I sat on the ground outside in the shade of a tree. I set my pieces in front of me on top of my favorite black fabric to make them pop. I let my clothes drape over my frame and I waited until someone came up to me. I smiled.
'Take what you need, but no more please.' I said in my high two year old voice.
'Okay.' She responded as she took my trust. 61Please respect copyright.PENANAH4MzrUz188
'I don't like this anymore.' she said when I was three, right before she smashed it.61Please respect copyright.PENANAevWWlG4SwU
'Okay, I'm sorry.' I replied and picked up the pieces holding onto the smile while she walked away.
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'Take what you need, no more please.' I said seeing someone new walk up to me when I was three.
'Okay.' She responded as he gently picked up my broken trust.61Please respect copyright.PENANARJcGlu6wFA
'Oh, this will take up too much time to fix. I'm sorry.' he said and gave my trust away.61Please respect copyright.PENANAw7UFiykLxA
'That's fine. Thank you anyway.' I replied glancing down at my trust before tucking it under a fold of fabric to hide it.61Please respect copyright.PENANAnzDewraenV
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'Take what you need, no more please.' I said tiredly at four.61Please respect copyright.PENANAW3GAY34eVL
'Don't worry I can help fix this all up." She responded while staring at me greedily.61Please respect copyright.PENANAtF5wbm2f0f
'Take what you need, no more please.' I said folding my shoulders in worried with what she would do. 61Please respect copyright.PENANAeH90c4BB9t
'Great I'll take it all then.' She readily responded snatching all of me up.61Please respect copyright.PENANAKCJUh3OLg4
'Where's your trust?!' She screamed when I was seven.61Please respect copyright.PENANAstq3mcOa9Z
I added even more fabric on top of my trust.61Please respect copyright.PENANA9a2iOeFMQK
'I don't know, I'm sorry.' I responded
'Why do I bother?!' She cried in anger when I was nine, 'If I can't have your trust no one can.' She yelled smashing all of me onto the ground.61Please respect copyright.PENANAGZvbSRnObs
I teared up. Looking at myself then all over the floor no better than dirt I realised I was broken, all of me was broken.61Please respect copyright.PENANAEJslVZNJWr
She looked back at me, 'Where is your trust honey? I need it right now.' 61Please respect copyright.PENANAhhGIWlhs13
I only shook my head and looked at the floor that was giving in.61Please respect copyright.PENANAG3gKnIFdTD
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'Take what you want.' I rasped at ten, trying to get out of the ground swallowing me up slowly.61Please respect copyright.PENANAtXMjROF2lB
'Oh!' She exclaimed, "In that case can I have some of your wicked humor?' She picked up my humor in rushed delight.61Please respect copyright.PENANAPDxNmtVuva
'Okay,' I said wearily and let her walk away.61Please respect copyright.PENANACNMb6PC2f3
'Here's your humor back!' She stumbled but set my humor back down,61Please respect copyright.PENANAUlk4biazYZ
'It's fine.' I put it back in her bag when she wasn't looking along with a small piece of trust and friendship.61Please respect copyright.PENANA2p8TIljMgB
'Oh, almost forgot, lets get you out of there, I have someone I want you to meet.' She pulled me up out of the ground, 'Let's go.'61Please respect copyright.PENANATchDGOhK3d
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'Take what you want,' I said at ten still weary.61Please respect copyright.PENANAl9ydwdl10V
'I'll take some friendship and... maybe a bit of time.' He said picking up my pieces and keeping them gently in his hand. 'Thank you.' he said and walked over to a tree and sat admiring the pieces in his hand.61Please respect copyright.PENANAwavlV8varZ
'Okay.' I said and sat with him for a while.61Please respect copyright.PENANAVQ7FJiI50U
'Here,' he said giving back the pieces of me and one of him. 'These are yours.'61Please respect copyright.PENANA62XNXdkAgX
I pushed his hand away and got back up, without a care in the world, 'Not anymore, they haven't been mine for a long time, keep them.' 61Please respect copyright.PENANAk3N8k89ZJH
He shook his head but set his own piece in front of me, 'Keep it,' He said and walked away. I snuck a piece of trust in the small bag on his back.61Please respect copyright.PENANAfDkAx66aXp
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'Do you need something?' I asked the two who unknowingly held my trust as they came up to me. 61Please respect copyright.PENANAmNXp5P90xr
'Yes, can we have more time, we enjoy being with you,' She said and he nodded along.61Please respect copyright.PENANAIv37t1X6fN
'I don't have much of it right now, sorry.' I frowned,61Please respect copyright.PENANAHhx910QHzB
'No it's fine,' He jumped in, 'We'll take what you give us. It doesn't matter to us.' 61Please respect copyright.PENANAf9KqpYeV4j
I nodded and split my time in half and gave it to them.61Please respect copyright.PENANA0VrD64bWHH
'Thank you' they cheered together and dragged me along and brushing dirt off my arms and legs as they did and gave me a piece of both of them.61Please respect copyright.PENANAVhzhNvzbIt
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'I still want your trust! Where is it!' She yelled when I was eleven. 61Please respect copyright.PENANAoSqbF92DBl
'I don't have it,' I bit back bitterly turning my head away from her.61Please respect copyright.PENANA6JkbT1brRP
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'You will listen to me! Tell me where it is!' She continued. 61Please respect copyright.PENANAay11AikzkN
She leaned in for a hug a second later, 'Where is your trust? I need it.' I pushed her away and tried to hide but she found me without even trying. 61Please respect copyright.PENANAcxaqH28R3N
'Why do you always do this?! I'm just trying to do what's best for you.' She pushed me to the ground and turned her head before she could see the ground that was slowly covering me again.61Please respect copyright.PENANA12SYJS2b32
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'You are so ungrateful, you don't do anything for me or at all. You could have so much worse. Trust me I know, I work with those people who have worse.' She turned and stalked away without a glance, but still left a note of what she wanted me to do.61Please respect copyright.PENANA35IgFTOO1Q
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'You seem to be in some deep crap,' Someone new said before I had the chance to do anything. 'But I can't do anything for you, so I'll be on my way.' They walked away the next day.
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'Take whatever you want, don't take it all please.' I sobbed feeling my own shards with so many people, people who don't want anything to do with me. I'm twelve, only twelve right now.
'Meh, I don't really need anything, what do you want of me?' He asked
'Nothing, I could never ask anything of anyone, not like that." I responded wiping my tears and hiding my eyes. 61Please respect copyright.PENANAlFjtArQPOi
"Really? Thank you.' He stretched his hand out and picked me out of the mud and called the other's who held my trust over to help me get clean clothes and wash me with a towel.61Please respect copyright.PENANAXSMcxBUps4
'Come with us,' I gave him some of my trust and pulled my trust out for the others to see their pieces too. 61Please respect copyright.PENANAd74PS9I5Mp
I cried and for the first time in awhile it wasn't because I hurt, but because I was almost okay.
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'This is who you give your trust too?' She yelled walking up to me. 61Please respect copyright.PENANAaeWxpht78r
She pushed me into the dirt again and my once clean body was again splattered in dirt and mud. My friends didn't see, but they knew. They helped me up and washed me again. 61Please respect copyright.PENANAlchIdkqSgO
'Why?! I deserve your trust after everything I did for you!' 61Please respect copyright.PENANAqoRQnmsa3q
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I didn't say it out loud, I knew I couldn't even if I wanted, but if I could have said something to her I would have said,61Please respect copyright.PENANAhusEZZYTsR
'Take what you need, nothing more, then wait until I'm ready to give the rest to you.'61Please respect copyright.PENANALBe1FVNEEE
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She never understood though and she keep pushing me down, over and over again. But I had people to pick me up.61Please respect copyright.PENANAT5T4rMF8Ld
I will have enough someday and someday I will truly snap, but for now all I know is that I wont keep my head down and give her something I don't think she deserves.
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