENANAwZ49fokCaZ
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「不,清漣,你始終什麼都不明白。」400Please respect copyright.PENANAEs9ArXeI5H
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我冷冷吐出的這句話像猛然丟進水裡的小石子,在深靜清幽的雨夜,在清漣的雙眸中,掀起困惑驚疑的重重波紋。400Please respect copyright.PENANAI8mDVf27jz
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我近乎偏執地凝視那滄桑俊雅的面容,一股油然而生的衝動,令我想對他宣洩蘊藏多年的深深情思,義無反顧地投身進那雙清澈如水的眼眸中,即使會就此溺斃也無所謂……400Please respect copyright.PENANA84FYEdzRPr
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但,一切都只是空想。400Please respect copyright.PENANA6PDprSFLvO
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我逕自起身踏出青門客棧的大門,將那杯還留有餘溫的蓮心清露,清漣的聲聲挽留,盡數拋在身後,只留下空寂的淅淅雨聲以及最後無言的道別。400Please respect copyright.PENANADkQgNdi2N2