「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrreNKhQeE
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSRftKARMx
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbbMqkl9tR
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幼小我的父母就離異，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGCnnjSpAe
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatA9pLNLqb
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對母親的記憶還是有，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6aXukQ18BN
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記得她很常酗酒，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVqFlsTy8x
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後來的日子，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNr9WiYkgwl
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYS4ln4zJm
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忙於工作的他，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAUIJFNnEp
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRun6swxQLM
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到了上課時間再直接上課，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡob4TuXePCO
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05NCQbhWlF
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpq1tocz0px
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnkYWoW1Zo
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCM230hOYkE
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31fKn1G8f8
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父親工作的地方不一定，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHug79GgghD
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輾轉的換了三所小學，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGx4AvGchnh
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpqhcZAxhX
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他開始會喜怒無常，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlTt3dgHgI
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qxPSESdT4
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Fc54livNY
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很小我就與異性交往，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ozH1b4ETT
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGK5Hwyx2Rw
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNIpvWTdrf
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yibINnrps
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我會睡在工地，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRCXxrYyny
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExiee6NP7j
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AqWPUwP8T
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgXwxXGAzN
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他開始會講貶低的話語，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefCgSZbEni
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那些原本用來工作的用具，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqLcmhKRxU
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FzkJosu7F
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl75cQfVhOR
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYIpIT6dVn
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXTEoIYuYD
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要我轉告給老師，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENFU8njTMU
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1HXdQn2RX
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5LwXrkl8yC
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3h7yre3Kw
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZZxKm4QQm
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細細去回想每個片段，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMIAWlOYRm
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91fumcqm3O
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEB8ZQLSc0
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pvJWNkopS
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAzSvEpALC
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyekTHVLA4
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6Rf4YYW0u
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzESa1pxxvN
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeW9D7p9IU
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhuZxwLJcU
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ClyCJdW4d
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQ1AnOpS1P
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正準備吃下第一口時，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PyebHkOSQ
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbguBtMMMu
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。754Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA80iFKpSMm
