Five months have quickly passed, but mama still wouldn't allow the newlyweds to leave our house for a lot of reasons: Ben had to look for a stable job, Naya needed to be close to the Opiana family while her belly grew bigger, they have no money to build a house of their own, and the list went on.195Please respect copyright.PENANA6gaQpI4sdl
That was not the first time mama attempted to keep her boys close. Even when our two other brothers got married, she would give a lot of reasons for their family to stay.195Please respect copyright.PENANAIzk2UhTzA1
We were all sitting around the table one evening, having dinner, when mama opened up to the family about Ben's need for a job.195Please respect copyright.PENANAhec9HiRCJ4
"Ben, you have been hopping from job to job since you graduated college," she started. "But now you have a family. You have to start finding a decent job. Having a baby is expensive nowadays."195Please respect copyright.PENANA7qdH38grvL
Ben did not answer and refused to touch his food, while Naya frowned like she needed a hug at that moment.195Please respect copyright.PENANA5yl9QMSkJ1
"If only you took your board exam seriously, you wouldn't have that problem," she continued. "Much as I wanted to support you, I have loans to settle too."195Please respect copyright.PENANA6l4efkKL2M
Naya, who had been glancing on the floor and at her husband, placed her hand on my brother's bare shoulder.195Please respect copyright.PENANA4yvx85XcWJ
"Mahal, do... do you want me to ask papa to help you?" Naya asked Ben. "There's a job vacancy in his company. They hire fresh graduates, with or without experience."195Please respect copyright.PENANAtmEYXGr6Ys
Mama flashed her that smile that she usually gives to the people who get on her nerves.195Please respect copyright.PENANAjExfLs2LH4
"Naya, anak," mama said, "Opiana men help, but they do not beg. Your man, your provider; he should look for work on his own."195Please respect copyright.PENANA5vgU1fH6vQ
"But mama—"195Please respect copyright.PENANA8U08SuEnb7
"The offer is appreciated but I'm afraid we have to decline," mama interrupted, her voice raising a fraction for emphasis. "That has been a family tradition and I promised their father that it should not be broken."195Please respect copyright.PENANAYjqVdhZ55g
The poor young woman fell silent and looked away.195Please respect copyright.PENANA46zQXSU9lG
Ben nodded like a zombie, but without an answer. It was hard to tell whether he agreed with who or not. I released a weary sigh. Meanwhile, the other boys were quietly finishing their meal. Mama turned back to Ben.195Please respect copyright.PENANAkDHBiFLug5
"Why don't you look for a job in town?" mama suggested. "Or you can work with Joe in the construction."195Please respect copyright.PENANA4z7xDFAqbH
Joe almost threw up at the sound of it. Good thing everyone's too focused on mama to pay attention to what happened. I tightened my mouth to control the overpowering desire to laugh while watching him gulp glass after glass of water. I chided myself for wanting to burst out amid a serious business.195Please respect copyright.PENANAwM9t7HEEQn
"Can you help him get a job, son?" mama asked, her attention to Joe who seemed to have swallowed a half pitcher of water.195Please respect copyright.PENANANshaI5H66v
He quickly composed himself.195Please respect copyright.PENANAi17taZ1WiY
"I'll try," he replied.195Please respect copyright.PENANAjTl4fpTyDt
"Alright, Ben. You go with Joe tomorrow."195Please respect copyright.PENANAbW8ccN8j3D
"Tomorrow?" Joe blurted out. "But that's my day off. What about um... Monday?"195Please respect copyright.PENANAl26k9jCivt
Her slipper made a loud clap on the shoulder of our eldest.195Please respect copyright.PENANAiFH4YuUGgE
"Aray!" he cried, massaging the pained area with his fingers.195Please respect copyright.PENANAMbjuZQIquB
"Do not keep your brother waiting, my goodness! He needs to provide for his family!"195Please respect copyright.PENANAJXJsCqHUHn
Joe threw his hands in the air. "Fine, I'll do it."195Please respect copyright.PENANANUUWIADhLL
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Ben finally got a job as a clerk in the town hall. It was not really related to the course he finished in college, but better have a source of income than nothing, right?195Please respect copyright.PENANAGY8Pzmwaoe
Week after week, he and Joe took turns in bringing food to our table. Our pantry started to overflow with supplies so we divided some of it to our brothers from the other houses.195Please respect copyright.PENANA20HMSMwSVj
Our ball of sunshine rapidly bounced back to his usual self, making hilarious antics at the dining table during his days off. He also used his spare time to review for his licensure exam.195Please respect copyright.PENANASPceijAdJG
Naya on the other hand tried to save money when mama told Ben to keep his earnings instead of buying supplies. When everyone was asleep, I would find her counting paper bills on the coffee table.195Please respect copyright.PENANAEcJEZSJ5Qz
One of those nights, I surprised her with a cup of warm milk only to find out what was keeping her up at night.195Please respect copyright.PENANAbURy7NE5PK
"How thoughtful of you, Judy," she said, then took a sip.195Please respect copyright.PENANAlIs7FNv7Vq
"I try," I answered. "You're always up late. Won't it affect the baby?"195Please respect copyright.PENANAnt6kXPFeGx
"I cannot sleep," she answered, then turned the attention to the bills.195Please respect copyright.PENANAKNJwDuzKCP
She pretended to count the money before her but decided to continue when I didn't answer.195Please respect copyright.PENANAjPxTxzSI2O
She reluctantly raised her head and looked at me with a serious face. "Truth is, I want Ben and I to move out already."195Please respect copyright.PENANAyQVFkEjUrs
My brows arched out of curiosity.195Please respect copyright.PENANAKApz5n3DB7
"Is that mama getting in your head?" I asked, looking at her frowning face intently.195Please respect copyright.PENANAVrDqvS203a
She didn't answer, but I could tell I wasn't wrong. Sometimes, I wanted to be thankful I was raised this way; I wouldn't endure the offensive, unsolicited remarks of a mother-in-law. But on the other hand, the desire of defending a wife from the same remarks made me push the thought at the back of my mind.195Please respect copyright.PENANADvLbQ9z0Kd
"I'm sorry, you know, about her," I continued. "If it makes you any better, she treats all my brothers' wives like that. Well, until they have a baby and move out of this house."195Please respect copyright.PENANAc20CGVf4eC
She laughed nervously, but I gave her a smile of assurance.195Please respect copyright.PENANA2weLWovNSz
"Just know that I'm here whenever you need me," I continued.195Please respect copyright.PENANA5uAEzuvwMf
She gave a weak smile. "Thank you, Judy... For understanding me."195Please respect copyright.PENANASCi36IwLBQ
"Anytime, ate," I said, placing my palm at the back of her hand. "Anytime."195Please respect copyright.PENANAJ99ktRhm4N
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My room was just beside Ben's, and since its walls were made of bamboo, I could clearly hear him and his wife argue about anything, most especially about the subject of moving out. Ben naturally wouldn't want the idea, having just started his job. But time came that Naya could no longer handle the unspeakable pressure she felt so she decided to pack up and go.195Please respect copyright.PENANArXuiClY12R
I was replacing the cover of my bed when the sound of a door busting open made me jolt like a frightened rabbit. It came from the next room, which happened to be Ben's. I tiptoed to the door of my room to see what was happening. And the sound of footsteps behind me indicated that Asher has done the same.195Please respect copyright.PENANA8bitkvcXfU
Naya carried a big suitcase in her left hand while Ben followed her.195Please respect copyright.PENANAHLLbbormbo
"What are you doing, Naya?" my brother asked. "You leaving? What happened to till death do us part, huh?"195Please respect copyright.PENANAtv98wQn2Z2
"I can't take it anymore, Ben. Stay here if you want, but I'm going back to my parents." She struggled to lift her luggage and support her big tummy at the same time.195Please respect copyright.PENANAG5xpQcRinq
"Naya," he called, grabbing her by the arm, "We talked about this, right?"195Please respect copyright.PENANACemc4kpqEq
She wiped the tears using the back of her hand. "No. You keep running your mouth, but you are not giving me any choice!"195Please respect copyright.PENANAu99K1vM1bB
She spun around and tried to take a step, but Ben stopped her with a hug from the back. Mama and the rest of us went to the living room, where we saw Ben bury his tearful face in the nape of his wife.195Please respect copyright.PENANA7aqlU6JzwP
"What's going on?" It was mama. "What is this commotion about?"195Please respect copyright.PENANAC0QCIywRgY
But my brother ignored the question.195Please respect copyright.PENANABuiC53R1Vi
"Naya, don't do this, please," he mumbled.195Please respect copyright.PENANANV8xj69Chr
"No, Ben, don't stop me. Just stay here." She tried to free herself away from his embrace.195Please respect copyright.PENANAzmUFqyrZRo
Ben violently spread his arms in the air.195Please respect copyright.PENANAxCnUgGChAi
"What do you want me to do, Naya?" he growled in frustration. "I told you we cannot move out; we need a lot of money to build our own house!"195Please respect copyright.PENANAoD1qHexaoH
"Then why don't you let me borrow from papa?" she snapped. "I am your wife, Benjamin! We are supposed to be equals, but you treat me like a fool who shouldn't have a say about anything!"195Please respect copyright.PENANAwk6QJBhl3Q
She slowly slumped on the floor, her shoulders shaking as she sobbed. She buried her face in the palms of her hands.195Please respect copyright.PENANAjXpKE5KMtP
I hurried to her and wrapped her in a comforting embrace, while Joe placed his hand on Ben's shoulder.195Please respect copyright.PENANAofxurfulcF
The next thing we heard was nothing but the sobs and snivels of the couple.195Please respect copyright.PENANAKeTvAzu6fT
Joe spoke to our brother.195Please respect copyright.PENANAc5IrlVrbyM
"Ben, she's your wife," he said gently. "Respect her wish."195Please respect copyright.PENANApCAJ66u4V2
Ben turned his teary face to our eldest. "But kuya, I cannot, not yet... Not now—"195Please respect copyright.PENANAaZmPgqwx6N
Joe shook his head, stopping Ben mid-sentence.195Please respect copyright.PENANAMY9xlVGzXS
"You want to lose your baby by stressing your wife?" Joe asked, his brows furrowed. "Come on, man, we will help."195Please respect copyright.PENANAcvk74Gh3uM
"Kuya..."195Please respect copyright.PENANAjyve14Ogkv
Joe pulled Ben in a one-armed hug, allowing the latter to pour out the tears on his shoulder. From a short distance, mama also teared up, drowned by the drama and confusion.195Please respect copyright.PENANAegKwn8iJZI
Still running my palms through the back of our sister-in-law, I looked at our eldest and gave him an understanding nod.195Please respect copyright.PENANAKAzPkBLDaq
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A few days later, all the men and women in our barangay gathered at our compound, bringing the supplies they could contribute to building Ben's house.195Please respect copyright.PENANAaQ1ConUhF0
My brothers cleared the elevated, taro-filled lot just behind our house and started flattening the area where Ben's dwelling would be built.195Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0yX80SuKy
The women with whom I was grouped busied themselves in the kitchen. As we were working, I couldn't help but stare at my brothers. I really wanted to be with them and display my manly feats. Maybe Joe would allow me to do their work this time.195Please respect copyright.PENANAU8Vumv1yeP
"Mama," I called one day as we were mincing the garlic and onion for lunch.195Please respect copyright.PENANA1hW7K8MOrP
"Yes anak?" she replied.195Please respect copyright.PENANAt5tFzmE3To
"Can I shift strands?" I asked.195Please respect copyright.PENANADk2SaAo1PO
"Can you what?!" she blurted out.195Please respect copyright.PENANAoW5Wv4FE8o
I shrugged.195Please respect copyright.PENANAE6ve78mIno
"Shift strands, you know, from Arts and Design to TVL," I explained.195Please respect copyright.PENANADHd1TRjWv1
Her head violently turned toward me.195Please respect copyright.PENANAkqqKaLfs8J
"You're shifting from Arts and Design to TVL? My God, Judy, you're graduating in a year!" she said, slapping her head after the last word. "Are you having a—what you call that, midlife crisis?"195Please respect copyright.PENANAIfSPKh8995
"No, I just don't find fashion designing appealing anymore," I said, struggling to sound casual. "I want to be a master carpenter."195Please respect copyright.PENANA7MoiRwIrAu
"Master carpenter?! You'll get those soft hands dirty by doing manly work? Can't you just give that job to your kuya Joe?" she asked in a frustrated voice.195Please respect copyright.PENANAubFQrNGSBD
Luh.195Please respect copyright.PENANA0ZEOtFhg3R
"What's wrong with me wanting to be a master carpenter? I could earn millions there too," I defended.195Please respect copyright.PENANAwH3gG34hIq
She faced me again with arms folded together, giving me an old-fashioned look.195Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0UYp1hQlk
"Judy, do you really want to be a carpenter or do you just want to abandon your responsibilities here to join your kuyas? You've been staring at them the whole time since they started clearing the area," she said. "You think I didn't notice?"195Please respect copyright.PENANAWpEYN2m5sM
My eyes rolled upward, wondering how in the world she found out my true purpose. Mama's expression suddenly shifted from panic mode to gentle. Her hand rose to smooth my hair.195Please respect copyright.PENANAgerF6o8m11
"Anak, you know that Mama loves you even if you have chosen a different path from your brothers, right?" she said.195Please respect copyright.PENANAkGaIJv8Tw3
The emphasis did not escape my ears. Have I really chosen a different path? It seemed more like it was being shifted against my will.195Please respect copyright.PENANA5EVwAgG9CP
"And you promised me you'll grow up to be a refined woman and help me keep the house," she continued. "Right, anak?"195Please respect copyright.PENANA6TF7SpH7oa
No, I didn't.195Please respect copyright.PENANA6jsznf9IiJ
"Right?" she insisted.195Please respect copyright.PENANAGwWyw0xnaa
I released a heavy sigh.195Please respect copyright.PENANAbyqhAbV8z7
"Right," I said in resignation.195Please respect copyright.PENANA3c9GCYKNut
"So please, Judy, can you respect me on this?" she asked.195Please respect copyright.PENANA9SANENg4Q5
I nodded, hoping that would stop her from talking.195Please respect copyright.PENANAMzpzFop8x5