「我該做的是什麼呢?為了甚麼活著呢?」148Please respect copyright.PENANAJJrgDJBHFs
指引前路的月光,被雲霧所壟罩148Please respect copyright.PENANAGmG3YzjgPu
看不清自己的內心,看不清自己的前路148Please respect copyright.PENANAYrOnqOqHXO
「阿...要是自己不存在就好了。」148Please respect copyright.PENANAPeS2DzRAzR
經過短暫的話語,夜晚恢復寂靜。148Please respect copyright.PENANAtQgQrwtcbc
太陽又一次升起,將我喚醒的不是清澈的鳥叫聲更不是夏禪的鳴叫148Please respect copyright.PENANAHJF5wQqqIk
這不僅是因為現在根本不是夏天,更是因為我所在的地區已不在適合那些大自然生存了148Please respect copyright.PENANA9owlt4HiKx
喚醒我的僅僅是母親的呼叫148Please respect copyright.PENANAvg1eObkLPK
命令一般的叫我下樓去吃早飯148Please respect copyright.PENANAtoX0z181X8
拿起手機看了看日期148Please respect copyright.PENANAsL4Tp7g0hX
今天是2月28日148Please respect copyright.PENANA1PgglszdAZ
於是我換上了運動服148Please respect copyright.PENANAbLTxp1ovGa
僅有在有體育課的日子我才會穿上運動服148Please respect copyright.PENANAcLXMl7RMwd
對平常都穿著制服的我來說今天是特別的日子148Please respect copyright.PENANAX7HWdrizYM
我喜歡穿制服,僅僅是因為那樣更加貼近我的理想。148Please respect copyright.PENANA2yRiS8InBF
完食後我便朝著離家僅有百米遠的學校前進148Please respect copyright.PENANAOUntcvajBT
每次在路上我都感到強烈的不適應148Please respect copyright.PENANAjtKGYyvwil
那是一種讓我認為到自己不應該在這世上、不應該與大家過著同樣生活的感受148Please respect copyright.PENANAHjyhaHCkQk
「我為什麼在這裡?」多次向自己提出疑問148Please respect copyright.PENANAzwP14V59hX
在旁人看來大概只是些中二病的幻想148Please respect copyright.PENANAQWiCU8wxbO
但對我來說卻是切切實實的真實,但現實也是種幻想148Please respect copyright.PENANAHURUSN6ND6
那麼 那種感覺究竟是什麼?我不知道148Please respect copyright.PENANAAIVNR6Zn9c
就這樣抱著疑問又過了重複的一天148Please respect copyright.PENANA00NxOvolFm
回到房間便一如往常地開始了線上遊戲148Please respect copyright.PENANAnpm7FhEbVd
那長52公分寬33公分的方框不單是螢幕也是通往異世界、理想世界的大門148Please respect copyright.PENANACl1xNSOwTM
在那裏我扮演著自己的理想的148Please respect copyright.PENANAhKJDjN0Tlh
不僅受人喜愛又健談扮演著吉祥物般的角色148Please respect copyright.PENANAJCO72xZYmd
對我來說那便是理想148Please respect copyright.PENANAup2wuYiRAl
一個受到所有人的青睞又不招人忌妒的角色148Please respect copyright.PENANAYLPJo4HWpT
但那卻難以維持,自己對周遭越來越恐懼148Please respect copyright.PENANAca8cxAUudJ
對每個人都開始了嫉妒與猜疑,害怕著自己那面具被扯下,醜陋的臉龐被看見148Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZS24jXdst
理想如同刀子一般刺進我心148Please respect copyright.PENANAMWt2wddpXF
恐懼、開心、懷疑、痛苦等等情緒開始充斥於我自身148Please respect copyright.PENANA4q6H4rgnrA
與自己原本的理想完全相反,簡直像是第二個地獄一般148Please respect copyright.PENANA1GYilYkzL3
「阿......完了...」內心深處響起了這麼一句話148Please respect copyright.PENANAO7HiiqH2fx
太陽再次升起,沒錯祂又升起了,像是在嘲笑我一般。148Please respect copyright.PENANAxzQv9SVcBC
2月29日,今天也是特別的日子呢,不是對我而是對世界來說148Please respect copyright.PENANAuC4BUfshnN
學校-人間煉獄,為了朝向理想的我穿著制服,坐在角落的我因為陰沉的個性與他人毫無交流148Please respect copyright.PENANAIpmTYrqE4V
與那些在上下課期間都活躍的人們活在不同世界的我暗自嘆息148Please respect copyright.PENANANAx0MRGPIV
「跟理想完全不同呢。」148Please respect copyright.PENANASkCeJCoEls
今天我因為有想看的書而來到圖書館148Please respect copyright.PENANAaRsJAIxetO
我喜歡圖書館148Please respect copyright.PENANAWaAfiXBdO5
因為這裡的安靜讓我就像融入環境般148Please respect copyright.PENANAV1PZ8VTTyQ
異物感減少了、減少了、減少了?148Please respect copyright.PENANA8TuCqCzDsg
難道我這種人也能有這樣的歸屬嗎?148Please respect copyright.PENANAB7iICvYlqf
找到了、找到了、找到了?148Please respect copyright.PENANAdsITa2psu4
找到我想看的書了,將它從書櫃中抽出148Please respect copyright.PENANAtQzpoUE2tS
像是將它從它的歸屬中抽離一般148Please respect copyright.PENANA7399LrTf4M
這種行為讓我露出了笑容148Please respect copyright.PENANAteBBmwOZeJ
不自覺的毫不刻意的自然的笑容148Please respect copyright.PENANAhWvshEItk0
當下的我完全沒有發現自己的表情不同以往的扭曲起來148Please respect copyright.PENANAazomc5GKnU
(阿,這麼說來是從那時候開始的阿148Please respect copyright.PENANAHSGccmXg10
小時候看見野獸獵食的樣子那血肉模糊的樣子148Please respect copyright.PENANAJhgTjbyEto
我似乎迷上了那種血腥148Please respect copyright.PENANAs0mj3XtMtC
那種單方面的暴虐之類的)148Please respect copyright.PENANAwbA9GScsHo
將書拿出後突然無法好好站穩148Please respect copyright.PENANAUMQkI03n5L
眼前一黑148Please respect copyright.PENANAyNq7FRBVYv
要是就這麼倒下我便會打破這寧靜吧148Please respect copyright.PENANAGeL4qOACXf
好不容易站穩後卻因強光無法睜開眼148Please respect copyright.PENANAU53YsUTvfD
強光...?148Please respect copyright.PENANA3p3Zcr1JhM
這圖書館哪會有什麼強光?難道是在醫院?不對,我還站著。148Please respect copyright.PENANATFpFC7TBWP
眼睛終於稍微適應了亮光148Please respect copyright.PENANA2z9Z1e8vut
睜開眼看見開闊的草原148Please respect copyright.PENANA9DN8xpyrpm
草原?148Please respect copyright.PENANADVg7PmJXUm
我的腦袋開始思考著無數可能148Please respect copyright.PENANAwE44N8jDsh
幻覺...?難道我終於瘋了嗎?還是說...異世界...?那個我曾多次幻想的事發生了嗎?148Please respect copyright.PENANAaTxIFah92o
回過神來我發現自己正在笑著148Please respect copyright.PENANAV3Y26vOM6C
笑?148Please respect copyright.PENANAVbwPJJYxTG
是因為困惑?無法理解?發狂?欣喜?148Please respect copyright.PENANArxjnbtpxET
狂笑著148Please respect copyright.PENANA3MLA5C3r7J
打從生下來第一次的148Please respect copyright.PENANAOP8bYJmYfO
扭曲的狂笑148Please respect copyright.PENANAIr76Zji5nS
醜陋的狂笑148Please respect copyright.PENANADg8IE05V9x
像個小丑一般舞蹈著148Please respect copyright.PENANAYj29haBrVl
純白的毛球向我撲來148Please respect copyright.PENANA4x3qXLIHKq
聽見了空氣被切割的聲音148Please respect copyright.PENANAhwf4fieMP8
純白的毛球消失了,低下頭朝草地看去148Please respect copyright.PENANAOuV5rme6YI
那潔白的身軀已經染上鮮豔的紅色148Please respect copyright.PENANAbZgVugJ2l2
右手感到重量,看向自己的手148Please respect copyright.PENANASeLjakIC7Y
手裡握著的是染上日落般鮮紅的太刀148Please respect copyright.PENANAOenn9Peqkq
又來了,又笑了148Please respect copyright.PENANA4DEmmuWkBB
笑了、笑了、笑了?148Please respect copyright.PENANAdQfjFV5MJS
止不住的瘋狂,對生命的褻瀆148Please respect copyright.PENANAEiN7wvp7S1
「阿哈哈...阿哈哈哈哈哈----------」148Please respect copyright.PENANAeKESVMmI0f
「同學,在圖書館請保持安靜」148Please respect copyright.PENANAnYeh6QipvV
剛才的狂氣已蕩然無存148Please respect copyright.PENANAhvPodsyzwS
「對...對不起」我向他低頭道歉後便安靜地朝櫃台走去148Please respect copyright.PENANAST6o9CeeAP
我本來就是為了借書而來148Please respect copyright.PENANADJc2WL7iiy
剛才看見的一切讓我再一次認為自己已然不正常
看到眼前被一分為二的生物148Please respect copyright.PENANACnPZVIEnKg
血液四散、內臟也散落一地148Please respect copyright.PENANAjW0CUJwEUI
為甚麼我的心情這麼的愉悅?我不知道148Please respect copyright.PENANA7AvxySExA4
看著手中的太刀感到非常熟悉148Please respect copyright.PENANAmFhdIXitb2
與我在遊戲中所使用的武器一模一樣148Please respect copyright.PENANAtNt1Y82duz
我仍穿著高中制服148Please respect copyright.PENANAY7X82VxDNB
但步伐變得輕盈148Please respect copyright.PENANA4Fo9X5FPrH
先前揮出的一刀也如反射動作一般
我仍身處於那幻覺世界148Please respect copyright.PENANAkPlGFEiKo8
走在草原上與一群人相遇148Please respect copyright.PENANAA2W2HTwfgZ
他們似乎是打算在此紮營的旅行商人148Please respect copyright.PENANAqVkIjH9g6o
他們對於我的打扮毫不意外148Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0XI34OIQ4
說是最近很流行這種穿搭
四周充斥著慘叫148Please respect copyright.PENANAK6criwXOzC
嘈雜。148Please respect copyright.PENANATvGVG3GWr3
好討厭阿,好吵阿148Please respect copyright.PENANAA6YUL1Ptgl
「妳...妳到底是甚麼人!為甚麼要做這種事!」148Please respect copyright.PENANA4ufHOsYyDQ
這是在向我提問嗎?我不知道148Please respect copyright.PENANAPr7g1rUbLy
微弱的月光透過帳篷的縫隙148Please respect copyright.PENANASp3nya0GPk
一名少女獨自站著?148Please respect copyright.PENANAHlhSjjVvfU
靜謐。148Please respect copyright.PENANAt1RslD5OLm
不再有人發問148Please respect copyright.PENANAi8fA6IG7Nk
看見再一次被染上鮮血的刀148Please respect copyright.PENANAHgQlnLIrgT
看見自己的笑容148Please respect copyright.PENANAZMntdoD6fR
看見了人類的頭顱148Please respect copyright.PENANAeAgPydU6BQ
看見了148Please respect copyright.PENANA2N5gOjZvUI
自己的內心...?
太陽又一次升起,宛如詛咒一般148Please respect copyright.PENANATYIx1yK228
奇怪的夢境148Please respect copyright.PENANAAKWFRJ8LBp
我果然是瘋了吧148Please respect copyright.PENANAcj1pqT1YNp
但我再怎麼瘋狂148Please respect copyright.PENANAjGjbCIJ3ox
應該也不會去殺人148Please respect copyright.PENANA8leOJfSXFD
雖說我曾想過自殺,但一次對他人下手的想法也沒有148Please respect copyright.PENANAtCWicW7rbJ
夢中的我在笑148Please respect copyright.PENANAppIWI7kA3U
難道我的未來是那種樣子的嗎?我不知道148Please respect copyright.PENANA6yZie4e8d7
抱持著疑問又過了重複的一天?
早晨的新聞上寫著148Please respect copyright.PENANAAI7H4eIeIR
「2月2日」148Please respect copyright.PENANAGfERcOpwi2