六年前的夏天,我爸過世了。99Please respect copyright.PENANAqFd2rz2n3H
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親眼看見一個人變成自己不認識的模樣,套上歪七扭八的襪子和古怪的套裝,緩緩裝入火柴盒,在烤麵包箱似的爐裡燃燒殆盡。直到肉末、皮屑一點也不剩,頭蓋骨變成灰黑色玉米脆片,裝在比乖乖桶小一點的甕,就像黑暗世界的獨門零嘴。他們接著又把陶甕關在不見天日的小隔間,要求我們每年來看一次,說這是孝道;但這一切毫無意義。我大概是不正常了,竟連一滴淚都沒有流下。99Please respect copyright.PENANAhJNv7finwE
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迷迷糊糊之際,一切就這麼結束了:告別式結束、火化結束,遺產問題也處理完畢。炎熱季節僅餘殘渣,絲毫沒為冰淇淋和水樂園留下縫隙。渾渾噩噩地,像傅柯擺一樣來回空轉,不知不覺間假期已過,生活再次回到正軌。99Please respect copyright.PENANA25k6pyfoVW
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沒人記得那是什麼時候開始的。我在非常偶然的情況下注意到,近來深夜,家中常重複著某種聲響:先是門打開的「咿——呀」,接著「咚、咚、咚、咚」由遠而近,自樓下急急奔上,最後在書房躊躇;而後又漸行漸遠,回到極遠處「咿——呀」,又「咚、咚、咚、咚」逐步逼近,如此循環不已。就好像有人半夜突然驚醒,扯開房門、直直衝上衝下尋找什麼一般,還每晚都演出同樣的劇碼。99Please respect copyright.PENANAUKi8iZAIKp
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有一天我終於忍不住打開房門查看,聲音在門開的瞬間戛然而止,只剩外頭飢渴得到處吸附的寂靜。如果只是隔音設備不良也就罷了,但我們沒有鄰居。99Please respect copyright.PENANASNdcCa36pr
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直到去年元旦,事情有了變化。99Please respect copyright.PENANA2vGi4Ik8id
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爸爸回來了。99Please respect copyright.PENANA4nqTTmujFO
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最先發現的人是小妹,在我們全家看電視時,她聲稱看見爸爸從車庫那邊的樓梯口走上樓。爸爸穿著白色襯衫,手裡提著公事包,不發一語走向書房,喀的一聲門關起來了。爸爸剛從公司回來,爸爸辛苦了。99Please respect copyright.PENANAAcvJHGN19X
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大夥只是喔了一聲,繼續邊挖著零嘴邊觀賞節目,沒有人有絲毫疑惑。我追出去看,書房門確實被關上,只是裡面沒有光。我實在沒有勇氣走過去確認,於是退回客廳。99Please respect copyright.PENANA0cz9MmOMVp
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爸爸不是死了嗎?我說。99Please respect copyright.PENANAnu9YvrIG8o
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我們知道啊,別跟他說;要是告訴他,說不定就不會回來了。99Please respect copyright.PENANACgBPM50Dzq
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真的不跟他說嗎?99Please respect copyright.PENANABRTuyH4ADw
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你不怕會發生不好的事嗎?99Please respect copyright.PENANAOMG8h6q2FO
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爸爸開始上班了,而且是白天。99Please respect copyright.PENANAecrCBggB9X
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大家都會跟爸爸打招呼,但彼此總對不上視線,因為爸爸總是匆匆忙忙地離開,依然什麼話也沒跟家人說。家裡的人還是若無其事地生活,好像除了上下班,其他時間爸爸都不存在。99Please respect copyright.PENANAjAUCqCLeKY
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家裡又重新多一份薪水了。99Please respect copyright.PENANARuJh1w0Cak
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六年前的夏天,我做了一個這樣的夢。99Please respect copyright.PENANAo8ndkFFKyd
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而那個夢,到現在都還沒醒來。