是許苑茵。80Please respect copyright.PENANATKBYnD0T1n
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不是劉心雅。80Please respect copyright.PENANAG8PfghTrHy
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楊南珅不知道自己到底露出了什麼樣的表情,但恐怕……一定是極度失望的表情。在看到那個表情後,許苑茵面上淡漠,卻難掩自嘲地笑了。80Please respect copyright.PENANAVgUTUCLthw
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「抱歉,我不是你想見的劉心雅。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAlVHER0zAIE
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楊南伸張了張嘴,卻什麼也說不出口。80Please respect copyright.PENANAx1AKLheKMh
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他該說什麼?他也想見她?怎麼聽起來不太對。80Please respect copyright.PENANAAD8StBnyCM
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為什麼變回去了?可那天許苑茵衝出馬路的情景還栩栩如生地刻在腦海裡。自她三個月前一度停止過呼吸後,他就會忍不住地想──80Please respect copyright.PENANAdpcvJ7iK5Q
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是他害的嗎?80Please respect copyright.PENANALHi27749hp
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是她自己衝出去的吧?80Please respect copyright.PENANAAz4tlVv5W2
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可是如果不是因為他的刺激,或許就不會……80Please respect copyright.PENANAmbnkzqv4T2
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午夜夢迴,他被遲來的愧疚與罪惡感深深折磨著,有時甚至還得靠安眠藥才能入睡。可現在見到本人,他卻彷彿像是患了失語症般什麼也說不出口,只能面有難色的,像尊雕像般站在原地。80Please respect copyright.PENANAdDYV34cpdn
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許苑茵向來是敏感細膩的人。不知是不是察覺到楊南珅有什麼未盡的意思,她沒多說什麼,就只是轉過身,將自己的背影留給了他──80Please respect copyright.PENANA3J6lhoAxfJ
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「我快要下班了。如果你還有什麼話想說,等我下班後再說吧。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAWH8EOJTaNK
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楊南珅真的等了。80Please respect copyright.PENANAVb2iyaTo1E
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他坐在幼兒園外的凳子上,有三個疑似還在等待父母到來的小朋友好奇地向他湊去,像在探究個稀奇物品一樣東看西看。80Please respect copyright.PENANAoRqZJsgkna
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「……有事嗎,小朋友?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAPtCvr8YELP
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話一出口,他突然想起了當初兩人被綁架時,許苑茵也曾經好奇地探究過他。他微微皺了眉頭,但隨即又立刻恢復原狀。80Please respect copyright.PENANAHHSPych0cJ
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那些小朋友又盯了他好一會,小聲地湊在一起不知討論了什麼之後,用十分稚嫩的聲音齊聲問道──80Please respect copyright.PENANAjo9yO1XWEp
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「你是大哥哥,還是大姐姐啊?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAKqUBsdci3y
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「……」80Please respect copyright.PENANAJkkPwxtHDy
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無言了。80Please respect copyright.PENANAs3LBpYfIKB
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楊南珅徹底地感到無言。80Please respect copyright.PENANAj3xxxdQQMn
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他已經好久沒被認為女生了。在長大之後,就不曾被誤認過。80Please respect copyright.PENANA1tZhkAMH2h
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只是三個月沒剪頭髮,頭髮有點長了,看起來應該也只是頭髮微微有些長的男生吧?不會像女生才對啊。80Please respect copyright.PENANAlRc9oizqJD
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而且身高──不對,對這種年紀的小孩子而言,成年人都十分高大,根本不知道什麼叫高,什麼叫矮。80Please respect copyright.PENANAWIjuMDjyy2
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他有些無言地抓了抓自己微長的頭髮,心下暗定回去之後一定要把頭髮剪短。80Please respect copyright.PENANA0Ipy2ieNHM
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「是大哥哥,不是大姐姐。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAvzSgQL2URO
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「欸──可是你的眼睛看起來好像女人喔。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAtY8giXWipl
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又是眼睛!80Please respect copyright.PENANAPXjQyj3dUm
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童年的陰影再度來襲,頭上止不住的青筋突突直跳。楊南珅十分懷疑,自己有一天會不會忍不住衝動,把自己的眼睛挖掉。80Please respect copyright.PENANAB4FiGLKMGL
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「對啊對啊,許老師的眼睛也好好看!」80Please respect copyright.PENANAKKT2tdY4zi
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「啊可是,廉老師、陳老師還有越老師不喜歡許老師耶,說老師的眼睛是……浮……呼……呃,李金?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAuYzf0AU49L
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「那是什麼啊?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAVpH8oyWssP
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「不知道──」80Please respect copyright.PENANAhdchbXj4KD
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在孩子們天真的嬉笑時,楊南珅已經從那有些模糊稚嫩的發音中猜到原意了。80Please respect copyright.PENANAmRREucka3R
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狐狸精,一般是指那些能化為妖嬈女子去迷惑男人的狐妖。現實自然是不會有什麼狐狸精,所以孩子們口中的老師所表達的,是喜歡勾引男人的女人吧。80Please respect copyright.PENANAsFNK00SaVD
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以前在學校時,楊南珅不是沒聽過類似的傳聞。說許苑茵喜歡打扮一定是想吸引男人的注意力,或者是那雙眼睛總是在放電,一定是想勾引男人之類的。80Please respect copyright.PENANAPdZH8B3Tv7
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可以他來說,許苑茵其實從未搭理過任何人──不論男女。除了面對他與劉心雅,她可以說是冷之又冷,有時甚至連話都不想回。80Please respect copyright.PENANA9bNfiPl1xC
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楊南珅知道那些都是嫉妒她的,而且還都是女人所放出的謠言,但他從未想過去幫助她,而當事人也看起來也不像很在乎的模樣。80Please respect copyright.PENANANiPGnWiPxH
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沒想到,來到這裡之後,她還是受到如此的待遇……80Please respect copyright.PENANAHmvIXNcyAd
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誰說成年人就一定成熟?這世界上,有太多的人因為感情用事或一個誤會,而毀了一個人。80Please respect copyright.PENANAgmpEWSQZUd
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──他也不例外。80Please respect copyright.PENANADLkWF6QQwS
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「嗯?何淑媛、王素敏、潘鑫,爸爸媽媽還沒來接你們嗎?」80Please respect copyright.PENANApLXVpxvHTp
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「許老師──還沒呢──」80Please respect copyright.PENANAkD0MVJSwdI
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許苑茵已經脫下了幼兒園老師的裝扮,換上了一般的便服。那身服裝還是和以往一樣十分有品味簡約,卻被天生衣架子的許苑茵穿出一身氣質。80Please respect copyright.PENANAYmB894lOWx
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三個孩子齊聲喚了聲老師,同時又回答了許苑茵的問題。許苑茵有些苦惱地按了按太陽穴,嘆了口氣。80Please respect copyright.PENANARqhbl7C3u6
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「又來了……唉。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAuNhg2oWdX1
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「抱歉,看來是還不能走。如果你還有事,你可以先離開。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAoWPPaSL0hb
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淡漠疏離的語氣,禮儀得體的姿勢。陌生人一樣的態度,反而讓楊南珅十分不舒服──當然,這不意味著他喜歡被糾纏。但兩人畢竟曾經算是朋友,不該如此疏離。80Please respect copyright.PENANADV8esEOtW4
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──啊,或許……是因為兩人原本可以維繫的友誼,也被他摧毀了吧。80Please respect copyright.PENANA3d8dBAqLCl
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「……沒事。」80Please respect copyright.PENANArAIqpKk5Yz
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不知道該回什麼,楊南珅只能乾巴巴地回了這麼句話。許苑茵不知為何蹙了蹙眉頭,讓小朋友們去遊樂場玩後,隨意地坐了下來。80Please respect copyright.PENANA060mavcOqP
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當然,是坐在離楊南珅一段距離的位置上。80Please respect copyright.PENANAXhPbuojb3T
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兩人相對無言地看著那些小朋友玩樂。小朋友天真的嬉笑聲微微緩和了凍得發僵的氣氛,楊南珅也終於想到了一個可以開啟的話題。80Please respect copyright.PENANAk0mRmMpHD9
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「妳……最近好嗎?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAfnssPWsTNV
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「不好。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAsKOZniLdaA
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好不容易擠出一個問題卻被毫不留情地駁回,楊南身心中冒出了一股無名火。正當他想發火時,許苑茵的下一句話立刻將那團火澆滅了。80Please respect copyright.PENANArWaFO4gyLK
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「但比以前好。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAYHh9G7SuMl
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她在微笑。80Please respect copyright.PENANAg9R2LO59Nc
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楊南珅十分驚訝。雖然許苑茵都有在極力隱瞞,但她身上總會有一股微微陰鬱的氛圍。他不喜歡也沒興趣知道,更何況他更不想了解許苑茵這個人。80Please respect copyright.PENANAzTEwzvz14b
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現在許苑茵身上那微微漏出的陰鬱氣息已經消失,甚至好像還變得開朗了一些。80Please respect copyright.PENANACScaqFBdPU
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「妳是什麼時候回來的?怎麼會來E市?為什麼會選擇當幼兒園老師?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAdp4l3ptwDC
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第一個問題問出口之後,後面的話語變得比較順暢。楊南珅突然忘記E市可能是劉心雅自己選擇來的,直到問出口後,才發現自己問了個蠢問題。許苑茵為楊南珅會好奇的事情微微露出驚訝的神色,但沒多久又回歸平淡。80Please respect copyright.PENANAPAwvefHWLd
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「三個月前。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAXlqXhHrMXo
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三個月……80Please respect copyright.PENANAG0JKIfDPIm
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這個關鍵字立刻讓楊南珅回想起了那詭異的呼吸停止瞬間。那時會突然停止呼吸,是因為兩人正在交換靈魂嗎?80Please respect copyright.PENANAnhfPQKMTUS
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那……好像挺合理的。80Please respect copyright.PENANAZlzJU1c4jB
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「我醒來的時候,就已經在E市,也在從事幼兒園的工作了。這是她自己做出的選擇。」80Please respect copyright.PENANA3yXiKaGsGY
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「至於理由……是因為覺得你不會找到這裡,而工作是特地選了一個我容易接手的工作。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAn5VsPTKPM7
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聽到劉心雅是為了躲他而特地選擇E市時,楊南珅有股莫名的火氣,又同時覺得十分心痛。但這些情緒,都隨著許苑茵的下一句話而煙消雲散。80Please respect copyright.PENANA8FBHpycwpq
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「容易接手……是什麼意思?」80Please respect copyright.PENANA1ECA4rTHQo
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許苑茵沒有立刻回答。她漫不經心地翹起二郎腿,左右手交疊放上膝蓋,眺望著正在嬉戲的孩子們。80Please respect copyright.PENANAOQi6XeKshi
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「不清楚。我推測是因為她認為,我們一定會換回身體吧。而且……」80Please respect copyright.PENANAaNhQNCfpyt
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「許老師──」80Please respect copyright.PENANABMH1roth55
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許苑茵似乎還想說什麼,但那些孩子的呼喚聲打斷了她接下來的話。三個小孩向許苑茵圍來,齊齊指向停在電燈柱上的藍色小鳥,滿臉好奇地問道。80Please respect copyright.PENANASMePHRneYc
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「老師老師──那是什麼鳥呀?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAiMX9xMDMWF
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「噢……那是翠鳥。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAxxZDBfvb3i
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「翠鳥──?」80Please respect copyright.PENANALe5Hv2g9cP
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三個孩子一起歪了歪頭,畫面十分可愛。許苑茵十分習慣地從包包裡拿出一本記事本,記事本是空白的,沒有線條。看起來似乎不是以寫字為主的。80Please respect copyright.PENANAwgA675w1E4
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隨後,她又拿出了一隻造型有點特殊,但楊南珅卻不陌生的筆。他曾經看劉心雅用過,是專門用來畫圖用的筆。80Please respect copyright.PENANAk4gBNXnWuQ
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「翠鳥,一種以小魚為食的小型鳥類。嘴巴略長,身體是……」80Please respect copyright.PENANAgJwwRIy5oP
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在許苑茵邊作畫邊解說時,孩子們都瞠大著眼睛,似懂非懂地看著那簡易圖像,十分有默契地一起點頭。楊南珅看到許苑茵的畫,發現那雖然沒太多細節,但可以看出作畫者的能力高超。80Please respect copyright.PENANAJDtNf3Ikdv
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在孩子們汲取完足夠的知識又回去玩樂時,楊南珅不知為何,突然冒出了這麼一句話──80Please respect copyright.PENANAp36elmQArz
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「沒想到妳的畫工挺好的。」80Please respect copyright.PENANA96PuBrrk44
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才剛說完,他就立刻想起,許苑茵的日記中有提過以前有在作畫的事情,頓時感到十分懊惱。80Please respect copyright.PENANApTFSOqZUp1
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「我小時候曾夢想當過畫家,只是後來放棄了。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAghmBCeUJ1z
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她的聲音十分平靜淡漠,平淡得彷彿像是在訴說他人的事情一樣。楊南珅的腦中突然浮現那些充滿絕望的內容,心情變得有些沉甸甸的。80Please respect copyright.PENANAbjByLP9etT
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「雖然放棄了……」80Please respect copyright.PENANAooSs0XrgWF
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許苑茵在停頓了好一陣後,又突然冒出了一句話。80Please respect copyright.PENANAryZiTFWBGC
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「但那孩子希望我回歸這個世界。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAtQherBxABl
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雖然許苑茵沒有直接點出是誰,但楊南珅沒用太久的時間就想到她在說誰了。80Please respect copyright.PENANAYhNau94O0n
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「妳是說小雅?」80Please respect copyright.PENANASLRrk2u4lK
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許苑茵對他會猜到這件事情不怎麼感到驚訝,用點頭的方式回答了他的問題。80Please respect copyright.PENANAwljkzXTgpv
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「不過,那只是寫在日記裡的留言就是了。」80Please respect copyright.PENANA21svmjgTgI
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「怎麼又是日記……」80Please respect copyright.PENANA24EHfFbGGm
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發現自己不小心說漏了嘴,楊南珅趕緊裝作沒事的模樣沉默不語。不知許苑茵究竟有沒有聽見,她繼續自顧自地訴說劉心雅的事情。80Please respect copyright.PENANA41ELSevXKQ
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在三年前的那天之後,劉心雅在許父的幫助下逃到了這個城市。對一個不曾真正意義上獨立過,又人生地不熟的女孩而言,最初的生活真的很糟。她嘗試過很多工作,但不是因為太多失誤而被辭退,就是因為樣貌太招蜂引蝶而出事。80Please respect copyright.PENANABU0kc1menY
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許父不是沒想過要幫她,但劉心雅因為想自己嘗試而拒絕。最後還是意外幫了某個軒萱幼兒園裡的孩子,才會被園長邀請回去當老師。80Please respect copyright.PENANA4WQp7gYzx7
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劉心雅是孤兒院長大的的孩子,所以挺擅長應付孩子的。她很快就和孩子打成了一片,工作上的失誤也變少,在E市的生活就此穩定了下來。80Please respect copyright.PENANA5w3G9Ow6V8
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雖然穩定了,卻不算開心。罪惡感彷彿隻巨大的手緊緊勒住她,她怎麼逃,都逃不掉。不僅是這樣,劉心雅又是個極度怕寂寞的人。噩夢連連,又加上缺少知心人士的陪伴,她不只一次想過放棄,回到原本的城市。80Please respect copyright.PENANAwcy3eR8kl0
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後來,溫鈞和溫陶跑去了E市。先不提溫陶,劉心雅一直避忌與溫鈞接觸,但在第二次的接觸中,溫鈞發現劉心雅並非本人的事情,她才逼不得已向兩人攤牌。80Please respect copyright.PENANASJfkZvcEEj
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──當然,許父也得知了這件事情。80Please respect copyright.PENANAhgc4kXScyH
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知道當初原諒自己的人不是女兒時,許父感到十分失落,也自責自己居然沒發現對方不是自己的女兒。但在劉心雅提到許苑茵早就希望原諒自己後,許父才勉強地接受了。80Please respect copyright.PENANA998u4GOhZD
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有了三位知情人士的陪伴,劉心雅才勉強撐了下去──但,也只是硬撐,而不是沒事。她的身體與精神狀況越來越差,似乎開始看得到一些奇怪的景象。劉心雅由此判斷,再過不久,兩人可能就會換回身體了。80Please respect copyright.PENANATd7l0skf8s
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『幼兒園那邊的事情也記錄下來,茵茵才好接手。』80Please respect copyright.PENANAc1zkOAfeYV
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『茵茵也喜歡作畫,這個城市裡有不少識畫者。把之前探聽過的人都記錄下來吧。』80Please respect copyright.PENANAHswtWjKo4D
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『許伯父的事情也記錄下來,這樣茵茵才知道……』80Please respect copyright.PENANAKlvT9XJSeg
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三年的磨練,讓她成熟了一些,但也憔悴了不少。許苑茵簡單扼要地訴說完,就沉默了下去。她閉上眼廉,深深地嘆了一口氣。80Please respect copyright.PENANAfm4e40o6zt
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「她是個笨蛋。」80Please respect copyright.PENANA8kwJB3OG4j
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一個自己都快支撐不住,卻還是要為了許苑茵勉強自己的笨蛋。80Please respect copyright.PENANACsXwk2W6t5
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他認同。80Please respect copyright.PENANAlijFWqBxKZ
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雖然是他自私的想法,但還不如讓她維持著天真爛漫,無須擔心任何事情的狀態好。這樣的她,一定會更加幸福。80Please respect copyright.PENANAAaEtkWpy1M
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「你會來找我,是因為那邊的人沒醒吧?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAU5kzTYGTtP
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「……是。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAvLaVFLqPTA
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雖然楊南珅本就不是抱著一定就是劉心雅的心態來E市的,但他無法否認,在知道對方不是劉心雅時,她確實覺得十分失望。可若真的換回身體了,那為什麼她還是沒醒呢?80Please respect copyright.PENANAKd6vCKtd16
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「估計是沉浸在夢境裡不願醒來吧。夢境多好,能逃避所有的痛苦、悲傷與懊悔。沉浸在虛假的幸福之中,也算是一種幸福吧?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAhohk5hbu5F
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「……就和當時的我一樣。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAkCSsV8Rvpm
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不知是不是因為表情太明顯,許苑茵回答了楊南珅並未問出口的問題。雖然許苑茵是用極低的聲量說出後面那句話的,但楊南珅卻還是聽見了。80Please respect copyright.PENANA8kwTDLlHj4
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──是因為他嗎?80Please respect copyright.PENANADtOxLxBn97
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──不,一定不是。那又不能算是他的錯。80Please respect copyright.PENANAejGeSWl93Y
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腦中一冒出許苑茵會這樣是因為他的原因時,心裡又有另一個聲音極力地否認了這個想法。即便已經知道了許願茵的苦衷,即便他現在願意坐在這裡與許苑茵交談,但許苑茵是『爬床拜金女』的想法依然根深柢固地烙在他的心中。80Please respect copyright.PENANAsGQ97loxzJ
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每當自己開始覺得對不起許苑茵,心裡就會開始否認這個想法的聲音。80Please respect copyright.PENANAasytJ68HMu
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他覺得他好像快瘋了。80Please respect copyright.PENANApCf6dPH0iF
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「……該死……」80Please respect copyright.PENANAFlRW2yfPw5
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許苑茵微微看了他一眼,又立刻移開了視線。楊南珅並沒有錯過她眼中一閃而逝的受傷與落寞,他知道許苑茵一定是誤會了什麼,可他張了張嘴,卻依然什麼也說不出口。80Please respect copyright.PENANAedr2MOEKZj
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「所以,你打算什麼時候回去?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAyOWI61Rrjd
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「……明天八點的班車。畢竟E市的班車不太多。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAAxrVbSqBsH
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「是嗎……不介意我去送你吧?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAyarQeZji6x
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楊南珅模模糊糊地『唔』了一聲,當作應允了這件事情。他心中懊惱又煩躁,也很想當場狠狠給自己一拳,大罵自己怎麼這麼蠢這麼笨拙。80Please respect copyright.PENANA7qEloFK4R5
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可,他的自尊不允許他這麼做。80Please respect copyright.PENANAl8v4IgHz8L
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兩人的氣氛又再度回歸冰冷。因為受不住這冰冷的氣氛,楊南珅沒有繼續待下去,而是選擇落荒而逃。80Please respect copyright.PENANAJLRKtJ29Xn
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以旅遊業為主的E市有許多旅館,要找到一個能投宿的旅館並不是件難事。躺在床上,他一會想到自己沒能陪伴劉心雅渡過這痛苦的三年,一會想到自己又再次無意中傷了許苑茵還沒能道歉,內心的煩躁感如熱浪般一波波襲來,折磨得完全無法入睡。80Please respect copyright.PENANAItN1TPqIVA
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結果,一夜無眠。80Please respect copyright.PENANA0aDVWfMbwO
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在捷運站等待班車時,他頂著一雙厚重的熊貓眼,打著疲憊的哈欠,一臉就是睡眠不足的模樣。80Please respect copyright.PENANAYoVY3hsoJu
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雖然薛承誠因為忙到半夜而沒能起床送行,但許苑茵還是依約來了。她看起來不像有睡眠不足的模樣,但也不排除是靠化妝品遮掩了黑眼圈。80Please respect copyright.PENANAg2rivE9qdD
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「……妳來了。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAGHw1WkBkMU
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「嗯,畢竟我說過我會來。」80Please respect copyright.PENANArh82pwf3OX
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會搭E市班車的人不多,而這個時間點就更少了。除了他們兩人,基本上就只有兩、三個人也在等待班車。80Please respect copyright.PENANAK3mJ1d2BRZ
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微風輕輕吹過,吹起了許苑茵的長髮。看到她不打算主動說話又淡漠的表情,楊南珅莫名想起許苑茵昨晚說過的那段話。80Please respect copyright.PENANAmMQlMw7ppp
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「妳說妳也有作夢……那是什麼夢啊?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAAIoOEp0r7C
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聽到這個問題時,許苑茵微微瞠大了眼看著他,顯然就是沒想過他會問這個問題。但沒多久,她又回歸平靜,淡淡地說了六個字──80Please respect copyright.PENANAuDUVdfWdwj
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「你不會想知道。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAMV91aiF4p0
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短短六個字,楊南珅心中出現了兩種反應──惱羞成怒,因為許苑茵給予了拒絕的回應;坐立不安,因為他似乎隱隱猜到那是什麼樣的夢境了。80Please respect copyright.PENANAgOhGLXcINo
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「……我想知道。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAxl6LHk2Lvp
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臉色青紅交加一陣,將所有情緒憋回去之後,楊南珅還是吐出了這句話。許苑茵的視線往下看,看著自己被微風吹動的衣襬,彷彿事不關己的,冷靜淡漠地說出了答案──80Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5ty1bo2Qp
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「你沒有忘記當年約定的夢。」80Please respect copyright.PENANA6gCJrjlg3z
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約定……80Please respect copyright.PENANAzRClEbpe6n
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那天的夢境如走馬燈般在腦中播放,楊南珅突然覺得呼吸變得十分困難。雙手握成拳狀,猙獰的青筋浮在表皮上,手因使力而微微顫抖著。80Please respect copyright.PENANAMw7AmuHlCT
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他要道歉!他要道歉!他要道歉!80Please respect copyright.PENANARCTzetKsMg
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可每每道歉的話語跑到嘴邊了,卻又消失得無影無蹤。明知道自己該道歉,但那該死的自尊與心聲卻不斷阻止他說出口。80Please respect copyright.PENANAdbvoELKFqm
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『只是覺得,你好像變了。』80Please respect copyright.PENANAy9gZZvH3OH
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不,阿薛。他根本沒變,他還是那個無藥可救的傢伙。連個道歉都無法說出口的人渣。80Please respect copyright.PENANAyuMlCjjoKr
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「捷運來了。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAjqcSX263No
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在他還在各種天人交戰時,捷運已經到站了。他渾渾噩噩地走上捷運,但腳才剛踩上捷運內,許苑茵卻突然從後方叫住了他。80Please respect copyright.PENANA2LwUDx8WsO
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『啪』的一聲,他才剛轉過身,什麼也還來不及說出口,許苑茵就將一張紙條拍到了他的胸口上。他下意識我住那張摺疊好的紙條,有些不解地看向許苑茵。80Please respect copyright.PENANA62PA0Li6dE
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許苑茵在拍完紙條後就立刻退到黃線後,沒有與他有過多的接觸。80Please respect copyright.PENANAMed6hqfLFb
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「那上面是我統計完我和小雅會交換身體的原因,還有有可能喚醒她的辦法。只是我不能保證一定有效。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAQcriNiCv5R
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手中的力道微微加大,紙條因力道而變得有些皺。當事人原本有些低垂的頭忽地揚起,臉上掛著一個十分溫暖的微笑。80Please respect copyright.PENANAorsT3v7HVL
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「一定要叫醒小雅哦,阿珅。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAmVf2ThmH5e
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『喀啷──』80Please respect copyright.PENANATqiU50f4Yy
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內心,傳出了清脆的聲響。80Please respect copyright.PENANAmeuMfeiOUO
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那些束縛著他,不讓他說出口的想法突然像是碎裂了一些,多年來執著的偏見,還有這段時間的糾結彷彿在那瞬間淡化,消失不見。80Please respect copyright.PENANAxKoVujgly1
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──是啊,他有什麼好糾結的?說實話,雖然不是本意,但他確實沒有遵守約定。先不管他是否是認真的,可那個許苑茵依然義無反顧地喜歡上他,喜歡了這麼多年。80Please respect copyright.PENANAL4sRPPwBDs
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或許,他不是該道歉,而是……80Please respect copyright.PENANAStp9GIZNeI
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「許苑茵,我……」80Please respect copyright.PENANAale2rwLXL9
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『本車即將出發前往OO,請勿緊靠車門。』80Please respect copyright.PENANAOIU02xV45x
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就在楊南珅準備說出口時,捷運卻十分不解情面地響起了廣播。一向細膩的許苑茵這時偏偏沒察覺到他的異樣,只是對他輕輕揮手。楊南珅頓時急了,趕緊以最快的速度將話說完。80Please respect copyright.PENANA0d57kO7hjV
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「許苑茵,你聽我說……」80Please respect copyright.PENANAHgthplkFSP
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「這位乘客,麻煩往後退……」80Please respect copyright.PENANApwR1EjIHEh
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「許苑茵!謝謝妳!」80Please respect copyright.PENANAQKqKRYtLVS
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「謝謝妳喜歡我這種人!!謝謝──」80Please respect copyright.PENANAfdpKAKRJOE
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楊南珅被站務人員強硬地推入車內,車門無情地關上了,隔絕了楊南珅的聲音。隨著車門關上,他推開站務人員,不管不顧地撲到門窗上,努力地想把自己的想法傳達出去。可不知道究竟有沒有成功,捷運還是開走了。80Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3S2Ew4f2y
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在楊南珅說出第一句『謝謝』時,許苑茵早就僵住了。她的手維持著揮手的狀態,直到捷運離去,都未能立即反應過來。80Please respect copyright.PENANATVvQXqBt5M
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終於反應過來時,她將手緩緩往下移到眼睛的位置,並遮住了自己的眼睛。80Please respect copyright.PENANAZtC67AmbBa
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「你真的好狡猾啊,楊南珅……」80Please respect copyright.PENANAHekjjAu5Pv
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「真的……好……」80Please respect copyright.PENANACrCHYzWcHl
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『不然……我娶妳啊?』80Please respect copyright.PENANAe315LlAFvW
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無法實現的約定,彷彿詛咒般綑綁了許苑茵多年。在兩人交往後,她只是希望得到一個答案,卻因為遲遲得不到而導致逐漸偏激瘋狂。80Please respect copyright.PENANAPVKXLGhVat
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可現在,那個答案卻彷彿將許苑茵從那詛咒裡解放了出來,渾身輕鬆了很多。晶瑩的淚水從手指的縫隙落下,許苑茵不顧形象地在空曠的車站內掩面大哭了起來……80Please respect copyright.PENANAUkvSCQP38r
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或許這就是許苑茵最好的結局了吧。
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