Van仔察覺到我長期處於情緒低落況態，同時又唔使花時間陪伴George，尤其係假日，佢每次搵我出嚟，我都可以出席。
呢啲蛛絲馬跡引起佢懷疑，佢直接問過我兩次，我同George感情係咪出現問題，只不過我都一概否認。
我睇得出佢唔相信，因為佢實在太了解我，生活同情緒嘅每一個細節，佢都掌握到。
佢對我雖然未到推心置腹呢個階段，只要唔損害佢大男人心態嘅事，佢一律無向我隱瞞，但係我反為對佢講大話，不過我心裡面真係感激佢，起碼佢俾我知道仲有人闞心我。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpE9j5h00Ug
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我同van仔之間嘅交往，由認識到發生關係，經過好幾次轉折，來往由頻密變成間歇，由平淡變為激情，兩個人糾糾纏纏大約有兩年幾時間，我對佢嘅感情，亦不知不覺間產生咗蛻變。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡku89WxQBHl
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我係充滿幻想，思想簡單，鐘意做白日夢嘅人，我同George關係越穩定，但係我外鶩之心越強，想再一次回味初戀被追求，大家想辦法互相吸引，又患得患失嘅心情，可能只係一個藉口。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡti4dSrZeiF
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Van仔就啱啱喺我心魔亂竄，暗黑黑子大爆發期間出現喺我面前。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8D2n3IlurH
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van仔同男友係兩個唔同世界、兩個極端嘅人，男友溫文、呵護，van仔狂野、粗魯，我夾喺佢哋兩個人中間，接收佢哋從兩個方向俾我嘅滿足。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WUPKasDpu
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我認識van仔之初，我一廂情願，我唔知點形容，類似柏拉圖式嘅交往，同佢停留喺互相調笑，有限度身體接觸嘅精神調劑。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1UWAbZQF5
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所以我以呢個定位同佢摟抱嬉鬧，但係一踏上呢條路就停唔落嚟。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuGDFWf900
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閒談中滲入咗情慾話題，我哋開始接吻，俾佢愛撫。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLdtMSIxkL
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繼而陪佢裸泳，單獨上佢屋企，身體接觸程度越嚟越大，我抗拒唔到佢嘅誘惑，一次又一次嘅邊緣性愛，只因為我想得到嗰種既害怕又想要嘅矛盾感受。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSWEeEmt20
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公司嘅同事，包括珠女都認為van仔好多缺點，奇怪點解我咁遷就佢，世界上邊有完美嘅人，我本身亦都好多缺點，不過有啲我自己睇唔到啫。
被追求呢種虛幻感覺隨住同佢日漸熟絡而淡化，同佢去澳門，經歷整整兩日兩夜嘅瘋狂做愛，初戀浪漫就好似一層包裹住我同佢嘅薄紗，徹徹底底咁撕破，因而演化我同佢喺小海灘再次裸泳，喺佢架客貨van車斗、蓆天幕地，無遮無掩咁胡天胡帝到凌晨四點，我同van仔已經蛻變成爲肉慾追求。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAMxR4bTnj
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George過咗去總公司之後，我同佢嘅接觸頻率亦改變咗幾次，轉變都係受Julie介入George喺總公司嘅工作，同埋生活而影嚮。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSFnsYjsfH
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最近佢每日都定時定候俾電話我，為咗遷就我，佢選擇喺我午餐時間，佢嗰邊大約係凌晨時分同我視訊。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgevV63hs9m
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今日佢過咗時，我等咗一日，都無佢嘅電話，我怕自因工作而錯過咗佢嘅來電，不停留意住有無未接聽電話。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfG9Nm32tWn
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手機喺我臨瞓前終於震動起嚟，我鬆咗一口氣。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPT0aHfJT3x
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一開口佢對遲咗俾電話，向我道歉。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsZX1xjmg4
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佢無講原因，我相信佢唔講，一定有佢道理，只要最後佢搵我就可以，至於點解咁遲，我完全唔介意。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCxrE1dlWL
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好明顯George今晚講電話同前一輪好唔同，喺個mom 見到佢有啲焦慮，欲言又止，有啲嘢唔好意思開口咁。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQqeeTTYBm
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我相信一定有尷尬事情同我有關，否則佢唔使咁不安，莫非同Julie訂婚介指有關。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqNkRWTneL
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我好奇想知佢想同我講乜嘢，亦都擔心佢同我講真係我所估計，我唔想聽嘅消息。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUYJDpu3cO
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“C，最近有無放假出外玩？”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TccObpOWA
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佢無厘頭咁問。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSCJyQGUGy
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“無呀！”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqiHGtMDYCe
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自從佢離開我之後，我心灰咗一段時間，乜都無興趣，到而加心情都仲係咁孤寂，已經一年無放過假，仲講乜嘢出外旅遊。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInlpH6br2b
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“上次你問我放假安排嘅，而加我有咗定案，返嚟之前我會放三星期假。”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutebt7uMWv
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George睇嚟好開心，難怪嘅，佢辛苦咗接近兩年，終於可以放吓假，仲有Julie陪住佢。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH83LJUXN0f
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“做咩咁嘅反應呀？323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAi30ec3FQ
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George見到我有啲落寞。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAaMRZ6h47
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“無嘢呀，我唔知講咩好之嘛！”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkLNmA7vas
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我同佢一齊嗰時，我做錯事，又或者同佢鬥嘴，無論咩原因都好，只要我無話可說，我都會依偎住佢，講呢句說話。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJoluWNmEr
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“C，我想邀請你過嚟！”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTB4EAlHwng
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George邀請我過去佢嗰邊？我立即意會到佢想我出席佢同Julie嘅婚禮。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LFKxIEsRa
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George正式開口邀請我！323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rYBXrKY4s
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“恭喜你⋯⋯”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErFjMm5Gxl
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我好無奈，唔想親眼見證到George同Julie，但係唔答應佢，又怕佢失望。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GkHkbcVxd
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“恭喜我咩呀？！”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKxVpqRKT2
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佢愕然，對眼登得好大。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxFBoOg7e9
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我將Julie喺face book訂婚介指嘅事講俾佢知，不過我強調Julie佢自己無講明係訂婚，一切都係我同佢face book一班朋友嘅意會。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe541yI19tC
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“無件咁嘅事！C，我今日俾電話你係想邀請你過嚟陪我一齊渡假，但係過去一段日子，我同你疏離咗，我一直唔知點開口，我怕你拒絕我！”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZO7PCqoTnv
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George好激動。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡko5LE072uh
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呢個係過去年幾以嚟，我最開心，最振奮嘅消息，我高興到唔識講嘢，淨係流眼淚。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJMcIyTBLu
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“C，我好想你可以陪我，我哋從新開始好唔好？”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfflm6OP6C
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“點解咁突然嘅？我怕⋯⋯我怕係發夢！”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLect6t7lo8
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我怕係發夢，我拍吓自己個面。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XQClc4hve
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“你無發夢，係真嘅，過去兩年先至係一個夢，我夢醒咗，C，你相信我，我已經圢破咗迷惘，你係我最需要嘅人！”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfGd7abrMH
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我對住個mon不停點頭，我要俾George知道我相信佢。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFS11mAks5M
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“C，你相信我，我好高興，你嗰邊時間已經好夜，聽日我再call你，向你交代我同Julie嘅事。”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyJ0hhmuxx
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“我哋傾得好哋哋，點解要聽日先再搵我，George，我以為你唔再要我，而家你俾個好消息我，我想你永遠陪著我，唔好再離開我！”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQQ1ODlTCj
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我同佢嗰度時差十三個鐘，即係話佢趁午飯時間搵我傾偈。323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAP3j7N9dNN
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“C，我都係想一直陪著你，不過來日方長，我想你多啲休息，我亦都做埋我手頭上啲工作。”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLt3F0ebdQC
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“對唔住呀，你唔好怪我好似搬弄是非咁，將Julie喺face book嘅嘢講出嚟！”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBK552T6PYu
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“唔關你事，我先幾日同師姐傾開攪hall友週年聚會，傾完之後，佢都打聽過我同Julie最近嘅發展，佢好粗略講過少少，佢似乎一直有留心Julie。”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYp3L5fyUxh
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“George，無論點都好，希望你唔好責怪Julie，佢做咩都出自於佢愛你！”323Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYjr7jwGLU
