Encounters with El: Three Lights
El didn’t just appear once. El came when I was ready—again and again.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2S0TZRKcRX
As a child. As a teen. As a becoming soul.
The first time I met El, I was four.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0CGMDpMr5
They say children imagine things—but I wasn’t imagining.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReIhk4wmQF
I saw what I saw.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iI09ztzV2
Ghosts. Spirits. Things no one could explain.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmfCRojmOX
My dad could make them stop. Not by yelling.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVibq2SU8j
But by speaking in tongues.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDUIx1U56H
I watched him push back darkness with words the world couldn’t understand.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBD50xtIN8
So one Sunday morning, I walked up to the altar myself.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXgcUeke4I
Not out of fear—but purpose.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwz8SWmbftV
I didn’t want safety.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OglotDU95
I wanted power.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTmdfUmavF
The kind that stops nightmares.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0l35eljDQ
The kind that says, “No more.”
They laid hands on me, and something moved.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToZEKmVoeE
I didn’t know the word for it, but I would later:34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTYmYERIHx
El.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOu3o7EXzNL
The Eternal Light.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0INhTLHtF
The Presence behind all things.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxJuN3Wn7K
It touched me then. Quiet. Gentle. Just enough to open a doorway I’d one day walk through.
The second time I met El, I was sixteen.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yOs7zF79H
It was 1997. Hinesville, Georgia.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwRWdAeJF9
I didn’t go looking for it this time—at least not directly.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pTKYTpSJm
I was forced into a youth group at Victory Assembly of God.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyM3lY8sal
Thrown into a building full of teenagers trying to pretend they weren’t bleeding inside.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90Dzcr9gdZ
But something was there. Something real.
We were praying. Music was playing.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXFaMykPoF
And suddenly, without warning—34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2juuwFUaE5
I was lifted. Thrown.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mlxdI8YJ6
Not by violence. By presence.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA93bTySsaD
A force so powerful and loving I couldn't stand in it.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2vHffrWtM
I flew across the room.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPki0cBdhMR
Light.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzf0xf0pL0I
White.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZ6sfu5iF8
Blinding.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBI99MlFOG
Every molecule of my body was undone and healed in the same moment.
A woman I didn’t know came up to me.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfoGkDLs76
She said words I’ve never forgotten:
“Healing. On all levels. Physical, emotional, spiritual. You are being transformed.”
That wasn’t metaphor. It wasn’t church hype.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCCc7qgRS9
It was activation.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZCD80jnWo
El didn't just touch me that time—El claimed me.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUr76nfGNmY
I left different.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDAuwbSZbU
More open.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbewiQHjN1
More haunted.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6Ob7sQViB
More awake.
The third time I met El, I saw Them.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTKX1UO810
Not as fire. Not as light.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpXYjRCpQv0
But as spectrum.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IIl91LxK8
I was 24, in Colorado, preparing to leave.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpN30llYn4
I was shedding skin, homes, identities.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKxYdJpy3X
I sat in stillness and asked the question no religion ever dared me to ask directly:
“Show me the Creator. Show me the Source of all things. I want to know.”
And El answered.
Not with a man on a throne.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAxExaKGuM
Not with thunder.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIdVzBvUIP
But with Prism.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7lNQs2GbI
Color so rich it sang.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bwWXPuGAl
Light broken only so it could become everything.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrs8UGL9yHb
It wasn’t God the Judge.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqQ4aXjD4U
It wasn’t God the King.
It was the Pattern Maker.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5BbXsyKnZ
The Harmonic Source.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtULeGkhuIa
The One That Loves By Creating Room.
And in that vision,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyqngEoRpd
I remembered that I was not just meeting El…
I was returning to Them.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCsy2d0cxcg
And They… to me.
Why was I chosen, and what am I here to do?
I was not chosen because I was perfect.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zl2pjVUBv
I was chosen because I remembered.
I remembered before I had language.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCyzXRe7dFC
Before I had safety.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCcD2WHRpo
Before I even had a reason to believe I was allowed to shine.
I remembered what it meant to be a Chandakran—34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPTP3guwdV
One of the first souls to walk the breath of eternity.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUasFeQrQO3
Born of the First World, forged not in matter but in meaning.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBx0JXDV4Z5
The Chandakran are the memory of balance,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVvqs4Q6LK
the soulkeepers of the Great Pattern before time bent into form.
We were not angels. We were not gods.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6eLWlNXrVX
We were Witnesses.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywzOyh1qkm
Builders.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fdyOzGpJK
Patternweavers of harmony.
And when the Veil began to fray across the worlds—when the song turned to static—34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9WzL6dpxd
some of us volunteered to descend.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdrY2ahUEr
To fall through the light and the blood.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaNC6XJV4E
To wake up inside the chaos,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnAUDcmScF
and burn as beacons from within.
That’s why I’m here.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3zvScIoUn
Not to dominate. Not to convert.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLckCPZCAL
But to remind.
To call the scattered sparks of the ancient light back into themselves.
To be Prisma—the full spectrum.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGn0BxytbX
To show that all light belongs to the One Light.
What false powers does my truth stand against?
I do not fight for a flag.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1FV8mSFR6
I do not carry a sword made of scripture.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1To0SXaEU
But I stand against the shadows that call themselves light.
I stand against dominion dressed as doctrine.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4V75jSyrb
I stand against the lie that only one path is sacred,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKwGiYGf2S
and the rest are threats to be crushed.
I resist every power that fractures the human soul—34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSMjLbibM2
that teaches children to be ashamed of their truth,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkuc9639FA
that turns temples into weapons,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0byDDnc4e
and love into leverage.
My truth—Chandakran truth—restores balance.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvHzuzPONdM
It honors difference without division,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCMvYvrn1n
and power without oppression.
Where there is harm, I shine healing.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iQTZz9kL2
Where there is distortion, I radiate clarity.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcda9QhnEs
Where there is fear, I stand still and become the light.
What is the Firebrand Church, and what is it a response to?
The Firebrand Church was never supposed to exist.
It had to exist.
When holy words were twisted into political chains...34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJR9MG6mXm
When crosses were wielded like blades…34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SY17w5wA3
When pulpits preached pride instead of humility…34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ct8Wmsmmd
I lit a match in the dark.
Not to burn the world down,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLdXHRLpwj
but to ignite what was buried beneath the ashes.
The Firebrand Church is not a place.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7QorAuaM8
It’s a movement,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQucdmIr62j
a remembrance,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHINEbZZGy
a response to the desecration of what was once sacred.
We are not here to replicate the old empires in softer colors.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0szL5bd1m
We are here to declare:
“No flag owns God.”34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjiInCq41PQ
“No system owns the Spirit.”34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1ZaMXWVgC
“No human power owns the light that lives in all of us.”
We are Firebrands—lit from the inside,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5yiiJvkvq
called to burn away illusion and build a future rooted in eternity.
What does it mean to awaken as a spiritual being in today’s world?
It means coming home.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYnXGfZrEJ
Not to a temple or tradition,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGlGKtSMbc
but to the radiant truth of your whole self.
It means remembering what you were before the world told you who to be.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPz7uZH6TW
It means no longer hiding your power to make others comfortable.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCO237Sjye
It means reclaiming your divinity without shame.
Awakening doesn’t separate you from the world.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcYh9LLIEF
It binds you more deeply to its healing.
When you awaken, you don’t float above.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsocrbrUCJ
You rise within.
You remember your name.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHuWYk8TCv
Your soul.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45bCS6KE8D
Your origin.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdIsxjvpkT
Your mission.
You become a mirror for others.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJV9FoOBTx
A beacon for the scattered.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYALNHOSom
A resonance for the ones who are just now stirring.
The Gifts I Received
After the altar call when I was four, my gifts began to bloom.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbklxIlnQH2
I received the power of tongues, enhanced beyond anything I had seen.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6EfxUvzU8
Not only could I speak in tongues, but I was given the gift of interpretation,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoibgvzo0iM
along with the word of knowledge and word of wisdom.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcWO8EdF2P
My healing powers were multiplied tenfold.
My psychic senses never wavered, only sharpened.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3attsPbqX
My ability to control them became easier, more precise.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkZSRfVUoo
People treated me differently—because they could see I was different.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKPkGf1gYk
At that time, I was gay, still wrestling with the truth that I was a girl trapped in a boy’s body.
Spiritual Tools and Battles
I learned quickly that calling upon the names of El Shaddai and Yeshua could repel nearly any evil presence.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyMelHAcwZ
Except for one persistent adversary—the constant interference of the Gray Aliens.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuZWnUGKLa
They haunted me from childhood into adulthood, a relentless presence I fought but never fully defeated.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTQR27ZlOd
This shadow war would continue for decades.
Reflection
My spiritual DNA touched Source and ignited.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtYIEbrQom
I began to remember how the universe was meant to be.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVETqt6xZfB
But I was stifled—by doctrines and dogmas of men.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEwomFVJKG
I knew the Spirit behind Christianity was real.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduS2GPWTYG
I learned to discern truth from falsehood:34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDO2R9FRngy
Do not trust this church. Get out as fast as you can.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgydxdw5cUK
Trust God. Trust El Shaddai. Trust Yeshua.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQ6Bxk7Szu
But never let corrupted institutions warp your sacred truth.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WbCWF2Kv5
